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[theweekndfan28]

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Shut up you fucking asshole... you know what you've done to me...

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All I wanted was to be treated correctly. - I'm not. Seems they dont want to find a way out from the darkness.. its exhausting.. :/

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Well, I've been told by someone with PTSD that my ptsd isnt as bad as theres... but like... how do you know?

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Yes. Bad things happen. But specifically I'm talking about chipping my tooth, it's my unique and favorite thing about me.

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"Everything I want to love, I degrade

Every muscle, every tendon, every bone

I take and humiliate"

Happy New Year.

I'm ready for a fresh start

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 269

Next year, I will do, be and see better. I have so many goals for 2023! - I'm not gonna publicize them. I am gonna push forward.

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Entry 229

Poems,of poetry from the poet's mind.

- M

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 201

It's been a long hectic year.

I've learn some lost some. I'm going to be okay in the end.

I'm praying the renting market will drop so I can move the fuck out already; I'm so tired of hearing maria.

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Entry 203

I'm not ever going to be HEARTLESS.

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I speak 99.9% through music. Always.

If I'm feeling someway ill have a song to describe it.

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Its christmas... how many gifts for me? Its Christmas... why the fuck can you see. Its Christmas I spoiled you and you couldn't even buy one for me!?

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 298

This powerful human.

Their music, their lyrics, and them.

They've spoken to me in ways, through the music.

I could sit here a quote alot of their song lyrics that have helped me through stuff but I wouldnt be able to sit for too long.

Thank you 🖤💙

Merry Christmas Eve 🐄💙

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 248

My trauma doesnt define me.

My past doesnt define me.

My mistakes dont define me.

I am mentally and physically happy.

I am growing through what I go through.

[theweekndfan28]

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Imagine being told by countless people, "he isnt good for you" and "your mental health will decline" and yet I still dated, I still pushed my self. I let them push me around, beat me down, tell me I was never good enough for them or anyone. I BELIEVED THEM.

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 226

STOP

Being so hard on yourself.

Beating yourself up because of the past.

Putting others needs before your own.

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 272

This conversation is hard, but worth it.

Blooming at your own pace, it was always a competition for my ex, and my old friend.. if I did it so did they.. If I didnt they would brag..

I'd relapse, my ex use to say the very triggering

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Mentions of Self harm, suicide, and manipulation.

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"If you cut, I cut ten times deeper"

Basically telling me or at least from my perspective that if I self harmed, he would do it but deeper because I did it.

I'm not sure if it was manipulation or something... but it didnt help...

Sigh... sorry... small rambles..

[theweekndfan28]

Entry 241

Hard truths with my struggles of self care.

1. I fear disappointment, so prioritizing my own self care is my last option with most of the people in my life.

2. My room is very messy, I forget or don't want to shower, and I havent done my laundry in 2 weeks or I've done and over done my laundry within the last 2 days.

3. Boundaries? I havent even made any for myself.. let alone enough to scare away people.

4. I use to have friends whom thought I OWE them my time, money etc. Sooo, again boundaries trauma.

5. Re read number 4 please.

6. Letting go? Me? Of people? Relationships? What?!

7. Looking back.. this all looks so sad..

8. Agreed.