Vibe check: It's been a wild apocalypse amiright. I haven't been posting much lately, partly because I got fat over the first few months of lockdown and I've been trying to hide it 😅 and mostly because I've been/am pretty depressed. If you're a small business owner, a big part of your identity is tied up with being a good leader and provider for your people. When you are unable to do that, you do feel like you've failed. Well, no, it's not a matter of opinion, you *have failed to provide and keep business as usual going. Pandemic or no. And honestly, it fucks your mind right up. I've heard people say "luck is when preparation meets opportunity" -- clearly I was ill prepared. And even now, it's not over. It's really not getting better yet. Probably because I'm too stupid or stubborn to "pivot". And what does it even matter in the grand scheme of things anyway? What I am learning is to accept the grace that I'm afforded -- and even though there are few things in the world actually in my control, I can control my response to it. So I'm choosing not to let anxiety cripple me. Whenever I hear myself thinking "you really fucked it up now, you deserve all the shit you're getting ", I literally tell myself shushie, we're not doing this now. Also making the choice to profoundly change my relationship with food. I mean, it's a story for another time, but cancer has been a too present spectre for me this year, so I'm not leaving anything to chance. Anyway, the point is: this isn't just my story. You can never really know someone else's troubles, so when you see them seeking validation from strangers on the internet, pay them a little kindness and don't judge too harshly 😅 https://www.instagram.com/p/CGun7C8Fade/?igshid=1leum8ote2ee6