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Trying out gouache for the first time.

Art by: thellynnx.

#gouache #art #painting #2d #rainbow

Art in Hamilton.

Art by: thellynnx.

#watercolour art #art #paint #sunset #hamilton

06-09 October 2017 Bass Lake, Ontario.

Another weekend, another cottage.

#photography #cottage #lake #thanksgiving #sunset #ontario

06 September 2017 Bay of Quinte, Ontario.

New experiences highlighted by stunning scenery.

#marine biology #limnology #biology majors #ubc #dfo #ontario #bay of quinte #field work #photography #scenery #nature #biology #sampling

Wheat Sunset. Art by: thellynnx.

#watercolour #art #sunset

Colour.

I met a colourful soul who asked me when I had the time to spare for it. The first words that flitted in were that red murder had been committed on top of my calendar blocks. Persistence is an admirable trait although not an attractive one in the current state of mind. First impressions: a bag of skin and bones overflowing with matching personality and interests. I would love to spend days speaking to you wanting nothing more than conversation. These misaligned intentions, halted at its bud.

An amalgamation of moments. Radio rock in the background. Sunlight in the doorway. Pressed coffee, breakfast smells, and time taken for wonder about the untaken possibilities.

#dear diary #reflection

26 August 2017 Go Home Lake.

Waking up early morning to mist rolling over the water, coffee, and life chats with friends. It is a blessing to have met such amazing people whom have allowed me to witness such things and to have experiences which aid my personal growth.

#go home lake #georgian bay #ontario #canada #photography #lake #cottage

30 August 2017 Lake Ontario.

It was a beautiful day until the swells and nausea kicked in.

#photography #lake ontario #sampling #limnology #biology #marine biology #dfo

Until.

It began as the fancy that only a young dreamer can have. Or so I’d like to say looking back. But really, it began as a lonely bus ride wanting company down those dark streets. Or rather, wanting anything to fill the solidarity of that time. You were comfort. I wanted to understand you until you had the familiarity of a second skin you can peel off like wet swim wear, until every nuance of your body was imprinted into my retina, until every whim of your voice echoed through the shell of my ear.

There are things to learn from this. The easiness of proximity does not equate to affection apart. Not only between us, but with all those around us who left for exploration and adventure. And us, the remainders, holding strong to our memories of each other and our past happiness that now seems so fleeting.

After all this time I still feel myself falling for the idea of you. This image a shadow of our past selves spurred by hazy recollections that only occur when there is time to pause. To think. To remember and reflect hurts a bit. And I've learned to shy from this source of pain by organising time as colorful 2D Tetris blocks in Google calendar until there is no time to pause, to think, to remember, to reflect, or to hurt. Until this ritual becomes second nature, habitual, and integrated into clockwork life, never hurting, reflecting, remembering, thinking, pausing--

Until you do. Then what?

#dear diary #musings #spoken word

Aaaand they’re back!

The Broadway Princess Party: PART 1, PART 2, PART 3, PART 4. The Broadway Prince Party: (x).

Hosted by Laura Osnes and Benjamin Rauhala.

#broadway #54 below #benjamin rauhala #laura osnes #taylor louderman #desi oakley #the broadway princess party

Motion.

A step back to view the sinusoidal nature of quotidienne things. It leads to nausea, anxiety, worry. Blinders appear to divert attention. Like taking gravol for sea sickness -- projectile vomiting doesn’t happen if you’re unconscious. The tendency to self subterfuge, putting aside the problem gnats for calmer times.

Allowance for ruminating has been removed. You are not a sloth.

#dear diary #anxiety