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OOC Post

So I've realized that I've been putting off writing this post for far too long. I can't tell you how many times I started it and then just deleted it. 

This is probably the hardest post for me to write because it is initially a goodbye. Wmkuniversity was my first ever glee roleplay. It was my first time playing the fabulous Kurt Hummel and it was the first time in my life that I felt like I fit in somewhere. Anyone who knows me knows that my parents are unsupportive of pretty much everything I believe in and love doing and being in this rolepay had been my escape. My time away from the reality of life. It was where I found my passion for writing and creating characters. It's where I made some of the best friends I have ever made in my entire life. I had been in this group for over a year and I once believed in my more naïve youth that I would be a happy member of this group for years. And I wanted to be because I could never imagine myself leaving. 

But when a muse leaves it just leaves. Sometimes it leaves without any warning and you don't realize it's gone until it's too late to get it back. It got to the point where I was in this group purely because of the people I wasn't willing to say good bye to. And I'm grateful and relieved that Sierra and Bev took the initiative to just remove me. Though I will probably regret not being courageous enough to just talk to them about it. But I was trying to hold on to what I really didn't have anymore. 

I will miss everyone here. I know a large portion of my close friends have already left the group but when I say everyone I don't just mean my friends. I'll miss the followers I gained that made me feel more confident in my Kurt Hummel roleplaying and the people who made this group a group and a family. But it's time for me leave and stop...just lingering because that's what I was doing for the past several months. Just kind of lingering. 

I really hope everyone here the best and I have every confidence that this group will continue to thrive and become a family to anyone else who needs one. I do have another roleplay account that is a future continuation of this one at the URL kurtincall along with Riley, who was the previous Sebastian. 

All of my love and hugs, 

Ashley. 

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To My Dearest Chop:

There's a reason why I asked you to read this letter when you got home or were away from me. You know that I'm not really great with good-byes, not that this is good-bye or anything. I could never say goodbye to you. It just going to be a while until you hear from me again. As I have explained in person, I can't really share the details, and please... don't say anything to the family back home, when you go visit. Just, give them a big hug and kiss for me when you get to see them. Tell them that you saw me and I was healthy. I know that was pretty gloomy to say, but I promise you I'll be alright. You trust me right? No one will hurt me. Noah will make sure of it. And as soon as I can, I will call you when I get the green light. 

I want you to know, that I'm so incredibly proud of you. For the person you have come to be. Proud that with every situation and obstacle that has come your way, you have managed to come out victorious and strong - with dignity and pride. I've learned so much from you and I will never, ever, in my life look up to anyone as much as you. I will never experience the kind of love that you have given me. I hope that one day, I can make you just as proud. Don't ever, ever, doubt yourself.  You can do anything you set your mind to. You're amazing. Believe in yourself. 

Please remember, that you will always be the Chop to my Lamb. No matter where we are or go in life, that is a constant in my heart - something that will never change, no matter what. 

Also... 

Though I know I'll never lose affection  For people and things that went before  I know I'll often stop and think about them  In my life I love you more In my life I love you more

All of my love,

Your Lamb.

P.S. Take care of Lambchop and her blankey, Mr. Blue, for me? Though my rough times may still be coming, I feel like it's your turn to have them. No worries, I said the little rhyme that switches them from protection mode to good luck mode. :) 

P.P.S. I'll talk to you soon, promise.

P.P.P.S. I love you.

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One-Liner || LambChop - In My Life...

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Mary clapped and bounced a bit where she was sitting. “Bu- that’s great! Like amazing!" She said, overjoyed for her cousin. “Don’t be sorry! I understand that that, I do." Mary shook her head and at the lack of confidence her cousin had in himself sometimes. “Chop, you’re brilliant, of course you would’ve gotten accepted. I mean, they’d be stupid not to accept you. And look at this! You /were/ accepted and they are certainly /not/ stupid." She smiled, suppressing the urge to jump and knock him over in a tackle hug. That urge, quickly disappeared when she heard where the internship would be held. Sitting and thinking for a few minutes, a smile slowly spread across her face. “And that’s okay." She knew it was his dream to go to New York and that it had better opportunities for him to grow. She knew he would make him happy, so she put all worries aside an found in herself to support him. Mary wanted him to take the risk and accept the opportunity that fell before him. “I say, go for it. You’ve always wanted to go to New York and it’s always been one of your dreams to do so. Do it, Chop! Go for it." 

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Kurt watched Mary's enthuasim with amusement, and while Kurt was becoming more excited about going and starting a new chapter in his life, the more he observed Mary the more the ache in his gut grew. He suddenly remembered why he was so hesitant to tell her he would be leaving. It was always hard to say goodbye to Mary. Especially the year he moved to Ohio for his first year of WMKU. But this was what Kurt wanted, what Kurt had been working towards his whole life. To be out in New York, making a name for himself. He didn't belong here and while all of his friends and the people he cared about were here, Kurt couldn't help the feeling that something was missing in his life. And ever since he found out he'd been accepted, Kurt had felt like that something was exactly that. "I already sent in my confirmation." Kurt said, his voice bright with excitement. "They want me in New York by next week. Hence all the boxes." 

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One-Liner || LambChop - In My Life...

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Mary followed Kurt to the living room, opting to sit on the floor with her legs folded underneath her. She had taken the paper he handed her, with furrowed brows and a tilt of the head. She was a little concerned that he didn’t just come out and tell her, but she decided to shrug it off and look at the piece of paper. Mary read the the words and gathered that it was an acceptance letter to an internship. She looked up at her cousin, beaming. “Chop, this is an acceptance letter. Wh-, how… why didn’t you say anything? I thought you were just looking? I mean congratulations, of course! What… so… you’re taking it?" Mary was happy for her cousin, overjoyed really, but she sensed that something was off on his part.

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Kurt couldn't help but smile at the positive reaction he received from Mary. He'd been nervous that Mary would be upset that he didn't tell her sooner and he was relieved to sense that that wasn't quite the case. He chuckles a little in excitement, taking the letter back and shaking his head slightly in disbelief. "Yeah. I think I am." He said, his smile growing the more he thought about it. "I'm sorry I didn't say anything sooner I just didn't want to get anyone's hopes up if I didn't get in. And I wasn't even sure if I would." He glanced back down to meet Mary's eyes and his grin lowered slightly, the twinkle in his eye dimming. "Also..it's um. It's in New York." Kurt revealed, his expression turning more and more somber. 

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One-Liner || LambChop - In My Life...

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Mary looked at him with the same confused look he had given her just a few minutes earlier. Her eyes were drawn to his hands. She took comfort in that though things may be changing soon, some things always remain the same. At that moment, she knew that she wasn’t the only one that had something to share. “Not… unpacking? Wanna elaborate?" She asked while fiddling with random items that weren’t packed.

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Kurt took a deep breath and meandered over to sit on one of the miscellaneous chairs in the living room area, grabbing the sheet of paper that was laying on it on the way. He looked down at the letter he'd gotten in the mail, the letter that changed just about everything and handed it to Mary in lieu of a verbal answer. He bit his lip as he waited for how his best friend would react.  

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One-Liner || LambChop - In My Life...

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Mary smiled a bit brighter and wrapped Kurt in a tight hug before walking into the apartment. She ignored his confused look and thought that he’d soon find out her real purpose in visiting. Stepping into the apartment, her eyes scanned the one-bedroom and noticed the abundance of packed boxes. She was curious as to why there were still so many of them. Mary turned to her cousin and asked, “Uh, Chop. What’s with the boxes? I know you just moved in, but you’re usually good at unpacking pretty fast." 

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Kurt stopped in his tracks as he was closing the door, forgetting for a moment that his apartment was currently a mess. He hadn't gotten around to telling Mary yet...or well anyone for that matter. The thought hadn't completely processed in his own mind yet. But now he was feeling a little busted. He closed and locked the door and turned around to face Mary, his hands twisting together out of a nervous habit. "Um. That's because I'm not exactly...unpacking." he said. 

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One-Liner || LambChop - In My Life...

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Mary looked up and smiled up at her older cousin. With a dismissive shrug, she tried to erase all the sadness from her features, and answered. “Well, you know, I had an open invitation to visit and see the new place so, no better time then the present!" She chuckled uncomfortably, knowing the weight of what she just said. “So… surprise? I-I know I should have called. I’m sorry. Maybe I should go?" 

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Kurt's eyebrows furrowed in confusion at the obvious nervous state that his cousin was in. He decided not to question it immediately, opting instead to open his front door wider and gesture her inside. Whatever was bothering her, Kurt was confident that she would talk to him about it. "No, no! Come in. You know you don't have to call." 

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One-Liner || LambChop - In My Life...

Mary pulled up to Kurt’s apartment complex and cut off her engine. She looked down at the clutter in her passenger seat and took a deep breath. Everything seemed like it was coming to an end all too soon. She grabbed the gift bag and her purse before exiting the car. Pressing the keyless remote she locked it and took the steps to his apartment. Mary stood outside Kurt’s door for what seemed like an eternity before knocking. Each knock felt like a punch to her stomach. She did not want to say good-bye to him. Never him.

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Kurt's eyes took another sweeping glance over his apartment as he stood amidst piles of cardboard boxes. He flashbacked to a couple months ago when he had just moved in and there had been boxes all over just like then and felt a wave of nostalgia crash over him. He hardly even had the time to really make this place his own with his artistic eye and he was already packing it all up. Ever since he had received his letter in the mail a few days previously, he'd been postponing the inevitable but he needed to be in New York by next week so with his heart heavy he'd had his friend bring him leftover boxes. He was just about to begin sorting through his things when he heard the echoes of knocking on his front door reverberating around the room. With a sigh he moved over to the door, expecting to see his friend but was instead presented with a very distraught looking Mary. "Mary? What brings you over?" He asked, a smile lighting up his face. 

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Texts || LambChop

Mary: Nope, haven't figured it out. I agree, I think I'm going to take a rather decent break. I did. Okay, thanks Chop. :) I'll... take a break.

Mary: Aw. You're so stubborn. You know if you want to go home, just call and they'll send you a ticket. That way you'll have money for everything else. You're computer is still not fix? :( I'm sorry. That's sweet of Isabelle to give you a studio! :) Okay... how's sometime next week?

Mary: Shush! :P The car was fine... it's the people who had to push it out that I felt bad for. XD

Kurt: I know, I know but I don't feel right about it. Especially after this all expense trip to Paris for my birthday/Christmas. No it is! But I had to pay to get it fixed and that took some money out of my bank account. Yeah, I know! She just wanted to help me out because I couldn't really use my dorm because there wasn't enough space and I couldn't afford a studio so she just gave me some of her space. Next week sounds good. We'll figure it out.

Kurt: That poor car...

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Texts || LambChop

Mary: I figured not. :( It's okay. I think I'm just going to stay quiet for a while? I know you are, that's why I come to you. It's just so frustrating when I don't know where this is coming from. I hate feeling this way.

Mary: But you're usually good at decorating on a budget and making things look amazing. Did you get one with room for a studio or work space? I'm so glad! I'll have to come by and check it out.

Mary: Well that's good! Oh gosh. I'm glad she's okay. It really does! Kind of sounds like my first time driving. Remember when I tried to do a 3 point road turn and it ended up being about 30 points? And maybe got us stuck in a ditch after point 18? XD Woops.

Kurt: You figured it out? Yeah, sometimes we all just need a break, you know? Give yourself some 'you' time. That's what I usually do when I'm down. Of course, you already know that.

Kurt: Oh I am, but I'm on an extremely low budget right now. I mean I already spent a lot of money on the place itself and I'm trying to save money to be able to make a visit to Seattle and I had to have my laptop fixed. No, unfortunately I couldn't swing it. I just got a one bedroom and I'm keeping my on campus studio since it was given to me by Isabelle. Yes please do! I haven't really had any company over yet.

Kurt: Hahah of course I remember that. Dad and I felt so bad for that car ;).

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Texts || LambChop

Mary: No, not really. It's just some days are better than others. I wake up happy, but then as the day goes by, I get sad. Is that bad? And like, I've gotten to the point where, I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it, but you. I feel like a bother to anyone else and... scared to trust, you know? No? No triggers.

Mary: Well, you have time. :) Yes, please come by! I'm sure Sarah would love to meet you and like the fashion tips. How is your new apartment, btw?

Mary: OMG! Is she okay?! So... she didn't get her license? Dear, gosh...

Kurt: Well I'm not going to say it's a good thing. Honey, I'm so sorry you've been feeling like this lately. Of course I'm always here if you need to vent to talk even if you're not sure what's wrong or what you want to talk about.

Kurt: It's going well! I haven't really had time or the money to do a full makeover and design the layout and stuff but I'll get there. For now it's home and it may not have been the two bedroom I wanted, it's still fairly nice and I like it.

Kurt: No one was hurt and she didn't hurt anyone! She was mostly embarrassed but she was laughing. Just sounds like something straight of a sit com doesn't it?

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Texts || LambChop

Mary: No, I don't think it's that. I mean, yes it's sad, but, it wouldn't make me sad all day... would it? And like, it's not even just today, it's been on an off for a while.

Mary: Aw, any luck? Find anything fun? You know you can always come by and hang out with me and Sarah. We usually just go with the flow with what we do during the day, if Noah doesn't take her with him. Oh please share!

Kurt: I don't think so. Hm. You're probably just having a down day. They happen to the best of us, unfortunately. Has anything particularly sad happened recently maybe? A trigger?

Kurt: No..no luck. Nothing has quite caught my eye yet. Haha, aww well I'll probably take you up on that. I'm still getting used to living by myself.

Kurt: I overhead a conversation earlier today while at Starbucks today with this girl who went to go get her license and ended up crashing into the front lawn of the DMV. Busted the two front tire hubcaps off and almost got flat tires from driving over the curb

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Texts || LambChop

Mary: Um, well, I watched A Walk To Remember with Noah and Sarah, his sister. He went to work. I picked up Katelyn for a few hours and took her, Sarah, and the dogs to the park where we had dinner and let them run around. Talked to a few people... kind of. Now, having a weird conversation about the movie with Noah. And texting you.

Mary: So... yeah. There wasn't much to report on. How was your day?

Kurt: Maybe the movie bummed you out? I know that movie never fails to get me crying.

Kurt: Fairly uneventful as well. Went to Starbucks and did some research for internships and what not while I had my nonfat mocha. And yeah. That's about it. Oh! Well I do have one story that might cheer you up.

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Texts || LambChop

Mary: I don’t know. You ever just have one of those days… when you just feel… sad?

Kurt: Yes. I think everyone has those days every once in a while. How about you tell me about your day today.