The Simple Life of Mariam @thesimplelifeofmariam - Tumblr Blog

Hello?

#SIMB SBFC #april 2016

#strawberry nutella crepes #tasted better than it looks #april 2016

When your orchids don’t bloom for years and then when they do they bloom in winter.

#february 2016

#chicago cultural center #march 2016

#chicago botanic gardens #march 2016

#art on the shores of lake michigan #March 2016

#lake michigan #March 2016

#green tea with the mater #cold snowy nights #February 2016

#what I'm reading these days #February 2016

#January 2016 #Rev. Beth

An ancient Japanese legend, the senbazuru legend, promises that anyone who folds a thousand origami cranes will be granted a wish by a crane.

(Wikipedia)

#February 2016 #15 down #985 to go

#remember when this was one tiny little flower?#smaller than any of the off shoots on it now #it survived the windowless office at school #and now it's happily thriving at home

#instant ramen upgraded #green onions #butter garlic shrimp #cabbage #hot sauce #February 2016

#homemade spinach mushroom and tomato pizza #February 2016

The fact that another year has passed hit home again today. It’s Ami’s birthday again. How has a whole year passed so quickly? I don’t know. I don’t know. Ami made nihari and I made a strawberry chocolate roll cake that was an utter fail. The whipped cream didn’t gel properly, the glaze was lumpy and the cake was dry and didn’t taste good. But I did it and it was a celebration although she didn’t know.

I went with my sister to PetSmart and petted the cats that were there for adoption. There was one that particularly tugged at my heart. He was a big old grey cat, 9.5 years. His owners left him when they moved. He seemed sad and old. He didn’t move. When I petted him, he turned his head away ever so slowly so I stopped petting him. He has a heart condition and asthma. I petted all the cats today, but I realized something. They don’t want to be petted with random strangers poking fingers in their cages. They want someone they love and recognize to own them. My sister said she wanted a cat after that. But then after we saw them all and read their stories, stories of abandonment and sickness, she said no, perhaps it was better not to take on a responsibility we couldn’t be sure we were ready for.

My small pleasure of the day was meeting the cats.

#happy birthday ami #2016 #february 2016

Today, my sister and I went to the mall because she had to exchange some things at Macy’s. We had some time to kill before picking up my other sister from the bus stop when we passed by the Chinese New Year’s display. Yes, the Chinese New Year display that I posted about only a few posts ago, but oh so long ago, last year. At first I couldn’t believe it. I thought perhaps they were keeping the display year round. Then I realized that no, a year had passed since the year of the sheep. It is now the year of the monkey. An entire year has passed since then. I still cannot believe it. A year. It feels as if time has stopped since that time. It was exactly around then that time stopped. For an entire year, I feel as if I have not lived. I cried. I don’t know how to restart my life. I’m in limbo and I don’t know what to do.

I really don’t know what to do. I have no motivation, will, desire to do anything. Not to work, not to do enjoyable things, not to interact with people. I don’t even have the will to be a couch potato and watch TV and eat junk. At my worst, I’ve always had the will to work and to make a future. Now, I cannot see a future.

Do you remember, last year I got my fortune on New Year’s? It was, “You have the ability to analyze and solve any problem.” It was wrong though.

My sister accidentally dropped my fortune in the trash, but it was, “You should share your joys and sorrows with your family.” It’s what everyone has been telling me lately. It was eerie.

Today’s simple pleasure was a banana split that my sister and I shared.

#2016 #February 2016 #Year of the Monkey

Trending Blogs

Recently Viewed Blogs

The Simple Life of Mariam