i absolutely hate having to make this post. but right now i dont know any other options that can help. in the beginning of august 2019, i moved to northern california to live with my brother, sister in law, niece, and nephew. I did so to get away from the unhealthy environment I was being forced to live in. Pretty quickly I landed a job that I have learned to love. However, on March 16th my manager told me that our store was closing due to our county’s stay at home order and would last until april 8th. i found out last week that i would be out of a job for much longer than that as all employees have been furloughed for the indefinite future. my county’s stay at home order was just extended until at least may 3rd (which also happens to be the day after my 22nd birthday..sad face) and can very likely be extended after that as well since the bay area is being hit by the virus pretty badly. my brother has also been temporary laid off from his job as well so the two people in the house that bring in income (myself and my brother) no longer have anything to offer. i help out with bills and groceries and other miscellaneous things. we were not able to pay our rent in full for the month of april and i dont know what that means since our landlord has not communicated her expectations during this time. i worry a lot about being evicted and being forced to move back to southern california in a house where the person who sexually abused me throughout my childhood lives. it’s my worst nightmare and it really puts my head in dark places. i dont want to have to worry about being able to pay rent or have food on the table for all of us but especially my niece, Mattingly, and my nephew, Colt, who have brought me nothing but happiness. i really feel guilty making this post at all because i know so many of us are in very similar positions and i know other people have it worse than me..but i try to remind myself that my struggles are valid too. if you are able to, i would really appreciate any help that we can get. every single last dollar will be used to help pay for rent, bills, and groceries. i love you guys and i hope you are all staying safe during this scary time in the world.
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