Surrendering to my mind

A place to put up my rants and depression so it stops flooding my main. Main: Greed713 header and profile picture are mine.

[thehostandthefarewell]

Gods I'm so tired.

[gokucat]

feeding her stuffie must live on....

[thehostandthefarewell]

No no no...

You were doing so well, why do you miss them now? Fuck.

Stop missing them, things are over. You deleted all the pictures they sent for a reason you shit, why are you looking for them?

Fuck

[thehostandthefarewell]

Everything is all very loud. I'm so very tired.

[thehostandthefarewell]

I'm falling apart. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically. I can't keep going like this. I want a break from everything, but I can't afford to. I want to stop giving 200% at the things I do, but I can't afford to. I want to make content again, but I'm so upset with how my body looks that I just don't and I haven't had a break to go do the things I need to do to fix that issue.

Waking up is becoming too much. Existing is becoming too much. Can't I just pause everything for a while and reset, get to where I need and want to be and then continue, knowing that everything will be okay?

I'm just so tired. I just want to rest. I just want to be held again and told things will be okay.

Fuck.

[thehostandthefarewell]

When I dream of you,

Do you see me too?

Do I share my dreams with those I see?

Or am I all alone in my unconscious mind?

Maybe I'll never know.

But gods, sometimes I wish I did.

[thehostandthefarewell]

Am I really so stressed out about everything that nothing is enjoyable anymore? Is it getting this bad again? I thought I was doing better. I thought I was handling the stress well. Was I just bottling it so no one would get worried?

Maybe I'll make a vent art tomorrow.

Maybe I just need sleep.

Maybe I should be taking care of myself more.

I'm really tired.

[thehostandthefarewell]

I'm so tired

[thehostandthefarewell]

I miss you

[midnightportals]

Who am I kidding, you will always have my heart.

[midnightportals]

How many more lessons am I supposed to learn? I can’t take this anymore.

[thehostandthefarewell]

I can feel my brqin starting to spiral out.

Everything that was once enjoyable is right now no longer enjoyable.

I feel the walls going up.

[itchy-arms]

[thehostandthefarewell]

I don't even remember your voice anymore. And I don't know if that's a good thing or not.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— rhythmicrhinoceros

[emotionalwords]

i'm fighting shit in my head everyday that nobody knows about, and it's draining me emotionally and mentally

[quoteastic]

If I ever tell you about my past, it's never because I want you to feel sorry for me, but so you can understand why I am who I am.