it's a good way not to die.

I only a c t like I know everything. [ indie rp blog for natasha romanoff, the black widow. only interacts with one steve and one clint. multi-fandom, oc friendly. ]

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"Really? Another 'who's talkin' now' joke? Really? Are you honestly pestering a heavily pregnant woman right now? I thought you supposed to be honorable, Rogers."

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" You gonna finish that? "

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" I am not pregnant. Go away. "

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just a few pounds. right? \\\ themxrksman

          Is this what is felt like? To be so terrified of something that you couldn't even look at the person you cared most about in the entire world? To be taken over by fear? Natasha had never allowed herself to be completely taken over by fear - save a few special occasions - and she hated how she couldn't control it anymore. Constantly, it seemed, since that day - 28 days, if you were counting, and she certainly had been - she had been worried almost to physical sickness. And all too often she would be sick, vomiting late, late at night when everyone was asleep. Although she knew that wasn't only due to the fear.

         It was to the point, now, that she couldn't bare it any longer. She thought of telling only Pepepr at first, or perhaps Piper, or even Steve, because he'd been through something similar with Amy... but she couldn't. She couldn't... betrayClint's trust so easily.

         Natasha rolled out of the warm, plush duvets of Steve's apartment, which they'd been staying at for very well over a two months now, and slowly trekked into the living area. Wearing only a sleeping shirt and small panties, she was glad to only see Clint in the living room, sitting on the couch and watching the T.V. as if nothing was amiss. For him, she supposed, nothing was amiss. Not yet.

         "Clint, I need to talk to you," she said, her voice low and drenched in dread. She pulled the remote from his hand and clicked the T.V. off, tossing it into the arm chair before sitting on the couch next to Clint. For a second, she thought about waiting even longer, thought about keeping it to herself, keeping it from him, for as long as she could. But how long would it be before she showed? Until he knew she'd been keeping this from him?

         Natasha stared at him blankly before opening her lips to speak quickly. "A month ago I found out I was pregnant," she said, as if she was saying something that would promise his and her fate's to the gallows. "I didn't tell anyone, not just you. I couldn't. I was in denial, and... and I didn't want to believe it. But that was childish," she continued, her tone sharpening, though her eyes closed tightly in a distinct form of weakness. "And I know that now. I should've told you. I was... stupid. I'm sorry, alright? I'm sorry for everything. I should've... I should've..." She staggered off with her words angrily, lowering her face into her hands and clenching her jaw. "Maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm just... gaining weight."

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;; verses

with teeth we've come this far [mainverse, post-tws] ;     after the fall of shield, natasha is struggling to find her place in the world. steve has found bucky, sam has incorporated himself into the team both in costume and out, and the avengers are still scattered. without a real job to bury herself in, natasha has found that relationships are easier to form and nurture. those relationships, such as with steve, sam, and the rest of the avengers, mean more to her now than they did before. but most of all, her friendship with clint has strengthened more than ever - after all, he doesn't know his place in the world, either. and without a job to forget about her personal life, her feelings for the archer have bubbled to the surface.

see the way we all run [pre-tws, post-avengers] ;     natasha barely allows herself enough time away from work to think of anything else but work. the avengers are scattered, and she has been more than happy being back into normal shield work, both as a spy and as an assasin. her partnership with clint is still official, though she tries not to think of how they have gotten closer since new york.

catch them and kill them [pre-avengers, both pre/post-shield] ;     natasha is a known, deadly assassin and spy - the black widow. she does her job, no questions, no fuss. she does what she needs to, and she does it quickly and efficiently. depending on the thread, this verse can be pre-shield, in russia, or post-shield, when she;s just starting off with clint and everyone else.

just gaining weight [post-tws] - only one clint ;     after months of pretending like she didn't return clint's obvious feelings towards her, natasha decides to take a chance in her life that doens't involve being an assassin or a spy - but involves her happiness, which she realizes is with clint. after almost quitting the idea of telling him her feelings and leaving altogether due to her deep set fear of commitment, she gives in to the years of holding back. the two are better off for their shared feelings, with no tension between them anymore, and no secrets or hidden feelings. not long at all after becoming 'official,' natasha exhibits signs of pregnancy, which she notices right off the bat, being so in tune with her own body after years of intense training; but she goes directly into denial. even after a little over a month passes, she tells no one, terrified at the very idea of children. but soon she relents to her fears, and slowly comes to terms with her condition - but only just.

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[ kinda need a new theme, and a navi page for shizzle ]

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im such a fucking jealous asshole i pretend like i dont care but i care so much im gonna explode

[littleblueartist]

your face

i like it pt2

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Via ontobaby.com

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1989 Starters { part one }

"Everybody here wanted something more."

"Welcome to New York."

"It's been waiting for you."

"The lights are so bright but they never blind me."

"Everybody here was someone else before."

"It drives you crazy."

"But you know you wouldn't change anything."

"Where ya been?"

"I could show you incredible things."

"Saw you there and thought 'oh my god, look at that face'."

"You look like my next mistake."

"I can read you like a magazine."

"Love's a game, wanna play?"

"I could make the bad guys good for the weekend."

"It's gonna be forever or it's gonna go down in flames."

"You can tell me when it's over if the high was worth the pain."

"Got a long list of ex-lovers, they'll tell you I'm insane."

"I love the players and you love the game."

"We're young and we're reckless."

"We'll take this way too far."

"It'll leave you breathless or with a nasty scar."

"I got a blank space baby, and I'll write your name."

"You're the king, baby I'm your queen."

"I could make all the tables turn."

"You'll come back each time you leave."

"I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream."

"Boys only want love if it's torture."

"Don't say I didn't warn you."

"It's been a while since I've even heard from you."

"I should tell you to leave."

"I know exactly where this leads."

"I watch us go round and round each time."

"You got that James Dean daydream look in your eye."

"When we go crashing down we come back every time."

"We never go out of style."

"I heard you been out and about with some other girl."

"What you've heard is true but I can't stop thinking about you."

"I've been there too a few times."

"Take me home."

"Just take me home."

"Looking at it now it all seems so simple."

"We were in screaming color."

"Are we out of the woods yet?"

"Are we in the clear yet?"

"Good."

"We were built to fall apart then fall back together."

"Remember when you hit the brakes too soon?"

"When you started crying, baby, I did too."

"When the sun came up I was looking at you."

"I walked out."

"I'm setting you free."

"The monsters turned out to be just trees."

"When the sun came up you were looking at me."

"People like you always want the love they gave away."

"People like me wanna believe you when you say you've changed."

"The more I think about it now the less I know."

"All I know is you drove us off the road."

"All you had to do was stay."

"You had me in the palm of your hand."

"Why'd you have to lock me out when I let you in?"

"I've been picking up the pieces of the mess you made."

"People like me are gone forever when you say goodbye."

"Let me remind you this is what you wanted."

"You ended it."

"You were all I wanted."

"Not like this."

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the cinematography guy could lift the hammer probably

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"Well, I wouldn’t call my little games a t h r e a t, but you certainly have intrigued me. Your little team must be quite the exciting challenge.”

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"Oh? And what do you call them, then? My little team isn't so l i t t le, as it turns out - and we are a challenge. Just ask New York's resident bad guys."

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[ gnight, loves! remember, my opens page is always there if you ever wanna reply to one of those, regardless of how it's been since i posted them :))) ]

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"This... this is impossible."

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[ hey look, i finally made a relationships page!!! WOw ]

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"What did you want with me,Detective.Romanoff?"Deanna was hoping that this woman didn’t know about all of times she was accused of robbing,killing,when she was really just trying to save people from the demons that nobody else could see.

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"Don't worry, Miss Winchester. I'm not here to interrogate you," she said, though it wasn't exactly true. Natasha was undercover, deep undercover, and her alias as a detective had gotten her far enough so that she could uncover why the Winchester girl has killed so many people. "I just need to ask you something. You got time?"