Weekend Warrior

My words. My thoughts.

[theheroandtheterror]

The best gift of all.... Time. #time #friends #family #life #gifts #holidayseason https://www.instagram.com/p/B55_LIPgoEy/?igshid=1xjm8isgz8kq1

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It's hard to feel today because the rain will go from a light sprinkle to a full storm. The floods will come and there will be no stopping it. All I have to do is wait it out.

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Aftermath

You might find yourself in a traumatic time in your life some day. You'll think the worst is over now. The storm has passed and all is settling to a whisper. This moment of time is the eye of the storm. Maybe something will set you off. You won't know what or when but you anticipate that it'll be a surprise. It could be the most subtle thing you could've imagined. Maybe it'll be a few words from a stranger or a friend. Maybe it'll be a picture. The wind might blow a different direction one day and the breeze will go from feeling comforting and smooth to razorblades. You might even keep crying well after the tears have run out and you'll wonder when it'll stop. Breathe. It'll pass. Breathe slow and steady and know that you can make the gates of hell tremble because you're not giving up.

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Tears for the night.

My heart sounds like thunder. The tears fall like rain but there's no calm to this storm. I'm so filled with wonder because I don't know whats next. There's no end to this cold veil of fear and I feel it knocking. I don't want to answer. It's has to feel better to live this vow of silence. Every spoken word gives credit that my father was taken. If my faith is less than a mustard seed, do I give up now? Do I even still believe? If I've lost my anchor then I'm lost at sea. Drifting aimless because everyone's lost their grip on me. I hope that death hasn't made me faithless but I still pray for peace.

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Bright lights can see They always shine right through me Leaving me an open book Of halfways and could-have-beens Taking us to the end And that summer changed us It's best i admit that to myself Stuck trapped in memories The tragic tale of you and me Can't get back to the way we were Nothing else mattered It was us against the world Now it's just me #NowPlaying Partners In Crime by Comeback Kid

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I think too many people focus on the labels and forget what we all are. We're all human. #labels #human

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Someone wrote a song about how I feel these days. "Take me back to younger dreams When times were easy and we believed Take me back to revive my memory I'm digging deep but I am scared that I have lost My younger dreams Sick and tired of just trying to survive I've forgotten how it feels to be alive I can only hope that I'm remembered by The fearless heart that I once had inside"

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Throwing the blame.

I see all of this stuff on the internet blaming religion for everything and I’m over here like....why isn’t human nature to blame? It’s too easy for so many people to blame labels or objects for the ill will out there. It’s safer to say that something is to blame more than someone. To point out the flaws in others tends to point out the flaws that are within ourselves. It’s the rug’s fault, not the dirt we swept underneath it...rather our faults for hiding the dirt. I’m still going to believe in God, and everyone can be free to believe what they want. I’m just saying blame the real culprits, which is us. 

[theheroandtheterror]

"It starts with me. What choice do I have? But to force my own hand."

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This song always hit me from the first time I heard it. I found it playing during the best times and the worst. I like to share it every so often. #embodyment #onelessaddiction #thenarrowscopeofthings

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Do you even Hamber Helper bro? I do. #hambergerhelper #dinner #beefstroganoff

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"They spit in His face and they mocked Him and all He said was Father forgive them." #god #nails #Jesus #sacrifice

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Know the God to whom I pray There'll be a time Im took away Either way I'm done for Just remember What I loved for When I'm dead will my children say? "My father had a destiny he fought to taste it Now because of him I will rise and say I'm part of a dynasty that won't be wasted"

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I was very happy to hang out with this girl over the weekend. #cutecouple #babe #babealert #longhair #beautiful

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Someone should talk to this mannequin's parents. #mannequin #forever21

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Kids these days don't know nothin' about this. #mchammer #pleasehammerdonthurtthem #90skid #cassettetape

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Me and my lady were being hipsters at Barnes and Noble. Super pretty even when she's chillin. #barnesandnoble #hipster #babe