Slow-burn, character-driven romance set in the Dune universe
Follows the events of Dune: Part I and branches into original narrative territory mixed with cannonical events of Dune: Part II.
General Info:
Female reader, Reader is slightly younger than Paul, Characters are aged up slightly (young adult range), Mentions of appearance (height difference, subtle hair descriptions) Emotional focus with political context, Canon divergence, Slow pacing, introspective tone, Angst / romance / tension / comfort
Content Warnings:
– Death, grief, trauma
– Mentions of blood and violence (canon-level)
– Themes of war, oppression, survival
– Bene Gesserit manipulation
– Political marriage / arranged marriage themes
– Mild language
– Occasional religious/spiritual references
– Explicit sexual content (tagged appropriately per chapter)
– Minors DNI
Chapters containing mature content will be individually labeled. Please read at your own discretion.
As your father’s health begins to falter, he is forced to make the decision he’s feared all your life - a choice you’ve known was inevitable. With no sons to inherit the legacy of your House, he turns to an old and trusted ally: House Atreides. In a formal pledge of alliance, he entrusts them not only with the future of your planet, but with you—his only daughter.
Nothing could shield you from the truths hidden beneath your House’s noble crest: a prophecy long buried in whispers.
Now under the protection of House Atreides on Caladan, you find yourself drawn into a web of politics, secrets, and war.
Paul Atreides - reserved, brilliant, and burdened by his own destiny -becomes an unlikely mirror to your unraveling. He watches you, cautiously. And you feel something ancient stirring beneath your skin.
The dreams begin. The visions.
Masterlist
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14 (This Chapter has been rewritten with key information changes! Please re-read.)
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20 - Finale
I originally wrote this mostly for myself—to put my daydreaming into words and work through the story as I’ve been hyperfixating on Paul Atreides for over a month now. I’m a longtime fanfiction reader, so creating something of my own has felt like a bit of a fever dream. I hope you enjoy it. Feedback is deeply appreciated, and comments or reblogs mean the world to me.
you’ve read the book? Have you read the first book only or have you read all the books in the series that Frank wrote? I agree though but I’ve only read the first book ill eventually get to the rest
I read the first three books :) so dune, messiah and children of dune. My fic is heavily based on some specific details from the book, especially when it comes to Paul and his prescience.
I recommend at least reading dune messiah so you can get (some sort of) a conclusion on Paul Atreides. For me, children of dune began feeling different for some reason. I think it’s because I’m so attached to Paul that COD felt different and I didn’t quite enjoy it as much as I did the very first dune. (Tough I still love COD, it’s just not my fav)
I just re-remembered how great dune is and I'M GETTING BACK ON THAT FANFIC!!!!!!! after i re-read it first lol i kinda forgot my own plot (i have notes somewhere don't worry it will be worth it)
I'm so sorry for the long wait. Please read the notes at the end of the chapter. Thank you! Hope this read satisfies!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
“My lady, what are your orders?”
Cassian had come to confirm what you already knew:
Paul had attacked the Great Houses, and won. Though that did not meant the end of the war, but it's begging.
You stood with your spine straight, your face locked into a cold, unmoving line as you stared out through the vast window of the war room. Your mask hissed softly with every measured breath—slow, controlled and mechanical. Beyond the thick glass stretched the aftermath of the atomic explosion, Atreides warheads. The land bore the wound openly.
Warships were already withdrawing, metallic flocks rearranging the sky with practiced precision. Ornithopters flew in tandem, orderly now, disciplined. Below them, Fremen gathered in numbers you had never seen before, spatially dispersed yet undeniably unified, their fervor alive, vibrating through the desert like heat.
You remembered the dream—no, the vision—hazed and distant, of Paul’s deep blue eyes reflecting the dying light of a sun. And realization settled over you with chilling clarity that you had seen this destruction long before you even knew what Arrakis was.
Then, a strange sensation stirred in your chest. Reluctant but close to being welcomed. Awe edged with something dangerously close to devotion.
Muad’Dib leads the way.
“No orders.” Your filtered, mechanized voice sliced through the tense quiet.
“We remain on standby?” he asked.
“Yes. We wait.” You turned from the window, turning your back on the tumult unfolding beneath Muad’Dib’s holy war.
“Of course, but… respectfully—for what?” Cassian’s tone carried no suspicion, nor challenge, only respect and concern.
You had meant to leave the room. To flee the choking air, to chase some small sliver of solace hidden somewhere within these walls—but his question froze you.
For what, indeed?
What were you waiting for now?
Everything felt suspended, unresolved. Your legacy hung in the balance, frayed and uncertain. The alliances you had forged were dead, scattered and meaningless. The sins committed beneath the veil of the Sisterhood—none atoned for. Wounds that did not bleed, yet refused to close.
Will I walk away with nothing? What price do I have to pay?
Feyd is dead. The Baron is dead.
That thought soothed you like balm on a fresh wound. The Harkonnens—gone. No sacrifice required of you this time, no choices made with blood on your hands.
You turned to Cassian, lips pressed tight, your expression heavy with more than command.
“I don’t know,” you said at last. “But we can't just leave...”
Fatigue pressed behind your eyes, thick and stubborn. A sharp pain shot through your skull, your eyes began to burn, the small sting in your throat retreating only slightly. Your mind struggled to function, dragging itself through the aftermath like a wounded thing. You needed your medication.
“You rest too, Cassian. I need clarity.”
He nodded. Cassian understood your version of rest meant solitude, meant letting the storm inside you settle on its own. Yet even when resting, a guard remained a guard—always watching from a distance, always listening.
Your steps made no sound along the corridor. You placed your weight carefully, deliberately, moving in a way meant not to be noticed.
When you saw the door, you quickened your pace—as though something were following you, as though sealing yourself inside would spare you from a predator. You didn’t know if it was all in your head—residue left behind by Feyd, impressions carved into you without your consent—or if you truly had been prey all along. Death did not erase the imprint of fear.
You entered the room with your back to the door, head bowed, breath uneven. You locked it quickly, fingers trembling just enough to betray you, then reached for your mask and pulled it free.
The quiet noise of ventilation wrapped around you.
Once the mask was off, you crossed the room in quick strides and opened the desk drawer, retrieving the small glass vial of white pills. You took two and swallowed them dry, as you had learned to do when water was not within reach.
You rubbed the bridge of your nose, trying to quiet the gnawing uncertainty—the low, constant fear of the unpredictable. The ground beneath you felt unreliable, shifting like dunes beneath bare feet. You longed for something solid, something unmoving. And beneath that anxiety, unwanted and undeniable, coiled a fragile hope.
A tight, trembling anticipation.
You needed to think, yet feared arriving at conclusions your heart had not agreed to yet.
Paul had waged a full war—and you had seen it, even before coming here. Blurred, fractured visions, yet painfully clear all the same, visions of battle and bloodshed. Visions of you, all of them pointing here.
How were you a part of this?
Your gaze unfocused, then sharpened again—falling to the desk, then lifting to the mirror above it—
And you saw more than your own reflection.
You gasped sharply, spinning around, one hand clutching at your dress on instinct.
Paul stood before you.
Tall, still, commanding.
You hadn’t heard him enter—not a footstep, not a breath. Or had he already been here, waiting, unseen?
You swallowed, eyes fixed on him. Not quite fear but neither comfort, something suspended between the two. You didn’t know whether to speak, or move, or do anything at all.
Then he spoke your name, clear, gentle, unavoidable. It shattered you, tears burned behind your eyes, threatening to spill.
“Why are you afraid?” Paul asked. His face was distant, but not cold—still holding that familiar softness he carried whenever he looked at you.
His gaze flicked down to your throat, to the bruises, faded, hidden under your hair, but there. A single sharp look, as quick as a blade glinting in dim light. Only a heartbeat long—but enough to strike something deep in him.
You pressed your lips together as heat flushed your cheeks. Exhaustion and unregulated emotion made everything feel raw and unstable.
You waited before giving him your response.
“I… I don’t know,” you whispered.
“Do you think I’m going to hurt you?” His voice softened further, and his eyes betrayed him—the question unsettled him too, as though the very idea rejected him on a fundamental level.
You looked at him, then inward, truly inward. The truth pressed hard against your ribs—and Paul felt it before you even said it.
“I… don’t know…” you murmured, your voice breaking.
You were still reeling, breathless from the shock of finding him here. His sudden appearance, and the unpredictability of him, the way he seemed to move outside the patterns of ordinary men—even before everything happened, even back on Caladan.
It unsettled you. He wrapped cold fingers around your nerves.
And he noticed.
His gaze caught that fear instantly, as if your emotions cast shadows only he could see.
Only a little separated you, yet that space felt thin, fragile, stretched too tight. He felt close enough to touch you without lifting a hand.
You watched him with unblinking focus, trying desperately to read him—to catch the flicker of a thought on his face, anything that might help you decipher the storm behind his eyes. But he kept himself shuttered, unreadable, carved from restraint and silence.
Still… beneath the surface, beneath the sternness and control… something pulsed faint and hidden.
A trace of knowing. A grain of pain. And something heavier than both.
"Why?"
He asked it simply, no accusation, no defense, just the naked question, laid bare between you.
You weighed your words carefully—truthfully. He was the one person who deserved the truth in its entirety, stripped of softness, shown in all its ugliness. You could not escape Paul, anyway.
You drew in a deep, shaky breath before speaking.
“Because I don’t know what you know,” you said, your voice light, unsteady, and you cringed at the way the uncertainty betrayed you. “And I don’t know what to make of what I do know.” you added, your tone firming just enough to keep yourself upright.
Paul held your gaze as though your answer were oxygen, as though something inside him depended on it. Even for him, this felt like walking on ice—one wrong step and everything shattered.
“What do you know?” he asked quietly.
You paused. How were you meant to answer him? How could you tell whether you were standing on safe ground or enemy soil?
“We’re not betrothed anymore,” you said at last, carefully. “And you chose to marry the Princess.”
Your voice stayed composed, but something flickered in your eyes when you said it. You couldn’t bring yourself to speak her name. Still, you didn’t look away. You watched him as his eyes dipped, just slightly—as though the words struck deeper than he allowed himself to show.
“My husband is dead,” you continued, your voice gaining weight, clarity. “Everything I forged is gone. I’m alone on Arrakis, about to be swallowed by a war I did not start.”
Speaking it aloud loosened something in your chest. The burden didn’t vanish, but it shifted, became survivable. Paul listened without interruption. His expression was unreadable—flat—but his attention never wavered.
You stopped. Your lips trembled despite your effort to still them. Then you gathered what courage you had left, fully aware of the consequences.
“What do you know—Paul?”
He blinked slowly, calmly. The question did not startle him, did not offend him. If anything, there was a quiet, almost dangerous relief in his eyes. After everything that had happened, you were still you.
Intelligent, cunning, beautiful.
His gaze reflected his thoughts, and the look he gave you unsettled you—made you falter, made warmth rise where it had no right to. You masked it well, but you forgot something crucial: Paul missed nothing. Not the way you held yourself, not the subtle shift of your breath, not you.
“I know why you married Feyd,” he said.
His eyes lowered—not crudely, not lingering—but deliberately, briefly, to the gentle line of your abdomen. His gaze returned to yours.
“I know you were meant to bear his child,” he said evenly. “And I know you’re afraid the Bene Gesserit will kill you for failing to do so.”
Shock rippled through you before you could contain it.
Paul stepped forward. One step, then another. Slowly, deliberately, closing the space between you until he stood just in front of you—not touching, but close enough that you felt him. The heat rolling from his body in quiet waves. His scent, the undeniable pull of him, colliding with your own.
“But you don’t have to fear me,” he said softly now, his voice lowered, intimate, almost a whisper meant only for you. His eyes held yours, steady and unyielding.
“I would never hurt you.” he added.
And somehow—impossibly—the words felt like truth.
The room filled with the sound of your shared breathing. In the silence that followed, you let his words sink deep into you, settling somewhere beneath the fear and beneath the doubt. You blinked, pressed your lips together, your gaze still locked on his. If not for the situation you were in—if not for everything pressing down on you—you might have allowed yourself to stare longer. To really look at him.
You noticed the healed wound at his temple, the roughness carved into his features by exhaustion and war. He looked worn, dragged through sand. And yet, you couldn’t deny it—his presence still carried the quiet gravity of the Atreides. The honor, the nobility, even now.
After all these months, after losing yourself piece by piece, you still hadn’t forgotten his beauty. He was still the beautiful man you had fallen in love with beyond return. Still the boy from Caladan who shared cheese and wine with you on the shore—only now rougher, broader, tempered by violence, scarred by Arrakis.
You tried to temper your breathing and sought deeply to maintain your reasoning and keep it logical. He was here for a reason.
“Why are you here?”
You forced the question out, trying to cut through the silence before it swallowed you whole. Your voice held steady, but beneath it coiled a trembling you couldn’t banish. Time felt strange—stretched thin and taut—though he had only been here for moments.
Paul’s eyes dropped from your face, falling softly toward the floor as his brows knitted. As if he, too, was questioning himself. As if he didn’t know what answer he could give you—or what truth he dared to speak.
His lips pressed together, the tension in his expression loosening, the sternness melting into something… gentler. His gaze lifted back to your face, studying you with a hesitation that felt heartbreakingly characteristic of him.
When his fingers touched your neck—barely, just a whisper of skin against the bruises—you looked down, almost recoiled. Not from pain, but from the sheer force of the sensation. His touch was so impossibly light, gentle as drifting dust… yet it burned through you, searing a path straight to your core.
Slowly and hesitantly—you lifted your eyes to his.
What you found there unraveled you.
His gaze was raw in a way you had never seen. Ferocious, wounded, silent. Something wild lived inside him, something without name—anger twined with pain, guilt laced with a rage that didn’t know where to go. And beneath all of it, barely visible but undeniably there… a tenderness so fragile it felt like a secret he didn’t mean for you to see. A tenderness that broke against you like a wave.
He looked at you again, longer this time.
Softer, darker. His eyes held a question he didn’t voice, one that trembled in the silence between you.
He did this to you?
He didn’t speak the words, but they pulsed behind his gaze, clear. His eyes darted once more to the bruises blooming along your neck, and something in him… fractured.
Your heart recoiled instinctively, building its walls out of habit and survival. You shifted away—a small movement, barely anything—but it betrayed you. Even your body didn’t want distance from him. Your mind forced the retreat, not your heart.
“He’s dead now.” you whispered, a frown tightening your brows. You didn’t dare meet his eyes for more than a second. It felt like he was looking through you—flesh, bone, and deeper, toward the trembling soul you had been trying so desperately to hide, like he was studying you as something fragile, precious, sacred.
His hand rose again, quicker this time. A single strand of hair had fallen over your temple, and he touched it as though it were the most delicate thing on Arrakis. He seemed to take a breath with the realization—you were here, standing before him.
His eyes showed more now: pain, longing, a thousand buried confessions pushing to the surface.
Your own eyes glazed, tears blurring the edges of him. And something inside you split. The silence thickened. you could hear your own pulse, frantic and uneven. You didn’t know whether to collapse into him or run.
Your heart beat faster, painfully so but the thoughts came like a tidal wave.
Don’t play with my heart, please.
“No…” you begged under your breath, shaking your head.
“I never stopped loving you.”
His voice was low, husky, gentle—so full of want it hurt.
You shook your head, backing away slightly, tears slipping free.
“But you’ve taken Irulan’s hand!” The frustration cracked out of you, sharp and frightened.
His fingers drifted from your neck, hovering near your arms. Not touching—just near enough to keep you there, to anchor you, to stop you from fleeing.
“She’ll have nothing more than my name.” he said quietly but clear.
You stared at him, trying to understand, trying to breathe around the meaning of it.
“Yet I’ll have even less.”
Your voice barely made it out.
His eyes didn’t move from yours, not even once. He stood close—close enough that you could see the healing lines on his face, close enough to feel the heat rolling off him in waves, but still with just a breath of space between you.
“You will have all of me.” he said.
The words hit you like a desert storm, numbing everything and igniting everything all at once. You took in a slow, trembling breath. Your lips parted, your eyes flickered. Emotion rose like a tide that swallowed all reason, all restraint. Logic fled, only the truth of your heart remained.
“I thought you were dead.” You whispered, eyes closed as if hiding yourself from his reaction, your voice breaking around the edges.
"I know.”
You read the truth of his words in his eyes. They burned just as yours did—carrying the same longing, the same ache of missing something you both once had.
His face drifted closer, unhurried, as if any sudden movement might shatter the fragile space between you. His gaze held yours captive. Then one of his hands found yours—grasping, grounding—and the other rose to your cheek, his touch so gentle and warm.
And then he closed in and kissed you, softly.
Heat rushed through you in a single, consuming wave—like molten wax poured over your skin, encasing you in a shell that burned and froze you at once. You didn’t realize when your eyes fluttered shut. You didn’t feel the moment your resistance dissolved. The only thing you knew was Paul’s second hand cupping the other side of your face, steadying you, drawing you in, and your own fingers curling into the fabric of his blouse, hovering near his waist like they had always belonged there.
Memory washed through you—warm and painful, longing, homecoming. The impossible feeling of touching someone you had convinced yourself was lost forever. It carved hollows inside you even as it filled others, breaking you open while trying to make you whole.
But reality was cruel.
Too cruel.
The weight of your title, the fragile instability of your rule, the hidden ambitions of the Lansraad, the weird, inescapable truth that you were involved with the Emperor now—all seized you before you could drown in his warmth. And under it all, buried but not forgotten, lay the grim reminder that you still owed the Bene Gesserit a price. And Bene Gesserit was someone who Paul had took as wife.
“Wait,” you breathed.
The word barely existed, thin, fragile, yet it was enough to stop him. His mouth lingered a fraction of a second longer against yours, close enough that the heat of him still burned through you, through the discipline you had built brick by brick to survive without him. You hated that your body wanted what your mind was still afraid to name.
Paul lifted his head just enough to see you clearly.
His eyes were shadowed—not cold, not distant, but heavy with something that frightened you more than anger ever could. He didn’t want this to end, that truth sat openly in his gaze. But he understood the hesitation in your voice, the way your breath had fractured, the tension pulling tight at your jaw like a wire stretched too far.
“What is it?”
His voice was low, steady—gentler than you expected, not command. An instinctive attempt to still the unrest inside you.
He watched you carefully. The slight crease between your brows, the way your lashes fluttered as you searched for words and found none that felt safe, the way your lip caught between your teeth, as if holding the truth back physically might stop it from spilling.
You felt exposed under his attention. Seen in a way that stripped rank, armor and even time itself.
“Paul…”
His name startled him.
For a heartbeat, he blinked—as if pulled abruptly from elsewhere. From visions layered over one another. From months of absence and long, solitary nights spent imagining this moment until it became both sanctuary and wound. The sound of your voice fit into him with painful precision, like something that had always belonged there finally restored.
“I don’t know where I belong anymore,” you said at last. The words came out quieter than you expected. Unarmored. You hadn’t planned them. They surprised you as much as they did him.
Paul’s expression shifted—not outwardly—but something tightened behind his eyes. Not judgment, but something closer to grief, the kind that arrives too late, when the damage has already taken shape and cannot be undone.
“You’re here now,” you continued, your voice faltering despite your effort to steady it, “and everything I became feels wrong.”
Your throat burned. You forced yourself to look at him—truly look—because if you did not say it now, you knew you never would.
“I don’t know who I’m allowed to be beside you.”
Your lips trembled despite yourself.
“You’re the Emperor.”
The title lingered between you like a blade. A fragile breath left you.
Paul looked down at you then—not past you, not through you—but at you, the living, breathing truth of you. He saw the fear you were fighting to contain, the exhaustion carved deep beneath your composure, the strength you had built out of necessity, paid for in pieces of yourself you would never recover and he understood what that cost meant.
“You don’t need me to be worthy,” he said softly.
The words landed with weight. Your brows furrowed as the memory surfaced—clear, unmistakable.
You don’t need my name.
“I told you that before,” he added, a faint, restrained smile touching his mouth. It did not reach his eyes. He saw the way you looked down again, retreating inward, thoughts multiplying behind your silence. He knew how your mind worked—how it spiraled, searching for every possible fracture in a promise.
“If anyone dares to rise against you—” he began.
He lowered his gaze then and took your hand between both of his. His touch was steady, deliberate, grounding. He traced your knuckles once, slow and certain, before lifting his eyes back to yours.
“They will face my hand.”
The words were not a threat. They were a fact.
“And my hand,” he continued, quieter now, “is yours.”
The air shifted.
For a moment, you could only stare at him.
Your heart stuttered against your ribs, heat rising too quickly through you. Shock flickered across your face, followed by something softer—something you had been holding back for months. Your guard did not fall all at once, but it cracked. Warmth began to seep through the fractures.
Your eyes glistened, you swallowed hard, fighting the sudden, dangerous urge to step fully into him—to abandon every defense you had carefully constructed and simply love him.
“But—I am at your mercy,” you said, your brow knitting as you glanced down at your hand enclosed in his, then back to his face. You shook your head faintly. “It is you who decides the fate of my rule.”
For a moment, he did not answer but something passed over his features—rare and unguarded. Not uncertainty or weakness but something close to awareness, like seeing too far ahead. From understanding the cost of every decision before it is made.
The weight of it rested in his gaze, you could see it.
“I think it is I,” he said quietly, “who needs mercy.”
His words broke something in you and something shifted with the quiet, irreversible sound of a lock turning from the inside and for a moment you simply stood there looking at him as though you were seeing him from a different angle, not as Emperor, not as Muad’Dib, not even as the man the universe had chosen to bend space and time and futures around, but as Paul.
Paul who carried the unbearable knowledge of what was coming and still stood before you, choosing to speak gently, choosing to be careful with you, choosing you despite the vastness pressing against his shoulders.
Silence stretched between you, but it was not empty.
You began to understand something then—not fully and with logic, but with instinct—that loving him would never mean standing beside a simple man. But that it meant standing beside someone who bridged past and future, who carried entire possibilities in his veins and still, somehow, allowed his hands to tremble when they touched yours.
Your face softened before you were even aware of it, the tension you had worn for months easing without permission or realization, the guarded calculation in your eyes dissolving into something unshielded and almost shy, and Paul saw it all, every flicker, every subtle surrender, because he was watching you as though the smallest shift in your expression mattered more than anything in the world.
The air between you felt taut and fragile, as though one breath too sharp might shatter it, and yet you felt no threat within it, only anticipation—slow, patient, no longer edged with fear.
You stepped closer, carefully, as though crossing sacred ground, your heart beating harder with each space you closed between you.
When you reached him, you did not speak, you simply lifted your arms and wrapped them around him.
The embrace was heavy with everything you had not allowed yourself to feel—the nights you had mourned him, the rage you had swallowed, the exhaustion of holding your crown alone, the quiet ache of missing the only person who had ever made you feel seen without performance.
He gathered you into his arms without hesitation, one hand firm at your back, the other resting at your waist, holding you with a steadiness that made something inside your chest unclench at last, and when your cheek pressed against him you felt the solid warmth of his body, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath fabric and skin, real and grounding and alive.
And for the first time in months, you were not calculating outcomes, not measuring words for danger, not bracing for betrayal.
You were simply held, loved.
The realization crept over you slowly, almost frightening in its gentleness, and your fingers tightened in the fabric at his back as though testing whether he would vanish if you loosened your grip. But he did not.
You pulled back only enough to look at him abd his hands did not leave you.
Your faces were close now—close enough that you could feel the warmth of his breath against your mouth, close enough that the world outside the room felt distant and irrelevant, and when you looked into his eyes there was no emperor there—only Paul, watching you with an intensity that was consuming but careful.
As though he understood that this was the moment you were choosing him again—not out of desperation, not out of habit, but with full awareness of who he had become and who you had been forced to become beside him.
You looked into his eyes once more, and he looked back without distraction, without distance, his gaze wholly fixed on you—on the exact curve of your face, the faint tension still lingering in your brow, the softness returning slowly to your mouth. His eyes drifted down to your lips as though drawn there by instinct, then lifted again to meet your gaze, then back to your lips once more, not hurried or greedy, but deliberate, as if memorizing the permission unfolding in you.
And when the space between you felt too charged to hold any longer, you closed it.
You found his mouth and pressed yours to his with a certainty that startled even you, and the kiss was nothing like the first.
This one carried weight and months of restraint and buried longing, carried grief transfigured into something warmer, deeper, steadier.
There was no hesitation in him, he received it fully, as though he had been waiting not for the kiss itself but for the choice behind it.
And when his lips moved against yours it was with a controlled intensity that made your breath falter.
It burned—not wild or reckless, but slow and consuming, a heat that spread through you with deliberate insistence.
And when you finally broke the kiss it was only by inches, your lips still brushing his as though reluctant to surrender the contact, your breath mingling with his as you whispered the truth that had lived in you long before either of you had been torn apart.
“I love you, Paul.”
He exhaled sharply, almost imperceptibly, as though something inside him had shifted into alignment, and for a fleeting second you saw it in his expression—the way the truth of your love reached somewhere within him, not dissolving his burdens, not erasing what he carried, but easing the sharpest edge of it, like water poured over something long overheated.
He kissed you again, and this time there was depth to it, a measured intensity that unfolded slowly rather than exploded, his hand steady at your back as he drew you closer without urgency, without losing control.
You answered him instinctively, your hands rising to cup his face, your thumb brushing along his cheek before sliding to the side of his neck, feeling the warmth beneath your palm, the living strength there, your fingers drifting down the line of his collarbone and back upward again into the dark curls at the nape of his neck.
The world beyond him blurred until it no longer felt real.
Time did not stop—it narrowed, sharpened, focused entirely on the quiet exchange of breath and heat between you, and for one suspended stretch of seconds it felt as though nothing else existed.
Nothing else.
Not the throne, not the war, not the future waiting to unfold.
When the kiss finally slowed, it did so gradually, your lips parting with reluctance, your foreheads nearly touching as you remained close enough to feel the warmth radiating from him.
There were still things unsaid, still truths that would demand their time, but one of them pressed too insistently to be postponed.
“Stay by my side,” Paul said, his voice low and steady, his face so near that the faint scatter of freckles across his skin looked almost like stars against the night. “Here—with me.”
You frowned, not in rejection but in confusion, the reality of his request settling into you with quiet weight. He was not a man who spoke carelessly. Every word from him had already passed through layers of thought and foresight.
“How can I stay in a place that kills me?” you asked softly.
A pause followed—he did not answer immediately.
Instead, he looked at you as though committing the sight of you to memory—the way your expression held both strength and fear and the way the desert had changed you too, the way you stood before him now unguarded and yet unyielding.
His hand remained at your waist, his thumb moving almost absently against the fabric there, and in his eyes you saw calculation not of politics or war, but of you—of the path you might walk, of the transformation still waiting, of the version of yourself that had not yet emerged.
It was the look of a man who stood in more than one moment at once.
Then, without warning, Paul turned.
You blinked, confused, because nothing had broken the silence yet, no sound had disturbed the air, and yet he had shifted a heartbeat too soon, as though responding to something that had not happened.
A knock came a breath later.
“My lady,” Cassian’s voice followed, slightly strained despite its effort at composure, “the leader of a Fremen sietch has asked for a private meeting with you… along with the Emperor.”
The words settled heavily into the room, for you only. Paul was unaffected.
You felt your body tense instinctively, the fragile warmth between you threatened by the sudden intrusion of reality, of duty, of the world that never truly allowed peace.
Your gaze snapped to Paul, searching his face for explanation, for warning. But he only turned back to you slowly.
And he smiled, barely, softly. An all-knowing curve of his mouth that came dangerously close to mourning expression, the expression of someone who had already seen the thread weaving itself into place.
He hadn't answered your question. He wasn't going to, anyway. You'll find out soon.
He took your hand then, lifting it with deliberate calm, his fingers warm and steady around yours, and brought your knuckles to his lips. The kiss he pressed there was unhurried, reverent, lingering just long enough to steady your racing pulse rather than inflame it.
And when he released your hand and left the room, the warmth remained.
Your heart began to race long before you understood why.
The moment you crossed the threshold, something in the air shifted, and your body sensed it before your mind could name it. The doors shut behind you with a final, echoing weight that felt less like wood meeting stone and more like a seal closing over a tomb, the sound reverberating through your spine. Cassian remained outside despite the protest written across his face, and the knowledge that he would not be permitted to enter settled coldly in your chest.
The room was dim, lit only by a circular pane of thick glass set high into the wall, through which filtered a muted, dust-stained light that fell like a pale halo into the center of the chamber. The rest was shadow. The air was heavy with spice and incense, with something older than both, something ritualistic and sacred and irreversible.
Ceremonial.
Lady Jessica sat already robed in the immense, layered fabrics of a Reverend Mother, the dark cloth draping around her like the folds of an ancient altar. Even through the thickness of the material her near-term pregnancy was visible. Her eyes found you immediately, sharp and penetrating, not unkind but unyielding, and though she did not speak, you felt measured and assessed.
You recognized another presence then, Stilgar. The memory of him leaving Duke Leto’s council chamber flickered through you, but he did not look at you as he once had.
Now his gaze held expectancy, reverence, and something almost feverish, as though he had been waiting for this moment long before you ever imagined it could exist.
And then there was Paul.
He stood at the apex of the room, elevated slightly above the others, not by arrogance but by placement and design, and the sight of him struck something uneasy inside you. He did not merely look like a leader, he looked like an axis around which the room revolved, still and commanding, his posture composed with a gravity that made the air seem to lean toward him. The reverence was palpable—thick as scent, almost visible in the way the others oriented themselves around him.
You tried to steady your breathing, but the filtering mask constricted you, the faint hiss of its mechanism growing louder in your ears as your pulse accelerated. Each inhale felt insufficient, each exhale shallow. You did not move further than halfway into the chamber, an inexplicable instinct holding you back, a prey-sense that prickled along your skin and whispered that crossing fully into the circle would mean surrendering something you could not reclaim.
Before you could speak, Stilgar stepped forward.
He began to chant in a language you did not yet understand, low and harsh, each syllable falling with ritual precision. He gestured to the women standing near Jessica, clad in similarly ancient fabrics, their faces partially veiled, their movements deliberate and controlled. The room stirred with contained agitation—murmured prayers, shifting feet, a rising hum of anticipation.
You turned sharply to Paul, your eyes seeking him, letting your worry show without disguise, demanding explanation without words.
What you found in his expression made your stomach tighten.
There was no warmth in it, no reassurance.
There was grief, he looked burdened.
Your breathing quickened, chest rising faster now beneath the mask as unease sharpened into fear. You scanned the room again, the flicker of movement at your periphery making you flinch, and then one of the women approached you holding a small, round glass vial filled with a blue liquid so luminous it seemed to glow from within.
The room seemed to tilt. Paul descended from his place at the apex and walked toward you, and though he came closer, it was not the intimacy of before, it was measured, restrained, as though he were already bracing himself.
“Muad’Dib has spoken,” Stilgar announced, his voice carrying reverence that bordered on ecstasy. “That it is today... the Witness will awaken.”
Witness? The word struck you as foreign and ominous.
You looked at Stilgar, then at Jessica, whose calm, knowing expression made dread bloom fully in your chest.
“What?” you breathed, and suddenly the mask became unbearable, suffocating, the sensation of ignorance tightening like a vice around your lungs. You tore it off in a single motion, gulping in the thick, spice-laden air as though drowning.
“Paul, what’s going on!?” you asked, and this time you could not conceal the tremor in your voice.
The woman holding the vial stepped closer.
“Drink,” she urged.
You recoiled instantly, shaking your head, instinct overriding ceremony. Your gaze flew back to Paul, fear rising fast and sharp, a terrible thought clawing through you—that this was strategy, that the tenderness you had just shared had been a careful prelude, that you had been guided gently into the jaws of something you had not agreed to.
Paul moved closer, stopping just within reach.
“Take the poison,” he said quietly, and the words were not commanded—they were carved from something painful. His eyes locked onto yours, and then—
His voice entered your mind.
“If you want to be with me, here.”
The sound of him within your own awareness sent a shock through you, startling and intimate and terrifying all at once, and you realized with chilling clarity that this was no longer merely ritual.
This was a choice. Yours.
Your gaze dropped to the vial.
“What is it?” you whispered, your fingers trembling.
The women began chanting louder now, voices layering upon one another in a language that rolled like sandstorm winds through the chamber. Some fell to their knees. Others bowed their heads. You caught fragments you could understand—Mahdi, paradise, water, witness—woven between sacred syllables that reverberated in your bones.
“Mahdi, show us the way…”
“Our green paradise… the water frees the soul…”
“Muad’Dib’s witness… rise…”
The room pulsed with worship.
Paul spoke again.
And this time his voice was his—and not his—echoing with something vast beneath it, like an ocean of bloodlines speaking through a single mouth.
“Drink.”
And in that instant, something in you stilled.
The fear did not vanish, but it quieted, as though part of you already stood at the edge of what was coming and understood there was no turning back.
You took the vial from the woman’s hand yourself. The glass felt cool against your fingers.
You lifted it and you drank.
The liquid slid down your throat, sweet and strangely metallic, and for a heartbeat nothing happened. Your mind floated, detached, suspended in a strange and hollow clarity where thought did not fracture or panic—it simply existed.
Then the rupture came.
Air vanished—violently.
Your lungs seized as though crushed from within, your heart slamming against your ribs with brutal force, each beat exploding in your ears like war drums. Heat surged through your veins, not warmth but fire, spreading outward from your chest into your limbs, into your skull, into your eyes until it felt as though they might burst from their sockets.
Your organs felt as though submerged in acid, melting, convulsing.
You tried to inhale and found nothing, your throat closed around emptiness.
You heard him.
“Look into the place you dare not look.”
His voice cut through the storm tearing through your body, impossibly clear against the chaos of rupturing vessels and cracking bone. Your vision splintered, red bleeding into black as capillaries burst in your eyes, the taste of iron flooding your mouth as blood spilled from your nose in twin streams.
Your body convulsed and you fell but hands caught you before the ground could.
You could not tell if you were screaming or if the sound only existed inside your skull, because the pain was everywhere at once, total and obliterating, your spine arching as though lightning had taken residence within it.
And through the blur—You looked at Paul.
Through blood and darkness and shattering pain, you saw him.
Grieving.
“Look,” his voice echoed inside you, steady and relentless.
“And you will see me staring back.”
Notes:
Hey :)
I'm so sorry for the long leave. What started as holidays prep turned into studying for my exams (which lasted for a month but i passed with very good grades, i'm actually proud). But after my exams, i was so exhausted mentally and detached from the story, i couldn't even remember some plot points from my story and i didn't have the time and energy to re-read my fic to keep the story right. Also had some family drama. And had to fix up some legal necessities. However, i did do it at some point in February and wrote this. However, i am usually only satisfied with at lest 10k worth of words for a chapter, but this was taking too long and i was feeling the pressure of leaving you all dry, so i decided i would post this and come back fresh with the last three chapters.
My fear is not messing up the ending, turning it into an unsatisfying, bitter taste by the end of the story, which honestly i have no backbone for. I originally had an ideea but i don't feel confident about it anymore.
I might include one last plot twist, deal with some unresolved plotholes and unnanswered questions and thats it.
I hope this would do for now, i'll come back quickly, i promise.
Thank you all so much for the support, for the comments (which i haven't answered to yet, both on Tumblr and on AOE, but i will take my time this week to answer.) I appreciate you all and you have been the ones fuelling me to keep going.
I am so so so so sorry!!! I apologize for my inactivity!
I just entered my first exam session and I had a huge exam last Friday and I’m now studying for the other one which is Monday. I really didn’t have time to write! Chapter 17 is unfortunately about only 30% ready and because I focused on studying, I could write.
But I will try to post next weekend! After I take my exam, I’ll have a breather (I hope) and I will get back to work.
Thank you for everyone worrying about me and happy new years! Please have patience with me! I am quite a bit stressed for my exams and I’m trying to be disciplined and organized but I’m not doing that good of a job…
Quick update that I am not dead and I’ve been working hard on chapter 17. I’m being very careful with it and that’s one reason for why it is taking this much time. I don’t want to rush just for the sake of posting it.
This story is very dear to me and i don’t want to rush it. I want to keep the right pacing and hit that sweet spot just right, at the right time.
Thank you for your support and your patience! Please stay tuned and I can’t wait to show you what’s next!
P.s I’ll make a post with a tag list soon that I’ll update when needed and keep it pinned.
Content warnings:
Violence, graphic death, emotionally intense scenes, dark thoughts, trauma, grief, heartbreak, psychological deterioration, high-stakes tension, heavy angst, and a plot-dense chapter that requires patience, 16K words.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
“They didn’t take the bait, my lord! How could they have known?”
A Fremen’s voice, raw and trembling, cracked through the still, blistering air.
Around them, the survivors moved among the bodies—some groaning, others still, dead. Sand drank the blood of the fallen—a waste of water—even the more reason to sulk, and the wind carried the silence of death.
Paul stood at the center of it all, his stillsuit flecked with dust. The desert light caught the edge of his face, hollowing his expression into something carved by conflict rather than victory.
Gurney watched him closely. “She figured it out...” he muttered under his breath, his voice gravel low.
Paul didn’t respond. His gaze drifted past the wreckage, far into the horizon—as if the desert itself whispered an accusation only he could hear. To Gurney, it was clear: Paul saw more than any man should, and yet right now, he looked struck, caught between revelation and disbelief.
The loss wasn’t only of men. Something in him had shifted.
“Usul, we must leave this place,” said Chani, her voice composed but taut with urgency. “They might come back to attack again. We’re weaker now.”
Her presence cut through the dusty haze like a blade. She moved with the essence of a Fedaykin—every gesture efficient, honed. Her eyes held the edge of someone who had survived by instinct and tact.
Paul turned slightly at the sound of her voice, but did not meet her eyes.
“She won’t come back,” he said, his tone too soft, too knowing. His eyes lowered to the sands, his expression unreadable. “I know that.”
The answer hung in the air like dust after an explosion. Chani said nothing more but something flickered in her gaze, quick and quiet—something she swallowed before it could reach the surface.
And Paul saw it but couldn’t bear to meet it.
He looked instead toward the bodies being carried toward the rocks, already wrapped into the moisture-containing fabrics, the way the Fremen mourned in silence, their grief measured and restrained. They had lost men today and to him, it felt personal. Because this wasn’t just a failed trap.
It was you.
“Why come here and harvest spice?” Gurney murmured, more to himself than to Paul. But Paul didn’t move, didn’t blink. He only stood there, listening to the wind hiss through the dunes, as if the desert mocked him for not foreseeing it.
But then again—he never had visions of you in the dessert so why would he see it now?
A presence stirred within him, familiar yet cruel—like an unseen hand pressing against his mind, urging him to look deeper, further. It whispered of paths unwalked, of truths buried beneath time. It wanted him to see more. To seek more.
Paul clenched his jaw, forcing the vision back into the dark. The air around him seemed to hum with defiance as he whispered inwardly, almost in prayer:
I must not go south.
“The sun’s setting,” Paul said finally, his voice returning to command though the steadiness was forced. “We’ll cross the dunes and make camp. At first light, we go back to Sietch Tabr.”
His tone was final. The Fremen obeyed without a word.
As they dispersed, Gurney cast him a long, sidelong glance. There was something fractured in the young duke’s silence, something raw. But he didn’t ask.
And Chani, walking a few steps behind him, couldn’t shake the faint, gnawing unease twisting inside her chest—an instinct she couldn’t name. It wasn’t the loss that troubled her most. It was the way Paul had spoken once that name in silence. The way his voice had softened, if only for a moment.
They left the site as if nothing had ever happened—such was the skill of the Fremen. Even the sand seemed to settle back into its place, erasing every trace of chaos, every sign of battle. It was as though no worm had ever passed beneath, no death had ever echoed through the dunes. Nothing remained to speak of the moment.
What had you done to deserve this life? Was it already too late to give it all back? How different would things be if you had never been highborn, if you had been born a mere girl with no title, no legacy to carry?
You pictured that other life often lately: no Bene Gesserit mission, no Harkonnen marriage, no webs of politics and plans within plans into more plans. You would have been free, living small, careless, happy in ways this world had denied you.
And yet you would most likely never have met Paul. The thought tightened the knot inside you: freedom versus the single irreplaceable loss.
Paul is irreplaceable.
The bath was a stark contradiction to Arrakis’ scorching glare. Water here was a rarity, a treasure everyone on that planet spent their lives defending, and yet you let yourself indulge in the royal luxury of living under the Harkonnen name. They did not care, they simply had the wealth.
Warm water soothed the soreness in your muscles; the privacy calmed the edges of your body but it did nothing for the scream in your mind.
The sound that would not stop was not a sound but a fact. He was alive.
You had lived and acted on the lie of his death. Every scheme, every alliance, the bargains with the Bene Gesserit, the plans to secure your place in the Imperium, all of it justified in your mind as being done in his name. The revelation tore that justification to shreds.
You had become, by your own hands, the very betrayal you had sworn never to be.
How pitiful that felt. How utterly wrong. What now? Continue as if nothing had happened? How would you face him if chance brought you into the same space again?
Did he know you wore Feyd Rautha’s name? How would he look at you when he learned what you did?
Longing for Paul had a new, heavier weight now—heavier than the grief that had once steadied you. The choice that once felt righteous now tasted like ash. You could not tell if seeing him again would be salvation or complete ruin. Would he call you traitor? Would he turn away? Or would the sight of him reduce you to nothing, and perhaps that nothing would be mercy?
Will he end me?
You pressed your face into your hands and fought the urge to sob. Instead, a long, ragged sigh left you as you rose from the bath. Wrapping a towel around yourself brought no comfort—it did nothing to dry the weight of doubt clinging to your skin.
Soon you would step out of that sanctuary and once again face the man whose very presence hollowed you out, whose narcissistic, sadistic nature threatened not only your life but the legacy you fought hard to keep every day.
The walls seemed to press closer, forcing a decision you had no wish to make yet. Run now, before the net drew tighter. Run before escape became impossible and become nothing in the imperium. Or pay the price of a life with your very own. Each moment you delayed made the choice heavier, harder.
You opened the door to your chamber, a room dressed as a bedroom, but to you no more than a prison with a gilded bed. The light was fabricated, cold, stripped of color. It did not warm, it only exposed.
Privacy, too, had been stripped from you when you married into the Harkonnens. That truth pressed on your skin like unseen eyes, so you dressed with quick, nervous hands, every gesture rushed, as if shadows themselves were watching.
Your gaze caught on the bruises staining your neck—once purple, now fading into a sickly brown. They spoke louder than any words could, a cruel reminder of your reality. You could do nothing about them, fighting back only ever earned you more.
What would Paul think if he saw them? The thought alone stole your breath. He would look at you and see defilement, not the woman he once knew. You would see it in his eyes—disgust, pity, distance.
The realization hollowed you. You felt your worth bleed out with every breath, until there was nothing left but the ache of what you’d become. Your heart cracked beneath the weight of it all—this body, this vessel, touched by hands that dirtied everything they claimed.
“I didn’t think you’d come back—alive.”
The low, husky voice froze your blood. It slithered in from behind, cold shivers sparking across your spine, tears froze into your eyes as if even they were afraid to fall before him. Feyd entered like a snake, silent, unseen until it was too late.
“Well—I did.” You replied, forcing steadiness into your tone, masking the unease by brushing your hair before the mirror. His reflection appeared there, a pale phantom in black tactical wear, sickly skin stark against the fabric.
He did not speak at once. He only watched, expression unreadable, a faint trace of interest flickering behind eyes that were already plotting.
“You managed to get your carrier badly damaged already—still want your… thumbfull of spice?” His lips curled in a smirk, the mockery sharp.
“It was worth it. We still managed to harvest. My men are repairing the carrier as we speak. It’ll be as good as new in a few days.” You set the brush down sharply on the vanity and turned.
“Now, if you’ll excuse me—I would like to finish my--”
He moved in a flash. One step and his frame filled your vision, towering, blocking out the room, his chest puffed into your face. His sickly gaze devoured you whole.
“Tchk, tchk… no, no, no.” He shook his head slowly, almost playfully. “Don’t leave me, I just came here!”
His bare fingers hovered close to your face. You nearly flinched as his touch brushed your skin. You did not ask where, or why, or what he wanted—you already knew not to expect logic from him but madness. Instead, you held his stare with every scrap of strength you had, mustering steel from fear. You had no blade, but perhaps resolve would be enough to stall him.
“I just want to talk!” His lips twisted into a smile that made him look more unhinged. He gestured loosely, head tilting in mockery, as if you were the unreasonable one.
Your breath shuddered out in disbelief. There was no predicting him—his moods spun on a knife’s edge, his madness impossible to anticipate.
He dragged a chair close and motioned for you to sit. When you hesitated, he pressed down hard on your shoulders, forcing you into it.
You called upon every Bene Gesserit technique you knew, steadying your heartbeat, anchoring your mind. Your chin lifted slowly, deliberately, until your gaze locked with his. His presence pressed down on you, suffocating, overpowering. Every movement, every breath of his carried danger. Dominant, erratic, unreadable.
You swallowed against the dryness in your throat before summoning your voice, soft and airy, careful not to provoke.
“What would you wish us to talk about?”
“Hm.” His hand traced down your cheek to your jaw—slow, deceptively gentle. He had a smile on his face.
Then, without warning, his grip snapped tight around your throat. Your eyes widened. Air caught in your chest. Pressure crushed your windpipe, and it felt as though your very eyes would burst.
“I just came,” he said, voice dripping with mockery. “To talk to my dear wife.”
You might have widened your eyes at his words—if they weren’t already bulging, straining against your skull. Your jaw locked, muscles trembling as your fingers clawed at his wrist, desperate for relief. But his grip didn’t falter. He held you with practiced precision—just enough to keep you conscious, just enough to make you suffer.
“Yes… let’s talk,” he purred, voice raspy and low, leaning closer, his breath cold against your skin. “Tell me—how was your little sand play? Got hurt anywhere?”
He smirked as he lifted you by your throat, forcing your body to obey him, your toes barely grazing the floor. His hand pressed cruelly against the fading bruises, deepening them, marking you anew.
“Let me look for a second,” he sneered, his voice slick with mockery. His other hand shot out, catching your wrist and yanking it upward until your arm trembled under the force. He held it close to his eyes, as if inspecting a broken toy. His grin widened, feigned admiration stretching across his face like a cruel performance.
“Surprisingly clean,” he murmured, turning your hand in the light. “For someone who just lost half her team already.” His tone dripped venom, his amusement cutting deeper than the bruises forming on your neck. “Do you have experience or something?”
He let your hand fall to your side like a discarded piece of trash. Then, slowly—painfully slow—he loosened his grip on your throat, just enough to let air scrape through. You coughed, gasping for breath, the reprieve only a new form of torture.
“Since you’re so clever,” Feyd whispered, leaning closer. His head tilted with boyish curiosity, but his eyes gleamed with something monstrous. “Tell me, woman—how would you kill them?”
You looked up at him through the haze of light and pain, the tendons in your neck burning under his touch. You met his gaze—deliberately, defiantly—and your hatred bled through your expression. For a heartbeat, your eyes said everything your strangled voice could not.
He smirked, delighted. “I think you didn’t quite catch what I meant to say.”
Your body trembled, but your mind sharpened. Bene Gesserit training flooding in through the chaos. Your thoughts slowed, your heart rate dropped, and you began to prepare for the only defense left to you: the stillness of death. To silence every pulse and whisper in your body until you were nothing but a corpse in waiting. If you could fool him into thinking you were gone, he’d leave. And you’d rise again when the time was right.
But then his voice came again, soft and deliberate, the kind of quiet that promised violence.
“I’ll say It again,” he said, his smile curving like a blade, “Give me an ideea—to kill them! Many of them!” The words slithered off his tongue like poison, his smile was evil.
His grip tightened once more. Your body convulsed, lungs clawing for air that wouldn’t come. Black dots swarmed your vision. You felt your pulse thundering beneath his fingers, your consciousness flickering at the edges.
You tried to speak — only a wet, broken gurgle escaped.
That sound caught his attention. He leaned in, his face mere inches from yours, curiosity etched into the tension around his mouth.
“What?” he asked, voice suddenly flat, controlled.
You forced the words out, strangled between gasps. “Deal… with it… yourself!”
For a moment, silence hung heavy. Feyd’s face emptied of emotion, a void that frightened you more than his rage. Then—
He released you. Abruptly.
You staggered back, catching your weight on the chair before you could collapse completely. The air rushed back into your lungs, raw and violent, making you choke.
Then everything went white.
A sharp crack split through the room—he had slapped you. Hard. The sound echoed before the pain even registered. You hit the floor, cheek flaming, head ringing. For a heartbeat, you lay there, stunned, the taste of iron on your tongue.
Then came the heat. The slow, rising tide of fury.
Your chest heaved. Your heart pounded in your ears. Anger, pure and electric, surged through your veins. Tears stung your eyes—not from sorrow, but from rage. You turned toward him, still on your knees, glaring up at him with eyes that screamed vengeance.
The sound of his boots thudded through the silence. He approached, crouched beside you with predatory ease, tilting his head as though examining something fragile, pitiful.
“And here I was,” he said softly, mock sympathy dripping from every word, “giving you freedom to choose.” He smiled—a dead, cold thing. “We could’ve made a great team.”
Your nostrils flared at the insult. You lifted your chin despite yourself—small, futile defiance, but it was all you had left. His expression darkened at that.
He caught your face between his fingers, thumb digging into your jaw, forcing your cheeks together. “Still proud, hm?” he murmured, leaning closer, his breath hot against your skin. “Still pretending you’re above me?”
You wanted to speak—to curse him, to spit, to bite—but all that came out was breath, trembling and silent. You stared at him, not as prey to predator, but as something far more dangerous—the quiet before the storm.
“You can make up for that.” He sighed as if disapointed. “Tomorrow morning I plan my first attack, and you will be there. If you don’t bring me the brightest idea in the universe, don’t bother coming at all—expect death instead.”
He rose with a bored deliberation, the sound of his boots like a verdict. He paused only once at the door, turning so that the lamplight carved his profile into a hard, sickly silhouette. A last smile—too calm, too pleased—played at his mouth, then he strode from the room and shut the world behind him.
You stayed on the floor, the sting on your cheek a hot, white brand. The silence that followed was worse than noise: it pressed and widened and filled the chamber with the memory of his hand and the echo of his words. Breath came in jagged pulls, each one a reminder that you had answered him with your cowardly truth and not with the cunning you had meant to keep for yourself.
Your throat ached where his fingers had crushed the air out of you; your neck throbbed where new bruises were already melting into old. The room seemed to lean inward, the gilded comforts of the Harkonnen keep mocking you from a distance. For a long minute you simply lay there and let the shame roll through you like cold water—an animal rinsed of dignity.
When the corridor’s echoes finally died, you rose on trembling knees, pressed your palms against the floor to steady yourself, and began the slow, quiet work of putting your face back on.
Paul saw your face for the first time in what felt like an eternity—painted in the haze of a vision that shimmered between dream and memory. Everything around him was too bright, bleached by a scorching light that seemed to melt the horizon.
The wind came first—soft, soothing—like the breath of the desert itself. He could hear it sweeping the dunes, brushing grains of spice-sand that glittered like gold dust through the air.
The sound lulled him, made him think of peace.
And then—he heard your voice.
“Paul.”
The syllable drifted like smoke, delicate, tender, almost reverent. His eyes closed on instinct, a tremor passing through his chest as he let the sound of your voice wash over him. It reached beneath his ribs, pulling at his heart, a sound that brought him peace.
When he opened his eyes again, you were standing on the crest of a dune before him. The desert light wrapped around you like silk. You were dressed in white, the fabric alive with wind—flowing, luminous, as though the breeze itself worshipped you. Your hair was loose, tousled by the wind, and within its strands shimmered flecks of spice that caught the light like stars.
You were radiant. Unreachable. And for one suspended heartbeat, Paul thought that perhaps this was mercy—to see you again, even if only here, even if it wasn’t real.
But then he saw your eyes and they were wrong.
Blue within blue.
A jolt passed through him—wrong, impossible to you. His brow furrowed, his breath quickened. You were not supposed to be here, not like this.
He took a step toward you, his voice caught in his throat, but you only smiled—slowly, faintly, almost peacefully—and turned your head toward the horizon.
The wind rose with a sudden howl, carrying the taste of ash and metal.
Paul followed your gaze.
There, far across the dunes, the light gathered into something monstrous. A rising sun that wasn’t a sun. A blinding, white-hot bloom clawed its way into the sky, swallowing the desert whole. The shockwave came in slowed time later—a dull, thunderous boom that cracked the air and turned the sand over itself.
There, a slender figure stood and it dawned on him soon.
“No!”
He ran through the burning dunes, heat licking at his face. He didn’t know how he moved—only that he had to reach her.
Chani.
She stood with her back to him. The world folded inward—sound died—and when Paul caught her, her body fell into his arms like something already lost. Her skin was blistered, her face unrecognizable beneath the melted flesh and burning skin.
“Chani—” his voice broke, raw and desperate.
He looked up, wild-eyed, searching for you.
You were still standing where he’d left you, untouched, unreal, watching him. The desert wind played with your dress, lifting it in slow, graceful waves. A faint, serene smile touched your lips. It wasn’t cruel, nor kind—it was quiet. Content.
As though this—this destruction—was exactly what was meant to happen.
And in that moment, Paul’s heart split in two. One half reaching toward you, the ghost of the woman he still loved. The other clutching the burnt body of the woman who had never stopped fighting for him.
He did not understand.
When Paul woke, the world seemed fragile. For a few quiet seconds, the dim tent around him felt like something dreamt—woven from silence and fabric, the cool scent of stillsuit material grounding him in half-reality. His breathing was uneven, the echo of your voice still lodged somewhere in his chest.
He sat up sharply.
The dream had been more than a dream.
He knew that in an instant. The pulse in his veins was still racing with that same dread that had followed him through the vision—fire, loss.
He pushed himself to his feet, stumbling slightly as he tore through the tent’s veil and stepped outside. What met him was chaos: the sharp noise of Fremens’ voices tangled in confusion, the sharp ring of metal, the vibration of something terrible stirring in the distance.
Paul turned slowly, eyes flicking from one figure to another, trying to separate memory from the present. Gurney appeared beside him, shoulders squared and bewilderment written plainly across his face.
“What the hell!?”
Paul barely heard him. His gaze had already fixed on a lone figure standing at the ridge of a nearby dune. A slim silhouette outlined by the violent shimmer of light.
“Chani!”
He ran, his feet sinking into the sand as he climbed, the dry wind biting at his lungs. The roar of an explosion tore through the air—smaller than the one he had dreamt of, but close enough to make the earth tremble beneath him.
When he reached the crest, relief struck him first. Chani’s face was unburned, unmarked and she was alive.
She didn’t turn when he stopped behind her. She stood there, frozen, eyes wide as if staring into something that couldn’t be undone. Far across the horizon, black ships sliced the sky—descending like blades. A rain of fire fell upon the stone shelter below.
“Sietch Tabr…” Paul whispered. The words caught in his throat.
The impact flashes bloomed in slow succession, turning the rocks into burning blossoms. For a long moment, there existed only light and sound.
Chani turned then, her lips parted, eyes wet with disbelief. In that instant she seemed smaller, fragile. She threw herself into his arms without a word, trembling. Paul steadied her automatically—his hand on her back, the other on her shoulder, feeling her heartbeat against his chest and he held her because she needed it.
Her grief pressed against him like heat, desperate and human. But behind his stillness, a thousand other thoughts unfurled—visions, fragments, possibilities.
He stared over her shoulder at the burning horizon with a pained expression and whispered something soft, almost inaudible—comforting words he did not entirely feel as Chani wept into his chest, believing the silence between them was shared sorrow.
But Paul’s heart was heavier with thoughts of you—your image lingering like a ghost at the edge of his vision—and the gnawing truth that he had not foreseen this. The weight of his blindness pressed harder than the grief around him and so he understood that his sight was incomplete.
He felt it then—the terrible knowing—that to see fully, to grasp the shape of what was to come, he would have to surrender himself to that darkness.
And in the hollow of that understanding, he prayed—desperately—that it was not you who had stained their hands with the death of his sietch.
“Old-fashioned artillery—genius.”
The Baron’s morbid rasp echoed through the molten-black chamber, a voice thick with rot and satisfaction. His laughter bounced off the obsidian walls like the hiss of a dying machine. Around him, rows of spice-dazed Mentats chanted in a low, mechanical hum, their repetition a mockery of thought—calculations flickering across the holo-map of Arrakis.
A crimson glow rippled across the terrain projection, marking the rocky canyons where, somehow, Feyd had discovered the hidden refuge of Sietch Tabr.
At his uncle’s praise, Feyd turned his head slightly, his smirk curling as his gaze slid to you. You didn’t need his voice to hear him. Well done, pet.The words slithered through your mind with cruel intimacy.
You stood tall despite yourself—hands clasped neatly before your abdomen, clad in a high-collared black dress that covered every inch of your skin. The bruises at your neck throbbed beneath the cloth, purple not yet fading to yellow.
You had entered the room this morning with hatred burning under your ribs and something colder beneath it: guilt. The Baron had not so much as looked at you. It was as if you didn’t exist. And perhaps that was for the best.
Because you had existed in the moment that led to this. You had spoken words you did not mean, made plans you wished to undo.
The Fremen did not deserve this.
“You may leave, woman.” Feyd’s tone was almost sweet, false honey coating the venom beneath. Like a master releasing a pet from its leash.
You didn’t speak. You didn’t even bow.
You turned and walked away, the sound of your footsteps swallowed by the hum of the war room. But as the door sealed behind you, you could feel his smirk on your back—its heat, its ownership.
And behind you, Raban entered—oblivious to the fate that awaited him in the shadow of that same molten room.
You left the quarters in such a hurry that the hood of your dress slipped from your head, and the clips that held your hair in place loosened, spilling a cascade of strands down your back. It was as if your body rebelled alongside your soul—unraveling, freeing itself from the grasp of that perverse, sadistic monster you called a betrothed.
Your boots struck the cold grey floors in sharp, echoing bursts that chased through the metallic corridors. The sound was the rhythm of your fury—uneven, breathless, suffocating. Each step was a rebellion, each gasp a tremor of rage barely held inside.
You were raging in silence.
From a side corridor, Cassian appeared—tall, sharp-eyed, his expression instantly tightening at the sight of you. He didn’t need to ask. He knew the scent of danger, the tremor of pain in your movements.
He fell into step beside you, cautious, respectful. “My lady,” he began softly, his voice a balm against the echoing chaos of your mind. “Our troops are ready for travel from our homeworld. Estimated arrival is two standard days from the signal.”
You didn’t respond. Couldn’t. Your throat was tight, your chest rising and falling too fast. Words were impossible when all that swelled inside you was grief—black and furious and molten.
Cassian’s brow furrowed. He had seen you angry before, seen you bloodied and cunning, even defeated—but never like this. This was something else. Something hollow.
The door to your private study came into view, and you nearly ran to it, your steps quickening with desperate purpose. The thought of privacy, of finally being alone, clawed at your lungs. You entered the room without ceremony, without grace, slamming the door open so hard it rebounded against the wall. Cassian followed, quieter, closing it behind him.
Three seconds passed.
“TO HELL WITH FEYD-RAUTHA!”
The words tore from your chest, raw and feral. They shattered the silence, echoed against the steel and marble, a scream born of humiliation and hate and grief. Tears burned down your cheeks before you could stop them; your lips trembled, your breath broke. You pressed a hand to your mouth but the sound escaped anyway, small and fractured, like a dying star.
Cassian froze, his heart splintering at the sight. You—the woman he loved since her youth—now stood trembling, broken by something he couldn’t fight. His arms itched to pull you close, to protect you from the world, but he dared not. He could only stand there, helpless, watching the ruin of the person he swore to defend.
Minutes passed in silence. You gasped for air between sobs, your pulse hammering against the bruises on your neck. The marks throbbed with each heartbeat—a reminder of your captivity, of the chains that no crown could hide.
Finally, you spoke.
“It’s over.”
Cassian looked up so quickly the word snapped against him like a blade. “My lady?” His tone was gentle, disbelief threaded through it.
You met his eyes—hollow, trembling—and the confession spilled out of you like blood.
“I will soon be expected to present a child to the Bene Gesserit… which I do not have. Nor do I ever wish to have. I cannot be caught by them.” Your breath came ragged; your fingers dug into the edge of the desk as if it were the only thing keeping you from falling.
You drew in a shaky, steadying breath and dropped the bomb.
“I’m going to assassinate the Baron and his nephews. I’ll use our troops as a diversion. They’ll think we rise against them, they’ll be distracted. I’m sure of that.”
Cassian’s breath hitched. The words sounded like you, and not-you at the same time; like steel wrapped in velvet. This was not the calm strategist he knew.
“My lady… I—I don’t understand—” he stammered.
You rose, each movement deliberate, the quiet discipline of someone preparing for their own ending. You crossed the room and took his hand. The touch was small but fierce, an insistence that he look at you properly.
“No matter what I do,” you whispered, voice thin, “I will lose it all.”
Cassian’s eyes flicked across your face, searching for some angle that would make sense, some logic that could be plucked like a key from a lock. He found only ruin and the tremor of your resolve. He shook his head as if to dislodge the idea itself.
“No… no, you can’t mean that,” he said, low and urgent.
You felt the world narrow until there was only one other revelation you could no longer hold inside. You steadied yourself against the desk again, letting go of his hand, breath slowing, and let the other truth fall.
“Paul is alive.”
The room inhaled with you. Cassian’s fists clenched; his breath went thin. Shock reconfigured his features into an animal stare—disbelief, then a flash of something harder.
“W-what—?” He began, but you cut him off.
“I saw him,” you said. The tears had dried on your cheeks; your voice steadied as control returned. “I recognized him.” The certainty in your words was not theatrical; it came from a place too deep to argue with.
“He didn’t hurt me.”
Cassian’s face betrayed another sudden motion of feeling—a quick hardness around the jaw, a small, bitter flare that betrayed the truth beneath his loyalty.
“Are you sure?” he asked, steadying himself on the edge of reason.
“Yes.” Your conviction calmed him; trust closed the small gap of doubt. Yet a prickle of something sharp remained in Cassian’s throat. He swallowed, forcing it down.
“What does this mean—for you?”
For us. He asked, the last words dying in his mouth, he couldn’t bear to voice them.
“I don’t know yet,” You sat slowly, forcing the Bene Gesserit control into place, measuring each heartbeat, each tremor of thought. “I haven’t had the peace to think this through fully…”
You let the training sift the noise. Emotion wanted to drown you; reason had to be the oar.
“Our betrothal is null,” you continued. “I am married to Feyd. I will not receive Atreides protection.” The words were small and terrible. You heard Cassian exhale a sound like grief.
“Not that Paul would help me now…not after what I have done,” you added, voice softer, almost ashamed.
Cassian’s response was practical, defensive—to steady you, perhaps to steady himself too.
“What power does he have? The Atreides were crushed. Even if he returns—what could he do? The Emperor will silence him.” The logic felt plausible but in your gut it tasted like ash. For a frightening instant, a thought breathed a dangerous warmth against your spine. The feeling of a terrible purpose.
“What if…Muad’Dib…is actually Paul?” you whispered, the words forming like a prophecy.
Ah, the familiar feeling of a terrible purpose stirring in you, once again.
You gulped. Cassian shivered. The thought landed with intolerable gravity. “I think truly, my lady… what a peculiar thought. “ He paused, words frozen in the air.
“And yet—your intuition has been right—more times than I can count.”
The small praise warmed you the way frost warms the skin—painfully. For a flicker, you remembered all the times visions that haunted you and the ghost of the Holy War.
The possibility glittered like a mirage, fragile and treacherous.
“Send the signal at dawn,” you told him, voice hardening in decision. “Secretly.” You rose and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder—a sign both of trust and of farewell.
“I have my plans,” you said. “If I fail, you know what to do at home.” The sincerity and the hollowness were equal in your eyes, Cassian read them both and felt cold. The meaning was clear: you expected a serious chance you might not return.
He stared at you, grief opening in his chest. “My lady—”
“I will deal with Feyd first,” you said, each word a blade. “If there is justice to be had, it begins there.”
You turned and walked away, your silhouette a thin cut against the light. Cassian remained, rooted, one hand still warm with yours, haunted now by the twin ghosts of what you’d said and what you might yet do.
Time had passed just as it should have for you—slow and heavy, carrying the weight of tragedy and torment on its back. Soon your troops would arrive, just as you had ordered, and if you chose your moment well, you might do more damage to the Harkonnens than they could ever anticipate. Maybe—if you chose right—you might even buy yourself some more time.
For what, though? You hadn’t yet figured out.
When you believed everything would turn out as ordinary as a day on Arrakis could be—it turned precisely the opposite.
For the Emperor had landed on Arrakis.
Unannounced. Unexpected. With all his army.
You didn’t even have time to savor the sight of Feyd disturbed for the first time—the rare, beautiful moment when things did not go his way. The sharp cut of disbelief on his face, the sudden fracture in his confidence, the way the air around him seemed to lose its arrogance for just a breath.
But there was no joy to take from it. This was too sudden, and it could not mean anything good. Certainly not for the Baron—but you weren’t so sure about yourself either. You hadn’t done anything to upset the Emperor, had you?
No… but the Sisterhood—
Your stomach dropped. Your heart began to pound, hard and uneven. Sweat gathered on your palms, slick and cold despite the heat. The color drained from your face as you watched the Emperor’s fleet descend—ships landing ceremonially upon the blazing sands, each movement calculated and deliberate, every formation perfect. It was a spectacle of power so grand that it almost looked peaceful—like a parade, not an invasion.
“What’s he doing here!?”
Feyd’s voice broke the silence, sharp and agitated. He strode toward his uncle, his tone rising with anger. “I brought spice production under control!”
The Baron, immense and eerily composed in his suspension chair, stared out across the balcony overlooking the desert, where the Emperor’s legions unfurled like a living tide. The faint hum of his suspensors filled the room like a whisper.
“What do we do?” Feyd asked, his voice rasped and tight with panic.
“Send messages to the Great Houses,” the Baron said, slow and low, his words deliberate and heavy. “Tell them we are under Sardaukar attack. Tell them their future hangs in the balance.”
You could read the tension in the air, thick and suffocating. Even the Baron—who never lost his sense of control—seemed unnerved.
But what would you do? The Reverend Mother would surely be there. She was the Emperor’s Truthsayer after all. Your future hung in the balance as well.
Standing there, watching the gold banners of House Corrino unfurl across the burning dunes, you felt the landscape close in—each ripple of heat a step toward some inevitable edge.
You realized, with a slow, sick clarity, that you had no idea how you were going to survive this—alive.
You carried no child. You were a walking lie to the Sisterhood, a palpable betrayal that would not go unanswered. The thought settled in your chest like a stone: perhaps death would be the kinder option. The idea of it came not as terror at first but as a sharp, private calculation—clean, final, a release from the knotted compromises that had become your life. Yet beneath that cold logic there was something darker: Paul. He was alive.
You needed out. Now.
“Come, woman.” Feyd’s command cut the air. He strode toward the exit with impatient grace. The Baron rotated in his suspensor chair and looked down at you with that omnious, greasy curiosity that had always made your skin crawl. His eyes were small, piggish, and incapable of genuine surprise; still, they bored into you with a disgust that pretended to be amusement. You flattened those reactions. You would not betray the tremor behind your ribs.
“You will not utter a single word when in front of the Emperor, understand me? Or I’ll be sure to have your head off.” The Baron’s voice was coarse, the threat casual as a cough.
He does not want me to rat on him that he hid spice reserves… the thought sharpened into a bitter edge. You forced a small, controlled laugh—part defiance and part mockery.
“Ah, but the Baron knows I’ve no word to tell. Surely, you’ve done no crime for the Emperor?” Your voice kept steady, sharp with a confidence you did not entirely feel.
The Baron’s face betrayed nothing. Bene Gesserit truthsense told you otherwise: agitation threaded under his composure, a sliver of panic at the Emperor’s sudden presence. You saw the edges of his calculations fray.
“Leave.” He said, grogily. You bowed slightly and turned, chest hollow with a dozen small deaths you did not yet name.
At the doorway, Feyd surprisingly waited. His expression was a blade folded; unreadable but precise. You met his look with a sternness that was more armor than feeling and slipped past, moving as quickly as decency allowed toward your quarters. You needed time—time to think, to breathe, to hold the edges of your panic together long enough to make sense of it.
Think—damn it, what am I supposed to do? The thought screamed inside you, a silent internal riot that you could not let anyone hear. Anxiety and purpose tangled until they were indistinguishable.
Cassian was in your study, hunched over a map of the basin bent under an unseen weight. The lamplight fell across his jaw, carved lines deeper into his face; he looked older in those moments, as if the desert had claimed not only his youth but whatever softness had once been there.
“Oh, Cassian—this is going to turn ugly.” You reached him, breathless. Your voice sounded thin to your own ears.
“I understand the situation.” he answered with the same purposeful calm you always admired. His steadiness was a rope you nearly reached for.
“Any insights?” you demanded, bargaining with the practical for a thread of hope.
“Our men have scouted the grounds,” he said, eyes not leaving the map. “There are at least ten Sardaukar battalions per side of the landing. We are outnumbered. Our troops will arrive soon—I believe the timing will be ideal for an emergency leave.”
The implication landed between you like cold water. Your eyes widened; the true meaning behind his words unfurled. He did not mince the question.
“You want me to flee? Use the troops as a cover?” you said, disbelief sharpening every syllable. A heavy silence dropped between you. Cassian drew in a slow, deliberate breath as if to gather himself from the floor; when he swallowed it came out as a small, broken sound. You felt the shape of his answer before the words left his mouth—the weight of a plan pressing cold and hard against your skin.
“No—” you breathed, the single word brittle. Cassian only nodded, a motion that carried more sorrow than assent.
“You cannot stay here—” he began, voice trying on urgency.
“No. I’m not leaving!” you shot back, anger sparking because terror would have made you small. Your hands clenched at your sides until the knuckles whitewashed. “I am not a coward.”
“I’m not saying you are,” Cassian hissed, his voice cracking with the lie and the truth at once. “It’s for the greater good—the good of our people who need you!”
“Spend the lives of hundreds of men so I can escape and be what—a political prisoner for the rest of my life?!” The question was a blade thrown into the room. It cut somewhere behind your ribs where pride and guilt tangled. You heard your own pulse like a drum in a tomb.
Cassian’s throat bobbed. He swallowed down something like a sob. The tension in the air grew viscous, each breath a labor.
“I know I made really bad choices…” you said, the confession catching on the edge of your tongue. Your voice fell until it was almost a whisper. “I should have had that child. I should have endured it until it needn’t be anymore—but my pride and my heart couldn’t let me.” My heart couldn’t let me betray Paul—even though I did.
The admission left you shivering as if the room itself had turned to winter.
Cassian’s breathing went shallow, irregular. You watched him work at the mask of command until it cracked and humanity bled through. He was a man trained to hold the line, to give orders with the certainty of iron—yet now he looked like someone about to break.
“Now,” you said, and the title slipped from your mouth as if it were a relic you no longer meant to wear lightly, “I stand as Imperatrix to you for a few more moments, so I ask you to make a decree.”
Cassian’s breath seemed to freeze. For a moment his eyes were nothing but a flare of white in the dusk, stunned at the enormity you were asking him to accept.
“If I don’t make it out alive—” you continued, each word hammered slow and even, “I appoint you as the rightful heir to my father’s legacy. You are the closest Aurelion after blood. It should be you; it’s you who deserves it even more than me.”
Cassian gasped loudly.
“This is an order in which I use my full authority,” you said, and your voice fell into that iron register you had learned to summon when everything else failed you, “and he who does not do as I say in full authority—will be given to the lions of the great plains.For an instant, the room held only that sentence—heavy, final, echoing like the toll of a great iron bell. The silence that followed was suffocating, thick enough to feel against your skin. Cassian’s face lost all color; resolve, slow and deliberate, hardened over him like the forging of armor.
He bowed—hesitant, unwilling, as though the act itself wounded him—and when his hand found yours, it trembled only once before steadying. You held your hand aloft, offering it not as royalty, but as sacrifice. His lips touched the cold, soft skin with reverence, sealing the decree in a gesture older than words.
When he looked up, the devotion in his eyes shattered what little remained of your composure. You felt the sting of tears gather, traitorous, behind your lashes.
“I will do as you say.”
The moment dissolved swiftly, vanishing like vapor in the dry Arrakeen air. Before either of you could breathe again, the doors burst open with a metallic thud. A soldier, his armor gleaming with the gold insignia of House Aurelion, stepped in with haste, the sand still clinging to the edges of his stillsuit.
“Apologies for the intrusion, my lady—it is most urgent!” he said, bowing slightly as two others followed close behind, faces tense, movements precise.
“Close the doors.” you ordered, your voice cutting through the heavy air. The soldiers obeyed instantly, sealing the room as if to keep out a coming storm.
“Our scouts report Fremen spies,” the first man began, his tone strained, “hidden across multiple positions on all sides of the basin. We’ve been scanning the perimeter since dawn—there was nothing before.”
You turned to Cassian. His eyes met yours—sharp, alert, the faintest shadow of realization flickering there.
The second soldier spoke, his voice low. “They were already there. Hours… perhaps even days. Perfectly concealed. We believe they revealed themselves deliberately.”
Your pulse quickened. “A message…” you murmured, more to yourself than to anyone else.
The words hung in the air like the scent of spice—dense, foreboding.
“Harkonnen patrols—do they know?” Cassian asked.
“They’ve seen nothing. Each of our scout units carries a radio tuned to Harkonnen frequencies—no reports of Fremen sightings, no alerts, nothing unusual.”
You frowned, a deep line forming between your brows. “Then why us?”
The silence that followed was pregnant with suspicion—and hope. A wild, impossible thought flashed through your mind, one you dared not voice aloud. Could it be Paul? Could he have sent them… not as enemies, but as a message?
“I think,” you said slowly, feeling the meaning build in your throat, “we’re about to learn who our true enemies are. Tell all scouts—no attacks. Defensive formation only. If the Fremen wanted us dead, we’d already be buried beneath the sand.”
“Yes, my lady!” the soldiers chorused, their voices unified, sharp. In perfect discipline, they turned, saluted, and disappeared beyond the doors, leaving only the echo of their boots behind.
You exhaled shakily, turning toward your desk. The weight of inevitability pressed upon you like a stone slab. There was no more time to think. You reached for your filtering mask, setting it beside you, and pressed your thumb against the biometric lock of a small steel drawer. It hissed open.
Inside lay five syringes, glass vials glinting faintly in the low light—each filled with a milky white liquid and labeled with meticulous dates. You picked one up. Its contents shimmered faintly, promising temporary salvation and inevitable pain.
You sat on the edge of the great chair, the fabric of your gown whispering against the stone floor, one sleeve rolled up your arm. The needle pierced the skin above your vein, and a rush of chemical fire coursed through your bloodstream. Your chest tightened, breath hitching as the familiar burn took hold.
“What do you want me to do?” Cassian asked quietly, his voice steady despite the tremor beneath it.
“Stay,” you said, securing the black mask over your face until only your eyes remained visible. Each breath now came with a mechanical hiss, rhythmic, ghostly. “Wait for our troops. As soon as they land, take command. Prepare for the worst. I believe the Fremen will strike the Sardaukar.”
Cassian stiffened. “You think they’ll attack the Emperor’s army?”
“I trust your wisdom to decide where our allegiance lies when the time comes,” you replied, eyes glinting through the mask. The message was clear. Choose the right side.
You turned to the narrow mirror at the far end of the room, your reflection ghostly in the dim light. The gown clung to your frame like a shadow—jet black satin that caught no light, sleeves tight, collar high, a hood draped down your back like a mourning shroud. No gold. No jewels. Only the emptiness of form and duty. A Harkonnen bride.
Cassian watched you as if he was watching the last light fade from something sacred.
“Fitting gown for my funeral.” you whispered, almost smiling beneath the mask.
You left the study, the mechanical hiss of your breath filling the silence.
You already felt the burning stare of the Reverend Mother before you dared raise your eyes. It was the kind of gaze that could strip the soul bare—ancient, heavy with judgment. The tension in the air was so dense it could have smothered you on the spot. The dread coursed through your body like venom. You were kneeling on the cold marble floor before the Emperor and his consorts, beside Feyd-Rautha, his shadow long and still beside yours.
This was not the reunion you had ever imagined with Princess Irulan. Then, you had spoken to her in private tones of philosophy and politics, of freedom and fate—but even then, you had known better. Her friendship had always been a courtesy of the Sisterhood. Now, as she stood beside her father, her face carved into regal indifference, you realized that any trace of sincerity between you was long dead. It didn’t matter anymore. She was Bene Gesserit, royal daughter, before she was anyone’s friend.
“Baron—do you have any idea who this Muad’dib could be?” the Emperor demanded, his voice slow and sharp, the kind that forced everyone in the room to hold their breath.
Even the Baron bowed before him. You had never seen it before—this grotesque creature of gluttony and arrogance forced into obeisance. What a sight, this mountain of corruption, bending his mass to appease the Emperor of the Known Universe.
“Some fanatic, Your Majesty—that’s all we know,” he stammered, the usual rotund confidence stripped from his voice.
The Emperor’s tone turned glacial. “More… more!”
“He’s a madman!” the Baron snapped, sweat glistening on his sickly forehead.
“Mad?” the Emperor asked, with the calm curiosity of a blade’s edge before the strike.
“All Fremen are mad!” Raban blurted, voice too loud, too eager to please. Feyd’s head twitched toward him in visible irritation—his idiot brother’s voice digging their grave deeper.
You kept your head bowed, heart hammering, stealing brief, sharp glances around the chamber. You were assessing—counting exits, soldiers, weapons, windows—but every second confirmed what you already knew:
There was no way out.
Not without divine intervention.
The Emperor let out a small, disbelieving laugh. “That’s all you know?”
And then Feyd, ever the opportunist, lifted his head with the serpent’s charm he’d inherited from his uncle. “Muad’dib is dead,” he said with calm assurance, voice smooth as silk over a blade. It was enough to pull Shaddam IV’s eyes to him. “Or he went hiding into the southern storms—which means the same thing.”
From the corner of your eye, you caught it—the faint, precise movement of the Reverend Mother’s fingers. A secret Bene Gesserit signal, subtle yet undeniable.
They speak the truth.
You bit down on a smile. Yes. Because they truly had no idea.
“Your Majesty,” said a Sardaukar commander, bowing low, “the sandstorm approaching threatens the integrity of our shields. We recommend going back into orbit.”
No. If they left now, the Fremen would have no chance to strike. You gathered what remained of your composure, your voice low but firm. “The mountains will protect us from the worst of it, Your Majesty.”
Your tone was even, but your pulse was chaos beneath your calm. Feyd turned his head slightly toward you, surprise flickering in his eyes—then, unexpectedly, approval.
The Emperor gestured dismissively. The Sardaukar bowed and departed, leaving the silence of anticipation in his wake.
Why aren’t they attacking yet? Your mind raced. What are they waiting for?
“Baron,” the Emperor’s voice came again, low and measured. “Have you ever investigated the southern regions of Arrakis?”
“Well, the entire region is uninhabitable—it’s well known, Your Majesty!” the Baron replied, his voice cracking at the edges.
The Emperor’s gaze sharpened. “Your uninhabitable south exhibits signs of human activity.”
You saw Feyd’s jaw tighten, his hands curl into fists. The Baron blanched, trembling like a dying beast.
“I wasn’t aware of this!” he protested.
A Sardaukar guard approached him with deadly precision, drawing his sword without a word. The shift in the air was instant—the court’s dread becoming a living thing.
“I swear I wasn’t aware of this—!”
The blade flashed. A single, brutal strike severed the tubes that fed his suspensor system. The whine of machinery died in a sputter and the Baron’s enormous body crashed to the floor with a sound that was almost human—a grotesque collapse of power and flesh.
You and Feyd rose at once, instinctively, half in shock, half in defense—but it was too late. The Sardaukar struck again, a quick slash to the mechanical brace at the Baron’s spine, and his lifeline was gone. His breathing turned to wet gasps, his bulk collapsing into its own weight.
It’s your turn next. The thought was pure terror, cold and precise. You could feel the blood drain from your face. Only a miracle could get you out of this. Who do I pray to now?
“Muad’dib is alive!” the Emperor thundered, his voice booming through the hall, thick with rage and disbelief.
The Sardaukar lowered his blade to the Baron’s neck. Feyd stood still, every muscle in his body coiled, his eyes flicking toward the Emperor, then to you.
“I must find him!”
And then the world shook.
A roar, deep and seismic, shook the room—dust fell from the vaulted ceiling as the walls trembled. Shouts echoed as Sardaukar drew their blades, forming ranks around the Emperor. The doors buckled under a force that seemed to come from the desert itself.
Feyd grabbed your wrist, pulling you toward him just as the Sardaukar raised their swords, forming a human shield. You stumbled into the chaos of soldiers and screams.
You hadn’t even realized you were holding your breath. Somewhere beneath the terror, a flicker of something else stirred—a spark that refused to die.
Fear… and something perilously close to hope.
Could this be it? My miracle?
The doors burst inward with a blast that shook the walls, a concussion of sound and sand that swallowed the chamber whole. Dust erupted into the air in thick, heaving waves—an ochre fog that devoured shapes, swallowed voices, left the world blind. The Sardaukar reacted instantly, their war cries slicing through the haze, steel raised high as they hurled themselves toward the unknown. Their chant rose like a single monstrous heartbeat—and then collapsed into silence.
You stood behind Feyd, breath caught behind your mask, fear spiraling through your chest like a tightening rope. The moment stretched into something unnatural. Too long. Too still. The dust began to shift, curling around a silhouette that cut through the storm like a blade.
A figure emerged—then more behind him.
Fremen.
The leading figure advanced into the chamber with a stride so measured it felt like an old, forgotten rhythm. Tall, slender, quietly powerful—his presence radiated through the room with the calm certainty of one who feared nothing. He turned slightly, and the light caught his covered face.
Blue-within-blue eyes.
Your heart slammed against your ribs. The world sharpened around that single detail.
He looked at Feyd first, weighing him, dismissing him. Then his gaze slid—slow, knowing, deliberate—until it locked onto you. Behind your mask your breath hitched, your lips parted in a stunned, silent gasp. Your eyes went wide.
Those eyes.
He moved then, cutting toward the Baron. He barely had time to flinch. The crysknife flashed—a swift, merciless strike—and sank into the thick folds of his neck. A muffled gargle, a twitch of a hand—and then the grotesque mass collapsed, dead weight hitting stone.
Silence followed. A profound, ancient silence. The kind that falls when a tyrant dies and the universe briefly pauses to acknowledge the shift.
Paul withdrew the crysknife, its blade slick with the proof of justice fulfilled. His face was unreadable—serene in a way that was almost unnerving, yet burning with an intensity that made the very air feel electrified. The dust still drifted around him, suspended like drifting ghosts.
He stepped forward through the swirling haze, slow and unhurried. His stillsuit clung to him like shadow and armor, his dusty cape brushing the floor with each precise movement. A gravitational pull radiated from him, commanding the room. Even the Sardaukar—proud, unbroken—hesitated, unsure whether to strike.
You stood frozen, breath trembling through your mask in thin, rhythmic hisses. Your gaze tracked Paul as he approached the cluster of royal dignitaries, each one rigid with terror they struggled to hide.
His eyes swept over the crowd. He barely spared a heartbeat on those he deemed irrelevant. Only when he reached the Emperor did his gaze sharpen—hard, cold, a silent promise forged in suffering.
Then Paul looked at you again. And everything inside you shifted.
His eyes softened. Not much—barely a shade. But enough for your heart to lurch painfully against your ribs, as though trying to climb its way out of your chest to reach him.
His voice broke the silence—sharp, consonant-rich, the language of desert hunters and warriors. Chakobsa. You didn’t understand the words, but his posture told you everything.
He was the one in command. No question, no rival, no hesitation. His orders fell into the air like carved stone.
“Take the prisoners to the residency. Give the Baron’s body to the dessert.”
The Fremen obeyed instantly, surging forward with military grace.
Then Paul turned his head again—toward you.
“Do not harm the masked girl,” he told his Fedaykin, voice lower, tinged with something protective, almost intimate. “Be gentle with her.”
The Fremen warrior he addressed nodded and looked at you with immediate understanding. Feyd’s head snapped toward you, suspicion twisting across his face like a blade’s shadow. He had heard the tone. You felt yourself flush beneath the mask, pulse racing.
What did he say? Did he give an order about me? Your thoughts crashed through you, frantic and sharp.
The Fremen moved in then, circling your group with predatory precision. The Emperor’s Sardaukar responded with instinctive fury, blades raised high. Their desperate chant rang out, raw and ritualistic:
“SARDUKAR!”
But the Fremen answered with thunder.
“For Muad’Dib!”
The sound hit you like a blow. A tidal wave of devotion, belief, power—his name carried on a thousand voices, vibrating through your bones.
Muad’Dib is—indeed—Paul Atreides.
A single truth, heavy and overwhelming, colliding in your mind.
You swayed, ready to collapse, perhaps the spice was already too much for your system—but Feyd’s hand clamped around your arm like an iron trap. He yanked you close, possessive, territorial, his grip bruising. Amid the screams and dying roars of Sardaukar, he held you as though someone threatened to steal his favorite toy.
Because he hated losing what he believed was his.
The fighting faded quickly—Fremen numbers overwhelming the Emperor’s elite. Soon you found yourself corralled with the remaining nobles, herded together like prey. Feyd stayed near you, close enough to feel the tension coiling through him.
Orders barked in Chakobsa rang through the hall. Though you didn’t know the words, the gestures and force made their meaning clear: move.
So you moved. So did Feyd. So did the Emperor—trapped in the realization that the ground beneath him had turned to sand.
The Fremen drove your group toward the main residency, where you watched the Emperor land only hours before. The path felt unreal, as though you were walking through the remains of a dream shattered by prophecy.
As you reached the steps, a Fedaykin—face veiled by the desert cloth you recognized from Paul himself—gestured sharply toward you. An unmistakable command for you to ascend first.
You took off your mask and began ascending the stairs. Feyd stiffened immediately, realizing his hold on you had slipped. You felt the heat of his glare even through the dust.
You heard the Fremen guards exchange quick, clipped words in their own language, their tone tense with alertness, and they guided you toward the massive doors leading into the main chamber—the one with the wide balcony overlooking the basin. The stonework began to shift, immense slabs pulling apart with the slow, resonant groan of rocks older than empires. Thin cracks of orange light spilled through first, then widened, until the full warmth of the Arrakeen sunfall washed into the corridor like a tide of fire.
You turned instinctively, casting a glance behind you. It was an unusual position they had placed you in—the Emperor and his consorts should have entered first. Yet the Fremen encircled you, ushering you forward, setting you at the head of the group as though you were the one of highest rank. Even Mohiam noticed. Irulan noticed most.
Her eyes caught yours, sharp as cut glass. Their frost had shifted into something heavier, more dangerous—an unspoken acknowledgment that she, too, felt the crackle of uncertainty in the air. She was treading on fragile ground, and she knew it. Her future hung by a thread just as yours did. But then, with a slight tilt of her chin, her gaze hardened into something colder, a silent proclamation.
She is not on your side.
One of the Fremen guards gestured toward you, speaking in his guttural desert tongue. You did not understand the words, but the meaning was clear: you were to enter now.
As the doors reached their apex, a room unfolded before you—vast and oppressive, filled wall to wall with Fremen Fedaykin. They were dusty and streaked with blood, stillsuits clinging to them like second skin. Their blue-in-blue eyes locked onto every person who crossed the threshold, but their gazes lingered on you long enough to raise the hairs on your arms.
As you advanced into the chamber, your gaze narrowed at the heavy-cloaked figures gathered near the front, your attention snagging on the one seated upon an improvised wooden throne. A quick, instinctive assessment—a heartbeat’s worth—struck you with a quiet shock.
Jessica Atreides. Alive.
For a moment, your control slipped. It showed in the flicker of your expression before you could smooth it away. Her eyes—those same sharp, dangerous ones you remembered—met yours head-on, only now the blue-within-blue glow made them even more piercing. And as you walked past, letting the sight settle deeper, another detail emerged.
The curve beneath her robes. Subtle, but unmistakably that of a woman far along in pregnancy.
Behind you, the Emperor stepped forward, still trying to assert his authority as though this place belonged to him. He spoke loudly, boldly—even as his voice wavered at the edges.
“There is a massed armada in orbit. You’re facing a full invasion, Fremen.”
Your eyes found the cloaked figure at the center of the chamber—standing with his back to the room, hood lowered now, free of the scarf he wore before. The shape of his hair struck you first: dark curls, longer than before, wilder. Your breath caught in your throat.
You knew those curls. You knew that silhouette anywhere. You were sure he was Paul.
A second figure stepped into view beside him, and your shock deepened. Gurney Halleck—older, rougher, a full beard covering his face, his skin hardened by the brutal sun and sand. A sudden, overwhelming warmth filled your chest at the sight of him, a familiar anchor in a world that had slipped from your grasp.
Paul’s voice rose, calm and sharp as a blade.
“How can you be so sure the Great Houses are here for me? They might be curious to hear my side of the story—don’t you think?”
Then he turned to face the room.
The breath left your lungs.
Anger burned across his still-youthful features, but beneath it was the maturity the desert had carved into him. He looked familiar yet changed—handsome, hardened, older than the boy you last remembered.
“I am Paul Atreides,” he declared, voice ringing through the hall, “son of Leto Atreides, Duke of Arrakis!”
The Emperor’s confidence cracked. He went almost grey with shock. Paul Atreides is alive—his mind screamed it even if his lips did not.
Irulan stared at Paul with a focus too intense to decipher. Something twisted uneasily in your chest—a bad premonition, light but sharp. You couldn’t place it. You couldn’t shake it.
Paul spoke again, firm and controlled. “Gurney.”
“My Lord,” Gurney answered instantly.
“Send a warning to all ships. If the Great Houses attack, our atomics will destroy all spice fields.”
The room gasped as one—except for the Fremen, who did not even blink. Even you couldn’t contain your shock. He was threatening the collapse of civilization itself.
The Emperor snapped, “You’re out of your mind.”
Feyd, positioned at your side like a shadow, leaned in slightly, enjoying the tension, feeding off it like the viper he was.
“He’s bluffing.” he snarled.
But the Reverend Mother Mohiam—one trained to taste truth in a man’s tone—felt the reality behind Paul’s words. She stepped forward.
“Consider what you’re about to do, Paul Atreides—”
“SILENCE!”
The command struck the chamber with the force of a physical blow.
Mohiam reeled backward, collapsing into the arms of those behind her. Shock hollowed her features. You felt it too—the raw power of his Voiceripping through the air, vibrating through your bones, shaking your very breath.
So much power… too much to comprehend.
The Reverend Mother rose again, trembling with fury, curling her fist at her side. She whispered, just loud enough for him to hear—but you did as well:
“Abomination.”
The word slithered across the room like venom.
Gurney spoke again, steady as ever. “Message sent, my Lord.”
The Emperor, clinging to the last shreds of his authority, tried once more.
“As a servant of the Imperium, you will bow at my feet.”
Paul looked at him, expression darkening into a cold, merciless rage.
“Your feet!?” he said loudly. “You’ll be lucky to keep your head!”
You had never seen this side of Paul before—this raw, blistering fury, this unmasked power, this sharpened edge of vengeance. It struck you like a blow. Your breath caught halfway up your throat and refused to move. Awe settled over you like a suffocating cloak. He stood only steps away, but he felt untouchably distant, a force of nature in human skin.
Then, as if the universe decided to twist the knife, his eyes found Irulan.
And right there—before your very eyes—you heard it. The words. Carved in the air like a curse, heavy with all they would bring. You felt them, witnessed them, lived them.
“I’ll take the hand of your daughter.”
Your heart didn’t just drop. It shattered. The pieces fell inward, folding into a cavern so deep you weren’t sure you’d ever climb out of it again.
A few soft, strangled gasps darted through the crowded room—barely audible, mere threads of shock. None came from Irulan and none came from you. You couldn’t move, couldn’t blink. Couldn’t even breathe. Your lungs locked the moment the words left his mouth.
“She will remain safe,” Paul added, voice steady, controlled. “And we will rule together over the Empire.”
As if he hadn’t already crushed what was left of you.
‘Will you rule over the empire with me?’
Your lip trembled, a small involuntary betrayal. Your lungs begged for air, your eyes begged to spill, your mouth fought not to quiver, your heart begged to be mended—yet it lay there, hopelessly broken, shards digging deeper with every passing second.
Paul’s head shifted, just slightly. His gaze brushed over you—the wideness of your eyes, the way they shone with too much light, too much hurt, wide enough that he might have seen himself reflected in them. But he said nothing. His face didn’t soften. His expression remained carved from stone—unyielding, unreadable.
Irulan followed his gaze. She noticed the glance he had spared you and tried to decipher it. Part of her had prepared for this moment, even welcomed it. A quiet thrill ran through her that she would never admit to anyone.
Fragments of memory flickered through her mind—late nights with you during Bene Gesserit training, when exhaustion wore holes in your composure and your edges softened. Small, unguarded moments when you let yourself unravel by one delicate thread. You had spoken of Paul in small pieces, subtle admissions, brief mentions that you probably thought meant nothing.
But Irulan listened. She always did.
You had spoken of him highly—almost reverently—and the Bene Gesserit do not share. Yet you had. And now that same man stood before her, and she was the one to marry him. Not you.
Ah yes—once, you had been his betrothed.
Irulan turned her cold, unreadable gaze onto your face. You felt it immediately, a needle between your ribs. You turned toward her, and without a single word exchanged, you understood the message etched clearly in her expression.
That’s what you get.
You broke the eye contact instantly, before the wound could dig deeper. Your gaze scattered across the room—floors, walls, faces—anywhere that wasn’t him, anywhere that wasn’t her. You tried to move with grace, to disguise the frantic tremble beneath your skin. Your pride scrambled to assemble itself, piece by cracked piece, shoring up the hollow pit inside you.
Your eyes landed on a young girl across the room—her lips trembling just like yours. You recognized her face, faintly, like a memory caught in wind. Something started to burn inside you—anger rising to cauterize the wound, pride swelling like armor, your spine straightening, chin lifting.
You refused to let the room see you crumble. You refused to let him see.
You inhaled—a sharp, unsteady breath that still sounded like defiance. Your chest rose and fell with each heavy pull of air, but you kept your posture firm, your dignity clutched tightly in your hands like a weapon.
Then, out of the corner of your eye, you caught a flicker of movement—Paul turning back toward the Emperor.
“But you—have to answer for my father.”
The tension in the room came back, heavy and owned by Paul. Shadam was challenged—you fought to push back the pain into the back of your mind and be present into the undoing of history in this very moment.
“Do you know why I killed him?” The Emperor’s voice carried across the hall with cruel precision, drawing Paul’s full attention like a blade against skin. “Because men like him believe in the rules of the heart. But the heart is not meant to rule.” A beat of silence fell over.
“In other words—your father was a weak man.”
You stood. Silent. Watching. Everyone did.
And if anything still tied you to Paul, if there was even a single thread left between you, it was the way these words struck the both of you. If you had the chance, you would have killed the Emperor right then and there. You would have avenged the crime done to House Atreides, to the man who had been beyond reproach—Leto, honorable, just, trustworthy. A man who offered nothing but help to your father. A man whose death still echoed inside you like an unfinished sentence.
“Stand—or choose your champion,” Paul answered. Nothing more.
The Emperor had no hope of victory against Paul—you knew this. You knew it with the bone-deep certainty of someone who had once trained beside him. The Emperor was already a doomed man.
“I’m here, Atreides. I need a blade.”
Feyd stepped forward from your side. Or rather, he kept you by his side as he did, as if claiming the space around you. He turned with a smirk that told you exactly what he wanted you to understand: watch me. You frowned—then the realization struck you. Feyd was truly putting himself against Paul.
“Accept mine.” the Emperor said.
And you felt it again. His eyes on you.
You met them—those deep methylene-blue irises that had once felt like home. You saw the dried blood on his temple, the exhaustion etched around his gaze, the weight he carried in the set of his jaw. And then, almost too slight to trust, there was… something. A thin fracture in the hardness of his expression. A flicker—as if he had meant to say something but had swallowed it before it formed. Something nearly invisible, so faint it could have been imagined.
You didn’t understand it. Not fully. Not even partly. Your mind was too filled with pain, confusion, the raw wound of betrayal. Whatever lived in his gaze slipped past you, ungrasped. Your eyes answered with worry and hurt, helplessly.
How were you supposed to bear this?
There had been a time you believed you were his promised one.
A time when prescient visions pressed against your sleep, the same way they haunted him.
A time when you found solace in him—now long gone. All of it.
In this moment, you stood as a bystander, forced to witness either his death or his victory.
Feyd accepted the blade with a masked satisfaction—you saw it in the way his fingers tested the weight of it, the balance. If the moment allowed, he would have sliced a few nearby throats just to “test” it, just to hear the metal sing. But the room, the eyes upon him, the gravity of this encounter—none of it permitted such indulgence. So he settled for the anticipation. The thrill of finally being given a worthy fight.
“You watch closely, woman.” His voice slithered through the air as he turned to you, that vicious, mocking grin curling at the corners of his mouth. Like he relished the idea of you witnessing his triumph—or your horror. You did not allow him the joy of gaining a reaction from you—a plain look would suffice for now.
Paul watched. His jaw tensed, a quiet tightening that spoke of a dozen buried instincts. But Gurney’s agitation snapped him out of it.
“Do not stain your hands on this animal,” he hissed, leaning in, voice low and sharp with years of grief. “Let me deal with him.” You felt the familiar anchor of his tone—recognizable anywhere, no matter the shape or size of the room.
Paul offered him no look. His gaze flicked back to you—just once, a brief glance over his shoulder as he unfastened the dusty cape from his shoulders.
“It’s my burden, Gurney.”
He handed the robe to an aide, stepped past his companions, and they beat their chests in unison—chants rising in their strange, resonant cadence, a battle-call. Paul exchanged a quick glance with Chani.
He reached behind him and drew the crysknife from its sheath, the blade catching the low light. Feyd moved to the center of the room as if the very floor were built for him alone.
A heavy silence fell. Sacred. Expectant.
“I’m happy to finally meet you, cousin.”
The color drained from your face.
What?
“Cousins?” Feyd’s laugh held a cruel sort of thrill. “Is that right?”
Your hand flew to your mouth, nausea twisting your stomach. Feyd and Paul—cousins. That meant—
Your gaze snapped to Jessica. She was already looking at you, those ancient, knowing eyes fixed on yours. Confirmation without a single word.
Feyd stepped closer to Paul. “Well,” he said lightly, “you wouldn’t be the first relative I’ve killed.”
Paul didn’t flinch. He didn’t even seem to hear the taunt. Instead, he lifted his crysknife in a solemn gesture you recognized.
“May thy knife chip and shatter.”
Feyd repeated the words, though his smile was black and venomous.
“May thy knife—chip and shatter.”
Feyd lunged first, but Paul caught the strike on his blade, parrying with a sharp clash of metal. You couldn’t blink—they fought like demons. Each hit came fast, each lunge met with equal force. No advantage, no moment of dominance.
No one could tell who was losing.
Paul slammed his forehead full-force into Feyd’s face. You heard the ugly, wet crack of bone—Feyd’s nose. A gurgling scream tore out of him as he stumbled back several steps, desperate to regain his footing. But Paul gave him no time—he lunged again, blade aimed to finish it. Feyd caught Paul’s arm at the last second, dragging him violently back into the hell of this fight.
Everyone watched, spellbound. Your eyes felt dry, burning—yet you couldn’t dare look away. They were too fast, too precise, too strong, a blur.
The fight dragged on, longer than any of you expected. On and on and on—until Feyd saw an opportunity so tiny it barely existed. He took it. He swept Paul’s legs from under him, but he wasn’t quick enough to land a killing blow—Paul had already pushed him away with both feet, forcing separation.
Hit and parry, attack and defend—you followed their movements with a painful, desperate precision. You had no idea who would win.
Feyd would have to tire eventually, you hoped.
Even despite the heartbreak, despite the betrayal clawing through your ribs—you still held Paul’s side.
Feyd, furious that none of his attempts worked, rushed forward with brute force. Paul jumped, body twisting mid-air, using Feyd’s own momentum to attack—but Feyd countered, kicking Paul with a violent thrust of his heel. Paul flew back and hit the ground hard, the thud echoing against the stone. A sharp grunt escaped him.
Both men were spent. Feyd used the moment—Paul still on the ground, struggling for breath—to catch his own. Paul’s chest heaved, pulling himself together with every exhale.
Then Paul looked at you.
Directly. Deeply.
His eyes said more than he could in that moment—something silent, something raw, something almost apologetic.
Your worry for him flared so fiercely that you had to swallow the urge to run to him. You couldn’t break the law of Kanly.
Feyd noticed. Of course he noticed. He saw the glance and he used it.
“She used to be your pet,” Feyd said, voice dripping with cruelty, as if stating a fact. “Now—she’s my pet.”
Your stomach dropped. A cold wave hit you, humiliation burning your skin. Your eyes widened, shocked and embarrassed—especially with everyone watching. Chani’s eyes narrowed with confusion—she did not understand what it meant.
Paul’s eyes twitched—barely, but enough. His chest rose harder, deeper. He saw your distressed face. Feyd’s words struck him exactly where Feyd wanted.
“Any special attention,” Feyd added, smirking with blood clogging his broken nose, “for my pet?”
Paul wanted to scream it—She’s not your pet!—wanted to tear it from his lungs. You saw the fury shaking through him. But he held it in. Screaming would cost him strength. And he needed every drop of strength to kill Feyd.
Instead, he rose from the floor, eyes blazing, nostrils flaring, his jaw locked in rage. He stepped closer and hit his chest twice—a returning challenge, an answer to Feyd’s taunt. A declaration that the fight wasn’t over—that you were his first.
Paul lunged again. Every move he made was answered by Feyd. It looked like a dance—swift, deadly, merciless. Hit—block. Hit—block.
Then, in a split second, Feyd crossed his arms over Paul’s, trapping him. Using that lock, he drove his blade deep into Paul’s side with a roar—rage, triumph, hatred blending into one sound.
Paul’s grunt of pain tore out of him.
The room gasped. You did too. Jessica rose to her feet, horror carved into her face.
Feyd shoved Paul away, hurling him across the chamber.
You trembled, tears threatening to spill. You watched the blade lodged deep in Paul’s side, the black of the stillsuit masking the blood.
Paul tried to stand straight—but his knees buckled. His hand went to the wound, his breath loud, uneven. He looked at the blade, then lifted his eyes to you.
Worried eyes.
Pained eyes.
Eyes searching for your reassurance, as if asking for your help.
As if apologizing.
Feyd strode toward him, grabbed him harshly by the back of his head, yanked him upright. He lifted the blade high, aiming straight for Paul’s heart but he caught the blade with his hand. Fingers slipping on blood. You heard the metal scrape through skin as it slid down his palm—his grunts rough, breath broken, body trembling as he fought the inevitable.
The blade pushed closer. And closer. And closer—
Until a heavy thud echoed through the room.
The color drained from Feyd’s already pale face—impossibly so. His stance faltered, wobbling, the brutal confidence that once held him upright now collapsing under his own disbelief. Paul’s raw, guttural grunts filled the air. You saw it unfold almost in slow motion: Feyd sinking to his knees, the blade lodged in Paul’s side now driven directly into Feyd’s heart.
“You fought well, Atreides.”
Paul, with a harsh grunt, tore the knife free from Feyd’s chest. The Harkonnen heir toppled, lifeless.
Your husband—dead.
Your breath came fast and sharp. You tried to steady yourself with the knowledge—he killed him. He did what I wanted to do! He killed Feyd!
Saved. A widow.
“Lisan al-Gaib!” one voice rose—then many, cascading into a thunderous chant, the room trembling with victory and the calling of a prophecy.
But Paul wasn’t listening to any of them. His eyes found you instantly. They pleaded, burned, screamed across the distance, as if this outcome—everything— was a weight he never wished to carry. Your brows drew together in a mix of dread and relief, your lips trembled. He had almost died!The truth of it shook you.
You forced yourself to breathe, to acknowledge his victory even through the whirlwind inside you. Your lips pressed into a tight, restrained line as you watched him grip the hilt of the blade buried in his shoulder. A deep, guttural groan tore from him as he yanked it free, the weapon clattering to the floor.
Silence gathered around him.
Slowly, painfully, he rose to his feet. Limping, he approached what had once been an emperor. Every gaze in the hall followed him, breathless. The tension in the air shimmered—anticipation sharp as a knife’s edge. Irulan stared with a solemn, calculating horror, a dawning realization threading through her features…
Paul was now Emperor.
“The life debt has been paid!” she cried, voice trembling with desperation. “Spare my father now and I will be your willing bride. The throne will be yours.”
Paul didn’t acknowledge her, instead, his eyes stayed locked on Shaddam IV.
He extended his hand—silent, unyielding, but the man only stared back, rigid, resisting.
Paul’s hand hovered in the air, slightly trembling from both rage or exhaustion. The room held its breath. You heard nothing but the ragged cadence of Paul’s panting, mingled with the dusty wind slipping through the broken bones of Arakeen outside. His back was turned to you now, his expression hidden.
And your gaze drifted—and collided with hers.
The Fremen girl.
Perhaps you felt her stare because you could read a storm in her eyes she no longer bothered to hide.
Hurt.
Disappointment.
A heartbreak sharpened into something close to hatred.
Your chest tightened. You hardened your gaze.
You remembered—yes, that was the girl you once dreamed about. Paul did too.
“She showed me the ways of the desert… I think I’m supposed to know them.”
His old words echoed back to you like a ghost.
You steadied your emotions and tried to send her a message with nothing but your eyes: Leave me.
Paul’s sudden stomp cleaved through the tension—a sharp, commanding strike that cracked across the chamber like a whip. You turned toward him just in time to see the unthinkable: Shaddam IV lowering his lips to Paul’s outstretched hand.
He kissed the ring of House Atreides.
He acknowledged the new ruler of the Imperium.
Your vision—turned to reality.
Around you, motion rippled like a wave. People dropped to their knees, folding themselves into reverence. Some bent until their foreheads pressed against the dusty floor, breathless in their desperation to appease the man that now stood before them. All of them bowed for Paul.
All except Irulan—and the Fremen girl.
And then it dawned on you.
It pierced straight through your chest. Anger—sharp, hot—filled your eyes until they stung red. Tears pressed against your lashes, trembling to break free.
Paul noticed. He saw the rage, the hurt, the humiliation. He wore that same heavy expression he had worn since he walked into this chamber—an expression weighted with consequences, with burdens, with inevitabilities.
But a servant was a servant. And no matter what history existed between you and him… Paul was your emperor now. A swift calculation cut through with panic—your record was far from clean. You had no reason to believe Paul would offer you mercy.
Yet the idea of bowing before Irulan—bowing beneath her gaze—made your stomach twist. You clenched your fists. You bit the inside of your cheek until you tasted blood. You wanted to scream.
But you forced yourself.
Slowly, reluctantly, you lowered to your knees. The moment one knee touched the dusty ground, your head followed, bowing low, eyes fixed away from Paul’s face.
Across the room, the Fremen girl watched. She saw Paul’s eyes locked on your bowed form.
It was enough.
Enough hurt. Enough heartbreak. Enough confusion.
She left the room without a sound—broken, hollowed out.
Whatever had happened to him… whatever transformation he endured… Usul was gone.
“My lord—the Great Houses have answered. They refuse to honor your ascension!”
You turned toward Gurney’s voice. Behind him stepped the man you recognized—Stilgar. Yes. You remembered him.
“We await your orders, Lisan al-Gaib!”
The Fremen rose in perfect unison, a tide of devotion ready to crash upon the universe at Paul’s word.
Such power… you thought as you pushed yourself back to your feet. Power enough to command faith like air, to cradle fanaticism as if it were destiny itself.
Paul, already grieving the deaths of billions before they even occurred, finally spoke the words they longed to hear.
“Lead them to paradise…”
The chamber erupted—chants, cries, prayers bursting into the air like flame.
And you felt it hit you.
All of it.
The visions.
The muted name.
The chants.
It all led here. You had seen this moment—this future—etched into the walls of your mind long before it happened. The realization struck you so hard you whispered it aloud, barely a breath.
“The Holy War begins…”
Paul heard you. Of course he did. His eyes found yours—eyes that spoke too much and too little at once.
Fremen began pouring out of the chamber, eager for war, eager for ‘paradise’, eager to fulfill the prophecy they had been taught to breathe since childhood.
Zealot hearts. Devoted minds. Burning faith.
And Paul held them all.
You seized the chance to escape, to slip out before anyone else closed its jaws around you again. Fremen guards had already dragged Shaddam away—Irulan’s stiff, terrified stare followed them out.
You had no idea what was coming next.
And you had no intention of staying to find out.
So you slipped out—quiet, precise—blending your form into the moving mass of Fremen. Their dark stillsuits swallowed you like a tide, masking your presence, carrying you toward the exit. You made it farther than expected, almost too easily.
Your brows furrowed. You were mere steps from the door’s threshold, yet no one stopped you. No stern command. No suspicious glance.
Mohiam didn’t punish you, didn’t scold you, didn’t even speak your name. Irulan had only glared.
And Paul… had allowed your retreat. He hadn’t called you, hadn’t questioned you, hadn’t tried to stop you, despite everything left unsaid between you.
You turned your head, just slightly, just enough to steal a glance over your shoulder—and a chill gripped your spine.
His eyes hadn’t left you.
You trembled, breath tight in your chest, nose flaring as you pulled in air that suddenly felt too thin. His gaze held you from across the vast hall as if distance meant nothing. Those deep blue eyes were fixed on you like he was reading a language only he could see written on your skin.
It felt like an unopened conversation hung between you, suspended in the charged air. As if he had tried to speak to you in the moments before, but the words never crossed the space between you.
Was it him who held back? Or was it you?
Were you too hurt, too angry, too raw to understand what he was trying to say without saying it?
His eyes told you something was left unfinished. That this moment wasn’t an ending.
You frowned, confusion flickering openly across your features as you tried to decipher the message buried in his stare. His eyes held you captive, unblinking, vast as the desert itself. You felt that if you spent one more second under that gaze, the intensity alone might shatter your sanity.
So you turned away and left.
And he let you go because he knew—this wasn’t over.
Notes:
Hello!! This chapter took me forevaaah. I genuinely watched the Feyd vs. Paul fight like twenty times while pausing every five seconds to take notes like some confused little gremlin. I just really wanted to write it properly instead of rushing it or slapping in a weird timeskip. I want the story to actually feel like Dune and not like I speed-ran the plot on two hours of sleep.
Also, quick heads up: this chapter is kind of shows MC’s actual breakdown. She’s not doing great mentally or spiritually, and I tried to show that without turning the whole chapter into one giant sad monologue, but i think it turned in just that. She hasn’t had a single vision of Paul in months and that has a reason. She’s basically running on emotional fumes at this point, like, on the bridge of insanity.
Side note—Cassian!! I’m curious what you think of him.
Anyway… this is honestly the most ambitious thing I’ve ever written. I still have four more chapters to go, but this is the closest I’ve ever been to finishing a full-length fic in my entire life. I’ve been writing reader-inserts since I was fourteen and I literally never finish anything longer than a oneshot, so this is wiiiiiild.
Thank you for sticking with me through this mess. I’m sure I’ve missed things here and there—my brain is juggling eighteen plot points at any given moment—but I swear I’m trying. I reread constantly to make sure I didn’t accidentally throw my own lore in the trash. I have a whole notes full of visions and reminders and random chaos that NEED to make sense by the end of the story. But i think i'll still forget like some major things but anyway
Thanks for coming to my lil TED talk.
comments on fics absolutely make me feral. like someone not only read my work but took the time out of their day to let me know??? that they enjoyed it??? it fills my heart with so much joy i get a genuine high every time someone leaves a comment i think. every comment is like doing a like of coke except the coke is joy and whimsy and love
After a long while, I finally updated! It’s 2:30 AM here, and my eyes are practically melting. I hope you enjoy the chapter—comments and feedback are always deeply appreciated.
Also, a quick note: Chapter 14 has been slightly revised, so a re-read might help things make more sense. Thank you!
Feyd-Rautha was a cruel, cold man—oh, he was.
You discovered the depth of it soon enough, for time did you no justice. The longer it stretched, the heavier it pressed upon you, suffocating, turning your world into a colourless, grey wasteland where joy could no longer survive.
Your neck no longer glittered with diamonds and gold; instead it bore the marks of your husband’s hands—fingerprints that had dragged you to the edge of death far too many times. Your arms still carried bruises from nights not long past, when he had pinned you down and bound you with burning ropes, a sadistic indulgence for his own amusement.
But you had had enough.
Cassian, now fully recovered and sharper than ever, was incandescent with fury at your condition. To say he was angry at what had been done to you would be far too small. He spoke often of burning the Baron alive and cutting Feyd-Rautha down where he stood.
“I share your anger,” you told him, your voice soft, hoping to ease his unrest as his eyes caught on the purple-brown stains across your skin. “But we must endure a little longer. I am close to putting together a plan.”
Cassian looked at you. Despite the ruin of these past months, you still carried yourself with a queen’s grace—head high, spine straight, refusing to let cruelty bend you. His eyes drifted lower, studying your form as you, unaware of his gaze, sifted through highly classified reports on the smuggling networks.
Word reached you—rumours of a figure rising from the sands of Arrakis. A Fremen prophet. You had heard the unease in the soldiers’ voices, the way their whispers faltered into prayers, each man begging whatever gods he trusted that Raban’s campaign of slaughter might relent. The news clung to you like a bitter hope, coiling through your thoughts like a serpent.
“Raban’s losing too many men lately,” you remarked, lowering yourself into a chair in the study you had fought to secure as private ground. Privacy was never certain here; Feyd could barge in whenever it pleased him, as though walls and doors meant nothing. But for now, he had other diversions, matters far more pressing than intruding on you while you read. You were still the head of your House, after all. Feyd had not yet claimed that title—not publicly.
“The Baron won’t allow it much longer,” Cassian said, his voice firm. “He’ll act. Soon.” He cooed.
“Perhaps we share the same thoughts?” You lifted your gaze to him expectantly. He answered with a sly smirk that touched his handsome features. His hair had grown longer, a few golden strands slipping loose, swaying gracefully about his face.
“He’ll cut Raban off like a withering branch,” Cassian said with spiteful satisfaction. “And the Baron, in all his corpulent laziness, will never soil his hands with the desert.”
You found yourself snickering with him, bitterness shared like an unspoken oath.
“You’re right,” you agreed. “He’ll send his dear nephew instead. Feyd will be the one to deal with Arrakis while the Baron toys with his Gamont pets.”
You stopped, rested the weight of your head on your knuckles, and let your eyes wander around the room as thought pulled at you.
“Perhaps—I’m thinking.” Cassian lifted his eyebrows, urging you on. You leaned back in the chair, one hand coming instinctively to your chin. After a long, slow breath you spoke again. “It’s certain the Fremen are overpowering the Harkonnens. They’re losing roughly three men to every Fremen warrior.” You pressed your lips together, eyes narrowing as you turned the proposition over in your mind. You stopped talking for a moment, letting the words linger in the air.
“This… Muad’Dib…” you said, your voice dropping. That same strange tug at the back of your head tightened — a small thread pulling at your heart. You felt it again. Yes. This terrible purpose.
“I want to go on the ground. On Arrakis.” Your voice trembled at the end. Cassian almost choked on the air; shock flattened his features.
“Are you—?! My lady!” His fists clenched; your brows knit with guilt. “You at this time especially must be most careful about your wellbeing!” His voice wrenched with alarm.
“I said I’m only thinking about it!” you snapped.
“Why would you even think such a thing?”
“If we went down with our troops, we’d have a better chance of securing the ground. If I could—if I even managed to catch, or kill, that sudden prophet—we’d secure riches for our House for generations!” Your chest rose and fell with each breath; the words felt like a lie packed with truth, and yet they were true. But you would not take such risk were it not for that one gnawing thought: What if he was still alive?
Cassian watched you, lips pressed, worry carved across his face. “Think this through well, my lady. I’m sure you will.” He bowed his head.
You exhaled through your nose, fatigue heavier than ever, and pinched the bridge of your nose. “I was only saying. First we wait for Feyd to take Arrakis—we might be wrong about this. Who knows what goes on in their heads…”
“And if it doesn’t happen? What’s your plan?” Cassian asked. You closed your eyes and pinched the bridge of your nose.
“Going rogue sounds like a good ideea. I’d trade the atomics for turning into a rogue house. We could stay like that for a few generations and then rise again.” you said. “But we can’t stay here and risk it. I’ll contact the Sisterhood for an emergency pick-up. They’ll get us out of here.”
Cassian’s jaw tightened; he met your eyes with something like resignation. “I understand.”
But the next day unfolded under the greatest cliché you had ever lived.
Feyd-Rautha’s fief over Arrakis was announced with a pompous, robotic ceremony, all empty grandeur and hollow words. You sat cloaked in the shadows of the balcony, turned your head, and met Cassian’s eyes. The look you exchanged carried the weight of a sentence neither of you dared to speak aloud.
We were right.
“Congratulations, my lord.” You bowed to Feyd, a gesture of respect performed purely for survival, not loyalty. None of it came from your heart.
Feyd’s gaze met yours, cold and unyielding, his dark eyes drilling into you until your breath felt shallow. When his hand seized the back of your head, pressing you forward, the force of his kiss left no room for refusal. His mouth crushed against yours, a violent display rather than affection—al teeth and bite. You kissed him back only because you had no choice. His fist tightened in your hair, prolonging the torment, making the world around you blur.
Behind you, Cassian’s fists balled at his sides. Fury and hate flared in his eyes as he watched, helpless, the scene meant for him as much as for you. Feyd was mocking him—torturing him—savoring his silence. When at last Feyd released you, his grip slackened only slightly, still holding your hair, and his gaze slid to Cassian. A serpent’s gleam lit his eyes, followed by that crazed, disgusting smirk.
“Woman, how should we celebrate this—before we leave for Arrakis?” Feyd drawled, turning back to you with a snug expression, his hand stroking the side of your face. He craned his neck down, pretending tenderness, though every inch of you recoiled. You let the shock flicker across your features at his words, unwilling though you were to give him the satisfaction.
“We—are going to Arrakis?” you asked.
He gave no answer, only a cunning smile, before finally releasing you and striding past. His boots echoed down the corridor, past you and Cassian, toward the great hall’s entrance.
“Wear something nice for tonight.” he tossed over his shoulder.
Sickness coiled in your gut, rising like bile, and you frowned, lowering your head. Cassian’s hand came to rest gently on your shoulder, a small comfort against the storm that waited ahead.
“Cursed piece of shit.” You spat under your breath, each word sharp, bitter, like molten glass scraping your tongue. Slowly, you turned to Cassian, letting your hand rest lightly over his, pressing gently to your shoulder—not just for yourself, but for him too. He was the only one left in this wreck of a life, the only anchor in the ruins around you.
“We at least got what we wanted,” he murmured, dark eyes steady but restless, the kind of look that could burn a hole through stone.
“Cassian.” You turned fully to face him, and immediately, he straightened, every muscle alert. Your tone held command, but it trembled just enough to betray the weight of what you carried. You drew a slow breath, letting it fill your chest, letting the air carry some of the tension from your shoulders. “Send a message back home,” you began, voice low, deliberate. “Three battalions of ground troops. Only one of knights. All ready for interstellar travel… to Arrakis. Do this privately, and encode the message in the old military cyphers. If this falls into the wrong hands, no word must be decipherable.”
Your eyes drifted, scanning the horizon beyond the balcony, imagining the burning sands, the shifting dunes, the Fremen waiting silently beneath the sun. You paused, letting the name echo in your mind like a drumbeat. Another breath… another calculation.
Muad’Dib…
You sucked in a breath of air.
“Make a deal with the Spacing Guild. I’d do it myself, but I can’t risk Feyd finding out.” you continued, voice steady, cutting through the quiet. “Pay for a privacy non-disclosure.” You pressed your lips together, a faint crease in your brow, thinking through supplies, contingencies. “It’s going to be costly. But it will be worth it.”
Cassian didn’t speak. He didn’t need to. His eyes followed every flicker of thought across your face, every pause, every tiny hesitation. He read your mind through your gestures, your breaths, your shifting weight. He understood the stakes—not just for the battle, but for you.
“Yes, my lady. What about our troops here?” His voice was steady, but tension threaded every syllable.
“We move everything to Arrakis. How many do we have here?”
“Fifty men or so. Only ground troops, my lady.”
You hummed, letting the numbers settle, imagining them scattered across the sands, feeling the danger coil like smoke. Fifty lives you were willing to sacrifice. “That’ll do for first contact. I’ll determine our departure timing. In the meantime… get everything ready.”
“Yes, as you command,” Cassian said, low and resolute, matching your intensity, his eyes shadowed with worry—but also with unwavering loyalty.
You exhaled slowly, letting the weight of Arrakis, of Feyd, of the Fremen and their new prophet, press against your ribs. “Wait.” Cassian stopped mid-step and turned, expectant. He watched you—saw the way you slipped the ring from your finger and reached for his hand. When you opened his palm and laid the golden band there, his eyes widened; his face registered a raw, startled shock.
“Here. You won’t be able to do it without this.” You closed his hand around the ring with a small, fragile smile. “You’re the only one I gave it to. I trust you won’t lose it, all right?”
His skin felt hot beneath your fingers, but there was no time to linger in that sensation. Guilt tightened in his chest—an old, familiar sting. He remembered a moment when he had been ready to betray your trust: the time he stole this very ring, forged a signature in your name. He had been caught between cowardice and some strange, stubborn fidelity, and for reasons he could not explain—Paul had not exposed him.
The memory made him shiver. Never before had he felt so stripped and seen—Paul had seen a place in him he kept even from himself: his secret ambitions, his private tenderness toward you. His dreams.
Cassian sank to one knee, head bowed, and kissed the back of your hand as if performing a sacrament. “This is an honor—to be entrusted with such weight. I will serve you in loyalty until the day I die.”
You watched him, and a smile broke through the ache in your chest. Loyalty felt like an impossible luxury in these times, and yet the thought took root—if by some mercy you both survived this, it would be better to have him by your side for the rest of your life.
You hadn’t had a single dream since the battle of Arakeen. How could color drain even from your subconscious? Not even a meaningless flicker—nothing.
Before, with Paul, dreams came for you like tide: sometimes gentle, sometimes hauling you under, haunting you through the night. You prayed before sleep every night, begging for the one small mercy of seeing his face again, even for a moment. Now there was nothing. It was as if he had been scrubbed from the world; even the memory of him trembled at the edges, distant and fragile. Each day you fought to hold onto the shards of him, and each day the light that kept them alive guttered a little more.
You were no longer part of a prophecy. With Paul gone—that went too, this divine tether, the visions, the plan to bring forth The One.
He could have been the Kwisats Haderach, you thought—but betrayal played it’s part in this disgusting game of power and politics.
You had survived Feyd’s terror. There had been no pleasure for you—only him. Limbs that ached, new bruises blooming across your legs and the livid marks on your neck; he offered no mercy, no gentleness.
Still, you would soon be on Arrakis again, and the thought—stupid, inexplicable—kindled in you like dry tinder. Something might change there. Something, anything. You hated how foolish the hope felt, but you could not snuff it out.
“I don’t think interstellar travel’s for me anymore,” you said groggily to Cassian, pressing a hand to your mouth. Nausea rolled through you; the path to the small restroom had already been sketched in your mind. Not the first time today. “I hate the food on Geidi Prime.”
Cassian didn’t stare at you—he knew better than to add to the helplessness. He stayed where you had told him and waited, patient as a shadow, while you emptied your stomach for the third time. Worry tightened his face. He wondered what would have happened if you’d stayed with that psychotic animal longer—would Feyd have helped you? Or punished you more for spilling on his carpets? The thought made him close his eyes for a beat, praying you would be pulled from this hell.
“My lady, I’ve prepared the medicine that was once administered by Dr. Yueh for your spice allergy. Please—take them; we’ll be on Arrakis shortly.” He set the familiar vial on the table, a glass beside it. White pills. The small, clinical things your life had come to depend on.
You stepped back and dried your face with a cloth. The pills looked the same as always—so small, so ordinary—yet everything about them tasted of memory. You thought of Dr. Yueh and whether he had survived the attack. The question struck a soft chord of fear.
“Thank you.” You reached for the vial and the glass. Your voice was quiet, reflective; your mind slipped for a moment to another life, to a home where you had felt safe and loved with Paul. The memory made your breath hitch.
You drew a shaky, deliberate breath and forced the present back into focus. “Have you done what I asked?” you said, adjusting the black robe to hide the purple bruises at your throat.
“Yes, my lady.” Cassian bowed his head and, for a moment, offered the ring back. You took it—cold and familiar against your skin.
“And?” You arched an eyebrow. He lifted his chin and met your gaze.
“Paid twenty thousand solaris for the non-disclosure agreement and roughly seventy-six thousand for travel,” he said, the numbers sounding small and obscene all at once. “Though—” He gave a half-smile, a fleck of mischief and calculation. “It would be slightly cheaper if we scramble some spice from the Harkonnen deposits.”
“You mean steal from their stock?” The idea made you shake your head hard enough your hair trembled. “He’d have my head off in a beat—Feyd would. Too risky. I’d rather pay twice over than lose my neck for a discount.”
“No.” Cassian’s voice evened, patient as a tutor. “We’ll harvest it ourselves.” He spoke the plan as if explaining an equation, precise and calm. You motioned him on, curiosity pulling like a hook.
“I’m listening.”
You sat down, crossing your legs, your arms folding across your chest as you watched him. Cassian searched through the pockets of his uniform and drew out a paper, slightly crumpled. He looked tense, making sure once again that you were truly alone in the room.
“I managed to get this… and a glimpse of a little more.” He handed you the paper.
Your eyes widened as you scanned the numbers, the losses, the statistics written in hard ink.
“Holy Mother…” you whispered. The words weighed on you. Not that you doubted your soldiers—you knew they were braver, stronger than the Harkonnen slaves—but the risks pressed against your chest.
“Reports from Raban’s commander,” Cassian explained. “This is how many men, ornithopters, carriers, and harvesters they’ve lost to the Fremen. These are the real numbers. Whoever passed this along wanted the Baron to see it.”
You swallowed, folding the paper slowly, carefully.
“The last attack on the spice depot was the breaking point. And Feyd knows it too—they’re short on resources, men, machines. But you, my Lady, are very good at making deals.”
You raised an eyebrow, giving him a sharp look.
“I am not investing again for spice discounts.”
“No.” He lifted a finger. “I say you propose that we get one harvester, and our own men. We harvest—and give them a percentage.”
“So we’d painfully scratch out a silo of spice per what? A month?” You handed the paper back, your tone laced with skepticism. “They won’t accept anything under thirty percent anyway.”
But his idea lingered. It wasn’t without merit. More than that—it opened a door.
“But perhaps,” you murmured, almost to yourself, “not that bad of an idea…”
You rose quickly from your chair, mind racing. Plans layered themselves over one another—replaying information, predicting outcomes, rehearsing reactions. Calculations sharpened into something more dangerous: a private ambition.
Because perhaps, through this, you might not only outmaneuver the Harkonnens, but also confront the prophet himself—the name that had been driving Raban into madness. Perhaps even bring the Imperium to the table.
Your lips barely moved as you whispered under your breath, too low for Cassian to hear:
“Maybe I can see who you truly are…”
“Muad’Dib.”
Time passed. It simply did so. You cared nothing for the welcoming ceremony, nor for the displays of wealth, nor for the waste of water performed because the Baron fancied it.
The hairs on your arms rose at the sight of the grotesque grey bulk he was—white, pallid, sickly and vast. You would rather die than be touched by such a creature. Feyd—oddly enough—did not nauseate you in the same way. He would be easier to pity if he were not so violent and vain. You caught a glimpse of his profile and, though love or admiration had noplace there, you could not deny the precision of his features: the way he carried himself, the practiced confidence, the fixed resolve.
But he was nothing like Paul. Paul’s warmth and love were unmatched, and the memory of that gentleness sat in your chest like a separate, living thing.
“So—what were you proposing?” the Baron asked between mouthfuls, chewing with the slow, obscene appetite of a man who measured things by how much he consumed.
“An offer meant to benefit us both,” you said, steady. Feyd’s face folded into that sick, petulant smile, the sort that marked him as pleased to own the spectacle of you.
“What could i possibly benefit from you?” the Baron spat, spite in his tone. You bit back a sharp retort, knuckles whitening at your sides, and began to explain the plan—plain, cold, precise—so that only you, Feyd, and the Baron listened. The Baron ate as he considered, suspensors hissing like indifferent insects.
“I propose thirty percent,” you finished. “Twenty percent of the harvest—my Lord, do you approve?”
He chewed for a long, slow moment, making no effort to excuse the delay. Patience, you reminded yourself. Finally he wiped his fat hands on a handkerchief and spoke. “I couldn’t care less if you went into the desert. None of my concern if you die.”
Feyd kept his face composed, though you could see he did not like the proposition. The Baron’s gaze slid over you with bored incomprehension—why were you even here?
His nephew’s marriage plans were of no consequence to him. He raised a fat hand in dismissal and said, “I agree. But stay out of my way and handle maintenance yourself. I want thirty percent of what you take out every month—if not… you’re over.”
Your heart hammered, you knew he would negociate but you could hardly believe he had agreed. You bowed, crisp and controlled, and left as soon as you were dismissed, leaving the two Harkonnens to their gluttony and scheming.
You moved quickly to Cassian—swift as a shadow—telling him to begin arrangements. A lightness you hadn’t felt in a long while woke under your ribs: a small spark of anticipation, a trickle of exhilaration like the old times. For what? You could not yet say.
“Why are you allowing this?” Feyd demanded sharply, annoyance spitting from his lips as his uncle lounged vast in his suspension chair.
“I assure you, nephew,” the Baron replied, voice oily, “I’ll last as long as this conversation lasts.”
Feyd frowned, trying to parse the meaning. The Baron continued.
“How many men are there? A few dozen, maybe. They’ll be dead in a few weeks.”
Feyd puzzled over you in the private way he tried to understand things that displeased him. Why take such risks just for some spice? How large a profit could you hope for? Time spent near you had taught him that you were no simple-minded girl; often he’d braced for some subtle Bene Gesserit maneuver—some hidden voice, some stitch of persuasion. Perhaps this was one of those tricks. But even Feyd, eager and suspicious, could not make sense of the motive—unless the reward hidden behind it was greater than any coin.
Paul recalled the last time he saw your eyes—the way they caught the light, the unguarded warmth in your smile. It had been months, endless months, since he last felt the brush of your hand, heard the cadence of your voice, or breathed in the scent that clung to you like memory itself. Many, many things have happened in these months.
“Married…” He heard the word spill bitterly into the dry air, a scoff edging the voice of his remaining family. The news struck him raw. No vision, no whisper of prescience had warned him—and that worried him deeply.
“I’m sorry, my lord,” Gurney said quietly, his words heavy with guilt. “Perhaps we were too quick to trust.” He paused before he took a breath, seated on a rock beside Paul, his smuggler comarades behind him.
“But still… if it weren’t for her, I’d not have struck a deal with that smuggler at all. And yet…” He trailed off, lips tight with doubt. “I find myself conflicted about her as well.”
Gurney murmured quietly under his breath, but Paul heard it anyway.
“And with a Harkonnen… after everything.” Gurney added, Paul said nothing.
The reunion should have been a moment of joy. To have Gurney alive—one remnant of family preserved in the storm of blood—should have eased him. Instead, the revelation turned joy into a wound.
Paul pressed his gaze to the sand at his feet, the sharp rocks scattered beneath the cave’s shadow. His chest rose and fell slowly, as though he wrestled with the air itself.
“No…” His voice was steady, but there was steel beneath it. “She has a reason. I know she does.” He lifted his eyes, a flicker of pain hidden in their depths. “Nothing else would make sense.”
“What could she possibly gain from the Harkonnens?” Gurney asked, his tone cutting, the question heavy with disbelief.
Paul did not answer right away, but his gaze slipped to the slim figure at his side—Chani. She moved with the quiet grace of the desert, every gesture carved from the sands themselves. She had been the one to teach him the desert’s ways, the one who’d walked out of his dreams and into his waking life—just as you had once feared.
He had allowed her a little something more than friendship. He allowed some tension lingering in every shared glance, every pause too long, but he also kept the distance deliberately, cruelly precise, as needed. Enough to keep her close, enough to make her wonder: what are we?—but never enough to give her an answer.
All because of a vision.
No one could understand the burden he carried. The weight of prophecy was a stone on his chest, visions haunting him, never giving him enough. A glimpse of the future but never the whole sight of it.
And yet, of you there was nothing. No flicker of your face, no echo of your voice. It was as if you had been erased. Had it not been for the ache in his heart, he would have believed you dead.
“Muad’Dib!” A fremen's call cut through the haze of his thoughts. “A harvester was spotted to the south! They’re moving toward the spice beds we laid as a trap three days ago.”
Around them, the Fremen stirred, rising swiftly, weapons at the ready. Sand hissed beneath their steps, anticipation heavy in the air.
“Falling into the same trap as we did, huh?” Gurney’s laugh rumbled low as he clapped a hand on Paul’s shoulder.
Paul allowed himself the smallest smile, though his eyes remained hard. Already his mind began to weave the threads of a plan, cool and precise, as if nothing had disturbed him. As if his heart had not just been struck.
You must have a reason. You must.
“This is the one, my lady! Juicy and rich!” The soldier whistled, far too pleased for the occasion.
Your ship carried nine men and yourself, with Cassian stationed at your side. It had finally happened, and all too easily at that—you were in the desert, staring down at a bed of spice so dense it looked as though it had rained straight from the sky.
Your filtering mask hissed softly with every breath you drew from the polluted air. It cleansed the very compound that both killed you and enriched you. The stillsuits Cassian had procured felt suffocating yet secure, wrapping you in molten black and heavy fabric, disguising your shape beneath the desert sun. You did not look like yourself anymore.
The carrier hovered above the spice bed, lowering inch by inch. The sight gnawed at you—it was too perfect, too easy. Too well laid. By the time suspicion struck, you were already committed.
“No—this doesn’t feel right.” You raised a gloved hand, pointing toward the dunes. “South-east. Take the lighter bed.”
Your voice, filtered through the mask, was no longer your own—robotic, hollow, distorted.
“But, my lady, we’d save so much by harvesting here!” The pilot protested.
Cassian’s eyes narrowed, sharp with the same unease that gripped you.
“It could be a trap,” he cut in, his tone like a blade. “Get us higher. Now.”
The pilot pressed his lips thin and obeyed, the engines roaring as the ship fought the hot wind, lifting with strained metal groans.
“The dunes are too high,” you muttered, voice still the masked echo of yourself. “We could have easily been ambushed. They’re close. I can feel it.”
Without the mask, no matter how many pills you swallowed, the spice would consume you. Overload your system. Shut you down.
The ship settled on the burning sands, the heat shimmering in thick, visible waves that warped the horizon.
“Everyone, take position now!” Cassian’s command cut sharp through the air. He stood tall at the platform as it hissed open. One by one, the soldiers leapt into the glare, suspensor belts easing their descent, their boots striking the ground with muted thuds.
You lingered above, oil lens pressed to your eye, scanning the endless dunes. Below, the harvester shuddered to life, its spider-like limbs gouging into spice, the metal groaning and grinding. Yet even with its mechanical racket, a silence pressed close. Too quiet.
Minutes passed away. The harvest was steady and promising. Five minutes could end it all if a worm approached, but with each tick of time, a fragile optimism threaded through you.
“Worm spotted. Nine kilometers, west. Estimated thirteen minutes of harvest,” the radio crackled in your ear. Relief loosened your shoulders. Good. Everything was good.
Your lens swept the ridges again, slow, careful. The carrier hovered above the dunes, patient, waiting. Had you slipped past their trap? The dunes were high and cruel in their climb—or so you believed. It would take time to cross them. Surely you would have seen—
Then your gaze snagged. A black slit, stark against the pale slope. Still. Until it shifted. A twitch, so slight it could have been the desert itself. But the pattern—equally measured, steady. Like breathing.
Your blood iced.
“ON GUARD!” you roared.
Soldiers snapped upright, startled by the force of your voice. Lasguns lifted, blades drawn, hearts already pounding. Your own hand closed over your weapon, knuckles white inside the glove.
“They’re under the sand! They’ll strike any momen—”
The desert exploded.
Fremen burst upward in a spray of grit, sand cascading from their cloaked forms as they fell upon your men like shadows made flesh. The air cracked with shouts, steel, and the sear of lasfire cutting through dust.
Your stomach lurched. Too many. Far too many. Retreat was the only hope.
But Cassian was already locked with three, his body straining under their assault. He faltered, dragged down. You couldn’t watch—you had to help him.
You jumped, suspensor belt bending gravity beneath you, dropping fast. The carrier was climbing already, tethering to the harvester in retreat.
Your blade found its mark—a clean thrust into a Fremen’s back. Cassian surged up at the opening, countering, but another crysknife sliced across your arm, hot pain blooming red beneath your sleeve. Cassian’s blade flashed and opened the man’s throat before he could finish you.
Through the fog of blood and sand, his eyes cut to yours through his visor. A sharp, wordless question. Fear. You met it through the black mask that hid your face, your breath ragged and shallow.
The soldiers were breaking. Retreat unraveling into chaos. Some already gone, dead.
Guilt struck harder than the blade. You had dragged them here. Risked not only yourself, but the men that served you with unspoken loyalty. Gambled with men who carried your father’s name on their honor.
You didn’t have time to think—the world shattered. A blast erupted beside you, the shockwave hurling your body into the sand. Heat seared. Sound ripped apart the air. You folded in, hands over your skull, dust choking every breath. The desert howled, blind and merciless.
When at last you staggered upright, your blade still clutched tight, the world had shifted. No Cassian. No men. Only dust and silence. You could barely see your hand in the dark clouds of dust and sand, so thick even the sun barely fought against it.
Your mask rasped loud, distorted, every breath a frantic hiss. Too fast and shallow. Panic clawed into your ribs.
You were alone.
The dark stretched endless, a canvas of death. But you felt it—eyes in the storm.
Watching. Waiting. Hunting.
You turned, blade trembling in your grip, every nerve raw, braced to shatter. Your chest heaved and the mask hissed even louder.
A shadow ripped through the dust. Too fast. Too precise.
Suddenly, a weight slammed into you from the side, knocking the breath from your lungs. You hit the sand hard, rolling, blade barely staying in your grip.
You lashed out instinctively—steel catching steel. Sparks spat in the haze. Your wrist jarred, bones rattling. Whoever he was, he was strong and precise. Too strong.
A crysknife cut past your face, close enough to score your mask. You staggered back, breath rasping, mask hissing with every desperate inhale. They could have striked you right there, in the face, breaking your mask. But they chose not to, whoever they were.
Another strike came—swift, merciless but somehow predictable. You blocked, the shock trembling down your arm. Your heart pounded so loud you could hardly hear the chaos around you.
Then a gloved hand seized your wrist, pinning you down on the scorching sand.
A voice—low, edged like a blade—slipped through the dust.
“Stop.”
The sound froze you. Not the word, but the voice. It wrapped around your spine, struck somewhere buried deep, familiar and impossible.
Everything around you spun, but he was clear as day. Blue within blue eyes bore into your mask—so familiar they cut the breath from your lungs. His face was wrapped in a scarf, but his eyes…
A flicker of vision bled through—methylene blue eyes, seen once in your past—haunting you like an ancient prophecy.
Time stilled. The cries of men, the clash of steel, all fell away into a meaningless buzz. You glanced down: a crysknife pressed against your throat, just grazing cloth. Not slicing—just a warning. Do not move.
“I know you.” His voice was quieter now, sharper—peeling you open with his gaze.
No… it can’t be. Your heart thundered. Wrong. All wrong.
You tried to wrench free, but his grip clamped harder. Every twist, every strike—nothing. He caught your momentum, pulled, and you stumbled—his body sliding behind yours. His arm locked across your collarbone, dragging you into a headlock. The crysknife shifted with you, steady as your pulse.
His voice brushed past your ear, through your mask, low and intimate, unshakably certain.
“You know who I am.”
Oh, you did. You first felt it in his moves—how he taught you those very same fighting skills, but he was stronger, quicker. He felt the same yet utterly different.
A shout split the haze and you heard your name like a sharp blade through the chaos.
Cassian’s voice broke through the dust — ragged and panicked — before you even saw him. Then the sand moved with his weight. His blade flashed once, twice, slamming against the crysknife at your throat as he roared in rage.
Paul moved like water, uncoiling behind you, meeting every strike with a speed that made your stomach drop. You barely registered the clash of steel — the grinding snarl of blade on blade — before Cassian’s hand seized your arm, wrenching you free.
You stumbled, the world lurching sideways, Paul’s grip torn from your body.
“Run!” Cassian barked, dragging you toward the carrier. His palm was iron around yours, his strength dragging your body faster than your mind could follow.
You twisted, looking back — and through the veil of dust you saw him. Paul. Standing still among the chaos, face hidden by the scarf, those impossible eyes fixed on you.
Blue within blue.
Alive.
Your mask hissed with your frantic breathing. Your chest convulsed, half a sob, half a gasp.
It can’t be—
But Cassian’s grip left no room to falter. He hauled you up the ramp, shoving you into the carrier’s hold as the engines screamed to life.
The desert blurred beneath you as the ship tore away.
Only then did Cassian’s voice reach you, broken and wild:
“Are you hurt? Tell me you’re not hurt!”
You could only shake your head, your throat closing, your body trembling with aftershocks.
Paul was alive.
The thought throbbed in your chest like a wound. You pressed your gloved hand over your mask as if you could hold it inside, keep it from spilling into the open. Cassian’s presence at your side, his protective fury, barely registered.
All you could see were his eyes—burned into you, seared into your blood.
Alive.
The thought cracked through you, splintering everything you had built to survive. Every step, every compromise, every betrayal suddenly burned raw.
The Bene Gesserit. The mask you wore. The vows you made to Feyd-Rautha. The lie you carried, the Sisterhood will soon find out the truth that you carry no child, and you kept no promise but the ones you made to yourself.
The memory of it seared you: the recognition in his voice, almost tender.
You know who I am.
The walls closed in, the air in your mask thick and suffocating. Your hands shook despite your grip on the blade; your body betrayed you. Heart hammering, breath ragged, each inhale a rasping reminder of what had just happened. Shame and longing twisted together in your chest, a fire you could not douse.
And your mind screamed the words you would never speak aloud—the painful, unbearable truth:
You’d surely despise me, Paul, if you are to know who's name i carry now.
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“Thank you, Dr. Yueh.”
He left the chamber quietly, as though afraid to disturb what lingered between you and Paul. Yueh had administered another intravenous treatment for your spice allergy—the second today. The air itself felt saturated with spice, sharper and denser than usual, as though some unseen storm pressed against the walls of the keep, forcing the desert into your very veins.
Paul eased himself down on the bed beside you, the mattress dipping beneath his weight. “How do you feel?” His voice carried that quiet steadiness you had grown to crave.
“Right now… good. Sleepy.”
His gaze lingered, thoughtful, unwavering. “I would like you to seek further investigations for your condition.”
Your breath caught, freezing in your throat. His words were not a suggestion, but a verdict. His expression never flickered, no hesitation, no softening—Paul stood firm in his resolve.
“But… there’s only so much medical equipment on Arrakis,” you countered, the argument leaving your lips sharper than you intended. He remained motionless, unblinking, so you pressed on. “Both I and Duke Leto have yet to secure financial means for new off-world imports. I would have to leave Arrakis entirely if I wanted any real intervention.”
“Exactly my point.”
The bottom dropped from your chest. You stared at him in disbelief, as though his words were betrayal themselves. “I’d be damned before I leave this place without you...” you whispered, your voice quieter now, dangerously thin, fraying at the edges of fear.
His brows drew together, shadowing his green eyes as he lowered them for a moment, lost in thought. When he looked at you again, his expression was more dangerous than any anger—it was determination.
“You can’t stay here much longer. I see you struggling for air sometimes.”
The dryness in your throat betrayed you. He was right. The desert was killing you silently, even here, wrapped in soft sheets behind stone walls.
“Arrakis will kill you.” Paul said, his voice low, heavy, cutting straight through you.
How cruel, you thought, that truth should sound so tender on his lips. His eyes—green, bottomless, unwavering—held you captive, equal parts worry and resolve. You blinked, slowly, stalling for time, wishing desperately to prove him wrong, knowing you could not.
“I’ll… see what I can do. Soon.” The lie burned on your tongue, but it was the only answer you could give him, and he let it slide. You reached for the nightstand, fingers brushing the little tray—a single white pill, a glass of water.
“Take it. It’ll be easier to sleep. Dr. Yueh gave me one too.”
A sleeping pill. Paul did not seem troubled. He had taken them before, on those restless first nights on Arrakis. Yet these last few days had been different—sleep came reluctantly, almost suspiciously, as if the very air conspired to keep your minds restless and raw. Still, he swallowed the pill without complaint, chasing it with the water, soothing his dry throat.
You sank into your pillow, watching as he mirrored you. The suspensor lamp dimmed to a muted glow, shadows creeping across the walls. Fatigue painted his face in broad strokes, but you saw the weight behind it—something darker, something final. He was staring at you, as if he meant to memorize your features, to burn your image into his memory.
The silence pressed in, thick, heavy. Paul’s lashes lowered slowly, fighting against the pull of the drug. His breath deepened, his body surrendering inch by inch. A sense of wrongness coiled in the air and he felt it. And just before sleep swallowed him, he let his lips part with a whisper, raw and unguarded:
“I love you.”
You would have answered. You would have whispered it back, made him hear it once more. But the black tide of unconsciousness claimed you before you could speak.
You were blacked out.
You heard the echo of his words as though they were a dream—fading, dissolving, wearing off like haze.
When your eyes opened, the world was wrong.
The sheets beneath your palms were not rough linen, but soft silk, smooth as water, faintly perfumed with flowers. Flowers.
There were no flowers on Arrakis.
Above you, the ceiling gleamed with carved ivory moldings, foreign and ornate, utterly unfamiliar.
Your chest tightened. Your breaths quickened, shallow and frantic.
You pushed yourself upright too fast, heart thundering against your ribs. The room swam into clarity—golden draperies, polished marble floors, tall windows veiled in light. Nothing belonged to you. Nothing belonged to Arrakis.
You inhaled deeply, but the air only betrayed you. It was too clean, too crisp, slicing through your lungs like a cruel luxury. Your body welcomed it, but your heart recoiled. On Arrakis you had to fight for breath—here your lungs sang as if freed, yet your spirit sagged, heavy and dry.
You were not on Arrakis anymore.
A presence stirred behind you. You twisted sharply, fight coiling in your muscles—only to stop, easing just a fraction when you recognized Cassian slumped in a chair near the bed.
“Cassian…” Your lips trembled, but the words failed you. Panic strangled your throat, leaving you voiceless.
He rose stiffly, clearing his throat. “My lady… I—”
Only then did you truly see him. His uniform was filthy, frayed with dust and blood. His trousers bore stains dark and crusted. His face looked carved from exhaustion: bruised shadows beneath his eyes, cracked lips, gaze hollow. He looked beaten. Shattered.
“What… what happened?” Your voice came out raw, childlike.
He swallowed, but the words did not come. He had rehearsed this moment over and over again, steeled himself, and still—his mouth stayed shut. He could not say it. He could only stand, trapped in silence. And silence was worse than any answer.
Your panic spiked, tearing through the fragile hold on your reason. You gasped his name, desperate, frantic: “Cassian! Tell me what happened!”
Your gaze darted wildly, searching for what you already feared—no trace of Paul, no second pillow, no sign that he had ever been here. “Where is Paul?! Where are we?!”
Cassian dropped his eyes to the floor.
The truth crashed into you. This is why Paul wanted me off-world. He planned this. They sent me off for treatment—without him! Because i'm sick!
“You took me here,” you choked, tears breaking free, hot against your cheeks. “You dragged me away from Arrakis against my will—this was never my choice!” Your voice cracked into sobs. “I’m damned!”
Cassian’s head jerked up, confusion tightening his brow. “No… My lady. It was not my will to bring you here, most surely.”
You froze, staring at him. His eyes met yours, and what you saw there hollowed you out: a raw mixture of grief and exhaustion, pain so real it stripped the air from your lungs.
“No…” he whispered. “We are not home.”
Your heart dropped into an endless void.
“We are on Kaitain, we received imperial protection. The Harkonnens attacked us overnight. We were… overpowered.” His voice faltered, shaking. “We had no chance.”
Your breath seized. “What?”
He held your gaze, voice breaking under the weight of it. “All of us… are dead.”
The words hollowed the chamber, and you could not breathe. The fresh, perfect air suffocated you, burning in your lungs as tears blurred your vision.
“They’re all dead.”
Imperial Diary. Year 10191. Third comment.
The battle for Arrakis took everyone by surprise. There were no witnesses. The Harkonnen operation was carried out overnight, without warning, without a declaration of war.
By morning, the Atreides were no more. All died in the dark. And the Emperor said—
Nothing .
“Since that night,” Irulan’s voice was steady, practiced, pressed into the recording cylinder without falter, “my father has not been the same. Nor have I.”
You lifted your head, just enough to watch her as she spoke into the device, the self-writing cylinder humming as it carved her words into its spinning surface with delicate precision.
“His inaction is difficult for me to accept,” she continued. “For I know he loved Duke Leto Atreides like a son. But my father's always been guided by the calculus of power."
Your chest ached, a dull echo of her words. You had heard those very phrases from your own father before—his warnings, his bitter premonitions. The calculus of power. The memory stung like a burn.
Irulan did not pause. Her voice carried that strange mix of warmth and detachment, a scholar trained to narrate history even as it bled fresh. “This would not be the first time the Harkonnens have done his dirty work.”
The cylinder spun on, inscribing her confession in elegant grooves. You stared at it, numb, as though watching your grief being etched in real time—every syllable a blade sinking deeper into your chest.
To say you despised the emperor would be an understatement. You loathed him. But to stand in His Majesty's way meant death—and more.
“In the shadows of Arrakis lie many secrets,” she said. You shut your eyes tightly, bracing, as if expecting the next blow.
“And the darkest of them all may remain"
"The end of House Atreides.”
The room fell silent. Irulan ended her recording with a faint motion of her hand. The cylinder stilled, its surface glinting with the fresh scars of history.
You sat motionless in your chair, arms crossed, head bowed toward the polished floor. You looked as though you were waiting for nothing—for no one. The weight of stillness pressed harder than any grief you had known.
Irulan finally turned to look at you. A sigh escaped her lips, soft, involuntary. It had been scarcely a month, and still you remained here, unable to leave Kaitain. Not that you were permitted to. The Emperor’s Truthsayer had seen to that—you were to be kept under watch, your presence guarded as carefully as any prisoner of the throne.
“You should get ready. The meeting’s due.” Her voice was gentle, warm yet restrained, low with a slight rasp, but carrying the natural authority of royalty.
You did not blink. You did not move. The air in the chamber was warm, perfumed faintly with smoke and rare flowers, a luxury most would have cherished. Yet you only felt cold.
Your silence unsettled her. Irulan hesitated, fighting against the urge to voice the question that had haunted her ever since she first saw you broken and hollowed by grief.
What is it that binds you so deeply to the Atreides?
“I am ready.” you said blandly.
“No royal would allow you to enter His Majesty’s space in that common gown. Please, go dress more formally.” Irulan watched you stare blankly into nothing, and for the first time she almost felt pity—pity at the sight of an orphaned girl losing everything.
She had dutifully taken on the task of watching over you, at her Mother Superior’s command. At first, she did not understand the reason for such an order. But when she found the courage to ask the Reverend Mother in a moment of privacy, her thoughts were clarified.
“Her mother was once a highly respected sister. Her hard work might not go to waste. She has a long way to go, but there is much potential and we’ll give her a chance. Teach her. Monitor her. Look for the signs.”
It had been a shock to Irulan when she first learned of your spice allergy. You remembered scoffing at her immediate response.
“Why would anyone choose to stay in the very place that kills them? It is most unwise.”
But strangely, you had not resented her presence. And despite her being slightly older, you never felt superiority from her—at least not beyond the cold pride nobles are taught to carry, as you yourself once did. Yet no friendship, no mentorship, no loyalty from servants or even the Emperor’s protection could shield you from the grief that was consuming you.
You were dying. Slowly. Painfully.
Your heart was open flesh, each beat hurting like a double-edged sword plunged deeper into your being.
If you so much as thought his name, your eyes burned, hot and stinging—tears spilling, carving salt trails down your cheeks.
You had already grown accustomed to seeing yourself like this: tear-flushed, pale, and silent. Not gasping, not weeping aloud—but crying in silence. Grieving in silence. Should your death, also be in silence?
Your footsteps echoed softly against the marble floor as you retreated, mechanical, detached. You felt her gaze linger on you, monitoring, but your mind had already begun to drift elsewhere—the memory haunted you, the grief that refused to loosen its grip.
The words had been blunt, devastating, each syllable falling like shards of glass: Paul… Duke Leto… Lady Jessica... all gone.
You remembered the room—the stark chamber, the too-clean light—and Cassian standing near the bed, rigid, silent, as if he feared that even breathing would shatter you completely.
But the moment you heard it, you had not restrained yourself. Not even slightly.
You had crumpled to the floor, your hands clutching at your chest as your sobs tore from your throat. Screaming, crying, your voice raw and ragged, each gasp a knife through the emptiness that had suddenly replaced your world. Your tears had flowed freely, burning your cheeks, stinging your eyes, blurring the walls around you into haze.
Cassian had remained there, unmoving, watching. His chest rose and fell unevenly; exhaustion and helplessness etched every line of his face. His eyes were dark hollows, shadowed beyond fatigue, and yet they were fixed entirely on you. Watching. Bearing witness. Guarding you even as he could not protect you from the grief that consumed you.
Every heartbeat had felt like a betrayal, every breath a treacherous reminder that the people you loved were gone. You had screamed his name over and over—Paul! Paul!—even as your body shook with despair and your voice broke under its own weight.
And then, as suddenly as it had overtaken you, the memory blurred, folding back into the present.
You blinked, forcing yourself to breathe, your hands now clutching the soft folds of a temporary formal gown in your chamber. The fabric felt foreign, heavy with expectation, but you barely noticed it. Your eyes burned from the remembered tears, the rawness of grief still alive in the back of your mind.
You were supposed to be leaving—returning to your home planet, leaving Kaitain behind. But the Emperor had insisted you remain, at least for the council. He would see you in his halls, and you were to obey.
Even here, among silks and mirrors, the memory of Paul's deep gaze haunted you.
Your chest tightened, and for a moment, you wondered if you be better off dead with them.
All dead...
It didn’t sit right with you. And you could not help the gnawing resentment you felt toward the Emperor, for you knew he was involved. Ever since childhood, you had known exactly how to behave should you ever meet him: present yourself as the kindest, most welcoming royal lady of House Aurelion you could ever be. Never anger His Majesty.
“Damn the Emperor.” you muttered under your breath, the words bitter on your tongue, and fought the sudden strain in your throat, the sting of unshed tears threatening to overwhelm you.
You dressed yourself more formally, pulling the fabric into place, though you found no beauty in the dress, no comfort in your reflection, no light in the life around you. Everything felt hollow.
Cassian was in rehabilitation. His wounds required more attention than either of you had fully realized, and each moment you wondered: How bad was the attack? How many died? How—how could this have happened?
Nothing made sense. Nothing added up. You could feel, deep down, that the foul play ran deeper than anyone dared acknowledge. Yet you understood the weight of political silence. Every omission carried power, a threat wrapped in diplomacy. And you, you already knew you were standing on thin ice. The Emperor had his reasons for keeping you here. And who could say how long those reasons would hold you tethered, or what cost it would extract?
You could already guess what the council would be about. Keep your mouth shut, or I’ll kill you. The words echoed in your mind like a warning. You could not risk your death yet, Aurelion had no heir.
You were no longer betrothed to Paul, and the thought of searching for another prospect made your chest constrict. The Imperium would never allow a woman to rule her house outright; you would need an heir—a man. Either a husband or a son.
But the idea of marrying anyone other than him, of bearing another man’s child… it felt like sacrilege. You loathed it. You wished you could have died beside him, as if only in death could your loyalty, your love, remain intact.
Oh, Paul… Your mind whispered, trembling. I hope you didn’t suffer. How did you die?
Tears spilled unbidden down your face, and your lips trembled with the weight of the thought. You were about to enter the presence of the man who ruled over the known galaxy, yet you could not summon the slightest care for it. His majesty’s power was irrelevant. Your world had ended with Paul. Nothing else had meaning anymore. Or—
—perhaps only one thing did: revenge.
In the quiet, spent moments between grief, a spark of thought ignited—a plan, cunning and terrible, planting itself in your mind. You loathed the idea, yet it made your chest feel a fraction lighter. The fruit of it promised justice, or at least a reprieve from this suffocating sorrow.
If you could marry into the Harkonnens, you could gain direct access to the Baron…
And kill them all. Even if it meant sacrificing yourself.
You left your chamber, dabbing your tear-stained cheeks with a handkerchief. The thought alone gave you a fleeting sense of breath, a glimmer of relief. You imagined the Harkonnens destroyed, their blood spilled across the sands they had so cruelly claimed. Your mind flashed to the atomic arsenal your House had amassed—the fires that could consume every inch of Arrakis, leaving nothing alive.
But then reality pressed down, cold and relentless. You could not sacrifice the innocent, the people who had no part in the schemes of men. An eye for an eye—it would destroy everything.
It would blow up the entire planet. Even the Fremen. You shook your head at the thought. You couldn’t.
So you would need something more ingenious. Something subtle. Something that would let you strike without losing more than one life—yours.
The large doors swung open before you, flanked by the Emperor’s royal guards, their armor gleaming under the high, vaulted ceiling. You stepped forward into a vast marbled chamber, light streaming through tall windows, illuminating every gilded surface. The grandeur of it all should have impressed you. Should have struck awe into your heart. But you barely noticed. All you felt was the cold resolve settling into your bones, the unyielding focus of a mind that had learned how to weaponize grief.
Your confusion deepened as you crossed the chamber, narrowing the distance to its focal point.
No sign of the Emperor.
Instead, his Truthsayer stood upright, a rigid figure draped in layers of shadow-black fabric. Her veiled face betrayed nothing, yet you felt her gaze pierce you — uninvited, invasive and merciless.
You inclined your head with the hollow gesture of a bow, though you found no respect within yourself to give.
“I expected to find His Majesty present. A change of plans?” Your voice carried no inflection, no warmth — only the monotone armor you had grown accustomed to.
The silence stretched until her voice, deep and deliberate, reverberated through the room with a gravity that did not belong to her.
“There is no need for the Emperor to partake in our conversation. What we must discuss lies beyond his concern.”
She lowered herself onto a wide cushioned chair with the assured grace of one who did not merely serve a throne but imitated it. Her presence filled the chamber like an occupying force, her authority reaching from every corner and pressing down on you. Still, your face remained a mask — unreadable, untouched.
“Sit.” she commanded, her tone final.
You hesitated for a moment, your steps dragging like they belonged to someone else, before you quietly made your way to the chair opposite the woman. The distance between you felt too narrow, too intimate for you.
You looked at her veiled face longer than you should have, straining to read something—anything—through that black fabric. The silence between you was unbearable, heavy, as if it wanted to split your skin open and against your better judgment, you were the one to break it.
You drew a sharp breath. “Why do you want to spea—”
“I’m not here to answer your questions. I’m here for your answers.”
Your brows furrowed in irritation and confusion, lips parted and frozen. The rest of the sentence withered on your tongue. “…What answers?”
“Tell me what you remember of your mother.”
Her words pierced you, and you flinched without meaning to.
“…Why do you want to know about my mother?”
Her chin lifted slightly, the weight of superiority dripping from the small gesture.
“Answer.” Her tone sharpened, and you felt a ripple of unease crawl down your spine. You tried to measure the weight of your words—why this question?
“Not much… but much love,” you began slowly, your lips dry. You wetted them, trying to steady yourself as you continued. Her silence pressed you forward. “I remember the evening… the last time we were truly alone together, before…”
Your chest trembled. Your grief surged up, burning behind your eyes. First, your mother, then your father and now… Paul. It stacked in your heart like stones too heavy to lift. You blinked rapidly, but the tears blurred anyway.
How shameful, how humiliating, to be seen like this—weak, cracked open—before the Emperor’s truthsayer, the Reverend Mother Gaius Helen Mohiam.
“Keep speaking.”
“With all due respect, Reverend Mother, why is this impor—”
“Keep speaking. Say everything.”
Her command was loud in a way only you could hear, but it struck deep into your bones. It cut past your will, threading into your nerves, and suddenly your resistance felt foolish. Speaking now seemed right, necessary—inevitable.
“My mother trained me in different ways,” you whispered, your voice trembling. “Ways unlike any other tutor. She stopped not long after I turned twelve. After that… she was never the same. She avoided me, kept saying she regretted it… and then—”
You swallowed hard, but the words spilled out anyway, raw and bare.
“She died. Overnight.”
Your pupils widened, dragged back into old and vivid memories from that night. “I’ve never seen my father so mad… raging at her like a lion, right in front of me. It was the first fight I ever witnessed between them. And the last.”
You blinked, disoriented, as if you had just woken from a long-forgotten dream—though your eyes had not closed for even a second. So much had been said already, and you knew it was not of your own will. She had used the Voice. You looked up and met the nothingness of her expression.
“I swear, I don’t remember anything else. It’s like…” Your gaze fell to your palm, as if a secret was uncoiling itself there and you were trying to read its meaning. “Like my memory was stolen from me.”
“That is because it was. Most likely.”
Your head snapped toward her. Shock stung you—not only at the weight of her words, but at the fact she had not commanded you this time. She actually offered you information.
“Lucia, your mother, was once a gifted sister. But she became defiant… The integrity of our order was at stake.” Every cell of your body fixed itself on her words.
“She had to go.”
You bit your lip until it hurt. Your jaw tensed, your nostrils flared.
Too late for anything.
“You wish to know,” Gaius said at last, her voice low and deliberate, “why your body rejects the spice.”
Your eyes widened, thoughts spiraling. Irulan must have told her already. Loyal little slave—word for word, back into her master’s mouth.
You frowned, spite flickering in your gaze. Your chest rose with each heavy breath, every bit of willpower bent on not raging, not lashing out.
“That too… was her doing.”
“What?” Your body tensed even more, your hands gripping the chair’s handles until your knuckles whitened. “How—how do you know this?”
“It’s the reason she’s dead.”
You let out a shaky breath, your lungs catching as though her words had stolen the air itself. You gasped, desperate, not quite understanding but feeling the undoing of revelation unravel everything you clung to. Your sanity slipped, thread by fragile thread. Tears streaked your cheeks, stung your lips with salt. Your eyes, swollen and blurred, burned crimson. Your mouth trembled, puffed and chapped, unable to shape anything steady.
“Please, Reverend Mother…” you sobbed, your voice broken, pleading. “I must know the truth. I need to know everything.” The last word cracked on your tongue, escaping like a restrained whisper torn from your throat.
Gaius offered nothing back—not pity, not sympathy, not even the shadow of warmth. Her gaze cut into you with the weight of decree, her tone iron-wrought with certainty and command.
“I suppose you should know.”
She studied your swollen face with the slightest tilt of her head, a gesture so small yet sharpened into intimidation. You nodded, half-lidded eyes burning, your body begging for clarity even as your spirit resisted it.
“Listen carefully,” she said at last. “I’ll only speak it once.”
The chamber grew heavier.
“For generations we have worked to create the Kwisatz Haderach—” she paused, each word dripping like venom “—a form of power this world has never known.”
The silence after was suffocating.
“She thought she was protecting you from looking into the inner memory.”
You furrowed your brows in confusion.
“But there is still time… still possible…”
Your heart clenched at the tone of her voice.
“It is why your mother turned against her better judgement. You were a promising prospect but she backed away.”
You froze. A beat. The air collapsed in your chest.
“But I thought… the Kwisatz Haderach had to be male.”
“We believe this, yes—” Gaius said, her voice cutting. “Your role would have been to birth him.”
The words poisoned the space between you. The tension thickened, unbreathable.
Her gaze held yours a moment too long before she asked, deliberate:
“Tell me—are you with child now?”
Your heart lurched into panic, hammering against your ribs. The question struck you raw, unguarded, leaving you stripped. Confusion clung to your face, visible, humiliating.
“N-no…” The word faltered, shaking out of you.
She regarded you without change, without mercy. Then, slowly, she rose from her seat. Your neck strained as your eyes followed her retreating figure.
“If you wish to survive,” she said, her voice cold as stone, “you will join the Sisterhood. This is the last time such an offer will be given.”
Her steps carried her closer to the door.
“You are weak as you are. And I believe you understand that your political position is at stake. But we can make you strong. We can protect you—if that is what you wish.” She paused, the weight of her words lingering like a blade. “And in time, you’ll understand.”
Your mind whirled. She was offering you entry into the Bene Gesserit. A path Paul despised, a web Lady Jessica herself had once served. The thought coiled inside you like venom and honey both. Power. Legacy. A cure. A last chance.
“And if I refuse?” Your voice rose, steadier now, though it scraped against the walls of your throat. You pushed yourself from the chair, standing with deliberate purpose.
She halted mid-step, turning her head slowly. A silence stretched—too long, too unbearable. A shiver crept up your spine like a legion of spiders.
“Then you’ll go too.”
Her voice was final, unflinching. She moved on, steps echoing, and as she reached the threshold, she added without looking back:
“You have a day.”
The doors closed behind her with a thunderous thud, the sound reverberating through the vast chamber. Her words lingered, heavy as iron chains.
No room for defiance. No mercy given.
Accept their designs—or die.
Like House Atreides.
Your body trembled, not from cold, but from the gravity of choice.
“If I were in your place, I would have accepted on the spot.”
The voice cut through the silence. You spun sharply, your pulse spiking, eyes locking on the figure stepping from behind a marble pillar.
Irulan.
Was she here all along? You hadn’t sensed her, hadn’t noticed. A Bene Gesserit trick?
“Luckily, you’re not in my place,” you snapped, turning fully to face her. “I didn’t realize snooping was part of a Bene Gesserit’s duty.”
Her lips pressed into a thin line, neither laughing nor taking offense. She measured her words with surgical precision.
“There are many things a Sister must do,” she said calmly, her voice controlled. She moved closer, her steps deliberate, predatory in their grace. “Assessing her surroundings first, for instance.”
A gleam in the corner of your eye drew your attention. Guards. Hidden in plain sight, watching. Waiting.
Your stomach tightened.
Irulan’s gaze pierced through your distraction. “A skill I noticed you lack. You entered this chamber as though it were a gallery. You’re blind and unaware.”
Her words struck deeper than you wanted to admit. She was right. You hadn’t checked. Cassian or any of your guards were absent—you’d walked straight into this room like a lamb. It could have been fatal mistake.
Your lips pressed into a hard line. Shame, anger, and something darker coiled inside.
Why should it matter anyway? Death seemed better than anything now.
The lack of your response told her you had, in some silent way, agreed. She softened, easing you into the conversation as though coaxing a skittish animal closer.
“They’re not here to hurt you. It’s protocol—monitoring.” Her steps were measured, the hem of her silver gown brushing the polished floor as she moved nearer. You admitted to yourself, if only begrudgingly, that she looked as a princess should: beautiful, elegant, every line of her posture screaming of royalty. She was all that—and something more.
“Join me for tea,” she offered gently. “I’ll share my most prized collection with you.”
Your lips, dry and tight, pressed into a line. Your eyes narrowed, suspicion flaring in spite of her grace.
“Why are you being nice to me?”
Her reply came without hesitation, like she’d been waiting for the question.
“You see yourself as a villain—but tell me, have you committed a crime?”
Your brow lifted slightly, though your mouth remained closed. You waited, watching, weighing.
She held your gaze, unflinching. “Then why should I be hostile toward you?” She turned and began to walk again, her movement fluid, her back straight. For a moment, your eyes followed her, drawn despite yourself. And yet, beneath the civility, something tugged at you—an unease, faint but persistent. A sense that kindness, when offered so freely here, might carry a cost you couldn’t yet name.
You hesitated at the threshold, a flicker of doubt rooting your feet to the ground before you forced yourself forward.
Irulan’s pace was unhurried, her steps light yet deliberate. She walked as though she knew that you would follow. And you did.
The garden unfolded around you in a blaze of gold. The sinking sun had turned everything molten: branches bathed in firelight, leaves trembling with an otherworldly glow. Tiny insects hovered in the air, their fragile wings catching the light so they shimmered like drifting flecks of dusted amber. The air itself felt impossibly rich, saturated with fragrance, as though every breath was an indulgence.
Around you bloomed plants and flowers unlike any you had ever seen—lush curtains of green breaking open into blossoms of powdered blue, dusty pink and soft ivory.
At the garden’s heart stood a willow tree, its draping branches catching the last of the light. Beneath it, a table had been laid: porcelain cups, steaming pots, delicate pastries. The display was undeniably luxurious, yet there was something… intimate about the way it was arranged, as though this setting was not for court, but for confession.
Irulan gestured toward a chair with the same grace she wielded like a weapon.
“Please. Sit.”
You obeyed, lowering yourself onto the edge of the seat as though it might burn you. Your back remained stiff, your hands folded too tightly in your lap, betraying the tension you tried to mask. You said nothing. The silence stretched—long enough to become its own kind of pressure.
Irulan, unfazed, leaned forward. Her hands moved with delicate precision as she reached for the china and began to pour. It startled you more than it should have, watching her do this herself. No servants. Or perhaps they were there, hidden where you could not see, listening to every word.
Still, the illusion was powerful: it felt, uncomfortably, as though you were alone with her.
Steam curled upward from the teapot, fragrant and complex—earthy, floral, something foreign that clung to memory but refused to name itself. She handed you the cup. Her fingers brushed yours, fleeting, but the warmth of her skin seared against you, and your eyes narrowed reflexively. You could not help it. Trust was a luxury you did not possess.
“You’ve been kept alone since you arrived,” she said softly, almost conversationally. “Isolation can make enemies out of shadows.”
You studied her face, wary, searching for the trap in her words. “And you wish to be my friend?”
Her lips curved into a smile, gentle but unreadable—too practiced, too poised to offer comfort.
“I never said that.”
She poured her own cup, lifted it to her lips, and drank deliberately, her eyes never leaving yours. Then she tilted her head upward, gesturing toward the canopy. “It isn’t poisoned. Look.”
Through the willow’s falling leaves, you glimpsed the faint gleam of a hovering device, almost invisible in the golden haze.
“A poison snooper.” you muttered, craning your neck. Suspicion ebbed, though not entirely.
“I wouldn’t dare,” she said, and her tone was calm. “You can drink safely.”
She stirred her tea with a silver spoon, the sound soft, deliberate. Then, with the smallest hum, she nodded toward your cup, urging.
You lifted it reluctantly, feeling the porcelain warm against your palms.
When you let it touch your lips, the heat surprised you; when it slipped over your tongue, the taste startled you more. Rich, layered, delicate.
A hum of delight escaped you before you could silence it, and for a moment you judged yourself for showing emotion before her.
“You’ve caught me, Princess,” you murmured, unable to keep the grudging note of admiration from your voice. “Truly a wonderful aroma. What is this—a special blend?”
“I’ll keep it a secret—” she murmured, setting her cup down, the porcelain clicking softly against the table. The tea inside was already half gone. “For now.”
Her tone carried that subtle thread of cunning, the kind that did not scream deception but whispered of restraint—of knowledge withheld. It reminded you too much of Lady Jessica, of those conversations where truth came in measured fragments, never whole, always just enough to force you to stitch meaning together on your own.
You scoffed under your breath, not quite a laugh, more an exhale of defiance. The tea slid warm and sweet across your tongue, the comfort of it already fading against the prickling of her words. You set your cup down, fingers lingering a heartbeat too long on its delicate rim.
“So tell me—” you raised your gaze, pinning her with a look that held both fatigue and something sharper, “—are you here to interrogate me?” A slight tilt of your head, your smirk tired, brittle at the edges. “Or are we really just… chatting over tea?”
The silence stretched like a blade between you, humming with tension. Her eyes, too calm, lingered on your face, as though testing the strength of your mask.
Finally, she spoke. “I’m afraid we’ll have to spend more time in each other’s presence from now on. It’s better we become acquainted.”
Your eyes narrowed, sharp enough to cut. “I haven’t accepted anything. Nor have I shown the slightest interest in doing so.” The words came sharper than you intended, but your exhaustion betrayed you; they cracked with weariness beneath their defiance.
Irulan leaned forward, her posture a study in control. Hovering over the table, her face came just a shade closer—close enough for you to feel the weight of her presence. Her voice was soft, yet it landed like steel:
“You speak as if the Atreides still watch your back. But they don’t.” Her words struck like a blade drawn too quickly—sharp, unrelenting. You drew in a sharp breath.
“You are alone—a girl stranded in the Imperium, wielding a title you cannot keep, signing in the name of a dead father.”
Your heart hammered, grief clawing its way back into your chest, rage thrumming hot in your blood. For one fragile moment, you had forgotten the abyss you stood on. She dragged you back into it.
Her chin lifted, a queen’s gesture, practiced and merciless. “If you are not Bene Gesserit,” she said, each word deliberate,
“You are nothing.”
The air thickened between you, suffocating, as her decree pressed against you with the weight of inevitability.
“So,” she continued, her tone not cruel but certain, final,“The world will witness whether your wisdom matches your renown.”
The fury in you burned so hot it nearly consumed the grief beneath it. Your breath came ragged, chest rising too quickly, every muscle tightening against her words. Your nose flared, your brows knit into a mask of grief turned to wrath.
And still, the tears came. They broke against your will, spilling hot and traitorous down your cheek, catching on your lips. You fought them, but Irulan did not look away. She watched you—studied you—not with pity, but with quiet patience.
And still, her lips curved. Barely. A shadow of a smile, the faintest trace of triumph—or perhaps it was something else, a flicker of relief disguised as victory.
Your voice, raw, cracked, yet resolute, broke the silence:
“Should I write a letter, or would informing you suffice?”
You drew a breath that burned like fire through your lungs.
“I accept.”
When one is grieving, time moves in a truly peculiar way. At times, it drifts like a passing cloud across the sky—one day folding into the next without notice. You watch it for a moment, its shape clear against the blue, but the next time you look, it has already changed, dissolved into something else. And you wonder—what was I doing, all this while the cloud passed over me?
Other times—and you found this to be the case far more often—the same cloud lingers above you, heavy and unyielding. It swells, darker and darker, until it becomes a gathering storm, a swollen mass of thunder waiting to break. And you stand beneath it, wondering—when will it unravel? When will the storm unleash itself and shatter everything in its path?
You lived under that very cloud, and sometimes, in your darkest hours, you wished you could dissolve into it. To let the storm winds take you—carry you away, far from this misery you still called life.
Fittingly, it was a wind-swept day on Kaitain. A storm brewed silently on the horizon, its edges shifting like bruises across the sky. You stared at it with heavy eyes, sat on a cliff, your feet dangling down the edge, remembering the tempests of Caladan: how they could be both gentle and merciless, peace and fury in the same breath.
The contrast cut sharp. Here, there was water enough to waste, air rich and sweet, comforts so abundant they would have been unthinkable on Arrakis.
Yet you had never felt more out of place. For all its harshness, Arrakis had felt more like home than this jeweled world ever could.
Oh, Paul… The thought made your chest tighten, your eyes burn.
If only you knew what I am about to do. I despise myself for it—and if you were still alive, perhaps you would despise me too. And then—surely—I would not have been able to live at all.
No. You could not bear the idea of betraying Paul—dead or alive.
But you had come to a place where right and wrong bled together. Where nothing was wholly good, and nothing wholly evil.
Training in the ways had been just as you expected—and far worse. The moment you accepted the Bene Gesserit’s offer, your life became a daily unmaking. A stripping of self, piece by piece, until you scarcely knew what fragments of the old you remained. Each day was a crucible, balancing relentless drills with the private agony of a broken heart.
The weirding way was the first trial to break you. Your muscles remembered too much. A pivot, a strike, the shift of weight beneath your heels—and suddenly, Paul was there.
His voice correcting you, his hands steadying yours. Memory came like a blade, and you wept before you could stop yourself. Collapsed in the middle of training, choking on grief that the Sister had no tolerance for.
So they turned to the mind.
“The mind commands the body, and it obeys,” one of the Sisters intoned, her voice sharp as glass. Between her fingers she held a needle-thin blade, its point grazing the center of your brow, cold as ice. You dared not flinch.
“The mind commands itself—and it meets resistance.”
Her gaze did not waver, nor did the steel.
“You must learn to command yourself.”
The blade pricked—ever so slightly—but did not break skin. Your back already ached, muscles trembling from holding the rigid stance, yet you did not falter. Upright, poised, you stood before the Sister, marveling at the steadiness of her hand. The needle-blade gleamed under the light, sharp as truth itself, and she held it with such precision that not even her breath seemed to disturb its balance.
“You will learn to alter yourself on a cellular level,” she intoned, her voice like stone carved into syllables. It reminded you of Lady Jessica, she had too, once, taught you something like this. “I will prick you—and you must heal in the instant.”
The needle shifted, its cold tip now hovering just above your right shoulder.
“I will strike different parts of your body, and you will heal the one I command. If you can do this—then you are ready. To us, there is no difference between a cell and an organ. You must be in command of everything.”
Her words folded back into your mind, echoing against another voice—Paul’s voice.
You mustn’t look into places you’re not supposed to look.
The memory struck like an old wound reopening. You knew the truth now, after these months among the Sisterhood. You were not special—you were cultivated, deliberately bred, like all their offspring. And your mother… she had cut you off from that tree, pruned you away, leaving you rootless, by altering your cells herself to reject spice.
Your visions had always been faint, fractured things. How unbearable must Paul’s burden have been, then? To see so much, to carry so much, to be crushed under the weight of destiny itself…
He could have been the Kwisatz Haderach.
The thought tore through you, and before you knew it, a tear slid down your cheek. You blinked too late; the droplet met the sudden warmth of blood as you tasted salt and iron together. You hadn’t realized—the Sister had already cut you. A fine line across your forehead. She stood, watching, waiting for you to summon prana-bindu mastery to knit it closed.
“I should carve your entire face and leave you to learn alone!” she spat, slamming the blade down onto the table with a hard, metallic crack.
“You are not paying attention! Go back to your quarters. Do not come out until you have burned the Prana Principles into your skull as though they were liturgy!” Her voice thundered in the chamber, sharp and merciless.
She snapped her tools back into their case, hands moving with the efficiency of years. “Tomorrow—early. And if you fail again, you will face consequences.”
You bowed low, your voice a whisper of shame.
“I deeply apologize, Sister. It was not my intention.”
She froze for a heartbeat, her wrinkled face still twisted in fury. But then—ever so slightly—the lines softened. She said your name with unusual clarity, her voice weighed down by the years she had carried.
“Leave the past in the past. You will not go far if you keep dragging it with you.”
You lifted your head, just enough to meet her eyes. There was sincerity there, beneath the stone mask, and it nearly undid you. Broken, ashamed and hollow. That was all you felt.
She turned, her steps purposeful, and left without another word. The door closed, and silence consumed the room once again.
Her words echoed. Leave the past where it belongs. She was right—you knew it. And yet, you had not mastered the art of commanding your mind to forget. Perhaps it wasn’t possible.
Your gaze fell to the open practice manual on the hardwood table. The needle-blade rested beside it, gleaming faintly in the lamplight. She had left it there—intentionally. A challenge. A lesson.
You sat down slowly, the weight of the day pressing on your shoulders. Fingers trembling, you turned the brittle pages, rereading the passage for what felt like the third time in as many hours. Then, with a deliberate breath, you lifted the blade.
Its edge kissed your skin, and with a steady hand, you drew the smallest of slices across your palm.
“Beautiful spot to watch a storm.”
Your thoughts were interrupted by a female voice. You heard her steps drawing nearer until she lowered herself gracefully onto the cliff beside you. It was an odd sight: Princess Irulan sitting on bare stone. To anyone else, the impulse would have been immediate—fetch the most ornate, gilded chair for her, a throne even, and because you had become her companion these past months, they would have insisted on the same for you. But here, she sat as you did, her silken dress brushing against the rough rock.
“I never thought of coming here until now.” she admitted softly.
You looked at Irulan, and to your own surprise, you could not summon loathing for her. You had learned that people were simply fruit of their environments, molded by forces they never chose. Irulan had grown exactly as she was meant to: intelligent, beautiful, dutiful. A daughter of power. Yet beneath all of that, she had her own voice, her own sharpness of mind, and you had come—reluctantly, grudgingly—to respect her.
Once, when you had failed over and over to enter the Bindu trance, it was she who stayed up through the long hours of the night, guiding you, coaching you, until even she could barely detect the beat of your pulse. Because of her, you had finally succeeded—enough to pass your trial, enough even to earn a rare murmur of praise from the Reverend Mother.
A faint hum escaped you, and a pained, bittersweet smile tugged at your lips as you turned your gaze back toward the roaring storm in the distance.
“It reminds me of the storms on Caladan,” you said. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw her turn to look at you. “Just as we stand now—there were cliffs above the sea… At nightfall, the sky could turn green when the storms came.”
Silence stretched between you, carried by the wind.
“There are no storms like this on Giedi Prime,” Irulan murmured at last.
At her words, your face darkened. The wind whipped strands of hair across your cheek, hiding the expression you refused to show. You would not cry anymore.
“I won’t be staying long on Giedi Prime.” you said, your voice colder now, edged faintly with spite.
“I’m surprised you accepted without much of a fight.” There was the faintest amusement in her tone, a glimmer of playfulness. “Something told me you have quite a mouth.”
You scoffed, rolling your eyes. “Something told you right.” But the fleeting sharpness faded quickly, and your expression sank once more into that hollow lament.
“But all things point this way… it’s my only chance.”
My only chance at revenge and power.
Irulan studied you quietly. For once, she let her face show what she felt: pity, sorrow. In the beginning she had not understood you. All your endless grief, your collapse into despair—it had almost irritated her, grated on her nerves. She had thought you weak, wallowing. In class she always spotted the lingering tear on your cheek, saw how color had drained from your skin. While she glowed with the brilliance of royalty, you seemed ghostlike, hollow, eyes sunk into shadows, thoughts forever turned backward.
But time had taught her to read the signs. She had even dared to ask you, once, directly. And you had not been offended. You had only answered, simply, plainly:
“When I lost him, I lost everything.”
Now you both stood together, watching the storm creep closer across the horizon. And she knew—this might be the last time the two of you would stand here.
“It was Senai Black Tea with Corine-Rose petals,” she said suddenly, eyes still on the sky.
You blinked in confusion. “Huh?”
She turned back to you with a small, knowing smile.
“The tea I shared with you that day. I could see it on your face—you loved it.”
A smile broke unexpectedly across your own face, and before you could stop yourself, a small laugh slipped free. The sound startled you both.
“I had never even heard of it before! In my entire life!”
“That’s because—” she smiled more openly now—“I created it. At first the flavors seemed impossible together, but… it worked.”
“Yes,” you admitted with a small nod, “opposites do complement each other.”
Irulan hummed in quiet contentment. Her words carried more weight than they should have.
“I’ll give you some, for your journey.” Her lips tugged into the faintest half-smile, fragile and deliberate. A small gesture, meant to ease you, to offer a shard of light against the darkness you were walking toward.
“I’d love that.” you said softly. Lightning split the sky, illuminating your face in silver, and an instant later thunder shook the cliffs.
“Time to go.” Irulan rose swiftly, brushing dust from her dress. Raindrops had already begun to fall, the herald of the downpour that would soon consume the land.
She turned to you then, and extended her hand and for a long moment you simply looked at it—her hand, offered openly—and then lifted your gaze to her face. And you thought:
If only we had been born differently. Without the chains of bloodlines, without the weight of crowns and schemes—then maybe, just maybe—we could have, perhaps, been friends.
“You’re not allowed in this section.”
You halted. A blade kissed the side of your throat, just barely grazing skin, not enough to cut—only enough to warn. Slowly, carefully, you turned, lips curving into the faintest shadowed smile. Out of the corner of your eye, you studied his profile.
“I may have gotten lost.” The sweetness in your voice was cloying, deliberate—a perfume designed to unsettle. His jaw tensed, as though the tone itself sickened him. “Will you show me the way out of this maze… my Lord na-Baron?”
Feyd’s expression shifted, his composure wavering. Your words curled around him, invisible chains. The blade dipped, lowered, until his arm fell back to his side. He did not stop watching you—watching the slow, suggestive sway of your retreating form down the dark, endless halls of Giedi Prime’s royal residency.
“We’ve met before, haven’t we?” His voice followed after you, his steps falling in rhythm with yours.
“I don’t think so…” You turned slightly, enough to catch him in your gaze, eyes soft, lips poised in the faintest, sheepish smile. You lowered your head delicately, as though offering him something. Your name slipped from your lips then, and when it reached his ears, he felt it like a spark in his veins.
The floating suspensor lamp above you swayed, its dim light spilling across your face in fleeting shadows. Then the fireworks outside burst, their reflection igniting your features in pale, violent flashes. Fireworks for him. All in his name.
“I’m here to honor our union.”
“Union?” His voice dropped, suspicion flickering as he closed the distance between you.
“Yes… have you not heard of your new wife?”
His eyes narrowed, disbelief and intrigue warring across his face. He let his gaze travel down your form, as though measuring whether to slit your throat where you stood—or to follow. Something about you disarmed him, restrained him.
You stepped forward again, slow and deliberate. Without hesitation, he followed, drawn as if by gravity itself. The fireworks roared overhead.
“Are you pleased, my lord?” you murmured, your tone sliding like silk over a blade. He blinked, his brow furrowing, a sudden dizziness overtaking him. A frequency rang in his skull, low and sharp, as though your voice had struck some hidden tuning fork inside him. “Of your woman?” His nose scrunched, and he squeezed his eyes shut, trying to shake the sound away.
“You’re… Bene Gesserit,” he growled, his voice hoarse.
“…And what makes you say that?” Your tone was velvet and smoke, intoxicating, feverish. For him, the world dulled to nothing but you—your scent, your voice, the shifting silhouette of your body. The hall melted away into shadow, leaving only you at its center. His focal point. His gravity.
“I remember now,” he whispered, dazed. “I dreamed of you last night.”
“A pleasant dream, I hope.” Your soft laugh was a blade’s kiss.
“Don’t mock me, woman!”
“I wouldn’t dare.”
You stopped. The fireworks ceased. Silence pooled thick around you, so complete it felt holy. Feyd stumbled forward, closer than he realized, his eyes locking onto your face—beautiful, dangerous, impossible. He tore his gaze away, disoriented, glancing around the unfamiliar corridor.
“I don’t recognize this place.”
Your lips curved in a cunning smile before you turned again, your steps soundless.
“This is the guest wing.”
“Where are you going?”
You turned your head just enough to meet his gaze, lips shaping into a smile too perfect, too deliberate, crafted like poison in a vial. In that moment, you knew: I have him.
“To my room.”
His brows lifted for the briefest instant, surprise flashing across his sharp features. But he followed without hesitation—without thought.
And soon, he found himself on his knees before you, his hand trapped inside a box that devoured flesh with unbearable agony. Pain so sharp it lit his veins with fire, so total it reminded him he was alive. You held the poisoned needle poised at his throat, steady, merciless.
Just as once it had been with Paul. The Gom Jabbar at his neck.
Paul… If you still lived, you would despise me for this. Despise me for what I must do.
You forced the thought away. This was not sentiment. This was a test—for him, for you. A test of loyalty, of unity. Sisterhood above all. Your hunger for revenge disguised beneath the Bene Gesserit creed. Power through obedience. Survival through shadows.
“Enough.” Your voice cut through the storm inside him. You pulled the needle away. Feyd collapsed backward, gasping, sweat dripping from his temple. His lips stretched into a twisted, exhilarated grin.
“That riled me up.” He smirked, slowly… very slowly standing, looming over you once more.
You tilted your head back, unflinching, your expression flat, unreadable.
The smirk curved his lips like a blade drawn from its sheath, sharp and deliberate. He rose with a slowness that was meant to unnerve, every inch of his body unfurling until his shadow towered over you.
You tilted your chin upward, refusing to flinch. Your face remained still, expressionless, as though carved from stone. Unreadable, untouchable.
“I ought to punish you for hurting me.” His voice was silk drawn taut, a promise and a threat laced into one. He loomed closer, hungry. And yet, you knew—this was the moment. The web was closing around him, and you were the spider.
“But you liked it…” you answered, low and steady.
“Precisely.”
His fingers hovered above your skin—slow at first, then daring, grazing the column of your throat, drifting up toward your jaw. The touch was so unbearably soft, almost reverent, that it betrayed the madness in his eyes.
For a heartbeat, you felt your body threaten to shiver under the sensuality of it. But no—you anchored yourself in spite. This was not desire, not for you. You would not give him that, you hated him.
You wished instead that he’d simply strike you unconscious and spare you the torment of being awake through this sex. But such luxury was denied. You needed awareness. You needed to study him, every shift, every fracture in his performance, until you found the ways you could control him.
You said nothing more but you didn’t have to. His eyes had already betrayed him—the manic glint, the unbridled hunger. It was the look of a predator too far gone, already lost in the kill.
You felt it then, the inevitability wrapping you like the coils of a snake, cold and merciless.
His hands struck suddenly, snapping around your throat with terrifying speed. The vice tightened until air seized in your chest. Your vision trembled. The sound that escaped you was hideous—half-gurgle, half-moan—your body betraying its desperate instinct to survive.
His grin widened, ecstatic, drunk on the sound of your suffocation.
The pressure grew unbearable. Your eyes bulged, heat and panic flooding them, your lungs convulsing with emptiness. He held you there, strangling, savoring, his exultant smile dancing with the cruelty of a child tearing wings from an insect. He waited until your thoughts blurred, until darkness began to lick at the corners of your vision.
“S…st-op—!” The rasp tore from your throat as your hands clawed at his wrists, nails biting into his skin. You pulled, twisted, fought, but he did not budge. He was stronger—far stronger—than you had ever imagined. And now you knew it, with the bitter clarity of oxygen slipping from your reach: his madness was matched only by his strength.
He suddenly stopped. The pressure released.
Air seared your lungs, each breath a luxury reclaimed.
“Ah, you’re right,” he muttered, voice thick with amusement. The mattress dipped beneath his weight as he shifted, kneeling before you, the predator crouched before his prey.
“It’s not much fun if you’re dead—right?” His grin hovered above you, a grotesque parody of tenderness. You held his gaze, eyes ablaze with revolt, rebellion burning in their depths. You wanted him to see it—that you despised him, that you would never break.
But that fire only stoked him further. His madness fed on defiance.
He leaned closer, closer still, until his sickening smile consumed the space between you. His lips pressed to yours—not in passion, but mockery. A kiss that paraded itself as chaste while carrying venom underneath.
You didn’t return it. Instead, when his mouth hovered against yours, you breathed the truth.
“I hate you.”
His reptilian eyes locked onto yours—glittering with predatory delight, with the cold admiration one might grant a rare object. Sweat chilled your skin, not from heat but from the icy realization that his gaze stripped you of humanity, reducing you to his possession.
“That’s not what you should say to your husband, on our first night together.”
He lingered there, a beat too long, and you braced for another forced kiss. But no Bene Gesserit training could have prepared you for the violence that followed. He shoved you hard into the mattress, his hands like iron at your shoulders, pinning you, his knees caging you so there was no escape.
Regret surged sharp and bitter. You had trained—mind and body, months upon months—but still fear rose like bile. The strength of your will warred with the terror in your chest.
His teeth grazed your collarbone, then bit—too hard, cruel enough to bruise. A hand seized your wrist, squeezing until your bones ached. The other tore through your black dress, fabric shredding in his grip, fluttering in ruined scraps around the chamber.
And then, without care, without warning, he forced himself into you—selfish, animalistic, merciless. Pain split through you, raw and searing. For the first time, you feared he might truly break you.
I must not fear…
Feyd’s grunts blurred into a drone. You squeezed your eyes shut, blotting out his profile, blotting out the present.
Fear is the mind-killer…
The sharp agony dulled, little by little, as if your body were surrendering to instinct.
Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration…
Air. Sweet, precious air filled your chest. Tears welled at the corners of your eyes.
I will face my fear.
Your hands slid up, clutching Feyd’s back. In that moment, he faltered—a single flicker of surprise in his pulse beneath your touch. You felt it, the Bene Gesserit way: the break in his rhythm, the weakness hiding beneath the violence. The pain dissolved into something else. A shift. A fire ignited at your core.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
Your vision blurred. Dreams bled into reality. Sand. Endless dunes. And then—eyes. Blue within blue. Paul’s eyes. His face bathed in light, so blinding your physical eyes stung with it.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Feyd vanished. Paul remained. The sounds, the gasps, the weight—it was Paul.
Paul above you, Paul surrounding you, Paul within you.
The spiral rose higher, unbearable, ecstatic, until there was nothing but his face.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
The light consumed you.
Pleasure surged violently through you, wracking every nerve, spilling over in waves that drowned you whole. Tears streaked your face as Paul’s image fractured, fading, light scattering back into shadow.
Only I will remain.
And there you were again—in the dark.
Feyd’s hissing filled your ears, dragging you out of the trance. Euphoria ebbed into grief, bitter and sharp, as you realized what had just happened.
You had imagined Paul. You had replaced Feyd with Paul to survive—to climax.
You were broken enough to conjure him in such a way.
Feyd’s voice reached you faintly, smug and satisfied.
“You were good, woman. Expect more.”
His seed burned inside you. The Reverend Mother’s command echoed in the hollow of your mind. A daughter.
That was the price.
But you had other plans—so you burned the seed within.
The bloodline is secured. A female—as you requested.
The words had been engraved in that careful Bene Gesserit cipher, a script that to the untrained eye appeared no more than a polite formality. Yet every curve and accent carried weight, tone, intent. Feyd-Rautha’s behavior, his weaknesses, his upbringing. How he was driven by honor, how he craved pain—yearned for it, even. Details to be used, to be wielded, to teach you the ways to control him.
You sealed the engraved cylinder with your House signet and sent it to the Reverend Mother—your part of the bargain, fulfilled—on paper.
The Harkonnen ceremony that followed was nothing short of uncanny, an orchestrated nightmare disguised as celebration. The entire hall reeked of smoke and oil. From the towering balconies, black fireworks unfurled against the sky—thick and liquid, as if they bled into the air itself. Thousands of voices rose in unison, chants that were neither joyous nor reverent, but sharp and metallic, like the grinding of blades.
The sun itself seemed depressive itself, shrouded in a veil of shadow, draining the color from everything. Your ceremonial dress, white and heavy, clung to you like mourning cloth. A Harkonnen slave had stitched it by hand, the needle pricking with such fearful haste that you wondered if her own blood lined the seams.
In your culture, a bride was to be clad in white—purity, devotion, and a willingness to bind her fate to another. White was meant to reflect the warmth of love. Yet here you stood in a gown the color of decay—the black sun washed out any color you had, your white dress turned black in it’s light. Its sharp cut and obsidian sheen proclaiming not your purity, but your surrender. It was not a dress of union. It was a funeral garment.
You stood before the grotesque altar, beneath banners embroidered with the Harkonnen crest, while the crowd roared for their golden heir.
Feyd-Rautha accepted you easily, almost impatiently, his smirk twisting beneath the ceremonial light as though the entire ritual were nothing more than a means to an end.
He clasped your hand with all the warmth of a man claiming property.
He did not hesitate, his motives were obvious, and they dripped like poison from every gesture. He had married you to consume you, and through you, to consume what you carried: your family’s arsenal, your ties to the Imperium, your name as leverage in the Bene Gesserit’s endless game.
And so, with each word spoken before that grotesque assembly, with each black firework painting the skies like an omen, you buried your true self deeper. Outwardly, the perfect consort, the loyal wife. Inwardly, the watchful shadow, biding time.
