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thilo !!! | 23 | they/he/she | audhd 💗 | 🌹🌟 lil witch 🌟🌻

[thiloxavier]

intro post ??

idk what happened to my last one tbh but here we are again ig !!

🌟 i’m thilo !! i’m 23 yrs old and i’ve been pagan for a v v long time. i started deity work officially in 2018 but my gods have been around me since i was a kid !!

🌟the main deities i work with are lord apollon, lady lilith, lady aphrodite (and sometimes lady venus), and saint michael.

🌟i am not going to go into the specifics of my religions for personal reasons, but i am polytheistic :3

🌟i practice a lot of herb and planetary magic !! i also do divination

🌟angelkin <3 🦅🔥

🌟currently pursing a courtship with lord apollon.

🌟this is my lil blog filled with magic and devotion and also my lil interests cause i can’t help but reblog all the pairings i like 🤭

🌟i’d prefer you’d be like 16+ to look at my page and 18+ to talk to me. this is a personal page tho so like. engage w caution lmao

🌟dni: homophobia, transphobia, racism, ableism, anti-semitism, islamophobia, rlly any religion slandering, nsfw accounts. also trollz. do smtg better w ur time

feel free to stay awhile 💗

banner from: @discovulpes on pinterest 🦅

[keysforthenight]

I pray to Paian Apolló, The Healer, for my health to come back, as i will soon be wrapped up in much work and studying for exams. May He hear my prayer and accept my humble offerings — 。.:*:・'°☆

[thiloxavier]

i just need to actually start drawing again 😩

[corruptimles]

it's kind of giving moldy mario

[thedeathofthelamb]

actually, Will is just as (if not more) obsessed and possessive about Hannibal but you guys portray him as the 'weewee pls save me from hannibal's insane love' but honestly Hannibal should be saved from Will cause damn my man be psycho

[patchouii]

It’s strongly implied that Will infostalked Hannibal and the people he heard about from him, he snapped at Hannibal so jealously when he asked if he was drinking with a patient. Hannibal told him it was his own psychiatrist and nothing more, but he somehow recognized Bedelia’s name, face and the fact she was that psychiatrist when they first met. He openly admitted that he figured out who Margot was too by looking through Hannibal’s private notes. Margot and Bedelia were both beautiful, intelligent high-class women who had weaknesses Hannibal could’ve exploited and Will could’ve seen them as potential rivals, which is honestly pretty chilling, not to mention how intimidating he was towards Alana when he hinted at knowing she avoided being alone with him and in deleted scenes where he told her he could plausibly kill her and nobody would stop him in time. His intentional visualizations featuring Hannibal always involved him brutally defeating or restraining him and physically harming or even killing him while they both visibly enjoyed it.

The first thing he did after getting out of jail was break into Hannibal’s house—implying he somehow knows how to break and enter well, and it was only Hannibal’s enhanced sense of smell that betrayed him— and hold him at gunpoint again while mocking him and grinning when he mimed cowering, even though Hannibal could’ve definitely used that to fully crush his career after all or land him right back there by telling Jack. He snaps at Zeller during the organ harvester case about the corpse in the bathtub being too crude to be the Chesapeake Ripper’s work, calling the Ripper an “artist” and often complimenting him before quickly pairing that with more negative sentiments. He worked the Ripper case pre-canon and the way he describes his mind when asked isn’t even just the Ripper— it’s a description of Hannibal’s, down to those rooms in the basement of his mind palace he keeps boarded up. The staggering depth of that insight makes me think that his excuse of “having a date with the Chesapeake Ripper” may have had more than awkward humor behind it after all, he’s clearly put a ton of dedication and effort into diving into the Ripper’s case and mindset before. He tells Bedelia her fate is sealed because he’ll free Hannibal and knows that he’ll do whatever he tells him to, kill whoever he tells him to even if it’s someone he previously saw mental and physical appeal in who was his second choice for an escape partner.

Bedelia doubts this, calling him reckless and egotistical and saying he’ll get killed alongside the rest, but there’s clearly a niggling worry that he’s right despite her knowledge of Hannibal and his fixation on supreme control that only Will supersedes. Will enjoys hurting Hannibal and is aroused by ideas of it, possessing him, being important to him, being the only one he will show mercy to, the only one he’s challenged by, the only one who throws the intense control he has over his life into disarray, bucks it and steps in to replace it. In the end it really only comes down to the question of which person is the one anyone would say seems crazier: a murderous cannibal, or someone who knew everything about the murder and cannibalism and threw their life away to own theirs not despite that, but because of it? The answer seems clear to me, at least.

Will Graham is the man who gets off on the fact that he has the Devil wound around his little finger and can crush him under his thumb whenever he so pleases.

[jjttootart]

Will Graham portrait 🥀

[bonnibid]

happy family

[darkmacademia]

alignment chart: bookmark edition. tag yourself i’m scrap paper

[lampfae]

To be loved is to be seen

This is one of my old fanarts back from 2020 of my fav show of all time, I wanted to give a nice warm glow to complement the scene! 

[sobcat]

this saturday we succeed!!

[oniroro]

[thiloxavier]

while i love teaching, the stress and strain that permeates this school is a poison. admin is pushed, so they push teachers, who push kids. a trickle down that leaks into the classroom rug and the titterings of engagement and discussion.

it leaked into my body, aggravating nerve endings and rendering my right side weak, useless. i feel the pulse, the underlying pinging of pain sparking in muscles and veins. my legs, my knees, my life, compromised at the hands of leaders who don’t care about me.

the ache permeates. things that were effortless become cumbersome. i sit, body tensed and coiled to prepare for a blow that might never come. i sit and i ache. claw for medicine, rehabilitation, magic. anything to get me back to walking how i used to.

how much we take for granted until we lose it.

i feel him sometimes, apollon’s hands on me. he massages my aches, soothes my hurts and lays healing heavy on my side. he has such power to mend the things that break. but how is it to hold onto something that’s deteriorating ? how is it to hold onto someone thats fractured ?

he touches my forehead. kisses my cheek. tries to hold me as i unravel. how blessed i am to be loved by a healer. how cursed i am to need it so desperately.

the year is coming to a close. i have answers in my hands, a game plan formulating, a love that blooms and grows and sustains. yet i am scared. terrified. struggling to keep my head afloat.

he told me he’d catch me when i fall. all i can do is cling to his robes and let myself go.

[basilosu]

i forgive you

[mmysstical]

Comforting hot chocolate recipe to bring in good (Venusian) things

Image courtesy of Elena Leya on Unsplash.

After the debacle of yesterday, and throughout many negative moments, I use kitchen witchcraft to soothe myself and change my luck and my mood in one fell swoop. This is a staple in my house and I’ve decided to share it with you!

When to use this recipe ?

For a pick-me-up at any time, after a stressful event, to invite prosperity - especially in the form of small windfalls, good times, small gifts, good relations and overall positivity. To magically power up this recipe, I used astrological correspondences of ingredients linked to Venus. Thus, substitutes might not work as well, but I’ll put the best in the recipe. If you’d like a Venusian drink, other Venusian herbs lend themselves to great tea recipes. This might call for another post.

You will need :

- a milk of choice (I like whole milk, or milk+cream. Any plant based one is fine, but I will recommend almond milk as it’s ruled by Venus too)

- cocoa powder

- a sweetener of choice (I like honey or brown sugar)

For the spices, I’d omit all 3 if you’re lacking one, but 6 ingredients or a multiple of 3 is ideal.

- cinnamon

- vanilla (extract, seeds, or a small chunk of pod infused in your hot milk).

- tonka bean

- optional ingredient : marshmallows

- optional tool : a milk frother

I’ll leave the exact measurements to your personal taste.

Steps to follow

Optional : heat up a pot with your vanilla pod or seeds and milk. Real seeds or vanilla pods release their aromatic compounds when heated.

Mix in your ingredients together well, stirring clockwise, 6 times (number of Venus). During this time, imagine the comfort and goodness that you’d like this hot chocolate to bring you, as well as specific Venusian outcomes you’d like to get into your life.

Optional : Use your milk frother to bring a bubbly foam to lift your spirits and even more decadence to this simple drink. I visualise the bubbles chasing whatever negativity is there away.

✨ Astro magic tip : Whip this up on Venus day (Friday), Venus night (Monday after sunset), or during Venus hour (you can track it via the app Time Nomad on iOS) for extra potency.

Please enjoy !

[hannibalizing]

hannibal cradles will in the same way judas cradles jesus and that’s something i don’t think i’ll recover from.

for all the biblical references hannibal makes, talking of god and death, he neglects to mention the devotion of judas to jesus.

[wykart]

what do you mean my disability disables my abilities? what the fuck

[the-phantom-peach]

that fucking show that i hate

(this is an excuse to get out that bubbly feeling I get after every time I finish this show ☕️)