To My Platonic Partner Who Vanished Out Of My Life In One Day
I didn’t anticipate never talking to you again. I didn’t see this coming in any way shape or form. It felt like being side swiped and then trying to find all the pieces of myself. We spent 5 years sharing space and time with one another more intimately with one another than with anyone else. And then one day, you were totally gone without any warning. Oh, the things that we did together, the places that we went, and the countless adventures, trials and tribulations that we shared.
Never have I had such a relation with another human as I did with you. No one knew and accepted me more than the way you did. Or so I thought. When you decided I was no longer going to be a part of your life, I couldn’t even reconcile it because it seemed so out of the blue.
We had never really had a fight before. It was our first one. I suppose you are a one and done type? I still try to make sense of it… like were you wanting out secretly and this was the excuse to make your move? It felt horrible to have spent so much time with another human to be left alone with no explanation. I guess that’s what it feels like to be abandoned.
I understand why people break up in a different ways. For me, I would have wanted to feel the pain and discomfort in a space where we could talk about everything together. To me, our relationship was the most valuable and deserved that type of respect and attention. I wish I knew how you had really felt. To give space to hear how I had let you down. The unknowing is so very challenging.
I treasure the time that I was able to spend with you. I learned such a great deal from you babe. You held me accountable and challenged me. You held me when I was weak and trembling. We frolicked together at conferences and conventions, clubs, Prides, and even drove across the open American road. Talked endlessly about our sexual escapades and our challenges with finding any place to really call home. We had found home within one another until we didn’t.
All paths diverge or dissipate at some point. I will always look back at what I shared with you as one of the most fundamental relationships of my life. I loved you from the moment I met you and I will long after the day you left.
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