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[thekristen999]

Newest:

Fight In the Shadows  33k

The 118 are summoned to a distant location in the desert, become trapped, have to fight for their lives, and Buck and Eddie finally realize they've been pining for each other for years. Now, if they can all make it out alive.

A Light in the Darkness 1k 

Post-apocalyptic vibes, future fic.

Whose Attention? 6k 

Tommy didn’t spend days chasing Buck. Or Tommy's pursuit of Eddie and the craziness that ensures whenever they're around his best friend.

Follow You Into The Dark

Buck kept a firm grip around Eddie’s arm as he was guided down hallways. They’d both experienced something like this before during the Academy: cadet’s exercises where both teammates were blindfolded and forced to depend on the other to escape burning buildings. This wasn’t unlike that experience, except of course this was real and Buck’s freaking eyes were swollen shut and Eddie was concussed and deaf.

(Or a serial arsonist terrorizes the city, plunging Buck and Eddie into a dangerous game of cat and mouse.)

Cutting The Ties That Bind -Complete Evan Buckley was a businessman, he had meetings and deadlines like everyone else.

Occasionally, he got threatened, but it was usually all hot air and ego. That all changed the day his breaks were tampered with. Enter Eddie Diaz, security specialist, who was not easily impressed by Buck’s expensive suits or financial conquests. That was okay. Buck enjoyed a challenge. AKA The Mafia AU.

bro·ken  

Summary: Forced to take shady side jobs to pay his bills, Evan Buckley doesn’t think he’s ever seen such rock bottom. Until he meets Eddie Diaz, a man even more desperate and alone. Season 3 AU. 

9-1-1/Buddie

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Healing/PTSD

Hold the Pain, Release Me   6k  Eddie is encouraged to explore art therapy.

Buddha's Arrow  4k. Buck helps Eddie navigate chronic pain.

Hand Covers Bruise  7k Eddie character study.

Are You With Me?  27k Eddie and Buck navigate a relationship post Eddie Begins.

Trying Hard to Remember, Trying Hard To Forget 25k Post shooting. Eddie and Buck shared a trauma, but undergo different healing paths. Struggles of recovery.

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Hurt/Comfort

A Light in the Darkness 1k Post-apocalyptic vibes 

Tick...Tick...Boom    4k. Call gone wrong.

Beside You In Time  2k Post shooting. Pain meds.

Stand By Me 2k  Post shooting. Missing scene. Hospitals

Nothing Burns Like The Cold 2k Buck and Eddie get trapped in a freezer. 

Crash Into You- 3k Eddie gets struck by lightening. Medic!Buck (written a year ago)

There Goes My Hero, He's Ordinary  7k Post Eddie Begins.  Medic!Buck. Near drowning/Hypothermia    

We're In This Together Now  5k Meth lab fic. Medic!Eddie

Alone In The Dark With You 14k  Buck and Eddie get trapped in a cave-in and things go from bad to worse. Medic!Eddie Medic!Buck

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Action/Adv or Drama

We’ve Got Fun & Games   7k The Team competes in local Amazing Race  Challenge. Hijinks ensue.

Misadventures In The Great Outdoors  8k Camping trip from hell. (Action Humor)

The World Is On Fire And No One Can Save Me But You  6k Eddie and Buck get caught in a riot.

The Shape Of Water 9k T.  How water has influenced Buck’s life. Backstory. Medic!Buck

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AU

We Found Each Other (Over There) 46k  Epic WWII AU.

Lost  5k  Alt ending to The Searchers. Christopher is not found right away.

Whatever It Takes To Find You  5k   Eddie Begins AU.  Buck is a Pararescue (PJ) specialist sent to rescue the downed chopper.

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9-1-1/Buddie Fic

H50/McDanno Fic

Daredevil Fic

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[thekristen999]

Just waving hi. With another update on my ongoing recovery from pppd.

I went to Michigan for the whole month of June to get away for my life in Buffalo. I was so stressed out and so worn out of dealing with this condition on my own that I just needed to get away now that I was semi-functional. My cousin lives in a very quiet neighborhood with lots of grass and birds and it was so such a stress-free environment that I finally got to get back to my sleeping schedule. Before I went to Michigan. I was only sleeping 1 to 2 hours a night for the last 6 months which was having a huge impact on my recovery.

I can watch TV now, read, talk to people, and Walk among busy streets. I'm working on acclimating to music so that I can go into stores. I can go into stores with headphones, sometimes with noise suppression sometimes without and as I continue to do that, I'm hoping to be able to go into stores without headphones by the end of the month and begin working on being able to go into restaurants.

I continue my vestibular therapy we have moved on to VR goggles where I am retraining my brain on how to deal with multiple stimulus at the same time so it doesn't get over stimulated with busy environments.

I finally feel semi-functional and still hope to be able to return to work in the fall. Starting part-time and hopefully working my way up to full-time. I will switch to focusing on the computer hopefully se sometime in August.

Hope everyone is well and I really wish I could actually participate in fandom, still hoping I'll be able to do that as I continue my progress

Hope everyone is doing well and having a great summer!.

[thekristen999]

As I continue my vestibular therapy I reward myself of two episodes of television at the end of the night.

I started watching the second half of the 911 season with no expectations and was very happily pleased with the first two episodes. Just a few random reactions. Also a reminder I'm using voice to text on my phone and not doing any editing.

. Love the the fire fam tension with Hen and reconciliation with and the rest of the 118.

Was not expecting the show to recognize bucks bisexuality and it was very pleasantly surprised. The montage of his two dates to nine inch nails cover of get down make love was perfection and very hot. Kudos of course for the song choice

Acknowledgment of Eddie's combat medic service. I've always wanted to write something about him dealing with a veteran and PTSD and this was a fairly decent Job of it

Also loving the trio of Ravi, Buck, Eddie and their friendship and clubbing.

[thekristen999]

I've also figured out the real meaning behind the title of the show The Pitt.

It obviously refers to the giant black hole that Robby finds himself in regarding his mental health. And if the producer said that he hasn't hit rock bottom yet I shudder to think what season 3 is going to be like.

[thekristen999]

After watching season 2 of the Pitt. I have determined that everyone on day shift needs counselling and therapy. Except maybe Whitaker. He seems to be doing okay but that's because he's only an R1 at this point. And Langdon already went through counseling.

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You're telling me there is Eddie wump in the season finale 911 and no one messaged me to encourage my poor brain to recover faster than it has been?

Come on. We know what motivates a whumper.

Heal faster. Heal faster. Heal faster

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I'm reposting my GoFundMe link. I still need some extra help if anyone has a few cents to spare. I'm still trying to gather money for just living expenses. The advanced vestibular therapy that's offered by the neurological institute here is not covered by insurance. So I had to pay $125 of visit for 12 visits. And I still have more to go..

I also had a meeting with my HR manager, my work has been so gracious covering all my healthcare deductions but they said I need to start paying it back because the sum is becoming quite large of over four grand.

Anything would be helpful. Even just a reblog.

I'm not really tagging anyone here so if you be so gracious and see this if you could reblock it I really appreciate it.

Onward and upward towards healing

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

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I want to thank everyone who's been spreading this GoFundMe request. It has been greatly appreciated. I did more neurological testing today and will hopefully have a better idea of what's going on on Thursday and a little bit more of a detailed treatment plan. The doctor seem fairly optimistic so I am going to keep the positive vibes going.

Gosh I miss watching television or reading or doing anything. I have no idea what's going on half the time and usually find out weeks later. Really hope fun things are happening on 911 in the pit, but I don't want any spoilers but I'm counting down the days in which I can start watching those two shows again.

Love you guys.

[thekristen999]

I get some test results for my vestibular testing last week tomorrow afternoon. Please send positive vibes that I am finally going to get a decent treatment plan other than being a guinea pig for brain meds. I'm at the end of my rope here and I could really use some good news from the doctors with some actual outlines for things that will help me.

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I'm still using voice to text on my phone so I won't be reading or editing this post as I go.

Then realise it's been so long since I have updated this but to be honest I haven't felt well enough to do so.

The new anti-seizure medication that they gave me for my pppd vestibular issues did work. Or has been working. Of course this med wasn't without its complications like heart palpitations, heart racing in extreme extreme anxiety. I have never felt the type of anxiety that I have been dealing with for the last couple months like I have with this med. So of course they finally prescribed me anti-anxiety medication to counteract the side effects. And of course now I've only realised in the last few weeks that the anti-anxiety medication is very stimulating and is increasing my insomnia. So now they want to prescribe me asleep aid to counteract that medicine.

What a roller coaster ride. But I'm finally making progress. I finally feel like I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have been doing advanced vestibular therapy at a neurological institute twice a week and then everyday at home. I completed my first 6 weeks and then we were going to do another 6 weeks starting in June..

Now I have a semblance of a life like I posted somewhere else. I can talk to people for several hours, I can walk down busy streets, and I'm up to 50 minutes of television. I hope in the month of June that I will be able to watch TV fully at least 2 hours and be able to read and listen to music or at least music enough so that I can go into stores because it seems like everywhere plays music very loudly.

I'm dealing with a form sensory deprivation so I'm having to acclimate to everything now. The streets were too loud for me. People were too loud for me. Everything was too loud so I'm also working on that which is why it's taking so long

But I am hopeful by the end of the summer or the beginning of fall I'll return to normal. That's what the doctors are hoping for. Also, based on my progress. I want to thank everyone that has kept me in their thoughts and who have helped me along the way. This has been the most stressful and exhausting period of my life.

If anything, when I return back to my new life I am going to cherish every precious moment there is and try to spend as least amount of time in my apartment if I can. I hope everyone is having a good summer and I look forward to posting on here soon.

[thekristen999]

Hi Kristen!

I've been thinking about you this week and, while the lack of updates makes me fear the opposite, I hope you're doing okay! At the very least I hope you have some answers about what's happening and a direction to go in.

It didn't feel right to watch Buck and Eddie go through trauma in the desert without you <3 <3 <3

I just saw this Allison. I don't go on Tumblr very often. Thank you for reaching out. The meds are working in the therapy are working. Although it's a slog Fest. I'm able to talk to people now for a few hours at a time without getting dizzy or having any other symptoms. I can walk down busy streets now. And I'm up to 50 minutes of TV. I think in the next month we're going to work on music and noise so that I can go in the stores and then probably reading.

Buck and Eddie went through trauma in the desert?? That sounds delicious. Did we finally get a buck and Eddie wump episode???

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

ETA: Adding a PayPal option, if you have problems with the GoFundMe.

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[thekristen999]

Another boost with a PayPal option... many thanks to those that have reached out to me!

[thekristen999]

I want to thank everyone who's been spreading this GoFundMe request. It has been greatly appreciated. I did more neurological testing today and will hopefully have a better idea of what's going on on Thursday and a little bit more of a detailed treatment plan. The doctor seem fairly optimistic so I am going to keep the positive vibes going.

Gosh I miss watching television or reading or doing anything. I have no idea what's going on half the time and usually find out weeks later. Really hope fun things are happening on 911 in the pit, but I don't want any spoilers but I'm counting down the days in which I can start watching those two shows again.

Love you guys.

[thekristen999]

I get some test results for my vestibular testing last week tomorrow afternoon. Please send positive vibes that I am finally going to get a decent treatment plan other than being a guinea pig for brain meds. I'm at the end of my rope here and I could really use some good news from the doctors with some actual outlines for things that will help me.

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

ETA: Adding a PayPal option, if you have problems with the GoFundMe.

Paypal: please select personal and not goods and services.

paypal.me/kristen999213

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[thekristen999]

Another boost with a PayPal option... many thanks to those that have reached out to me!

[thekristen999]

I want to thank everyone who's been spreading this GoFundMe request. It has been greatly appreciated. I did more neurological testing today and will hopefully have a better idea of what's going on on Thursday and a little bit more of a detailed treatment plan. The doctor seem fairly optimistic so I am going to keep the positive vibes going.

Gosh I miss watching television or reading or doing anything. I have no idea what's going on half the time and usually find out weeks later. Really hope fun things are happening on 911 in the pit, but I don't want any spoilers but I'm counting down the days in which I can start watching those two shows again.

Love you guys.

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

ETA: Adding a PayPal option, if you have problems with the GoFundMe.

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[thekristen999]

Another boost with a PayPal option... many thanks to those that have reached out to me!

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

ETA: Adding a PayPal option, if you have problems with the GoFundMe.

Paypal: please select personal and not goods and services.

paypal.me/kristen999213

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@mellaithwen @exhuastedpigeon @spotsandsocks @thelikesofus

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@diazsdimples @racoonsa @ronordmann @andavs-main

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[thekristen999]

Another boost with a PayPal option... many thanks to those that have reached out to me!

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

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[thekristen999]

Another boost with a PayPal option... many thanks to those that have reached out to me!

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

ETA: Adding a PayPal option, if you have problems with the GoFundMe.

Paypal: please select personal and not goods and services.

paypal.me/kristen999213

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@mellaithwen @exhuastedpigeon @spotsandsocks @thelikesofus

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[thekristen999]

It’s been a while since I’ve been active on Tumblr. At the end of September, I was diagnosed with a severe case of vestibular vertigo. This is a type of dizziness that comes from a problem in the vestibular system—the part of the inner ear that controls balance and spatial awareness. Since then, I’ve been pretty confined to my apartment, as it’s challenging to walk more than a few blocks without getting dizzy or feeling like I’m on a rocking boat. There was one point when I couldn't even watch TV.

I’ve been in physical therapy since early October, and while I’ve made progress, I’m still out of work.

I’ve been caught in the rough waters of waiting for short-term disability to come through while still needing to pay bills, attend weekly PT sessions, and multiple doctor’s appointments. On top of that, I was recently diagnosed with sleep apnea, which has been incredibly frustrating. (I use to control this by side-sleeping but it no longer works for me)

I’m reluctant to post this, but I really need financial help. I haven’t been paid in six weeks, and with a high-deductible insurance plan, I’m literally paying hundreds of dollars in medical bills every couple of weeks. The CPAP machine alone costs is insane. Friends give me rides when they can, but I often have to rely on Uber to get to appointments. I’m burning through money quickly, and before I hit an empty well, I thought I’d put my hat out.

I always thought I was prepared for disaster, but after six weeks, it’s become a very scary reality that we’re all just one step away from catastrophe in our current healthcare system.

If I had family I could ask for help, I would, but my sister lives paycheck to paycheck.

If you’re able to spare something,

If you can’t, no worries. Maybe you could reblog this instead.

Thank you,

Kristen

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[thekristen999]

Reblogging for visibility! Thanks to anyone who has read or reblogged!

[thekristen999]

Hello!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile.

A friend of mine is posting this for me because I can't be on a computer at the moment. As many of you know, I've been dealing with a neurological problem since late September. It took me 3 months to see a neurologist -- that was in January -- and I finally had a treatment, which did not work. I'm on a second round of treatment, hoping for better results.

In the meantime, I'm about to run out of short-term disability at the end of March. My cousin has created a go fund me post in my behalf and what I would really appreciate is if you could share.

Thank you to those that can help and I understand if you cannot.

I miss you guys and I can't wait to be back on the site in the future.

Donate to Standing with Kristen Through Her Healing, organized by James Darga

Hello everyone, my name is Jim Darga and I am starting this fundraising effort o… James Darga needs your support for Standing with Kristen T

ETA: Adding a PayPal option, if you have problems with the GoFundMe.

Paypal: please select personal and not goods and services.

paypal.me/kristen999213

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