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Trying to make sense of the kind of freedom and tenderness that can only come from so much loneliness

charlotte ager / sean thomas dougherty / félix vallotton / clarice lispector / beya rebaï / may sarton / maria medem / quint buchholz

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South London Forever

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Who was in your opinion the single most successful person to benefit from being on GMW?

Honestly, I think Will Friedle (Eric) benefited the most from being on GMW!

This is what he had to say about it on a podcast 3 years ago:

“My entire life changed forever in a 1/10th of a second when I was 22. I was in the middle of a take doing a movie, and I had my first anxiety attack. And anxiety is something I’ve dealt with ever since, and at one point it was so bad that I couldn’t do the on camera anymore. When you go back and you watch Boy Meets World, you’ll notice that I gained something like 30 or 40 lbs in the end seasons. And it wasn’t because I got lazy and I was eating, it was because I was medicated. That was the only way I could get on camera. So there was a time where the anxiety really hit me badly. Before–initially, and anybody who deals with anxiety knows this–initially you don’t know what it is. So you have your first anxiety attack and you start to, what I call, spiral–where all of a sudden you’re just in your head: ‘What’s going on with me?’ ‘I’m dying’ ‘Oh, I’m having a heart attack’ 'It’s cancer’. And then you go get checked out by your doctor and he says it’s anxiety and you go, 'No, it can’t be…you don’t understand! I have a tumor. I’m dying, there’s something horribly wrong with me.’ But you find out there’ s not! And so I had to go to therapy, which I had never done before and thought was such a cliche, which of course it’s not, but you think 'Oh, I’m an actor in therapy’. Well, I needed it. I needed that with the medication. And the medication worked exactly as it was supposed to for me. I was on it for like a year and a half—I haven’t been medicated in 12 years now–to bring my serotonin levels to where they were supposed to be and then I was weaned off them. Then I did talk therapy and learned how to deal with my anxiety. But I deal with it on a daily basis. I’ll have a panic attack like 4-5 times a week. And it’s one of those things now where it’s a process I go through–breathing through it, knowing what it is, and talking about it helps 1000%. It’s been a long time [since first getting anxiety] and it initially cost me my career on camera. I was at the peak of my career–just finished BMW and I had signed a huge deal with ABC and Disney. I started doing other television shows for them. I was doing movies. And then it got to the point where I could no longer audition. I could not, my body physically would not let me go through the stress of the audition process. I’d start shaking uncontrollably. I’d start sweating. I couldn’t sit in the room and do it. So I thank god voice over work was there, because I got to at least do what I love and entertain people, and then slowly the panic attacks started to subside as I was no longer on camera. And I realized maybe that’s what it was. So I threw myself into voice over work, which was the absolute love of my life, and it saved me. Then Girl Meets World just started and initially I said, 'I’m not going to do it’. I was in my head my about it—'There’s no way I can do it’. All these rumors came out about me: I was agoraphobic, I was this, I was that. And I said, I have to do this again. I have to try. If I’m ever going to get back on camera, they could not mastermind a better place for me to go. I know people on the set, I know all the actors. Michael Jacobs has been amazingly helpful, asking me what do I need to come back here. And I went and I did my first episode and the audience cheered and gave me a standing ovation. And I almost cried. Because it was 15 years I couldn’t be on camera, and there I was again. And I was like, 'holy shit, I can still do this!’. And doing three episodes–it’s changed my life again.

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If it don’t matter, what’s the big deal?

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Match cuts in Bad Times at the El Royale (2018)

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The Butterfly Effect I (of IV) Details from the wings of Chinese butterflies from my image collection. Click individual images for IDs…. by Sinobug (itchydogimages) on Flickr. Pu’er, Yunnan, China See more Chinese butterflies on my Flickr site HERE…..

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Pretty bird backs

It is time for another edition of pretty bird backs. Here we have a Robin with fabulous epaulets, a Blue Jay, a Goldfinch, a Grackle and a female Bluebird.

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everyone who reblogs this before 03-30-2020 gets a book recommendation based on their blog in their inbox

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Jenny Slate, Little Weirds

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little weirds, jenny slate

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when will this happen to me

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reblog in 30 seconds to have a sugar daddy appear in your life

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So you just watched IT Chapter 2 Reddie Recs

A list of recs that could potentially help you tackle your post Chapter 2 blues.

Disclaimer: This is not a comprehensive list, there are plenty of amazing fics that we have missed. I also haven’t tagged any warnings so be careful and some of these fics contain spoilers.

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