21:3 AM. Austin. Sept 25
I can't sleep.
Here, in these times, I think about 2020, what I've gained, what I've lost, what I have to look forward to.
Wow one year ago, I wouldn't have thought any of these things.. just wow.
I experienced a bit of a heartbreak this year, over and over, same person. it was the worst decision, completely unfair, and yet here I am, still not fully over it. I've got to move on.
there are people who come into your life for a reason, and maybe sometimes they're only there for a short time for a reason as well. Perhaps i should learn, and look back in two years and reflect on why I made the choices I did.. was it because I'm young?
im feeling really sad. You were here shorter than you were supposed to be, and you and I maybe hit things off in the wrong note.. but either way I'm thankful for getting to know you.
everything at work will change without you there to be honest.. it's a change for sure. And not for the better. You were the glue the team needed, the type of warm personality that made everyone look forward to seeing you always.
i am sad, actually really sad, at the whole thing.
luckily we have our memories, from a time that was better than the bad days, from two people who were maybe a mirror of each other. I fell hard for you truly.
saying goodbye to you and to these feelings is necessary. I think our paths will probably cross again in Oslo and I look forward to the day that I feel happy for all the happy things in our lives.
what a weird feeling. Everything is fleeting. it is my favorite time of the year and also now the worst. every year is different, every me is different. And I just have to learn and grow and be fun and let things go
you are enough, and don't think otherwise.