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My Stardew Valley event posters! Created these over the span of like a year and a bit. Did the Spirit's Eve one in November 2022, and finished off with the Flower Dance one earlier in Feb this year.
If you're interested, you can get prints of these over on Redbubble!
i accidentally napped and had a dream (nightmare?) where a new update for stardew valley released where everything was the same except on a random day in year 3 Evelyn would just straight up die. There was a whole cutscene that started in her house where she collapsed, and then transitioned over to the hospital where Harvey gave George and Alex the worst news of their lives. However, they got to speak to her where she said something along the lines of "Yoba will protect me, and I am sure he will let me watch over you."
Alex and George would not talk to the player for more than a few words for a full season after this event. George would spend most of his time in the bedroom, so if you had less than 2 hearts with him, you could barely ever speak to him.
And Alex... oh my god, poor Alex. If you were married to him during this event, he just stayed in bed all day. Otherwise, if single, he would just stand on the beach most of the time, staring off into the ocean. If you tried to interact with him, it would just say "Alex is grieving... Better leave him be."
There was also other NPC dialogue like mayor Lewis saying "I haven't seen the community in this state of mourning since your grandfather passed..."
there was also a glitch where you could make Evelyn live forever and there were entire guides for the "immortal Evelyn glitch" that got patched out in the next update. If you tried to perform the glitch after the patch, mr. Qi would tell you that "hey, it happens to all of us. We can't prevent it, and neither can you, no matter how hard you try."
y'all missing the whole point of stardew valley. it's supposed to be slow paced. you're a farmer. crops do now grow instantly and you wont be making millions in a season. enjoy the fucking game, take your fucking time. take days off to just forage and talk to people. aren't yall tired of the grind from real life??? do you want to experience burnout in a farming game too??????
I would like to see more people talk about how jobs treat disabled employees.
I used to prep, wash dishes, and cook at mellow mushroom. I had chronic pain that wasn't NEARLY as bad as it is today, but it was still very debilitating. I told my employer "i cannot stand more than 4 to 6 hours. I CANNOT do shifts longer than this due to my illness." And even though i made my boundaries VERY clear, everyday i worked it was 8 hours at the least and 10 or 12 at the most. I would go up to my manager and say "look i really need to leave, my shift is over, my chronic pain is killing me." And he'd say "we really need to here, you HAVE to push through." And so i did, and after one, ONE month of that job my crps got incredibly worse to the point where i could no longer walk my dog around the block which was .5 miles. I quit, and that was FOUR years ago, and ever since that day I HAVE BEEN BEDRIDDEN AND HAVE TO USE A WHEELCHAIR. It is my biggest regret in life.
My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."
That job thats hurting you isn't fucking worth it. I promise you no money is worth losing all your physical abilities and never getting them back. Your coworkers and boss do not give a shit about you, so don't you dare suffer for them. They will never understand your struggle and they will never try. They truly think being understaffed is worse than whatever pain you experience. They would rather you permanently damage yourself than inconvenience them. FUCK THEM. DON'T FUCKING DO IT!
Chronic pain pisses me off cause I'm not even incapacitated for like a cool or badass reason instead my body is throwing the world's biggest temper tantrum because it's raining outside
You can say "I am struggling to do [x thing] because of my disability" and neurotypicals + able-bodied people will come up with any reason ever why it isn't actually your disability causing you to struggle and is actually a personal moral failing.
telling disabled people (specifically disabled adults) to just get out of the house, attend events and make friends is easier said than done because;
1- a lot of disabled people can't leave the house. it's as simple as that.
2- if they can leave the house, they may need carers who may be bigoted and may not feel comfortable bringing them along to events for specific minority identities
3 if they have a supportive carer/ if they can go out alone, they may not have reliable access to transport (cars can't always fit mobility aids, public transport is notoriously inaccessible)
4- if they have access to transport, it's still not guaranteed that disabled people can enter an event, be that physical barriers, sensory overwhelm, dietary restrictions
5- if a disabled person can get into a venue, who's to say they won't encounter ableists, overt discrimination or not. this is an even larger concern for disabled people of colour, queer people, or any other minoritised identities.
6- even if the people are lovely, a lot of events are set in evenings, a time when a lot of disabled people feel even less safe when leaving the house.
I'm sure there's more. this doesn't even include trying to keep in contact with people and everything else that comes with relationships, but I just want to highlight that disabled loneliness and isolation is a huge issue with so many factors. don't try to dismiss it and tell us to 'just go out'.
For a long time I never really had a name to my love and connection for space. In middle school I discovered the term spacekin on this very app. Scrolling the tag during class I was in awe. It resonated with me but I shrugged it off as something cool but not something Iād call myself, surely Iām not well versed enough on the topic of astronomy to call myself that.
Years later in college I kinda rediscovered the term along with even more terms. I ultimately confessed that spacekin felt right. I donāt believe myself to be the embodiment of an ever expanding vacuum filled with astronomical bodies and phenomena. But my connection to space felt so strong and abnormal to an everyday human being that surely it mustāve meant something.
Iāve adopted the term of alienkin too. Back then I took these terms very literally, itās something I do everyday so itās not a surprise. But as I got older I realized that it doesnāt have to be literal for it to be true. For as long as I can remember, Iāve never felt like I belonged. Even when I found a group of people I considered friends and felt safe to be myself around I couldnāt help but feel as if I was always 10ft away. And this feeling of me not belonging paired with life experiences that feel like a cruel joke where everyone got an instruction manual to be a human and I didnāt? It didnāt help and itās only gotten worse as Iāve gotten older. I remember when I would make comments like āhumans are weirdā and referring to my body as vessel when I was younger. It didnāt last for very long as my brother would poke fun at it. But I canāt help but still make these āhumans and their waysā type of comments in my head.
Iāve found great comfort in embracing these identities. They make me happy. It makes me happier that theyāre related to my favorite thing ever. I do not have any memories of past lives or even dreams of such a thing. I do not experience the phantom limbs other alienkin do. Iāve experienced life in a way that the metaphorical has felt so real that it doesnāt feel figurative anymore.
I just know that I am an alien among humans, Iāve always have been. Iām an alien in disguise. One that longs for what is out of my reach.
Can I get a flag for crip? Like crip theory crip. In a pan-disability sense. I don't have any particular iconography in mind, only that it shouldn't give a vibe that this is exclusive to physical disabilities. If you can link it in some way to the Mad & Deaf pride flags that'd be nice.
Thank you!
Crip Pride Flag
This is a flag for crips and those who feel represented by/part of crip theory, crip pride, and/or general cripness.
Crip (note different spelling from cripple) is a term that is open to people with ALL disabilities (physical or otherwise) and also to groups who share the crip mindset but who might get hassled for identifying as disabled. [SVG version on WC]
For folks who like details: I'm gonna explain what crip is for those who may be new to the term! Then I'll talk about the flag design how the different stripes represent different models of disability. š
What is even is crip?
Like how "queer" is to LGBT+, "crip" is to disabled. It's an umbrella term, a way of seeing the world, a sociological way of thinking critically. Crip theory explicitly builds on queer theory. Expanding on your recent post about it, some characteristics of queer theory are:
Understanding disability (and impairment) as socially constructed
Fuck capitalism: the social construction of disability as we understand it was a result of the development of capitalism. "Disability" as a category emerged based on who could not work in a capitalist system.
Fuck eugenics: which acted to categorize Black people as disabled by racistly creating the concepts of general intelligence & feeblemindedness. Ableism and racism have been entwined for hundreds of years and cannot be understood in isolation. Similarly, queer people were categorized as mentally abnormal - disabled - as part of a long history of dominant groups using disability as a cudgel against the "degenerates".
Fuck colonialism: which is itself debilitating. Violence disables people. White Disability Studies and White Disability Rights like to bang on the "disability isn't bad and shouldn't be prevented" drum but landmines and preventable tuberculosis are BAD okay? kthxbai
Disabled people are creative. Where queer-ing refers to a way of being critical of categories (especially dichotomies), cripping tends to focus on rethinking capacity and ability. Disabled people ARE the original makers/hackers.
Disabled people are experts: we know shit. We *have* to know shit. Oftentimes we know more about our conditions than our medical doctors. It is *us* who should be the epistemic authorities on disability, *not* physicians. Disabled people should decide which disabilities are worthy of efforts to "cure": e.g. autistic and Deaf people don't want it, while ME/CFS and Long Covid folks are desperate for doctors to take us seriously.
You (@queercripintersex) and I are both disabled intersex people so it's not a surprise that by this I mean groups like the intersex community. Reading Cripping Intersex by Orr has made clear to me that intersex has always been crip - and disability studies scholars have been casually including us all along. But the intersex community still has a way to go toward understanding that identifying as/with disability does NOT mean accepting the medical model.
The fat pride/acceptance movement may similarly find it controversial to identify as disabled.... but fat studies scholars have been locating themselves as within crip theory since day one.
Again, drawing a parallel to queer & LGBT: the inclusion of kink and polyamory as LGBT is a sure-fire way to invite controversy, but these communities are Queer. š
Flag details
The design is based on @capricorn-0mnikorn's Disability Pride Flag. I'm already a fan of it and wanted it to represent how crip pride is part of Disability Pride.
In line with newer meanings for the Disability Pride flag, the stripes represent different models of disability associated with crip theory:
Purple represents the social construction of disability and the influence of queer theory. The #82609b is from the Mad Pride flag.
Red represents postcolonial understandings of disability such as debility, and how ableism is historically connected with racism and colonialism. Understanding that which chronic illnesses receive care and research is *political*. Research on ME/CFS barely gets any funding while hate groups raise money to "cure" autism. Preventable tuberculosis continues to kill people in the Global South. The choice of #CF7280 is a nod to the AIDS flag. I took the red from the disability pride flag and shifted the hue (but not chroma & lightness) to match that of the AIDS flag.
Yellow represents the affirmative and identity models of disability. Understanding that disability is not inherently bad, and that many disabilities can actually be beneficial. The choice of #f4db75 is a nod to the intersex flag.
White represents how crip pride and crip theory are pan-disability. It stands for models of disabilities not otherwise represented here. The #E8E8E8 white is also a nod to the neurodiversity flag.
Blue represents the social model of disability, the intellectual progenitor of the social construction model (and crip theory in turn). The choice of #83bfe5 is a nod to the Deaf flag.
Green represents eco-crip theory, the eco-social model of disability, and other crip engagements with environmentalism & sustainability. The choice of #48af75 is a nod to the nonhuman flag.
The repetition of purple serves to show crip pride & theory exist within a social construction framework.
As with the disability pride flag, the dark grey (#595959) represents the lives lost to ableism and our collective grief. The grey (and the entire layout) are a nod to the disability pride flag.
When adding the purple stripes to the design of the disability pride flag, I intentionally chose not to shrink the original five stripes so everything would have the same width. I wanted to reflect how crip theory offers a more expansive view of disability: it welcomes intersex, fat, nonhuman, trans, and other groups fighting eugenicist logic. We don't need to agree on a definition of "disability" for us to come together to fight ableism & eugenics.
Because of how crip theory brings attention to disability history, present, and futurity, this flag builds on my previous "historic colours" disability pride designs. But I wanted the crip flag to be more visually distinct. I also felt like the references I made there to the sunflower lanyard & Eros Recio "overcoming" flag weren't enough in line with the crip ethos. While the sunflower lanyard is helping real disabled people out, it is a corporate project, and the "Overcoming" flag is... well it's literally called the Overcoming flag. š
While the nonhuman flag doesn't have the same amount of history behind it that the other flag-homages do, the goal here was to think about crip past *and* future. Also being a cyborg (alterhuman) is a proud tradition of crip theory.
Okay that was a lot of detail! Tagging @radiomogai for archival. And I wanna acknowledge @scifimagpie for giving me feedback a ton of different prototypes. š
Finally: I release this flag design as public domain! You can share and remix it as you desire. š
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