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Shut up you fucking asshole... you know what you've done to me...
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Shut up you fucking asshole... you know what you've done to me...
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All I wanted was to be treated correctly. - I'm not. Seems they dont want to find a way out from the darkness.. its exhausting.. :/
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Well, I've been told by someone with PTSD that my ptsd isnt as bad as theres... but like... how do you know?
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Yes. Bad things happen. But specifically I'm talking about chipping my tooth, it's my unique and favorite thing about me.
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"Everything I want to love, I degrade
Every muscle, every tendon, every bone
I take and humiliate"
Happy New Year.
I'm ready for a fresh start
Entry 269
Next year, I will do, be and see better. I have so many goals for 2023! - I'm not gonna publicize them. I am gonna push forward.
Entry 229
Poems,of poetry from the poet's mind.
- M
Entry 201
It's been a long hectic year.
I've learn some lost some. I'm going to be okay in the end.
I'm praying the renting market will drop so I can move the fuck out already; I'm so tired of hearing maria.
Entry 203
I'm not ever going to be HEARTLESS.
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I speak 99.9% through music. Always.
If I'm feeling someway ill have a song to describe it.
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Its christmas... how many gifts for me? Its Christmas... why the fuck can you see. Its Christmas I spoiled you and you couldn't even buy one for me!?
Entry 298
This powerful human.
Their music, their lyrics, and them.
They've spoken to me in ways, through the music.
I could sit here a quote alot of their song lyrics that have helped me through stuff but I wouldnt be able to sit for too long.
Thank you 🖤💙
Merry Christmas Eve 🐄💙
Entry 248
My trauma doesnt define me.
My past doesnt define me.
My mistakes dont define me.
I am mentally and physically happy.
I am growing through what I go through.
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Imagine being told by countless people, "he isnt good for you" and "your mental health will decline" and yet I still dated, I still pushed my self. I let them push me around, beat me down, tell me I was never good enough for them or anyone. I BELIEVED THEM.
Entry 226
STOP
Being so hard on yourself.
Beating yourself up because of the past.
Putting others needs before your own.
Entry 272
This conversation is hard, but worth it.
Blooming at your own pace, it was always a competition for my ex, and my old friend.. if I did it so did they.. If I didnt they would brag..
I'd relapse, my ex use to say the very triggering
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"If you cut, I cut ten times deeper"
Basically telling me or at least from my perspective that if I self harmed, he would do it but deeper because I did it.
I'm not sure if it was manipulation or something... but it didnt help...
Sigh... sorry... small rambles..
Entry 241
Hard truths with my struggles of self care.
1. I fear disappointment, so prioritizing my own self care is my last option with most of the people in my life.
2. My room is very messy, I forget or don't want to shower, and I havent done my laundry in 2 weeks or I've done and over done my laundry within the last 2 days.
3. Boundaries? I havent even made any for myself.. let alone enough to scare away people.
4. I use to have friends whom thought I OWE them my time, money etc. Sooo, again boundaries trauma.
5. Re read number 4 please.
6. Letting go? Me? Of people? Relationships? What?!
7. Looking back.. this all looks so sad..
8. Agreed.