Hornet… doesn’t understand why she’s laughing. It was a genuine question, and the longer she goes on, the more embarrassed Hornet feels. Did she really misinterpret the situation so poorly? But… there’s nothing else she can think of…
It’s only when the moth explains herself, albeit vaguely, that Hornet truly does begin to understand. To rot inside an empty mind… But… that doesn’t make sense. That can’t make sense- the Infection isn’t a person, it’s- it’s just a disease, isn’t it? An infection. A condition that rots your mind and leaves you as nothing more than a burning, empty shell of a bug… Something so horrible, something… something Hornet now knows the sensation of. Something she’d tried to forget, wanted very desperately to forget- How does one just forget? How could she ever forget? Even now, she swears she can feel it again, that burning pain that eats you up from the inside, the horrible feeling of being watched that can only fade with death or the Infection consuming you completely, it’s-
“I…” Hornet is entirely lost for words. “Y- you were… Do you even know what you’ve done?” Her voice sounds calm, somehow, despite all the intense feelings brewing inside her. “My… I lost my mother because of you. I lost my entire family because of you. My entire species left the kingdom, left me behind, because of you. Bugs everywhere have been divided for years, decades because of you. All for- what? A petty argument between monarchs? Between gods? This is why I renounced such a status, because I was disgusted by my fathers actions, by his aloofness as a god, and now I find none of you are any better! You’ve destroyed a world! You’ve destroyed families and countless other relationships because two bugs who think they’re too fucking important for everyone else couldn’t decide who was more important! You-! Y- you…” By now, Hornet was shouting, and she’d found herself again at a loss for words. She stares at the sidewalk, dumbfounded. “Did you even stop to consider the damage you’d caused? Even for a second? Did you ever stop to wonder if any of this was ever worth it? Or were you too blindsided by your own perceived gloriousness to even consider that you’re anywhere less than perfect?”
The word spoken was harsh, filled with cold undertones.
“Do you even know what he took from me? Do you know why the moths are all gone? Do you truly think it was simply because of a desire for glory that I acted out? Before those lands were Hallownest, they belonged to me-- to all the moths. I cared for them, and they loved me. And he... stole all of that.” She paused. “Do you really think causing all of this was my intent, anyways? It wasn’t.“
She didn’t regret what she had done, no. But it was true that the infection hadn’t exactly been planned. It had just... been born from her anger, her rage that she had been hurt and abandoned in such a way. Even now, a fire still burned within her, preventing her from feeling much of anything towards the bug standing before her-- except for pity, perhaps. It must have been truly awful to have a father with no sense of compassion towards anything or anyone, and a mother who was dumb enough to follow the wyrm’s frankly ridiculous plan in the first place. Still, she didn’t see it as her fault that the beast had been foolish enough to go through with it.
“They forgot about me, because of him. All of them. Because of what he took from me. And under his rule, they all died. And he never even told you that I once existed. Never told you what had caused such a thing to spawn in his precious kingdom. Never told you that he sat on a stolen throne.” She spat once more.
“I am sorry about your mother, about your family,” She finally admitted, allowing herself to soften her rage for a mere moment. “But your father... he deserved everything that happened to him. For that reason, I cannot say I regret it.”