Are You Deranged Like Me?

Theodora "Theo" Ellis ; Newborn Vampire "Are you { i n s a n e } like me? Been in pain like me? Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me? Just to pour that { m o t h e r f u c k e r } down the drain like me?" indie fandomless newborn vampire ; multiverse ; multiship ; mun is 26+ ; written by Gabby tracking tag ; theodcra

[theodcra]

out of character ; 

theodora is on an official hiatus, sorry it took me so long to make this post.

[mcriaa]

      “I hope you survive.                             You may be of great use to { M E }.”

independent maria from the twilight series (both movies & novels) ; multiverse ; multiship ; mun is 26+ ; written by gabby

maria ; verses ; rules & guidelines ; navigation

[aespersephone]

jules vaughn, euphoria season 1

[theodcra]

out of character ;

so I am super super tired I’ll be around here tomorrow morning to do more drafts and replies and such. also probably gonna be working on a new muse at some point tomorrow, gonna be doing maria from twilight with alexia demie as her face claim and yeah I’m excited. She is chaos and I love chaotic characters lol.

[paintingbellarke]

Jules’s makeup in Euphoria (2019–)

[theodcra]

out of character ;

currently mobile, if I made a Maria from Twlight with Alexia Demie as a fc would anyone be interested in her? cause this has been on my mind for the past week now and yeah can’t atop thinking about it.

[lost-prince-of-corona]

Please reblog this is if you would rp with trans muses.

I see a lot of people unwilling to rp with me because my muse is trans, and because of that I feel nobody in the rp community ever will. So, yeah, reblog if you would rp with trans muses (nonbinary muses included).

[all-pop]

Jules Vaughn in episode 8 (season 1)

[soulprompts]

𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

my original batch can be found HERE! i got all kinds of angsty and protective vibes took over, but if u think of any more that you’d like to see on the list, shoot me a DM so i can add it!

“ get behind me… ”

“ stay here. ”

“ don’t worry. everything’s going to be alright… ”

“ you shoot anyone who comes through that door who isn’t me. ”

“ when you love something, you protect it. ”

“ i’ll keep you safe. ”

“ do everything that i say, and we might both live to tell the tale of this night. ”

“ when i say run, i need you to do as i say and don’t even think about me. ”

“ get down! ”

“ close your eyes, you don’t need to see this. ”

“ why wouldn’t i save you? ”

“ it’s alright. they won’t be hurting you again… ”

“ of course i came for you… it would take far much more than that to stop me. ”

“ listen to me… i need to go back out there. but i promise you, i’ll be right back. okay? all i want you to do is stay hidden, and i’ll be back before you know it. ”

“ there’s nothing in this world nor any other, that would stop me from protecting you. ”

“ get out of here! now! ”

“ i knew you’d feel guilty; you do understand that i’d take a thousand wounds if it meant keeping you safe, don’t you? ”

“ i swear to you. as long as i’m by your side, you’ll never be harmed. ”

“ it’s my job to keep you safe, yes, but you could work with me a little to make it easier. ”

“ protecting you isn’t my duty. it’s my privilege. ”

“ who did this to you? where are they? ”

“ listen to me. i don’t think i’ll be able to buy you much time. and once i go out there, the clock starts. so the second you hear us fighting, i want you to run. as fast and as far as you can. ”

“ are you alright? “

“ can you move? “

“ why is it so difficult for you to believe that you deserve to be protected? “

“ you’re a good person. good people deserve to be safe. “

“ i’m going to protect you, now. because that’s what we do for the ones we love. we keep them safe. “

“ stay close. whatever you do, do not leave my side. “

“ i’ll do whatever it takes to keep you safe. no matter the cost. “

“ i’m on my way. ”

“ it’s alright… it’s okay… i’m here now. i’ve got you. ”

“ it’s all over now. don’t panic. it’s not my blood. ”

“ i don’t know how long i’ll be able to protect you for, but i guarantee you, i’ll only stop with my final breath. ”

[theodcra]

out of character ; 

3 asks to reply to, 1 more reply to do, and then I’m all caught up. I’m super proud of myself at this current moment guys.

[theodcra]

@elenaloveablekotsala​ (alexander)

theo was in the park, just wanting to get out into the world after keeping herself in isolation for the past few days. The reason she did that, was that she found herself in a new life, a new person, a vampire, and she really didn’t know how to control or even deal with this craving, this need that she felt in her, for blood. she had just actually broke into the hospital nearby and stole a few bags of blood, because that was the only thing she could think of, she didn’t want to hurt innocent people. She didn’t have a problem hurting someone who deserved it, but her difficulty was how do you decide who deserves that?

she was sitting at a picnic table, just drinking from this bag of blood like a juice box as she enjoyed the nature and just being outside. However, that’s when she heard, smelled, felt someone’s presence not too close to her but close enough (maybe within a few hundred feet or so). The smell of fresh blood though, it caught her attention and almost overwhelmed her, almost. taking a few deep breaths in, before taking another sip of the hospital blood she had in hand. “this just tastes stale...” she quietly said to herself.

[theodcra]

@elenaloveablekotsala​ (damon)

one shot. two shot. three shots. how many shots till theo was on the floor? thankfully, theo managed to find a dive bar on the outside of this new town she found herself in. hardly any people in here (maybe one or two humans and another vampire maybe? she wasn’t entirely sure), and theo could control herself better with that then a whole crowd of people, it was still difficult though. but she was consuming quite a bit of alcohol, shot, after shot, the goal was to get absolutely wasted.

even though theo was nineteen, she still had a fake ID with her (unaware she could always just compel someone), so she was able to drink. She wanted to see if her tolerance had changed, she wanted to know if she could still enjoy some human things like this. “How many of these is it gonna take?” She asked herself softly as she asked for three more shots.

[meaningful-negativitymoves]

"So you've been searching your whole life for a crazy person?" Okay so Theo was not crazy, just mentally ill and the vampirism did not help it one bit. She then took a few steps towards him with a slight smile on her face, before she spoke up again. "I personally think you're just infatuated, I'm merely a way to through pass eternity right now, you'll get bored, or I'll get bored or we'll both get bored. But I do like you, a lot."

Aston looks at her and then looks down at the floor. "I never thought about it that way before, I wouldn't want you to be trapped in something that you someday might not want but the same goes for me, if I get bored then I don't want to be miserable either." He looks up at her then and smiles "I like you quite a lot to Theo and let's make a promise to each other right now, if either one of us gets bored with what we have we'll tell each other."

@theodcra

[theodcra]

“I’ve seen what love does, and what happens whenever love is suddenly not enough, and it drove my mother to drugs so I’m not too fond of it.” She explained. It wasn’t that Theo didn’t believe in love, she just didn’t want it for herself, she could be around people, she could like them, maybe even get into a relationship with them, but she didn’t want to love anyone not really anyways. “I think I can agree to that.” A smile coming across Theo’s face as she looked over at him, “For now though, how about we just enjoy what we have?”

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love confession starters

“ hey, give me two seconds. i need to talk to you. “

“ you’re blushing. it’s cute. “

“ just listen, all right, and stop laughing. “

“ you want to kiss me, don’t you? “ “

“ i’ve been trying to talk myself out of it. “

'' what is it that you're trying to tell me? ''

'' so you better listen, because i will not repeat myself... ''

“ you’re cute when you’re nervous. “

“ you don’t get it, do you? “

“ i love you, that's all. “

'' i don't want to spend any time apart from you. ''

'' just spit it out. ''

“ i know you're busy, but it's important. “

“ you have no idea how much i love you, do you? “

“ i like you. i really, really like you. ''

'' i really need you to know that [that i love you]. ''

“ wait, you knew? “ “ you haven't exactly been discreet... “

'' i love you. ''

'' so, do you... love me back, or? ''

“ do you have feelings for me or something? “

“ i think i'm falling in love with you. “

“ tell me it isn't true. “ “ i can't. “

[theodcra]

@violusts​

drip. drip. drip. the diners faucet was what Theo decided to focus on. this was her first time being surrounded by humans in days, she just wanted to get out into the world. However, it probably wasn’t the best idea that Theo, a newborn vampire, was out in the world on an empty stomach. She hadn’t fed since the day she was turned and she was starting to get hungry, but she didn’t understand this, she didn’t understand how often vampires needed to feed, she wasn’t sure if vampires had to kill their pray or if they let them live, etc. she was new to this and no one was there to help her.

eventually focusing on the broken faucet wasn’t enough for her. The sound of heartbeats, of blood pumping throughout bodies, it was everywhere and Theo really didn’t feel like being part of a diner massacre. ​“I gotta get out of here.” She said to herself before abruptly getting up and started walking out the door as she walked out she managed to bump into someone. “Sorry.” She said quickly, just trying to get out of there, but something caught her attention. No heartbeat, she stayed and looked at him a few more seconds “I’m so hungry.” Her voice barely above a whisper before hurrying out the door. 

[theodcra]

After hurrying out the diner, she had been leaning her head against the stone wall of the building next door. Just taking deep breaths, trying to keep herself calm and not trying to attack someone. It was difficult though, and it didn’t help that people kept walking by her and she’d have to hear they heartbeats, every single time a human walked by her. She just needed to get out of here, maybe she’d run off to a cave and live off of bats? Can you do that? She didn’t know, but it seemed like a good idea at the moment.

She looked over to where the voice was coming from, he wouldn’t be able to tell because Theo was under a lot of stress at the moment, but she was completely happy he followed her. “No. I don’t know anything about anything.” She was hoping he’d get what she was saying, since they were in public she really didn’t want to mention vampirism not wanting people to overhear. “I don’t have anyone to help me, I think I might go live in a cave.” She was trying to crack a joke, make light of the situation, but she really was having a hard time right now.

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@theodcra​    ᅳ﹙ ✿ ﹚ᅳ   “…it doesn’t taste like blood, it tastes like life.“

Diem supposed the description made sense. She doubted anything, even for survival, could gorge on something that didn’t at least taste appealing to them. A nod as she listens to the description, stopping only at the last bit. Brows knit, one rising as she tilts her head over to Theodora.

        ❝ Like life? ❞   Diem parrots, adjusting a bit on how she sat so she’s turned to face her dear friend.    ❝ Do you think that is because blood is life, basically? ❞   Innocent curiosity, Diem’s way of showing both support and interest in understanding Theodora’s new way of existence better. After all, nothing could be exactly like a book or a movie, right?

[theodcra]

“I mean I guess so. Whenever I was human blood tasted like iron and rust and now it’s just different, it’s difficult to wrap my head around.” Honestly, that was the truth, it was a difficult concept to wrap her head around and truly it didn’t seem real, all this seemed like some weird messed up dream that she found herself trapped in and couldn’t wake up. This was her new normal though, and she had to accept it.

“Whenever I was first turned, I killed someone.” She confessed to her friend, although she went on to explain further, “I was so hungry, like I hadn’t ate in my entire life before, just this animalistic hunger. I was walking and there was a guy, trying to take advantage of this girl, he let her go whenever I showed up and she took off and he said some pretty nasty things to me, and I just got so mad, it was blinding, and I attacked him...and the worst part is I don’t feel guilty about it. I thought I’d feel guilty but I don’t and I don’t know if that’s just because he was a bad person, or if I’m just a monster now.”

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｡° ﹙ ✿ ﹚ᅳ  @theodcra​​

        ❝ Hey–   Sorry for being late, ❞   she sighs, keys dropped onto the table beside the door and bag leaned against it’s legs. Diem slides her shoes off and immediately beelines for Theo, greeting her with a hug first and foremost.    ❝ I hate traffic. ❞   A smile as she pulls back, warm and soft.    ❝ Ready for movie night? ❞

[theodcra]

“Well damn Diem, why didn’t you just get out and walk, abandon your car and everything?” She teased a smile bright on her face as she wrapped her arms around her dear friend in a quick hug. Theo really didn’t want to test how long she could hug her friend for without it getting too much for her but she was happy to spend time with her. “No horror flicks right? I have enough gore in my life, I don’t need to see more.”