Young and Free

We are young. We party and bullshit, smoke weed and drive quick. See cops and stash shit. Drive fast and live rich. Tattoos and attitudes. Love sex. Late night texts. Live our lives to the fullest, our parents hate the bullshit. But hey we are young and free so just let us be.

[jaubaius]

Ah yeah!

[thevicksterfrench]

Single for life

So I am starting to accept the fact that I’m going to be single for life. I mean is it really to much to ask for a girl who wants a girl who makes her happy, makes her laugh, brings out the best in her, gives her a reason to smile, loves her endlessly, is loyal, honest, real, down to ride or die, wants to take her out, show her off, kiss her under the moonlight, kiss her in the rain, snow, sun, a girl to grow with and share pasts stories, make memories and hold when it’s cold. All I wanna do is just this for her, whoever she may be, if you’re her… I’m right here, don’t need to be shy. I’m pathetic…☺😁😂😣😢😦

[thevicksterfrench]

Just one chance

I honestly haven't had a real girlfriend, granted I just recently came out. But besides that in general I haven't had a true relationship either. I have dated but never for longer than a month. I just want to show someone my potential and never get the chance to. I want my first meaningful relationship. And my first real girlfriend. But people tend to just befriend me because maybe I'm not the most gorgeous or because they judge my past, or they just see me as a friend but they all failed to get to know me. I wrote this today to show y'all what I feel. I just want someone to give me a chance. A chance to show how true and loyal I can be. A chance to give my all to you. A chance to be real A chance to be honest A chance to make you laugh A chance to make you smile A chance to give my all A chance to make you fall Because I have a huge heart I am full of love with no one to give it to All because no one gives me the chance. If only you have me a chance I'd show you a genuine person A sweetheart A lover A best friend Someone who will always have your back Someone you call call at 3 am to cry to Or just talk. I will be there till the end Just give me a chance I want to make you the happiest girl in the world I want to be your reason to smile The voice you want to hear Your good morning text Your goodnight call Your smile every time you see my name on your phone If only you'd give me the chance.

[shortvideosandstuff]

[thevicksterfrench]

TOOOOOO FUCKING CUTE! 

[thevicksterfrench]

One Too Many

This is something I wrote today after finding out my mother relapsed. Alcoholism is no joke, it’s a serious disease. I hope this can help someone else as it helped me writing it.

The devil is a master of disguise. Even on the clearest sky’s he hides and he finds a way to demolize the lives of the wise who took a try with closed eyes. Poking at the face of the devil himself till you push him to far until he engulfs. Sure it’s all fun and games until you try to run away. This isn’t a hide and seek game it’s real self inflicted pain. As the blood that runs through your veins soon turns to poison and pain. Making all things the furthest thing from sane. It’s suicide by the litter, which is guided by the leader which is now you because your fully consumed. Every breath you take is followed by an intake of heart break. Your family your friends, think of your kids and how it impacts them. We all die inside slowly as you lie and hide. You reside in your room, your comfort, fully consumed. Slowly your life it taken right before you, no time for goodbyes it’s just a matter of time.

[girlfromthe-subway]

Addiction is not a weakness, addiction is a disease. Watching her as I grew up with sunken in eyes, muttering to herself was something I did not ask for but I loved her anyway. Don’t let somebody else’s disease destroy you. Do not expect them to change. Do not expect them to change. Do not put your sanity into their sobriety. Support them. Do not expect them to change because they are your mother, father, because they love you. When they call you at 4 a.m. slurring their words sobbing, tell them you love them. Then remember to love yourself too, hang up. Go back to bed. I know it hurts. Even if she screams at you as she collapses on the floor, know deep down somewhere she loves you. Right now she can’t walk straight let alone get her shit together. Hold her. The person standing before you is not the person you know. It is the addict within them — this took me 15 years to understand. Addicts are dishonest, sneaky, narcissistic, and thieves. My mother is intelligent, strong willed, determined and adventurous. Learn to know the difference. There will be ups and downs. Cherish the ups. No matter how short. Try to let the past go, so you can have time to make better memories, trust me. Anger is going to consume you. I want you to bite your tongue. When they reach recovery and sobriety, don’t talk down to them about how they fucked up. They are well aware and they are not proud. Do not increase the self hatred they already feel. If it gets to be too much in one night? Leave. I understand all too well. For the love of God, do not play with fire. Don’t you dare inject toxic into your veins like they did. As you get older it’ll make more sense than it does right now. Your nightmares will ease and you will learn to trust again. When they get in deep, you’ll drive to their house to make sure they are still there, still conscious. You’ll call constantly desperate to hear their voice. In my opinion this is the worst form of anxiety. You’re going to make it. Breathe. Addiction can sink so deep into you, that it has the ability to kill you. Do not be afraid to call 911 when they’re passed out, wheezing. When they’re covered in their own vomit, hyperventilating. They will be angry. But they will also be alive. Do yourself a favor and remind those around you who also deal with her cruel words, that this isn’t their fault. She’s not herself. Be realistic. Hope is excellent until you drown yourself in it. A personal message from the daughter of two addicts to you — it will be okay. You don’t have to be like them, you are not them. This is an infinite battle but you will heal. I did.

what I’ve learned through loving an addict  (via healingx)

This made me completely break down as I sit by my mother's side while she's passed out from her recent binge. Its all exactly the same. I know this feeling, I know the fear, the love, the hurt. I just have no idea where to go from here. I'm lost and broken. Where do I go from here?

[thevicksterfrench]

Country thunder 2014 is almost here and I have extra space for some party people on my campsite! Hit me up if you're chill and ready to turn up redneck style at country thunder in az! :) I need a few people on my camp cause so far I only have 2 and myself. :( send me a message or comment on this if you're interested!

[teamtomorrowland-blog]

[thevicksterfrench]

About to enjoy my last few hours before work

[thevicksterfrench]

(Taken with http://cinemagr.am)

[thevicksterfrench]

My dog is weird. #pitbull #circles #wild (Taken with Cinemagram)

[thevicksterfrench]

#pitbull #chihuahua #play #fight (Taken with Cinemagram)

[fitsports24]

[thevicksterfrench]

Work hard and don't give up. :)

[thevicksterfrench]

If I had a girlfriend I would...

Take her out on a REAL date

Never force anything on her or make her do anything shes not comfortable with

Do anything in my power to make her laugh/smile when shes upset

Cuddle with her every chance I get

Call her just to hear her voice

Take her to places shes never been 

Go on adventures 

Go to a mountain at sunset and sit on the hood of my car as we watch the sun go down and then watch the stars all night

Kiss her passionately 

Give her my attention no matter what

Drop everything Im doing just to be there for her

Cook for her

Buy her flowers randomly

Surprise visits 

Shower her with love

Support her in the things she wants to do

Help her achieve her dreams

Stand by her side no matter what

Love the fuck out of her till she gets sick of me

Be committed to her 

Make her the happiest woman alive

I want a girl who wants all this from me. I want to give someone my world.

[michellechambers]

[thevicksterfrench]

Single on Valentines day...

Yeah it sucks but people need to shut up about it and just get over it. People in relationships need to stop making a big deal out of it because if you really love someone, treat them as you would on valentines day, EVERYDAY. Point made, yes! I would love a a significant other but time will bring that sooner or later. 

[helloitsrachel-deactivated20260]

[thevicksterfrench]

JELLO! This reminds me of my best friend