dhwani.

they/them • books, hozier and gay yearning

[aconissa]

THE WORLD IS GONE, I MUST CARRY YOU

Philip Pullman, The Amber Spyglass Richard Siken, ‘You are Jeff’ bell hooks, All About Love: New Visions Angelica Alzona, Creophagy Mary Oliver, ‘West Wind’ Kurt Vonnegut, Mother Night Jeffrey McDaniel, ‘Archipelago of Kisses’ Graham Dean, Couple Madeline Miller, The Song of Achilles Jeanette Winterson, Lighthousekeeping Paul Celan, ‘Vast, glowing vault’

[svraph-moved-deactivated2023091]

you are sunlight through a window, which i stand in, warmed. (the miniaturist, jessie burton)

unlove’s the heavenless hell and homeless home, e. e. cummings / take me to church, hozier / down to agincourt, seperis / @seraphpng / @nephrosoupp / i’ll give you the sun, jandy nelson / scheherazade, richard siken / clifford prince king / the sower, vincent van gogh / the song of achilles, madeline miller / the diary of anaïs nin (volume iv), anaïs nin / the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, taylor jenkins reid

[wylanvnneck]

you are my son, my moon, and all my stars, e.e. cummings // the song of achilles, madeline miller // owl and pussycat, some years later, margaret atwood // the starry night, vincent van gogh // seven, taylor swift // @ashberrrry via tumblr // two men contemplating the moon, caspar david friedrich // red, white and royal blue, casey mcquiston // anyway, richard siken // end of the day, one direction

[moonstoast]

—memories

the milk train doesn’t stop here anymore by tennessee williams // holly warburton // holly warburton // memory for forgetfulness by mahmoud darwish // before sunset (2004) // calling a wolf a wolf by kaveh akbar // teodor axentowicz // anne magill // the song of achilles by madeline miller

[ihateyouvishal]

dheere dheere samajh aaraha hai kyu jordan baar baar khatana bhai se keh raha tha ki uska dil nahi tutna chahiye

[stargirldotcom]

-on alternate timelines and universes

everything everywhere all at once/ @inanotherunivrse/ complex- katie gregson-macleod/ @tiredbtw/ @loviely/ eternal sunshine of the spotless mind/ @death-born-aphrodite

[thewrittenjourneyy]

rowan roth: ew neil mcnair is my worst enemy i hate him so much i'll beat him in every aspect of life

also rowan roth: BICEPS BICEPS BICEPS FOCUS FOCUS FRECKLES OMG DOES HE HAVE FRECKLES EVERYWHERE????? EVERYWHERE??? UM NO FOCUS BICEPS OH MY GOD WHEN DID HE GET BICEPS OH NO UM FOCUS PLS

[thewrittenjourneyy]

i start college this year and if i don't find an academic rival like neil mcnair what even is the point

[benjamingross-deactivated202302]

High school relationships almost never last but you're tripping if you don't think Rowan Roth and Neil McNair are in the 1% of high school sweethearts that make it

[vonsnufflemuffin]

“[He’s] looking at my mouth like he has just discovered the perfect synonym for a word that doesn’t have any.”

— Rachel Lynn Solomon, Today Tonight Tomorrow

[dream-to-be-frog]

manchala ruins my fucking life btw

[thecrazyinktrovert]

KABIRA APPRECIATION POST

Kabira (by pritam), is, was and will always be a musical masterpiece. 

“kaisi teri khudgarzi, na dhup chune na chhaav, kaisi teri khudgarzi, kisi thaur tike na paav” 

Translation- This selfishness of yours, you choose neither the sun nor the shade, this selfishness of yours, your feet don’t stay still anywhere. 

“Ban liya apna paigambar, tarr liya tu saat samandar, phir bhi sookha mann ke andar, kyuuuuuuuu reh gayaaaa” (you’d be lying if you didn’t sing it like that)

You became your own god, you swam he seven seas, but why is your heart dry? 

“Re kabira maan jaa, re fakira, maan ja, aaja, tujhko pukare teri, parchaaiyan, kaisa, tu hai nirmohi kaisa, harjaaiyan” 

Oh kabira, believe this, o sir believe, come here, your shadows are calling you. You are so ruthless and cruel. 

“Tooti charpayi wohi, thandi purvai rasta dekheeeee, doodho ki malai wohi, mitti ki surai rasta dekheee ehehehhehehhh” 

Its the same broken cot, the cool wind is still looking for you, its the same cream of the milk, and that pot of soil waits for you. 

“Kaisi teri khudgarzi, lab namak rame na mishri, kaisiii teri khudgarziii, tujhe preet puraani bisri, mast maula mast kalandar, tu hawa ka ek bawandar, bujh ke yu andar hi andar kyuuuuuu reh gayaaaaa” 

What’s this selfishness of yours, your tongue likes neither salt nor sugar, what’s this selfishness of yours, you forgot old love, you carefree person, you content person, you are a whirl of wind, but why are you broken within yourself? 

Nearly every single line is followed by another which completely contrasts the former. Such raw emotion and pain and nostalgia is held in this song, its not talked about enough. 

[kanejforever]

“Why the net, Kaz?“ I couldn’t bear to watch you fall.

Kaz has a hard time watching Inej perform, not because he doesn’t trust her skills, but there’s that slight chance she could fall and get hurt. It’s another reason why he can’t watch Jesper shoot at her, even though he knows Jesper is a talented shot. 

But as he turns his head to look away, Kaz observes the men staring up at her. With his intense stare, it seems as though Kaz feels another emotion. He knows what Inej has endured in the past, and Kaz becomes protective. We find out in Crooked Kingdom how hard it still is for her:

“It isn’t easy for me either.” Her voice, low and steady, the voice that had once led him back from hell. “Even now, a boy will smile at me on the street, or Jesper will put his arm around my waist, and I feel like I’m going to vanish.” The room tilted. He clung to the tether of her voice. “I live in fear that I’ll see one of her—one of my—clients on the street. For a long time, I thought I recognized them everywhere. But sometimes I think what they did to me wasn’t the worst of it.”

At this moment, it’s apparent that Kaz Brekker is demanding everyone show respect for Inej Ghafa—the Wraith of Ketterdam. 

[lyssq]

If I had a penny for every time I became obsessed with a relationship that was enemies to lovers to shocking betrayal that leads to one person wondering whether the love they had was real or if it was all a trick from the start to lovers again after it’s revealed that the betrayal was to protect them to heartbreaking death, I’d have two pennies, which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice

[moonsofsappho]

My favourite Hozier lyrics because I'm gay:

"To feel your weight in arms I'd never use, its the god that heroin prays to."

"But you dont know what hell you put me through, to have someone kiss the skin that crawls from you."

"She's the angel of small death and the codeine scene"

"I should've worshipped her sooner"

"I'm all but washed in the tide of her breathing."