I Choose Recovery

"If they did hear, they would not mark me, or if they did mark, they would not pity me, yet plead I must; and bootless unto them. Therefore I tell my sorrow to the stones, who, though they cannot answer my distress, are in some way better than the tribunes..."

[stability]

[alexaarae]

recovery is laughing at yourself when you try to squeeze into a pair of too-small jeans, not crying

[thelavender-ward]

I've been really sad lately and i've been struggling with binging and guilt over eating lately. I'm not being mindful of what im eating (and more importantly, why i'm eating) and since i have a sensitive stomach, i have been feeling like total crap.  so when my roommate's mom was sweet enough to give us tons of valentines sweets i decided i wasn't gonna let ednos keep fucking with me. 

On the cookies: "Your body is not a trash can, try to deal with the feelings face to face. You are stronger than ED." and a little recovery symbol

On the chocolates: "Your body is not a trash can...deal with the feelings/ You are stronger than the ED." 

Can't wait to enjoy these little treats without binging.

[everybodyhasabrain]

[jabbaa-theslutt]

i dont know how many times i have to fucking say this before it starts to make sense to the people around me:

this anxiety is not a part of who i am

this eating disorder is not a part of who i am

this depression is not a part of who i am

self harming is not a part of who i am

these are things that happened to me along the way and they are things that i learn to deal with on a daily basis

they are not a part of my personality

my personality is the person who i am under all of this and the ways that i choose to grow and learn from this

[purgingmylifeaway]

When an eating disordered person says, “I’m fat” it doesn’t always mean “I’m fat”. Instead they could be trying to say “I’m sad” or “I’m really angry”. Telling a person with an ED “Oh, you’re not fat” isn’t going to work when they aren’t looking to hear that. They may instead be looking for a way to express anxiety, shame, guilt, depression etc through their ED. Saying “I’m fat” isn’t always just a statement, it’s an emotion.

[the-answer-is-within-me]

I’m not struggling with my weight, I’m struggling with my mind. If I loved myself more my weight wouldn’t be a problem.

(via the-answer-is-within-me)

[recoveryisbeautiful]

You're gonna fuck up. Accept it. Don't let it stop you. Keep fighting anyway.

[we-are-all-human]

You look healthy. And by that I don’t mean you look fat. I mean your face isn’t grey any more, the circles under your eyes aren’t so dark. Your lips aren’t cracked and dry and your hair isn’t thinning and brittle. I mean you seem more focused when I talk to you, You actually look at me and listen rather than being so unable to stay still or think about anything other than your illness that your eyes dart around the room and you nod manically the whole time I’m speaking. You seem calmer, stiller, quieter. You’re easier to have a joke with and you take things on board much more than you used to. I mean you laugh now, you’re less serious. There’s life about you, it’s in your eyes and your smile, it’s in the way you speak and even in the way you go about your daily tasks.  You look healthy. You look happy. It really, really suits you.

Really needed to post this right now. This is the only thing that ever helps me get even a little bit into wise mind about how I look. (via foreveralotus)

[byebyethinspo]

Today my intake was: food.

My weight: doesn’t define me.

My target weight: doesn’t exist.

My bones: are under my skin, I don’t care whether or not they can be seen.

I have: body fat, and I need body fat.

I: deserve to eat.

[asc-orb-ic-blog]

The average recovery time for an eating disorder is between 2 and 7 years.

You are going to mess up, ‘relapse’, fail, cry, starve, take two steps forward and one back.

You can get there.

Don’t ask yourself if you want to recover.

Ask yourself if you want to be on this earth in 10 years.

Do you?

Because you could be, you could even be here smiling, with a family, a life, a future.

Keep moving forward.

[fullmetallizard]

…thank you. Needed this.

[edrecoveryprobs]

Kicking ED thoughts out of my head

(x)

[thelavender-ward]

recovery means sharing dominos and chocolate lava cakes with your room mate when your periods sync up

[the-healing-nest]

[thelavender-ward]

i've been in recovery for about a year and a half now and some days i still have to repeat this to myself

my body is not a reflection of my self worth

my body is not a reflection of my self worth

my body is not a reflection of my self worth

my body is not a reflection of my self worth

my body is not a reflection of my self worth

my body is not a reflection of my self worth

MY BODY IS NOT A REFLECTION OF MY SELF WORTH

[togetherwewillrecover]

[chronically-kyle]