The Truth is, it's a YOU problem
me n future you are cool, an im laughing my fucking ass off about it, but also absolutely rooting from a distance for to be on YOUR happiness Time Line. While also simultaneously Hating your choice because you let your Trama controle you. I told you you're fucking blind af.
Time for me to get this shit over with for me. Im not sending you this for communication, im sending you this for me, what you choose to do with it..idgaf I dont need to know. This is how I chose to handle this.
The you now, I still hate you an the path your choosing, I doubt we will ever be friends again. An NO, I guarantee you don't know or actually understand why, but you will if you read all this shit. An in Classic me Fashion, I broke it down into bite size pieces so you can actually comprehend, it's a YOU problem 😉
1. Life absolutely has a nessicary evil, Because PEOPLE don't change until it hurts. An absolutely there's a required balance of pos/neg on Earth/Universe
2. It was absolutely part of the bigger picture, but funny catch you put that in your contract, what you choose to do, was actually meant for you to evolve, lmfao bro... You n I are no longer friends, an because of your Trama Programming you blame me, all good, im speaking my truth an presenting the facts.
3. *CHEERS*to closure of a book. an a tap to a whole new world, coming soon 😏
The Problem isn't what you did, it's what you ignored and denied.
Me, your "Friend" an my Validity of being a human with Emotions. The effect that Imfalmed a Burried Trama in me, an the fact I dont like being touched an I c-ptsd
(All things you where aware of, BUT because you don't understand the gravity of them, the cause n effect as well as aftermath, you Logically thought. "This will be conducive" an knowing you as I did, yeah Logically for you it did. But you somehow couldn't see me, but I now can articulate it all.
I already knew, right in that moment that look I gave you was because your Ark told me right in that moment. Blink of an eye, you where not my Jimithy anymore, time had come for you to move on to the next chapter of your life.
Unfortunately your choice to react n treat me the way you did was all too familiar, an I was just crawling inside myself as YOU continued to take the programed nessicary steps to "push me out" an blame me for your inability to control your mind because you don't understand your programming.
I didn't need you to "save" me or help" heal "me, or even try make me "feel" better. I needed your respect. Respect I thought you as my formee friend you "had" respect for me.
(An I know you did, but I made you feel, so your ego was like that bitch had to go, sorry, nope do something to push the envelope.
BUT Actions speak louder than words, an your inability to still stand behind blaming me, lmfao *iconic* 🤣😂 James, I see people for who they are not what the world has told them to be. I see everyones soul not the stupid hologram you portray in your "meat suit"
I told you, im not like you. Simply, scientifically I'm an Anomaly.
I know without a doubt you where trying to make a point an to you Logically your choice made sense in that moment. I totally get that.
When I tried to speak with you an explain to you the dismay it caused me, as well as advocate for myself an articulate to you; you where right in your way of thinking but your Actions where not. An I was trying to respectfully educate you on the situation, you refused to hear me. An I know why.
So here's the thing an why, I dispise you. The friendship you n I had, this was actually not supposed to happen. But it did, so moving along, how you choose to invalidated me as a human was not an active variable possibility in an out come with our friendship.
An here is another thing, I KNOW, it fucked you up, an I know why. It wasn't what you did, an it wasn't how we ended (I am actually greatful how we handled /ended things as far as "goodbye" I Digress, YOU, it was the in-between.
You would NOT allow me to speak my truth in the slightest, you would shut me down every time an you would appologize, explain your reason logic an justification. All great things for YOU. An this is why I know it killed you. You could not n would not accept seeing me hurting because of you an your choices. Your TRAMAS where blatant af after that.
You did NOT cause My Trama, you Triggered it. An again that wasn't even the Big issue. The issue was You Refused to accept that REGARDLESS of YOUR intentions, it wasn't about YOU. It was my body, my emotions.
James, I've told you this world is upside down and backwards to me always has been. I was born into this world AWAKE. You people still aren't even fucking woke yet. 🤦🏽♀️
But you sure af made it about you. The problem was an still is that you refused to let Me, be Valid in my own feelings. Because you dont want to feel your own emotions let alone feel pain form me that you caused.
Because YOU JIMITHY REFUSED to learn you are not your brain, an that YOU can control YOU. it was NOT my job or responsibility to send you "less" the WHOLE point was to get you annoyed enough to realize you have control over the settings n notifications in YOUR PHONE. That YOU FEELING you needed to do ABC was YOU an YOUR TRAMAS n conditioned programming.
(Remember that documentary we watch n how science has proven Men are EMOTIONAL af, 🤦🏽♀️ or Google it idgaf
Also, just FYI, YES I literally told you this to your face, BUT you do that thing you do (also another Trama Response Cope) where you "forget" 😑
This is was the Problem , an why I had to say goodbye.
You refused to let me speak my truth, you refused to acknowledge I was hurt an hurting, you refused to let me communicate my experience boundaries an denied me compassion as a human being in general.
Just as a basic human being, it's like we where never friends. I didn NOT hurt you James. An I have always communicated with you,, treated you with respect, valued you, I did NOT deserve what you did to me. An I know my worth, unlike the other people you can controle. Your choice, actions an abandoned you put on me, because YOU didn't want to take accountability. I treat people how I want to be treated.
You justified your actions because of what the world did to you, an made me expendable. 🤔
I identify peoples Tramas, I do NOT cause them, but yall love to fucking blame me because I'm an "easy target" dude TRAMA response who the fuck hurt you.? I already know, but we ain't here for that.
So lol 😆 🤣wait🤫, lmfao 🤣🤣🤣
Okay, YOU , justified ruining our friendship and absolutely breaking my heart treating me like shit AND X zoning me because I was Worth giving up, because you are so fucking traumatized, loosing me as a friend was worth all this, just so you didn't have to feel or accept YOU hurt me...
Right 👌 lmfao, I literally published so much shjt about this 🤣😂
Yall are SICK as fuck from prolonged generation Trama exposure an Conditioning, that this world thinks this is "normal" or okay. .. nope. Not, nope, moving along.
You where Right in your way of thinking for YOU
Your a actions, choices an Xxx to me where wrong, because you dont own me, or have any right to my being of existence.
Simply, absolutely NO one has the right to touch another human. but Society has conditioned Domesticed Animals that is "socially" acceptable to Force your will upon another .
An yes, it would be Forcing YOUR Will upon me,
BECAUSE YOU assumed you could per your conditioned programming
Additionaly, it was also Gaslighting, an absolutely balls deep Narssacist.
YOU U-S-E people to Serve YOU
There is ONE RULE James, just one.
DON'T force your Will upon another.
The fact that this is so utterly "socially" forced onto this world. Even if its a hug. One should not assume anything about another's choice let alone their body.
if you don't communicate, there's no room for 2, there's only 1
If you make decisions for another an infringe on their say, their life, an disregard their free-will an just assume an impose your Will onto another you just Broke the Law of One, Do NOT Purposly force your will upon another, you fucking Robotic Monkeys!
Monkey without the K(ey) spells Mon-ey
Money doesn't serve you, you serve money Capitalism , Terrorism an White Supremacy , "Working" Society.
Sew, YOU weighed the variables an Logically choose to do what YOU did, because YOU felt upset because YOU felt an Obligation to Respond as well as deemed it a nuisance. An insted of evolving yourself so you could evolve your own programming, you wanted to controle me. 😏🤣😂👌
You want me to take control an help you, so I did, but some decided to throw a fucking tantrum vs taking control of your own life an the electronics you own n operate. Smh🤦🏽♀️ im Not Penny Potts Iorn Man, im like Cortana and Jarvis had a Love child that was too advanced for this mundane Logically basic ass planet. RUDE!
You absutly explained why you Validated the choice you made.
An again I nodded my head, an said yes I know, I understand.
So this is funny af too, but its actually not....
You did to me exactly what everyone does you are no different to than My Mom, Family, Izzy, n Angel, not mention the rest of the list of people.
I do NOT want or need your pity nor an "apology", I dont accept being treated like I am.not of value, because you're on your fucking period.
I just wanted to point one last thing out. Remember when you asked me "but who's there for you?"
An i told you "I have no one they all blame me for their inability to deal with hurting me, so they blame me n push me out for dead. Because evidently yall are Fuck terrified of accepting you made a mistake an loosing me as a friend is way better than you feeling the consequences of your own actions.
I told you, im chill af, laid back, until you blatantly disregard me as a human because you dont want to take accountability for your choices because you dont want to feel xyz because that was NOT your intention. An 100% i hear you I do.
But here the thing, just because "Daddy" said he is Sorry, does NOT mean I have to ignore MY feelings an the more YOU refused to acknowledge what I was saying, the more YOU invalidated me, an showed me with your actions. You did not n do not value Me , let alone "our friendship"
You U-S-E people to service YOU
Which means, YOU sir do NOT know your own Values or Moras, let alone that you are worthy.
An that because of your Tramas from your life. You an the world are high off of Prolonged Trama exposure in this world. Wtf?!
Your soul is where your Emotions are. Its also the feeling you get when im around, lower chest area. I do it to everyone evidently, an then when I leave the feeling leaves with me. Sometimes I guess It can linger. But ANYWAYS the "safe" feeling i omit that allows people to open up with me like they do.... it's why your Ark, would talk with me, it knew.
So the feeling i omit that people feel. Its called True Unconditional Love.
I was born awake in this world. I have always given Unconditional Love until I was pushed n made to be "the bad guy" I was Born awake radiating unconditional love an being fully aware people didn't have free will an this was supposed to be heaven....
34 years, it took me 34 years to learn enough people so I can explain you all are sick af every one is, this world is a Narssacist society , Normalizi g abusive an toxic behavior. Everyone has a spectrum an you all have been forced to become Domesticed Animals. Today2022 is the best possible out from where part of the conditioning stems from minimum 1000 years ago. That 100 generations.
34 years for me to figure out, I am an Anomaly, an there's no one else like me. I might look like a normal human , but I am NOT wired like anyone of you. I am Unconditional Love. None of you know it because it doesn't exist in this world anymore.
Internal Wealth is only obtainable from the Fountain that is Unconditional Love. Yeah Fuck you ass hat, I have always known my worth, because if I ever lost it, I wouldn't be able to Love Unconditional like I do.
Anyways. So you're all sick, it's all mental health. People shove me out n blame me because I dont bow to anyone.
I know the facts an the truth. Only Cowardly Narssacist point blame n run away like a scared animal to its cage an deny an fault n paint another out as scum and round up the people to not "pick a side" but bird's of a feather do flock together don't they. An of course Monkey see Monkey do.
But BEST FUCKING PART 😂🤣 there's absolutely no doubt in my mind, being or in my heart, that my intellectual abilities of understanding an knowing what this world realy is far Exceed yours. Lmfao, I used to look up to you and admire you. Smh. What ever you do, I hope it make you happy , what ever that look like for ya.
Lmfao, crazy i was constantly trying to teach you what I knew so you could reap the joys of understanding the universe. You wanted a slap From the Universe, you had me in the flesh. N you wanted to Fuck Around n find out 👁🌹
You where more worried about how I could serve you while you used me to benefit you, an YOUR happiness. Jim, I'm the Big Rat your the Small one. I control energy, I told you that too, so you think Idk how to transmute my own energy to controle the room. 💋
Lmfao like you're fuck smart af, but you're also dense af, your compilation to need an require "Order" is also a trama response. Im mean everything about you is. Dead ass, I am not even trying to be a CUNT just honest.
As well as drowning yourself in anything an everything to avoid real emotions. because you live in fear of that experience. Its Trama induced Congratulations you too bought into the "marrix" chasing the Carrots becoming addicted to materialism to negate true self love reflection an balance. All so you can have the GRAND title of a "good boy" an "productive" member of society. #CoolKid
Do you even know who you are with Money n Power?
Does NOT matter to me. Its all very much a YOU problem Darling, your Tramas are showing, you might want to heal those.
If anything i said in this message pissed you off, good, every triggers I caused was a bandaid rip off to your wounded ego, enjoy 😏
Karma Does NOT have an Agenda, she Just.
I wrote this for me, idk If im gunna send it to you are not, who knows.
But in case I do, YOU are 100% RIGHT in your way of thinking n knowing this LOGICAL world, but I'm not wrong there's so much more.
Your addiction to YOUR "structure n order" it's a security blanket for you, it's an average cope. But your life exposure to abuse an or neglect creates a Trama Response that Turned into a controlled coping skill which you then evolved into "functioning order"
Unless you redesign your condo recently , boom case n point.. how may years? 11? Idk its you on you.
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