Have you ever just stopped and thought to yourself: “what is even going on anymore?” Because that’s what I’m thinking right now. What’s going on? What’s happening? It’s crazy to think that one person can affect you so drastically in either a positive or negative direction. Sometimes even both. It’s hard being so young nowadays because there’s so much pressure on you to be a certain way and to think certain things and you’re always in a hurry to grow up. You want to grow up and get a boyfriend or a girlfriend and be mature and have fun whatever. Here I am at 1:12 in the morning contemplating everything I think I know and everything I believe in. I was clean for so long and you know it all went down the toilet in a split second. Months of cleanliness forgotten just like that. You think you’d get tired of crying yourself to sleep and have the courage to step up and make a change in your life but it’s not that simple. You’re so afraid of being rejected or losing your only opportunity at love. Or maybe you think you don’t deserve better. Maybe you think you owe someone something. It could be a thousand things, honestly. But the only thing you owe is happiness to yourself. Treat yourself like the beautiful piece of art that you are. Don’t degrade and put yourself down because you think you deserve it. You don’t! You deserve to fall asleep with a smile on your face and in your heart. You deserve so much more than you think you do so don’t settle. You are worth so much more than you think. Hang in there because what ever it is that’s causing you to be sad or anxious or depressed or whatever: it is only temporary. This will pass and you will get through it and you’ll be fine, I promise. Just hang in there. Life is strange and cruel and rough but it’s also beautiful and unique and it can be fantastic. Just take it a step at a time. If you don’t think anyone loves you, know that I love you. So if you won’t hold on for yourself hold on for me.
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