[im-sun-deactivated20181224]

Do you have a hobby?

self destruction 

[diinadaring]

[thinfixesme]

I feel it The fat The bloating The expansion I fucking feel it on me and it makes me crazy

[thinfixesme]

I'm back

I'm not going to get too into what I've been doing the past couple years. Just that I've fallen again, pretty hard and needed this account to express with those that don't find me crazy or ridiculous.

[henkasuru-deactivated20260113]

[thinfixesme]

After a year of working on recovery, I’m relapsing. I’m too exhausted to get help. I don’t even think I want it. 

[thinfixesme]

I wonder how most people who commuted suicide felt prior. I spent years wanting to do it and feeling so helpless. Feeling the heartache. Now I'm calm. I know it's not going to he better. I know that with everything that's happened, the universe wants me gone. I'm not supposed to be happy. Not supposed to make it out alive. Again, I'm calm. I'm okay. Decision made. I asked my ex if he'd take our kittens (lied about the reason of course). He agreed. I told my boss not to put me on the schedule next week and as soon as I finish up the rest of my week at work (don't want to leave them hanging) I'll go ahead. I've kept the house cleaned. Sorted through the things I want people to keep and packed up what can be given to charity. I've accepted there's no hope. This is the way it's supposed to be.

[thinfixesme]

Guess I'm doing something right as a mom

"Joan is a girl's name." -Me

"No! It's a boy's AND girl's name!" -My 7 year old

"Some names are both. But Joan is not a unisex name, it's a girl's name." -Me

"You told me a hundred times there's no such thing as boy or girl things! Everyone should like what they like and it doesn't matter!" -7 year old

[thinfixesme]

[thinfixesme]

Fuck you motherfucker

[thinfixesme]

I learned there aren't evil people in this world. There are mentally ill people. Damaged people. Misguided people. Judgemental people. The list goes on... Your mother is not evil. But it's OKAY for you to see her as evil, after what she did to you.

My therapist

[toopresent]

I just want to face a battle with the devil and say I made him bruise. 

[thinfixesme]

Sometimes I worry I'm addicted to the misery. I don't remember ever not feeling this way. Who am I without it?

[the-littlest-fox]

Princess, the biggest mistake you can make is to remove jewels from your crown to make it easier for a man to carry. You don’t need a smaller crown. You need a man with bigger hands.

Things I’ll teach my daughter (via the-littlest-fox)

[therealash]

[thinfixesme]

Him and I are so permanently broken. So how is it working out so well? 

[tom-sits-like-a-whore-deactivat]

to get a lot of followers you need a popular post

to get a popular post you need a lot of followers

[wibsies]

to get a job you need experience

to get experience you need a job

[friendley-deactivated20200102]

to get a car you need a job

to get a job you need a car

[protectignisscientia]

to become more comfortable with social interaction you need to go to public places

to go to public places you need to become more comfortable with social interaction