This is Chellor

Hi! this is me learning how to be living. I am an artist who are born to be creative. I just recently found out that I am a big fool. Trying to be someone who I am not. I want to say outloud soon that THIS IS LIFE I AM GREATFUL!

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let the past be the past #mixedmediapainting #abeautifulmourn #movingforward https://www.instagram.com/p/BsmDfZtDgnA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1772abe6phaor

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morning art a time i need to clear my head i keep asking questions in my mind in time i shall heal again but not the same as before https://www.instagram.com/p/BsT6I9sBZUR/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qlf9jrdy2a71

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now i decided to pursue a career i dream when i am still a kid... i will start there even alot of things happened even closing your eyes keep you away from reality what is reality anyway even people you know is feels so distance in this career i feel sense of joy sense of being a child ..... oooohhhh hoooooo universe have my trust i believe angels will help me i am trusting and believing in myself i am worthy of that dream i believe in magic because i believe in miracles because my experiences is one of them #landscapephotography #city #trainstation https://www.instagram.com/p/BsSrR2ljiff/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s8jph6zenkot

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its now or never preparation determination persistence gratitude innerworld #blackandwhite #bw_chellor #blackink #authorofmylife #newchapter #secrets #letters #stories #future #remember https://www.instagram.com/p/BsKkyRZDoEk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2qavfh405tbr

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you came while i am still healing my wounds i cut you out all the time i hate to think that you might just come and go I emotionally abandoned myself and think logically because that's what happened when you don't want to be hurt anymore not now i am not martyr to love and love and love and love sacrifice all my dreams and myself just to make them happy i am not that kind of a girl anymore thats why i am confused now a different one come and i hate it its hard to understand #watercolorpainting #confusion #divinemasculine #divinefeminine #innerconflict #cold #logical #brownink https://www.instagram.com/p/BsHN5mujMAA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6nim8ydvls42

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2019 it is a new day a new time a new year for everyone of us i decided to be bold and not hold back anymore courage, pride, integrity, trust, compassion Thank you 2018 you teach me a lot now 2019 i am ready for you #watercolor #watercolorpainting #womanandman #colorful #hotandcold #balance #notholdingback #2019goals #newadventure #newbeginning https://www.instagram.com/p/BsE3ir3DrbA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=uci6a4unnxdr

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i am really having second thought for this piece to be posted here but it's really nice to paint for your self i have similar piece about this one i stop perfecting it because i just want to expressed and let my hands flow through it painting through your expression is really a rewarding feelings rather than the expectations from other why? because there's no pressure it just you and your medium #watercolor #divinemasculine #divinefeminine #forgiveness #remembrance #prang #watercolorillustrations #energy https://www.instagram.com/p/BsCpFWkDF-J/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2wotj6fzuzo0

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i am really having second thought for this piece to be posted here but it's really nice to paint for your self i have similar piece about this one i stop perfecting it because i just want to expressed and let my hands flow through it painting through your expression is really a rewarding feelings rather than the expectations from other why? because there's no pressure it just you and your medium https://www.instagram.com/p/BsCothnD3xY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=sup3cpjvn5k0

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its raining outside i all see clous in the sky its cold and the Christmas just ended another year will come again i wish all the best to you guys #lookup #raining #photography https://www.instagram.com/p/Br8-B4Wjjcw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=35e8lkp7glhe

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time will come you will heal as usual as an ever then you will try again and again learn from the experience makes your life a different love yourself hug yourself i am secure i am safe i am fine being grateful for everything happened the insecurities i have will be conquered by love and acceptance. let it be, be in the present. focus on what i have than what i have not. #landscapephotography #greenfields #morningjug https://www.instagram.com/p/Br3p8rmjvCH/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18zqmh2e19kt8

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T//////T i decided to be serious but i guess i cannot i double my post in my art work and its so embarrassing this is the one i should post WHYYYYYYY in recent days my heads are all over the place and i feel dizzy as well maybe it because of the weather because its december and its cold and i am single and i miss my friends T_T and i miss school and i miss to eat french fries or maybe I over work ... body and my brain please bear withme i need you and i love so please bear with me i will give you reward after so please bear with mama PLEASE dont die i need you #bw_chellor #bw #blackandwhite #blackacrylic #blackandwhite_art #doodle #eyeillustration #inkdrawing #inkillustration #womansback https://www.instagram.com/p/BrRIk1fDs_2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1uy3m9z27fv44

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do you feel sometimes when you speak your opinion you will going to hit by an arrow we live in the world of perspective thats why many people will disagree and point out your opinion sometimes its a dream sometimes its a wish and needs its hard when to say no because you grow as a people pleaser and a yes person hhhhhhhaaaaaayyyyyyyy life but still the combat of no and yes hahhaha inner conflict T_T #bw_chellor #blackandwhite #blackacrylic #girldrawing #doodle_art #arrowhunt #torns #blackandwhite_art https://www.instagram.com/p/BrRD6wZjbJ9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=bkauq44g69p4

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everthing went for a clash everything change disturbances and paranoia comes into your way deep with in ourself the painful and fears i need to defeat for i am not my mind #bw_chellor #blackandwhite #blackandwhite_art #blackpaper #whiteink #illustration #eyeillustration #splatter #butterflyeffect https://www.instagram.com/p/BrOovnYDAKK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gmjhprueuovb

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hello monday are we feeding our we ego? or are eaten by this I talk to my friend and she advice me to see in thing in the bigger picture not only to see in our perspective but also to them living is hard but just thinking about that makes it more life miserable and painful i decided to focus on what makes me happy what makes me alive rather what i am afraid of like judgement, insecurities, failures i am different we are different but it doesn't mean because you are different you will hide yourself and be like othera #monday #bw_chellor #blackandwhite #blackacrylic #doodle_art #blackandwhite_art #woman #arrow #illustration https://www.instagram.com/p/BrL2zyqlper/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cjx10k5jbck2

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the world is something someone something big is out there they are full of trades also your surroundings while you have feww innocent? fool? or just being you #bw_chellor #blackandwhite #artchallenge2018 #blackandwhite_art #bw #illustration #innocentchild #society #power #big #fools #manipulation #listentome https://www.instagram.com/p/BrEMqaqF2Hy/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=a6bsoxv3nmgv

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deep from the ocean deep with in the things we reject the we don't allow why because it's ugly? because it's bad? or because it's painful? #bw_chellor #blackandwhite_art #illustration #painting #eyeillustration #monsters #deepwithin #underwaterfeelings #secrets #desire #pain #forgotten #artchallenge2018 #displate https://www.instagram.com/p/BrBmdoilZj0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1eh5j7ce0zoh9

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sometimes i feel something unimaginable out there... another one muhahahhaha i am really hyper today ... but here another one of my black series... 😶😶😶😶 wait can i commit with this i am not sure but i will try but i am busy but i want to 😑😑😑😑 discern discern discern i am doing this because i joined in an art challenge and theres a prize if i win 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤤🤤🤤 so i guess it's a worth a try muhahaha and also it will challenge my imaginition muhahahahhaha #blackandwhite_art #bw_chellor #displate #artchallenge2018 #monsters #window #illustration #painting #wildimagination https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq_UVi3l9QG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6ujojrm0bkpt