in the land of gods and monsters

Hi I'm Maddie, 18 Just another teenager with lots of problems. Books and music keep me going. This is where I get out what I can't say. If you need to talk I'm here for you. I do not promote self harm.

[thispainwillneverend]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

People grow when they are loved well. If you want to help others heal, love them without an agenda.

Mike McHargue (via celestinevibes)

[patterbay]

Excuse Me

is this where I start the conversation?  

HA! I see you follow me!  

I follow you,too! 

maybe we should tal-

fuck

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Nope.

[deathtrapnest]

wow this is the most accurate post of how I try to make friends

[breakdatwall]

Did anyone else read this in Mulan’s “manly voice”?

[prettyspainishroses]

^ I did

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

I thought I was going to lay in my bathtub and drift off to sleep and they’d find my hair flowing beautifully around my pale face, but it didn’t happen that way. I thought I was going to stand on the bridge next to my house, looking back to see my parents lights still off and I’d smile. Then I would slip off my shoes and climb up to let the cold bars greet my feet and send sympathetic shivers up my spine. I’d fall off into the river and drift down to the bottom and they’d find me in the morning floating on by, and I’d look as if I was in peace, but it didn’t happen that way. I thought I was going to cry and the makeup would run perfect streaks down my cheeks, but it didn’t happen that way. I thought my suicide note was going to be neat and meaningful, but it wasn’t. It wasn’t fucking poetic. Nothing about it was fucking poetic. My makeup stained my face black to the point I looked like I had been beaten, and technically I guess I had been. And the only thing that I could make out on my suicide notes were the stains of my tears on the paper and, “My god, I am so sorry but I can’t do this.” and “Please don’t be mad at me, I need you to be okay.” and it was hardly legible. It wasn’t fucking poetic. My wrists were stained from my elbows down in large welts and blood and I was sitting beside my own bile on my bathroom floor with two bottles of pills. My mother walked in screaming on top of her lungs and my eyes wouldn’t stay open and the last thing I remember of that night was her horrified face and the last thing I felt was her tears hitting my cheeks before I woke up in a hospital room. Alive. And I can’t keep those fucking images of my mothers face and her sobs and her screaming out of my head that it makes me wish even more that I would’ve just died.

The worst part of the suicide attempt just being a suicide attempt. (via theproblemswithmissingyou)

[megahra]

[thispainwillneverend]

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megahra:

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[taaaassh]

Have you ever just looked at someone and thought, “I really love you”. They’re just talking or humming or watching a movie or reading a book or laughing or something, and there’s something about them in that moment that makes you think, “I just really love you.

(via myhertsgard)

[im-barelybreathing]

Scars remind us where we’ve been, but they don’t dictate where we’re going.

 David Rossi, Criminal minds (via im-barelybreathing)

[hinatulka]

You don’t need to bash skinny people to say that bigger people are beautiful.

You don’t need to bash men to promote women’s rights. You don’t need to bash white people to promote racial equality. You don’t need to bash a certain genre of music to promote another. You don’t need to bash straight people to promote gay rights.

You don’t need to bash anyone to advocate your opinion.

[chuloa-deactivated20160907]

I pretend a lot of shit doesn’t get to me.

(via illbeyoursummerbreeze)

[thispainwillneverend]

Let's Just Get Weird Tonight, Tumblr.

1. Last kiss

2. Last phone call

3. Last text message

4. Last song you listened to

5. Last time you cried

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice

7. Been cheated on

8. Kissed someone & regretted it

9. Lost someone special

10. Been depressed

11. Been drunk and threw up

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

12. had sex

13. How many people have you had sex with this year?

15. Made a new friend

17. Laughed until you cried

18. Met someone who changed you

19. Found out who your true friends were

20. Found out someone was talking about you

26. What did you do for your last Birthday

27. What time did you wake up today

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for

30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life

32. What are you listening to right now

33. When is the last time you had sex?

34. Who's getting on your nerves right now

35. Most visited webpage

36. Favorite colour

37. Nicknames

38. Relationship Status

39. Zodiac sign

40. Male or female

41. Primary school

42. Secondary School

43. High school/college

44. Eye color

46. Height

47. Do you have a crush on someone

48. What do you like about yourself

49. Piercings

50. Tattoos

51. Righty or lefty

FIRSTS:

53. First piercing

54. First best friend

55. First hookup

56. First Bestfriend

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating

60. Drinking

61. I'm about to

62. Listening to

63. Waiting for

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?

65. Get married?

66. Career

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes

68. Hugs or kisses

69. Shorter or taller

70. Older or Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud

74. Hook-up or relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger

77. Drank hard liquor

78. Lost glasses/contacts

79. Had sex

80. Broken someone's heart

82. Been arrested

83. Turned someone down

84. Cried when someone died

85. Fallen for a friend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself

87. Miracles

88. Love at first sight

89. Heaven

90. Santa Clause

91. Kiss on the first date

92. Angels

93. How would you label yourself?

94. Someone You Pray Everyday For

95. Did you sing today

96. Who From All Your Ex's have You Cared The Most About

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?

98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?

100. Do you like the way you look?

[definitive]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

I appreciate the people who love and understand me. Even when I’m hurt and pushing people away they know me better and push back with love and support.

Power of Positivity (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[zogwargqueen]

im at starbucks right now and some other person with a mac just put this word doc into my air drop???????????????? 

[foile-a-deuxme]

Did you say yes

[zogwargqueen]

my response:

[zogwargqueen]

tHEY JUST CALLED OUT A FRAPPUCINO FOR SWAG MONEY (thats the name of my computer on airdrop) IM GONNA CR Y

[literallyjustanerd]

Romance in the 21st Tumblr century

[suicide-is-my-father]

[mstrkrftz]

[athousandmomentsmore]

Find someone who admires you for something less obvious.

(via kushandwizdom)

[uhmeliamay-deactivated20150305]

*throws phone across the room after sending a risky text*