This is a side blog, I follow from coollashton!System blog thats mainly a vent blog for our nonhuman host. System of 12, body is 30. Read our pinned post to meet everyone and get more info about the page
This page is mostly a vent blog for me (the host) but it's also a system blog so others can use it of they want so I'm making a post about everyone you could see on here. The body is 30 years old and there's 12 of us. There's 3 alters that you won't see anything about, simply for safety reason and/or because they don't have internet access: our two littles (a 6 year old girl and a 10 year old boy) and our fully animal alter (a two month old kitten named Coffee). Anyways here's the meet the alters post!
Andy
Host
30 years old, I age with the body
I identified with the body until about a month ago when I fused with a nonhuman trauma holder from our childhood, I am now a black wolf
I reblog a lot of therian posts because they have similar experiences to me
Outerworld I am a transgender male: he/him
Bisexual and married
Sign tag: 🐾
Liam
Primary protector/caregiver for the littles
40 years old, ages every year
Werewolf
Doesn't have a human form, basically is just a bipedal wolf
Very tall, super dysphoric about how different the body is to his
Bisexual
Male: he/him
Sign tag: 🐺
Michael
Factive/introject of Michael Clifford, the guitarist of the band 5 Seconds of Summer
Split during a specific time of our life so I guess is technically a trauma holder?
30 years old, ages every year but also can regress back to age 19
Australian
Gay, has memories of dating Calum Hood, the bassist of 5sos
Male: he/him
Sign tag: 🎸
Castiel
Fictive of Castiel from the show Supernatural
Split from the same time period as Michael so also technically a trauma holder
Based off season 4 Cas
Asexual/homoromantic
Ageless angel
Male: he/him
Sign tag: 🪽
Jonathan
Gatekeeper
Ageless but appears to be mid 30s
Job is completely internal, hasn't fronted in years
British
Ace/aro
Male: he/him
Very serious and no nonsense
He gets a sign tag even though he doesn't front lol: 🗝
Lizzie
Social alter
16 years old, doesn't age
Very cheerful and bubbly
Loves soccer and ballet
Lesbian
Female: she/her
Sign tag: ⚽️
Caine
Fictive of Caine from The Amazing Digital Circus
Gatekeeper
Personality wise acts goofy like canon Caine but has fangs like fanon Caine (this is one of few fanarts of sharp teeth Caine that aren't horny 😅)
He changed the way our inner world looks
Jonathan doesn't like him 😅
Ageless
Ace/aro
Male: he/him
Sign tag: 🦷
Jax
Fictive of Jax from The Amazing Digital Circus
Emotion repressor
Not an asshole like canon Jax but pretty emotionless
22 years old, doesn't age
Bisexual
Male: he/him
Sign tag: 😈
Freddy
Fictive of Glamrock Freddy from Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach
Caretaker for the host (me) specifically
Very kind and encouraging
Straight and aromantic
Ageless
Male: he/him
Sign tag: ⚡️
Anyways thats everyone that could use this page. Feel free to ask any questions about us!
Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.
And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.
It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.
when I was in high school, I overheard two older students talking about a friend of theirs.
One of them said something like, "it doesn't bother me that [Friend] was in residential mental health treatment, I just wish they wouldn't talk about it ALL the time".
The other replied, "Well, that was all of last year for them. So when they say 'when I was in treatment,' it's like when you say 'last year'."
I try to remember that any time someone says something that sounds Shocking to me. sometimes one person's scary special crisis is another person's last year.
If you want to be accepting of mental illness, you need to accept the fact that some people's everyday lives are going to be terrifying to you. That doesn't mean they don't get to talk about it. Stop forcing hurt, isolated people to become even MORE hurt and isolated because you can't fathom toughening up a bit.
I like to think that Gangle does solo videogame/anime adventures and Caine joins her as an interactive spectator bc he has fomo lol. Of course, he can only watch her and not make any decisions for her ; he did, however, grow fond of glamrock Freddy and sometimes forget he's just spectating when making eye contact lol.
it's funny because I never felt like a predator in the alterhuman community anyways. I always felt like prey. my whole life I've felt like prey. hence The Prey archetrope thing. maybe it's deeply influenced by my social anxiety and my panic and fear of everything in general... but predator urges were never my thing, not that much. I mean, I have some prey drive, some predator urges (to chomp, to bite, to snarl and show teeth), but I've always been The Prey at heart. always hiding, always alert, like a hare in its burrow.
the only reason I'm a feline it's because of literally warrior cats and because I've identified as a cat for so long I can't just undo it. it's part of who I am. it's a very important part of who I am. I act like a cat, I communicate with cats, I get cats. cats are kin. and same thing for magpies, that's why I'm a winged cat, a hybrid of the two. too magpie to be truly cat, too cat to be truly magpie. a winged cat. I'm a bit magpie, but full cat.
and dogs... it's part of who I was. in my past. I acted like a dog as a child, I was obsessed with them, I dressed up as them, I literally thought I was a dog in a human skin. maybe I don't wanna be a dog anymore. the community is so canine-oriented already. and I know in this blog 99% of the time I talk about being a watcher because it's my main identity... but my past is so important to me that I can't just... ignore it. I was a dog and still am a dog.
do y'all get what I'm saying? my whole childhood, I was a dog. my whole adolescence/teenage years, I was a cat. now I'm a watcher and sometimes I wish I was just a watcher, because I'm a watcher in body, mind, heart, soul (watchers are another beast entirely that aren't defined by being predator or prey, because they are neither but I won't talk about it right now). but the dog and the winged cat, both are super important parts of myself, of my past, my childhood, my teenage years, my early adulthood, even now.
it doesn't matter to me that both cats and dogs are predators. the main reason I “adopted” the archetropal identity of The Prey in the first place it's because I have all these urges of prey animals that don't really belong to a specific species, but are part of myself and they're still traits I get and I embody. I'm The Prey in a bit of a fucked up way, I'm almost a hundred percent sure that it's because of anxiety and trauma. because I'm an anxious mess for more reason, and what better way to explain that irrational fear than with an alterhuman identity? /hjk
maybe it is because of my mental health problems. maybe not. but The Prey is much more than just anxiety, or just fear.
I don't really remember where I was going with this. this is more like a personal ramble on The Prey archetrope more than anything. maybe to see of there are more alterhumans that relate to these experiences. to take all my kins and archetropal identities in this mess of a brain and put them out in the open to try to understand them.
