I'm A Heartless Fuck.

kayla | thirty | 🇮🇳 colorado✈️maryland ✈️florida I'm just trying to get by. ☀️Aries. 🌙Gemini. ⬆️Libra.

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How did I make it to 31 without a serious romantic committed relationship? For years I’ve worn my heart in my sleeve. I’ve been a lover girl. For years, I’ve never been adequate. The feeling of being unwanted and unloveable is just too prevalent.

I wasted almost 5 years of my life thinking the only thing that kept us from being together was distance. But, as always I was just a placeholder until he found someone he actually wanted to be with and loved.

I keep thinking I deserve love and to feel wanted. But, maybe I just don’t?

I can’t keep feeling crushed and having to pick myself up. I just can’t anymore. I don’t have it in me anymore.

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& they rockin’ furs like it’s snowing in the south 💕🦉

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The loneliness that I feel, I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

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I just have to start being okay and content with being alone for the rest of my life.

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& what hurts the most is that at the end of the day no one will find me adequate enough to actually be with. Evidently, I’m only just a placeholder until they find someone they actually want.

Anyway, stream my track it’s about ~him.

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I was doing so much better without you in my life.

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I am not okay.

[wordsbymp]

You feel unwanted for so long, it just fucks you up entirely.

Sigh

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The joke will always be on me, because I’ll never be adequate.

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Sometimes you just get to the point where you believe in love so much, you consistently open yourself up to it, you allow yourself to truly feel it, only for it to crumble right in front of you.

I’ll never regret falling for someone. I’ll never regret allowing myself to feel. But the constant heartbreak and the constant picking myself up afterwards is starting to weigh heavier and heavier.

And it makes it that I just don’t want to feel anymore. So, I’m not going to for awhile.

I’m tired of always ending up hurt. I always put myself out there, but this was the last time for awhile. I can’t do this shit again.

[lmm-43]

I’m slowly becoming the person I should've been a long time ago.

[thetruthabout--forever]

Wow, I really fucked around and fell in love.