The Diary Of a Depressed Angel

I'm Aria. I have ADHD, Depression, Anxiety, CPTSD and a Sensory Processing Disorder. I am a mostly recovered anorexic. I don't promote anything. Believe me you never want to be like this. I am an adult so my content reflects my experiences, this in no way degrades the experiences of minors.

[transfemmbeatrice]

“I don’t think that I accepted that I wasn’t gonna die young until I was 26 or 27. I really don’t think I fully…when I was 14, 15, 16, 17–I mean I knew as sure as I know that I am wearing green shoes that I was going to die before much happened. It was a certainty for me. And I had shaken off the directly suicidal urge by the time I was 21 or 22, but I still was pretty sure I was going to die pretty young, it really felt like an inevitability. It takes a long time to realize no, you’ve changed…if you shared those feelings with people at some point you go, ‘well, I guess we’re going to stick around.’ And it’s a funky thing to admit because there’s a part of your inner younger self that kind of judges you for that.”

John Darnielle fucking me up with the single most relatable thing he’s ever said

[emotionalwords]

[thepowerwithin]

Your body is your home. Your temple. Your own sacred space. Please be careful with how you treat it, both physically and mentally.

Dr. Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

i wish you kinder, softer days that put your heart at ease

[f-like-m]

Start

[hellish-timy]

Feeling safe in someone’s energy is a different type of intimacy

[originalromanticsir]

Creating a deep sense of peace and protection in a relationship. Being her calm.

[scribefindegil]

Everyone is so weird about people who cry easily. Fellas, is it evil and manipulative to *checks notes* have an involuntary stress response?

[dailykafka]

— October 10, 1916 / Letters to Felice

[doyouknowwhatimeme]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“I think recovery from anything is, honestly, the most badass thing a person can do.” - Unknown

[lewisrises]

stop blaming everyone for all of your problems. pick one sports team you hate and blame them for everything

[byjove]

Not telling your kid they have a learning disability, chronic illness, mental illness etc. so they can “feel normal” actually does the opposite. They will not feel normal if they do not have the context to understand that their normal will be different from that of their peers.

[byjove]

The amount of times I’ve heard a parent say something like “I’m just not going to tell my son he has ADHD, I want him to feel normal.” HE DOES NOT. HE DOES NOT FEEL NORMAL. HE IS WONDERING WHY HE IS STRUGGLING AND COMING TO THE CONCLUSION HE IS AN IRREDEEMABLE FAILURE.

[isa-ah]

it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

[agoraphobe]

[thememedaddy]

[untitledgoosegay]

I feel like I gotta point out -- this is hypervigilance, it's a trauma response, and it is not always right.

It can be very effective, and it can be really hard to learn to second-guess it, especially if you come from an environment where you couldn't check or trust people to be honest with you. But you have to learn to second-guess that instinct -- because it's not empathy, it's projection. You don't "know" what someone's feeling, you're assuming, based on an assumption that's kept you safe in the past.

If you trust your overtuned trauma response over the actual people around you, it will harm your relationships with them.

[cookiethebirddoll]

they should invent blankets that make you feel warm (good) but don't make you feel warm (bad)

[heavensickness]

There’s a little girl in my head & she screams “unloved! unloved! unloved!” every moment of my life