Diary of an Awkward Student Nurse

Student Nurse | Random blogger | Bathroom singer | Book and Movie enthusiast | Tumblr addict | Awkward person

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Finally edited a photoset after 4  OR SO YEARS AND I FORGOT HOW TO PHOTOSHOP THINGS I NEEDS TO LEARN AGAIN JFBJDF

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Hey, so I’m writing this story, which is probably the longest time I’ve spend on a story (19 chapters in more or less 6 years).

That is all.

Just kidding. I’m just getting bored of everything now.

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AAAAAYYYOOO

So I’ve been gone for almost 10 months now because I LITERALLY forgot my password here and I was not bothered to send a link to my email to change it...

... until yesterday when I was suddenly logged out of my Instagram account and I couldn’t sign back in again. Although I had tried to send a message to my email, it only said “We sent a message to v*******7@m***.ru” which is not even mine (anyone who knows someone who has this email please alert me).

So this is why I’m back again BUT I might not make photoset and shit like that for the longest time because I have no Photoshop here on my laptop and the only laptop that has the software here at home is my sister’s, which is broken (it won’t function unless it’s connected to a charger).

So yeah, HI!

And also this is my 200th post.

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Two weeks and 3 days ago

I finished taking the two-day Nurse Licensure Examination.

9 working days later, I became an RN.

It’s still surreal, man.

(Now you know why I’ve been gone for so long)

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I just realized I can never keep up a blog because it will only either be pen & paper or MS Word (but w/o internet).

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Thank you, Marcus Butler

for reacting to 2ne1 (pronounced as Two-N-E-One) and BTS, which are the only things that I love in KPop.

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Soooo

As you may have guessed from mg previous posts, I am just that girl who is very addicted to the internet, is socially awkward, has a very small group of friends and has zero love life.

Well, there was this time when the city had a really huge event for about 9 days.

On the night before the closing , I went to the venue alone to watch 2 performances at 7. I arrived there exactly when the afternoon performers were ending theirs. I went to the stage to have some pictures taken with them but unfortunately, the security had to usher them out because they still have a flight back to their place. I was about to go back to the lower box when someone tapped my shoulder. Turns out to be a not-so-close friend from college. He told me to sit with him by the aisle on 4th row. He told me that he was also alone. So I sat there, we chatted for a while as the venue was filled with people again. My stomach rumbled (I didn’t eat) then I asked him if he already had dinner; he said he had. He returned he questionned to me, I said ‘no’, and he told me that I should’ve eaten first. The venue was slowly filled, then he stood minutes before the program and told me that he’s going to buy US some snacks. Of course I was a bit bashful about it so I told him I’d contribute but he insisted that it would be on him.

So that’s the first night. The second one was the closing program.

So I wore long sleeved plaid shirt, black pants and a pair of boots that night. I was still with the same guy. So the both of us are now sat at the back half of the VIP for the final performances at 7pm (the closing ceremony started at 10pm). Turns out he brought some food with him. Venue was full as usual. Then after the final performances, represantives of the activity went over and asked if we could provide 500 seats in the VIP for the performers of the event, meaning about 4/5 of the VIP will be taken by them. The reps asked if we could move back, so we did. The chairs were set up, only to find out that the number of unoccupied chairs is still not enough. They asked us again if we could move back 3 rows more. So, because the both of us don’t want to leave the VIP section, we just stood there in the back. Since I couldn’t cross my legs and arms and bend forward to warm myself (the venue was air conditioned), I had to deal with the cold. I was there leaning against the wall guarding his bagpack while he stood in the middle taking pictures of the ceremony. He checked me every now and then and asked me if I was okay. I didn’t want him to worry about me starting to get hypothermia, so I told him ye, although it was already obvious that I was shivering. Then there was one representative who announced to the nonperformers in the VIP that first 20 in line will be allowed to sit with the performers. I didn’t hear it but he came up, picked his age and told me to follow him. I was surprised that we were allowed to enter. So we found empty seats behind those performers that we really wanted to take a picture with. Thankful for the chair, I immediately sat , crossed both arms and legs and bent forward. He noticed that it was already too cold for me to handle so he took off the hoodie he was wearing. I immediately know what he was about to do so u started to decline the offer. Of course, he was still as insisting as the night before so finally I took it and said my thank yous. Then here comes the picture taking and crap like that. Then my sisters texted me that we need to go because she already feels tired (she was with her best friend at the same event) so the fun has been cut short and I returned the hoodie to him.

Sharing because it's the first time that someone not a close friend had cared for me.

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Reasons to Watch Pangako Sa Yo

30% Storyline

30% Ian Veneracion 

30% Claudia vs Amor

10% Everything else

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Dear "friend",

Thank you for being one of my first close friends in college. Thank you for bringing me out of my bubble. Thank you for listening to my stories.

But fuck you for making me believe that you are a true friend.

Fuck you for ruining the image of our teachers and my friends, your "friends", in front of me.

Fuck you for talking to us like we're on a level much lower than where you are right now, or where you think you are right now.

Fuck you for hating on someone who didn't do something wrong to you and even treats you like a sister.

Fuck you for competing with your sister in academics even if you take up different courses and she doesn't want comparison.

Fuck you for always correcting other people when they make a mistake.

Fuck you for telling me that "liars go to hell" when you are actually one of us.

Fuck you for not supporting me when you know that I can't do something so big alone.

Fuck you for calling me weird behind my back just because I'm singing alone.

Fuck you for calling me stupid behind my back because it's my first time on the job.

And fuck you for making "I'm going to attend mass" an excuse so that you can do stuff without us.

Remember one and a half year ago when I told you during our open forum that I was very glad that you became my friend? 

Now I'm not that sure anymore. After all those things you did.

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Sorry. I'm going to post another 'problem' here.

I just want to take those stuff that lets me down here.

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Dear "best friend",

I respect you and your beliefs, and I understand you posting and sharing stuff about your religion.

But please stop posting things that is disrespectful to its sister religion. You're doing it as if like you don't know that it's already a form of an insult.

We both believe in the same supreme being but the practices of the most prominent prophet you follow is different from ours, so why do you have compare what you have with what we have?

If your reason is to make us Christians think twice about our religion and you want us to find peace in yours, that's not a good way to do that.

To that Muslim who commented on her post,

Why would you say that God will kill people if they didn't follow Him through the teachings of Muhammad? You are making Him seem like he is not merciful. There's a prophecy that said that Jesus will kill all Christians who didn't follow him in the final judgment? Then why didn't he do it when there were chances that he could've done it?

To that Christian who also commented on her post,

Thank you for defending our side.

P.S. To all people who read this post, I'm sorry if I was a bit offensive but please don't get me wrong on how I feel while typing this. I just made this out of concern, because from my "best friend's" (she literally calls me her best friend) conversations with me and my classmates and our classes in Spirituality, where in the main rule of our teacher is that we should not attack and question other people's religion which she broke on numerous occasions, I think this is already starting to get out of hand.

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2 months

2 months since I posted. I'm so sorry.

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Is it bad if I've set "meeting danisnotonfire" is the top of my list of goals in life just to finish my education successfully?

Because this is for me the most impossible one to reach, which pushes me to the limit.

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On the early hours of December 25 in 1980, a new prophecy has been told. A secret among a Seer, a Death Eater and an ...

Potterheads and Story lovers,

Second chapter is up. Just click on the link if you'd like to read it.

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Don't call someone stupid if your spelling, grammar and placement of punctuation are wrong.

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Yung wala talagang may nakakaalam kung sino ang [mga] crush mo kaya libreng libre kang magpapicture sa kanya anytime na walang nakakahalata. Pero may classmate ka na magbubulong sa iyo ng "uy, lumalovelife" at saka nalaman mo nalang na nagphotobomb pala siya sa malayo nung tinignan mo nang mabuti ang picture niyo. Sapaw ka, ***** -_-

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I don't want to live on this planet anymore.

Isa lang ang rason ngaa ko ni ginahambal. Naugot na gid ko sa manghod ko nga sobra na gid ang iya nga pagkagaga. Una, kung hindi niya gani makuwa ang gusto niya nga hindi niya gid kinanglan, mabuwisit dayon. Pero kung kami gani ang mautos sa iya, silingan kami nga hindi siya paghilabtan kay hindi niya gusto ng a himuon to. Ay sige saw. Testingan ko nga hindi himuon ang ginapahimo imo sa akon. Tan.awon ko gid kung ano ang imo nga mabatyagan kay kung hindi ta pareha nga naugot, ti daw abno ka gid eh. Ikaduha. Kung asta diin kataas ang iya nga pagrespeto sa iya nga mga maestra, amo to siya kasuplada kay mama kag papa. Waay sang "po" kag "opo", ang bag.o silhig nga salhog ginahabuyan ka candy wrapper dayon ang arinola ginahabuyan ka cotton buds. Ang kabastos mo, waay pa naghalin baskin student nurse ka kag gintudluan ka na sang basic things, sali na ang respect kag cleanliness, pero ngaa baskin sa balay lang, waay mo gid ginapractice haw? Ikatatlo. Mangakig dayon bisan waay ka may ginahimo sa iya. Kag. ina lang natabo. Waay ginagamit ang mata sa pagpangita sang earphones niya. Sagad lang talak sa akon kay gintago ko daw to. Excuse me. Hindi ko amo to ka desperada nga magka-earphones kay I don't need it to survive. Kung makademand ka as akon sang bag.o nga Apple earphones, daw abi imo damo ko kwarta kag dali lang maipon. Last. Ang iya nga pagkareklamadora. Well, excuse me. Hindi ko sala kung law.ay ang ginhatag sa imo. Gintanggalan na gani pait ang ampalaya kag ginbutngan sang scrambled eggs, Hindi ka pa? Kung waay karne ang gulay, masiling ka nga hindi ka gutom bisan nga halata na gid nga ginagutom ka. Hoy! Maluoy ka sa lawas mo kay sobra ka na 80kgs. Amo lang. Sorry sa rant kay gusto ko lang gid nga mashare ang natabo subong pero baskin nga hindi ko na isiling, bal.an ko nga mapicture-out niyo man ang natabo.