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Welcome to my little room! they/them No longer writing Fanfiction slowly switching to an art blog or maybe some personal writtinf projects :3

[thewrittingpan]

Fish-hookers!

That is genuinely my nickname for them. It kind of started as two different jokes: one “anchovy-warriors” as my partner is allergic to anchovies and cilantro. I tied in the cilantro eventually to act as those feather berlesque-style fans. I then quickly forgot about them. The second was a word association drawing exercise starting with something from my job that smelled like fish then slowly evolving into the fish hookers I have today. They’re fun they’re silly and they can mean something or not.

The one pictured are a small growing collection of “Trading cards” I’ve given some as art trade pieces or as smaller gifts. I might have to try selling some so I don’t accumulate to many though.

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“The Graces” 2024

Charcoal and graphite on paper 40 x 26 inches

Originally this piece started as a self portrait and very quickly became anything but. Truthfully I believe this is one of those pieces I would want you to be able to see in person. The details in the hair, the feathers, and the leaves for example were delicate time consuming and find them to be striking in person.

This piece is something I will have to put into my senior reviews and hopefully it’s selected for my exhibition. Even being from 2024 it’s arguably one of my greatest successes. My heart will break when I eventually find them a home they belong in.

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Gift and Wrappings

Watercolor and colored pencil on paper (2025)

Unfortunately this piece is quite large and the messurements are not currently available. This is a triad piece with them nicknamed in order as rib and bow, offering (rabbits), and wrapping. I refer to the lower white rabbit as the younger sister, the top one being the older. This work was lossly inspired by a short one page story that was only a few sentences long. In which the rabbit asked its mother for the fox to stay for dinner.

My classmates and professor saw it as cute and a fitting selection for me as I was experimenting with illustrative narrative work, and connections through my work. I saw it for what it was. A small rabbit asking for a predator they loved to stay for dinner.

It reminded me of my own circumstances. I had gotten out of a bad breakup for me. The man I was seeing while he may have loved me, I felt as if the last year of our relationship was filled with insults and disrespect towards eachother but I felt like I had betrayed my own family, picking him over them. He had insulted my mother, perhaps trying to be supportive durring an emptional time where my reationship with her was strained, and my little sister. He insulted her and judged her in a way I could not defend but I stayed silent and didn’t stand up for her either.

While rarely this man had thrown objects when angry, drove me home while high nearly crashing his car, and he would insult me and yell at me. I was overly attatched and reliant on him in a unhealthy way that only made it worse, I was scared of him but I felt like I needed him more than anything in the world. I lost myself in him but I lost my connection to my sister too. I sheilded my sister from the abusive actions and insults but never left it for her. I was the worst person I have ever been so far when I was with him. My deepest flaws were taking over my life.

My goal was to show some of this internal turmoil, I imagined a fox, acepting the gift of rib and then slaughting the younger sister. Leaving the older rabbit with the bloodstained and ripped ribbon.

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Here’s some of my fruits “Limeade” and “Mandarins” from last summer! I took an oil painting class last spring and found I really enjoyed it as a medium! It’s buttery smooth and mine dry enough within a day or two so I can go back and work without too much issue if I had made some previous errors. Personally I love adding some extra linseed oil for a super smooth paint so I can get delicate line work in. I also do like the blocky abstract shapes too so it’s been lovely to see how it’s impacting my artwork in other mediums.

I’m hoping to clean out some of my older artwork that I don’t particularly want to keep for my Senior show and thesis so feel free to reach out if you’ve seen something you’re interested in.

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When you have to regrind the lithostone for the 4th time

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Craft Night Deco!

I think it’s important to relax and do fun “unimportant” playful craft-life things. Personally I find it inspires a lot of future projects and keeps me flexible with my work. It’s a great way to follow your gut without feeling like you’re risking a mistake on a massive project.

So here’s my deco projects!

These are all Cookie Run Brave verse cards from their new TCG which I’ve been dabbling in.

Pond Dino is my personal favorite cookie! I think her face is adorable and I love the little forget-me-nots she’s decorated with and has as a pet. It’s my favorite flower to boot!

This is pudding a la mode cookie! I have to clean her up a tad but I focused a lot on making her look like she was mid-attack! I love how glimmers she is in real life!

Shine Muscat Cookie is one I pulled in a draft pre-release event in town. I’m not sure if she’s a good card but nonetheless, I loved the green and focused a lot on making the deco look like stickers while framing her thrown up arm! She’s a shining star in my book!

Last is my Champion Milky Way Cookie. We had some strange things happen with our game system at my store somehow assigning me second place when I technically should have been first? I’m not sure it’s above my head, Anyways he’s the least successful deco in my opinion. I love what I tried to do with the star on the arm-cannon thing, and I love the colors, but I don’t like the lack of movement in this.

Anyways now that I’ve shown off my cute cards, I have to mentally prepare to grind down a litho stone for a few more hours tomorrow! Back to more on brand artwork later lol!

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Me when the 4hours of Spanish homework instead of 8 hr studio time

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Found pencil marks on my painting (that I definitely didn’t make) when I went to the studio earlier

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“The Fawn” graphite on paper.

I’m slowly working back into the flow of things for my next semester of classes. I’ve been wanting to do something with deer for a while now. They haven’t come easily to me, I thing perhaps the legs and the nose always resemble dogs more than I intend.

The focus was originally going to be the woman but I became more about the fawn to me; the relationships of the doe and woman to the fawn. The way I pictured it was loving but jealous. Some longing for a child that for some reason wasn’t ment to be, whether due to timing, curent relationships, health, or simply an incapability.

I don't believe that this is a bad thing for this woman, just something that when thought about upsets her. That she finds comfort in helping and caring for others.

Or I suppose she doesn’t want a child, but her lover does.

This piece I like due to how subjective these details are. To me it has a personal message and meaning even if another person views it differently. I view it as a reflection of my personal fears and circumstances regarding children and even romantic relationships. In a way this piece is for myself to view these topics I avoid thinking about and just see them and accept them as they are. Hopefully, someone else finds this comfort too.

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“Untitled” oil on paper

What a better way to start the rebrand of my blog by announcing I’m weird and paint teeth in my free time! I’m just kidding but also no I do paint teeth and have a WIP sitting in my studio right now.

This was a strange project, my lovely professor demanded around 50 continuous one-lined drawings. Then he demanded we paint/color 20 of them. Then we did four colored drawings but slightly larger and more thought out. Then finally the last final piece that he wanted “bigger than we are comfortable with.”

I knew what I wanted to paint after ten of those first sketches. I got restless after coloring a few. The four minis just made me impatient. Unfortunately it was an amazing exercise, and i highly recommend trying it out.

I loved the teeth, I’m not sure why, or at least I wasn’t sure why at the time. I do have a good guess though. The images I was sketching for those 50 drawings were all random crazy, cool, unusal, and random Pinterest posts. I drew anything I liked or caught my intrest, even a few I’m sure I didn’t like but thought could make a cool inspiration in future work. The teeth though creeped me out and weirded me out. After seeing them a bunch I was slightly used to it. I thought about my own teeth and those teeth, my teeth have never been nice and straight. Seeing all of the interesting gaps, crowded and crooked images were interesting. When I was younger maybe in middle school I had some really annoying issues with crowding, mg teeth grew in without pushing out the baby teeth. I was annoyed but ran around saying I felt a little like a shark! Looked like it too!

They pulled those teeth, but I still have gaps, still have a “missing” impacted tooth. My teeth are not pearly shining white they’re a pale yellow like most teeth are. I used to be really embarrassed by them. I had a photographer at picture day say “I wouldn’t smile either,” when I gave a toothless one for the yearbook. For what it's worth I don't care much about what they look like. Most people think the gap is cute, or they don’t notice the deformed teeth, and you can’t see the missing one until it's pointed out. I’m more so annoyed that I used to feel so ashamed of them, not because anyone was mean (except for that one photographer) I just simply knew it wasn’t the ideal.

I thought it was interesting. A part of pur body that we switch out, and are known for having unique looks to them due to the way they grow in. Healthy teeth are much more important than pretty teeth anyway, so what if they look a little weird.

I love this painting, and every time a hold it the uneven white space on the right side grows on me more. I haven’t cut it off for some reason, I think it adds to the charm of the teeth.

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Hello! I know I’ve been gone for a while but I wanted to warn you all that I may decide to redo my blog and start posting my artwork instead of the fanfics I don’t write much anymore. I’m not sure I will or not just yet but for now I wanted to leave this just as a potantial warning.

[alonelystargazer]

writing goals for 2026 ✨

to write

[seventyeight-moose]

[thewrittingpan]

Just in case ya’ll read the authors note on my last painting lies chapter- it’s sometimes gotten worse ❤️

So continue to enjoy the month long breaks 😅😭

[meo-eiru]

Delusional Yandere Elf

Quick colored sketch to show his colors

[yandere-daydreams]

JUST GIVE ME ONE CHANCE MA'AM 🥺😳😣👁️👄👁️💦💦💦

[thewrittingpan]

PLEASE LET ME AT HIM!!

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Painting lies chapter 7 has been updated!!

you'll have to read it on my a03 but i also have quotev and wattpad for the insane <3

[themidnightgourmand]

The grin on Barbatos has me writhing

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Hehehe what if I kissed a fictional character gently 😘

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Uhhhhh i only wrote 1000 words then went on a sidequest to download another yandere dating sim why did i have to do all that work just to download a game ill never know