get to know your moots tag game !
✶ answer the questions, then tag six people
favorite color ꕀ green and brown
last song ꕀ tú by maye
currently reading ꕀ the luminaries by susan dennard
currently watching ꕀ the great british baking show
currently craving ꕀ massaman curry. like always. and like. alcohol and a couple cigs HAHA. a break too :P
coffee or tea ꕀ always tea! i don't like coffee
ty for the tag @saltcxrcle !
tagging: @lelapine @toadspondofwhimsy @outof-spite @h0neyst4rz @hhoneylemon @our-lady-of-venom
Avenday the most shittest ship ever like I get it if you don't like ratio x aven but don't ship him with a racist or don't get me shipping hik with women
tysm for the tags @cellophane-rat-3 & @axsparkle <3
tag: search “aesthetic”, “character” & “me” and add the first photos that show up
tags: @yumclaire @bleachbambi @cigarettesincalifornia @jeante13 @queenofconeyislanddd @rosesarered444 @cryinginthechapelll + anyone else who wants to do it <3
tysm for the tags @cellophane-rat-3 & @axsparkle <3
tag: search “aesthetic”, “character” & “me” and add the first photos that show up
tags: @yumclaire @bleachbambi @cigarettesincalifornia @jeante13 @queenofconeyislanddd @rosesarered444 @cryinginthechapelll + anyone else who wants to do it <3
Is it just be or when you're having a great time with family and it just dawns on you that if you ever came out all that "unconditional love" will go out the window and you will be disowned? Just me
Tag your moots and ask them where they got the idea for their tumblr accounts name!
thank you @just-puddding for haunting me even on here.
i'm just a Mika Häkkinen fan and it's his nick name, I know technically it should be double n but I though this looks nicer so it stuck, also I suck at picking out user names so imagine my surprise when this wasn't taken.
ooooh jeez, honestly it was kinda random i saw tt with koi carps, buy name koi was already taken, so i decided to add more iiiiiiiiii, and i thought damn its too boring so i add j and that’s how u have koiji now🙂↕️🙂↕️
btw about year ago i was og koiiiiiiiiiiiji but decided to cut iiii’s a little
pairing ᝰ jungwon x fem!reader (?)
— featuring.. riki & jay word count: 3k+
⌇ … warnings & genre ↺ pt. 2, angst, high-school au!, gut-wrenching angst like trust, love triangle, crying, lots of selfishness coming from won, hurt no comfort..., one-sided love.
synopsis — why did jungwon hide rikis love letter to you? (PLEASE READ PART 1)
lee's ₊˚⊹ ᰔ comment ┊there were a lot of questions/asks for explanations from pt. 1 so here it is! guys lowkey started tearing up I'm so sorry jungwon biases... I couldn't help myself again...
5 months before…
Today was Jungwon’s worst day possible. He hadn’t done as well as he wanted on an important test—not a failing grade, but not perfect either. On top of that, he left his stuff somewhere and couldn’t remember where.
Usually, he was calm, cool, and collected, but right now, he felt helpless. Resting his head on his desk, he let the frustration settle in, feeling like he was slowly being submerged in water—until he felt a slight tug on his hair.
Slowly, he lifted his head, only to see you, your hand still hovering above him. You flinched at his movement, clearly not expecting him to be awake.
“Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry! I thought you were asleep, and your hair just looked so fluffy—” you blurted, your words tumbling over each other.
Jungwon just stared at you, silent.
You took his lack of response as a reason to keep going. “Anyway—I found this bag and recognized the name. Here you go!” You slung it over the back of his chair, grinning.
He glanced at the bag before looking back at you. You knew him? He didn’t know you.
The silence stretched, and you hummed, shifting awkwardly. He still hadn’t said thank you. You were about to excuse yourself when you caught a glimpse of the paper under his arms.
“Hey, a 75? That’s great! Man, I barely got a 65—you’re so smart. You wanna study sometime?”
Jungwon opened his mouth to reply, but before he could, the classroom door swung open.
“Y/N! We need you in the student council room—the boys are fighting again!”
You groaned, dragging your hands down your face. Without another word, you gave him a small wave, flashing a pretty smile before running off.
Jungwon raised his head, staring at the spot you had just been. “A 75 isn’t even good,” he murmured, resting his head back down. “What a weirdo.”
Yet, despite himself, he kept thinking back to that moment. He wouldn’t admit it, but it brought him a strange sense of comfort. He also didn’t even want to imagine what would’ve happened if he had really lost his stuff.
Days passed, and while he didn’t speak to you much, he saw you everywhere. Then, one day, as he strolled through the library, he spotted you working at the front desk.
He lingered behind a shelf, watching as you glanced around before sneaking to the back of the library.
Curiosity got the better of him. He followed.
Turning the corner, he caught you opening a small box, slipping a piece of paper inside. When you turned around, both of you flinched.
“Jungwon? What are you doing here?”
He crossed his arms. “What are you doing here? What’s in the box?”
Quickly, you stretched your arms out, blocking him. “It’s nothing.”
Jungwon smirked, trying to peek past you. “If it’s nothing, let me see.”
Before you could stop him, he had already snatched up the paper. You groaned, covering your face as he read it.
“You were embarrassed over cussing someone out for wearing the same headband as you on picture day?” His grin widened, amusement dancing in his eyes.
“I talked about wearing that headband for weeks…” you mumbled, looking away.
For a moment, he stayed silent. And then—he burst out laughing. Full, unrestrained laughter—the kind he hadn’t had in ages.
From that day on, he stayed by your side.
Jungwon was well-known around school. Girls found him handsome, even flirted with him, guys thought he was pretty damn good at sports and cool to hang out with. But because of that pedestal, few ever approached him as a true friend.
You didn’t seem to care about all that.
Instead of just waving at him in the hallway, you ran up to him to rant about your day. Instead of borrowing a pencil and ignoring him for the rest of class, you swapped desk numbers just to sit beside him. Instead of leaving him alone when he shut down, you stayed. Always.
You became his best friend. And he was yours. Thats all he ever needed.
That’s what he told himself, anyway.
February rolled around—the month of love. The halls were littered with Valentine’s posters, the air buzzing with excitement.
Jungwon didn’t think much of it. Maybe he’d just hang out with you that day.
But when he sat down next to you in class, you were grinning at your phone, giggling.
He smiled. “What’s got you so giddy today, huh?”
You turned your screen toward him. “I got Riki’s contact today… look!”
Jungwon’s smile faltered. He glanced at the name on your screen. Ah. Right.
He forgot about your tiny crush on Riki.
Nodding, he turned to the window, pretending it didn’t bother him. But the dull thump in his chest told him otherwise. I guess you’ll be busy that day. How lame.
Later that day, he was on the soccer field when his phone vibrated. Seeing your name, he grinned stupidly and opened the message.
You:
JUNGWONJUNGWONOMG
PLSPLSANSWERLOOKATURPHONE
Wonnie:
Ok what the hell
What is it?
You:
You are NEVER going to believe who just slid into the back of the library.
Wonnie:
Is it Jake again? Poor guy
Maybe Jay? Idk tell me
You:
Nishimura… Riki…
Jungwon stared at the screen.
Riki? Well. It was about time. He had been into you without a doubt.
Scoffing, Jungwon typed back.
Wonnie:
… Fr?
Maybe he confessed to you?
You:
Right, totally.
Jungwon frowned. You could be so oblivious sometimes. To more than one person.
Wonnie:
Think about it.
Setting his phone down, he exhaled sharply. He had a weird urge to see you. Maybe you wanted to talk about it.
He sighed, packing up his things and heading toward the library.
As he neared the back entrance, he spotted Riki slipping out. Their eyes met for a second, but neither spoke.
There was something in that look. Knowing.
Jungwon clenched his jaw and walked past him, slipping inside unnoticed.
Then, his eyes landed on the box.
For a split second, he hesitated. Then, without thinking, he stepped forward.
Glancing around, he reached inside. There were a lot of letters. But he found Riki’s almost immediately—a pink envelope decorated with tiny white hearts, his name written neatly on the front which was uncommon for love letters being left vulnerable in a box.
Jungwon stared at it. “What an idiot.”
Without thinking, he plucked it from the box, turning it over in his hands before slowly opening it.
Inside, a note.
Hey, I don’t really know how to start this. Okay, so… I think you’re really annoying. But for some reason, I like how annoying you are. You’re incredibly nosy, but I don’t mind when you peck at my life. I don’t know when I started to feel this way, but I know how I feel now. I like you. A lot. Too much, actually. If you feel the same, then… I don’t know. You’ll know what to do. You always do. — N.R.
Jungwon exhaled, rubbing his temples.
If you knew about this, you’d be over the moon.
And yet—before he could stop himself—he shoved the letter into his bag.
Why?
He convinced himself it was to toy with you. Something deeper inside knew other wise.
When Jungwon saw you through the student council door, scanning through all the love letters, he felt a soft pang in his chest. You were looking for Riki’s… he knew it.
When he entered, he played it off—laughing, smiling—knowing he had the one thing you had been waiting for this entire year. But when the opportunity came to fess up, he couldn’t. He just couldn’t.
When Riki stepped in, both Jungwon and Riki locked eyes. It didn’t even last a second, but the way he looked at him… he knew. He definitely knew that Jungwon had grabbed the letter.
Jungwon excused himself, whispering, “Good luck,” into Riki’s ear. A small part of him meant it. It was more for you.
He walked slowly to the locker room, overthinking about you and Riki. Overthinking about you and himself. What is this? It hurt. It hurt so much.
He was caught off guard by a hand on his shoulder. It was Jay, another friend of his.
“Hey man, where’s your girlfriend?” Jay asked with a knowing grin.
Jungwon blinked, still walking toward the locker room. “Girlfriend? I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
Jay sighed, glancing around before looking back at him. “Don’t play dumb. You know I’m talking about Y/N. Did you confess yet?”
Jungwon stopped, causing Jay to stumble a little. Jay looked at him, puzzled.
Confess. Did he like you? Is that what this is?
That’s what he thought about for the rest of the day.
He liked you.
He liked you.
He liked you. You. You. You.
He fumbled on the field, spaced out during conversations, and excused himself from after-practice hangouts.
When he got home, he immediately went to his room, throwing himself onto his bed and sighing at the ceiling. The moment of peace was interrupted by a vibration in his right hand. He brought his phone up to his face and saw your contact. You always called him after his practice.
He answered, bringing the phone to his ear. “Hey.”
“AHHHHHHH, Wonnie! You won’t believe it! He likes me back! Isn’t that crazy? For some reason, his love letter went missing—some weirdo took it. But he confessed to me!” you squealed from the other line.
He smiled a little at your happiness, ignoring the heaviness in his chest. “That’s great Y/N… You guys dating now?”
“Actually, we’re taking things slow. He blabbed about needing to take care of something first.”
That made Jungwon sit up. “Take care of something?” he asked.
“Yeah. No clue, but it doesn’t bother me. I’ve been waiting long enough—I can wait a little bit more.” You smiled to yourself.
Jungwon thought. Riki didn’t need to take care of something. He needed to take care of someone.
You sighed at his words. “Thanks, I feel like the happiest girl in the world.”
Jungwon didn’t respond to that. “I’m pretty tired from practice. Talk to you later?”
“Oh! I’m so sorry, Wonnie! Of course—sleep well, alright?”
“…You too.”
And with that, he hung up.
Jungwon stared at his phone, the call screen fading to black as the weight in his chest settled in. His fingers curled around the device, gripping it tighter than necessary.
He likes me back!
Your words replayed in his head over and over, each time pressing harder against the part of him that had only just realized the truth.
He liked you.
And now, he was too late.
Jungwon exhaled sharply, tossing his phone onto his bed before running a hand down his face. The ceiling blurred in his vision as he lay back down, feeling—what was this? Emptiness? Regret?
He wanted to be happy for you. He was happy for you. You were his best friend. That’s what best friends did. They supported each other, no matter what.
But then why did it feel like his heart was being squeezed in a way that left him breathless?
Riki still hadn’t officially asked you out. That was something, right? But Jungwon knew it wasn’t for the reason you thought.
He needed to take care of someone.
Jungwon scoffed to himself, letting his arm drape over his eyes.
Riki knew. He definitely knew.
And now, Jungwon had a choice to make.
Does he let this be? Pretend his feelings didn’t exist, swallow them whole, and stand by your side like he always had?
Or does he do something about it?
His fingers twitched at the thought, but deep down, he already knew his answer.
Jungwon had never been the type to back down from a challenge. But this—this wasn’t some game. This wasn’t a competition he could win just by trying harder, running faster, pushing himself more.
This was you.
And if anyone deserved to be happy, it was you.
Even if it wasn’t with him.
“Pass it!” Jungwon yelled across the field.
He had been practicing all morning, through breaks, and even during lunch. Soccer was his escape—the only thing that drowned out the noise in his head.
But that peace was shattered when he spotted a figure standing by the benches near his stuff.
Riki.
He stood there, arms crossed, gaze steady. His expression was unreadable, but Jungwon knew exactly why he was here.
Jungwon hesitated for only a second before calling for a break. With a deep sigh, he jogged over, wiping sweat from his forehead before sitting down on the bench. He didn’t look at Riki, just grabbed his water bottle and took a sip.
Riki sat beside him, wasting no time.
“Do you know what happened to my letter?”
Jungwon glanced at him from the corner of his eye, then turned his gaze back to the field. “Why are you asking questions you already know the answer to?” His voice was flat, expression unreadable.
Riki exhaled through his nose, nodding slightly as if he expected that response. “Why?”
Jungwon leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “You know the answer to that too.”
Silence stretched between them, heavy and suffocating. The distant shouts of players and the sound of cleats against the field felt worlds away.
Finally, Jungwon sat up, patting his thigh before standing. “Is that it? I’m pretty busy.” He nodded toward the field, crossing his arms.
Riki stood too, this time meeting Jungwon’s gaze head-on. His voice was calm, but there was an edge to it.
“However you feel, take it out on me. Not her, she cares for you.”
Jungwon clenched his jaw.
Riki let the words linger before turning on his heel and walking away.
Jungwon watched him go, fingers tightening around his water bottle. His chest felt heavy, like something was pressing down on it, suffocating him.
He ran a hand through his hair, exhaling sharply before kicking the bench. It barely moved, but it was enough to make his frustration bubble over.
Why did Riki have to say it like that? Like he was some selfish idiot who didn’t already know that? Like he didn’t already hate himself for it?
With a forced breath, he shook his head, pushing everything down, just like he always did. He had a game to focus on.
Without another glance at the benches, he jogged back onto the field, forcing himself to get lost in the only thing that still made sense.
A week after that encounter with Riki, Jungwon found himself in your room. He was doing homework while you sat beside him, pouting at your phone. He glanced at you and smiled.
“What are you grumbling about?” he asked.
You sighed, putting your phone down and continuing with your work. “It’s nothing…”
Jungwon raised a brow. He had never seen you this down before. “What? Tell me. You always tell me what’s wrong,” he pushed.
Pouting, you looked at him with puppy eyes. “It’s Riki… It’s been about a week, and I haven’t seen him or heard from him. Do you think he ghosted me?”
Jungwon stiffened. He had overheard from some guys that Riki had gotten into serious trouble with his parents and now had to work overtime at his part-time job. He sighed, looking at you. You were so obviously heartbroken. Should he tell you?
Or should he be selfish?
This was his chance. He could win you over. He could show you that he was here. That he would always be here.
He gulped, staring back down at his work. He was selfish—just for a moment. But then, he heard a broken sniffle come from you. His eyes snapped to you, watching as you tried to dry your tears, a fake smile on your face as if pretending everything was okay.
His heart dropped. Did Riki really mean that much to you?
Jungwon quickly moved next to you, guiding you to rest your head on his lap. Your cries softened as he gently patted your head, just like he always did.
He looked down at you—your eyes shut, your breathing slowing, the tension in your body fading. And then, softly, he spoke:
“I overheard that he got into some pretty big trouble and is working overtime at his job. He probably didn’t want to trouble you with that stupid mentality of his.”
Your eyes shot open. You turned your head, looking up at him. “Really?”
He nodded. “Really.”
In an instant, you shot up, grabbing your jacket and shoes. “Gosh, that jerk. Where does he work? I’m gonna give him a piece of my mind. Text me the address?” you said, pacing around the room.
Jungwon watched you, unable to find the right words. He wanted to stop you.
Before you could rush out the door, he stood up and grabbed your wrist. You looked up at him, confused. “Wonnie? What is it?”
“I—uhm.”
This was it. He should tell you now. If he didn’t, it would kill him. But as he looked at you—eager, desperate to see Riki—he exhaled and let go.
“Take your umbrella. It’s raining.”
You smiled, running past him to grab it. “Thanks! Leave whenever you want! And don’t forget to take some leftovers home!”
And just like that, you were gone.
Jungwon stood frozen, staring at the empty space you had just occupied. Slowly, his eyes wandered around your room.
The walls covered in posters. The notebooks scattered on your desk. The lingering scent of your perfume.
It was all so familiar.
His mind filled with memories—the time you both got front-row tickets to your favorite band and shouted while holding hands, the nights he stayed up to bring you food when you were sick, the first time you hugged him while crying into his chest.
And yet, despite all those moments, despite everything he had done for you… he never came to terms with his feelings.
A tear slid down his cheek before he even realized it. He wiped at it absently, staring at his damp fingers in disbelief.
Then, without warning, the tears came faster.
He sucked in a shaky breath, trying to stop them, but his chest tightened, and his knees buckled beneath him. He collapsed onto the floor, hands gripping the fabric of his pants as silent sobs racked his body.
Look, I get what you're saying but.
I was born here. In the USA. I'm one of the idiots who WANT to fix this place and HAVE it be a better nation. We were on the road to that, for better or worse. And yeah, progress isn't great. Now we got this one guy who wants to DESTROY any progress we have made.
Did you think about that? Did you think about what you were saying to all the people TRAPPED here while someone decided to lit the room on fire? Do you think about the people trying to put the flames out?
I don't have a choice to leave. I don't got money. My friends don't got money. I'm probably going to see my friend get killed by this fucking bullshit.
You think I want your country in USA's musky grips? NO! You can have that. You deserve to have your own country. I don't know what the heck is going on and I didn't vote for the SOB.
And I get it. This is for the people who thought voting for Trump was a good idea who are just waking up the fact "oh shit, that was a bad idea."
But... You just kinda lumped us all together. And, no. Nope. That's a bad idea.
That erases the individuals getting caught in the backlash. All the trans people, all the LGBT+, all the refugees, and everyone else suffering.
There are good people HERE who WANT to make a difference, who want to change things. And all those people are even more screwed then you are. They wanted to be proud and make America their home.
Did that cross your mind when you made this? Did you think of the deeper ramifications of your blanket statements?
Where did I tell anyone to leave?? I literally say "I'm not saying you guys have to all take yourselves out" in the video. I'm saying that if you are only NOW starting to be ashamed of the US then you probably have some illusions about its history and its role in geopolitics that need shattering. I am telling you to look up stuff like Operation Condor and face the truth that the US has NEVER been a benevolent force of progress when it comes to the Global South.
there’s the “we follow each other” mutuals and then there’s the “you’re the sweetest ever and I wish I’d met you sooner” mutuals and then there’s the “I would lowkey date you” mutuals and I love all types with all my heart
Yo, correct me if I am wrong please, but didn't Hitler rise to power because he promised to fix the German economy and people really liked that so they looked past everything else he was doing??? Like exactly what's happening in America right now???
So many people said they voted for Trump, put a truly evil person in power, because he said he'd fix the economy, and a little voice in my head is going, "Isn't that what happened with fucking Hitler??"
But I've seen no one point that out so maybe I'm miss remembering???????
