Engineering Elliott @thejottsoflotts - Tumblr Blog

not to sound like an early 2000s pop punk band, but I need to get out of this town

Well. Hang on. No. I'm glad I met you last year...

you….changed me… somewhat I guess for the better. Because you opened up a whole new world of concepts and experiences and things that I never even considered. Until you came along. You made me learn things I never even knew about myself as a person and what I can be capable of. Of caring entirely. Of protecting those that mean the most. Of fear and what its like to be scared. Of pain. And Love and how to be human. Cant forget that. Possibly never will. Yet at the same time, you taught me people can be horrible, liars, uncaring and just negative towards one’s health, despite how amazing you made me feel. So, i guess I’m both glad and sad i met you? Buggered if I bloody know.

thejottsoflotts

I had to go a long way back to find a post even somewhat relevant, to reflect, years on since 2011 and meeting you and everything that happened in those 10 months of talking, late night calls and I love yous. But it only seemed the right thing to do, especially when I blanked out for the entirety of the second half of a matildas match, because someone from school sent me a post saying you'd died.

And I think it's healthy to reflect.

I know at the time of posting I was unsure if I was glad I met you or not. I don't think how I feel about meeting you and the shit that happened, happened anymore matters. Sure it derailed me, but I'm still alive and thats what matters most.

You absolutely changed me, and definitely for the better. I opened my heart to new possibilities, particularly in finding acceptance in myself to liking girls and not boys. i started learning what love is and quickly learnt what love is not. I learnt that I should be careful with my trust and opening up to people, though even now I'm still warm hearted and give my trust to people from the get go, until they give me a reason not to trust them. Because the world needs a little bit of good in it. Because you never know what battles people are fighting. I don't know what happened and until the coroner's report goes up online (if ever) I won't know. But what I do know is that while it's shit what you put me through, I've become a better, stronger person for it and I wouldn't be the person I am now without it.

cinemascientist

I love the fact that Mama Bridgerton heard Benedict say the word "love" and LOCKED. THE FUCK. IN.

tearsinmytreebarkeyes

I love it when trans actors play trans characters because they do it perfectly (of course). And when they get to play a romantic lead, I’m going bonkers.

I’m talking about Misia Butler as Caeneus in Kaos, on Netflix, he did it perfectly.

And the series did it amazingly. HIS MUM, it’s perfect. Love this guy

isthemicon

Kaos on Netflix is a bit as if someone who loved Percy Jackson growing up was told they are too old to like it so they took their love for it and combined it with Succession while listening to Hadestown soundtrack and watching Romeo + Juliet by Baz Luhrmann

king-nyx

Dionysus instantly falling for Ariadne is a 10/10 characterisation. Thank you for bringing out what a true simp he is

rooksilver

so youre telling me. theres an adaptation of orpheus and eurydice. where eurydice was falling out of love with orpheus before her death but didnt know how to tell him, and when he walks into the underworld to get her back, shes forced to confess that she planned to leave him?? and shes the one to ask him to look back, but he doesn’t want to, because he knows she isn’t coming with him??? youre telling me that when he finally looks back, he does lose her, but only because he’s letting go??? you’re telling me its about grief? about drifting apart?? about moving on??? about love, and how its messy, and how sometimes it just doesn’t work out even if you go to hell and back for it, because we’re human and thats our tragedy????

you’re telling me netflix CANCELLED it?

spacehomos

Kaos

The Gods

withmatchingscars

violet really is the realest bc she's the only one brave enough to say "what if you get one of the million girls you're fucking pregnant you whore" to her son

ahighlyfunctionalfangirl

Sophie: sir I'm at work could you please leave

Benedict leaving his own house: shit. Yes. You're right. Sorry. My bad. Please love me

remarkableblue

Violet "get undressed" Bridgerton, if you can tell a man he is having you for tea, you can explain sex to your daughters.

hypothetipolls

When was the last time you were (not platonically) physically intimate with someone?

Last 24 hours

Last month

Within the last half year

6 months to 1 year

2 years

5 years

10 years

10+ years

I have never been physically intimate with someone, but want/have wanted to be

Never have, and don’t want/haven’t wanted that

Voting ended onFeb 9

hypothetipolls

If you were a natural disaster, what would you be?

Hurricane

Famine

Volcanic Eruption

Landslide

Tsunami

Earthquake

Tornado

Wildfire

Flood

Drought

Epidemic

Other

Voting ended onFeb 13

callmefirefly

My reaction to Benedict talking to Sophie at the end of episode 4:

“If you wish me to leave, I will. But the truth is, I stay away because you consume me. My eyes search for you in every room I enter. My heart beats when you are near. The reality of you has become more tantalising than any fantasy could be, and one I cannot live without. I meant it when I said you deserve better, and I am determined to give it to you and more. Sophie..”

“Be my mistress.”

drtrinitysantos

"if being hard on yourself was going to work it would have worked by now" okay well being soft on myself isn't working either so what the fuck is left. medium? I gotta be medium with myself? I gotta ask the fucking ghosts for help? is that it?