like a curse, like a corpse, like a wound

it/its | personal/aes/whatever | misfortune and blessing depend on one another

[thornsent]

art/music/writing and whatever else I like

morgan; mid 20s; it/its; 18+ no minors; freaks please interact

faggot; dyke; tranny; degenerate; mad; non-human person

my art | etsy | ko-fi | music

no terfs, no nazis, no trads, no fascists

watch a field in england

carrd

now @paradoxkin @presentabsence

[thornsent]

if ya wanna catch up with me and keep up with what I have been doing you can certainly follow me @paradoxkin

I've been writing an original setting, making a neocities, learning programming, and writing personal essays about gender \o/

[paradoxkin]

Nico, I have read your document.

It is very important to me that you publicly acknowledged that the accusations you made about me were untrue, and that you owned the way you treated me. That is something I was not given for a long time, and never expected to hear. I am genuinely glad to see it said this clearly.

There's one thing I do feel the need to clarify, though, because it does change the context in an important way. I did speak openly, repeatedly, about being abused at the time, including naming the people being involved. That includes Gabriel, who I have identified publicly many times, including recently. That wasn't hidden or unavailable information, it was dismissed. I was told that I was lying, that I was intentionally misrepresenting things, and that I was mistaking inconvenience for abuse.

So this isn't a situation where you did not know who had hurt me. It was a situation where I said it, and it was not believed. That distinction is important to me because dismissing that information did not stay neutral. It created space for the people who harmed me to continue and escalate what they were doing, while I was being framed as the one in the wrong.

That's the part of this that still needs to be understood. Beyond that, I don't have anything else to add. I'm glad the truth about those accusations has been stated publicly.

[thornsent]

All of this isn’t just past, petty drama. Nico is trying to build a following for its art (kink/fetish/erotic work) and has received grants. That’s concerning given its history of harassing and shaming people it doesn’t like, often targeting those who are vulnerable. Nico's visibility and credibility now make it even more important to be clear: the behaviors it engaged in toward me were abusive and manipulative, and it needs to acknowledge that fully, publicly, and in a way that prevents Nico from doing it again.

[thornsent]

After all of this, Nico finally "apologized," and I'm not accepting it.

Because what they are apologizing for isn't what happened. They keep reducing it to "I was toxic" or "I was angry," like this was just them being kinda mean online. It wasn't. You spent years publicly framing me as a predator, calling me a pedophile, building a narrative around me being dangerous and bigoted, and encouraging other people to treat me that way.

At the same time you were actively aligning yourself with people I told you had abused me, including someone who did in fact groom and harm a minor. That contradiction is the entire point, and it's the part you keep trying to sidestep. You don't get to turn that into "I didn't have context" or "they came to me as victims." You were told what was happening and chose who you believed. That was a decision you made.

And you definitely do not get to apologize while still repeating the same claims that I was stalking or lying, when that was always just me reacting to being targeted constantly on a public platform. That framing is still DARVO, just with softer language.

If you actually understood the harm you had done, you would not still be rewriting it like this. I'm not interested in going back and forth about it, but I'm also not going to let you reduce what you did into something smaller and easier for you to carry now that it reflects badly on you.

[paradoxkin]

@discodisorder If this were about attention, it would’ve been dropped years ago. It’s about you avoiding accountability for something you participated in for years.

[paradoxkin]

I unblocked to read + reply if able but this is still visible. Either tumblr is being broken, or Nico has blocked me and chosen to continue the same sort of one-sided engagement I've documented of speaking about someone while avoiding direct accountability.

[paradoxkin]

None of this addresses the actual point. You were informed people in that group had harmed me, including rape, and you still participated in a space that monitored and escalated harm toward me.

Calling that "shit talking" doesn't make it true.

[paradoxkin]

And you keep framing this about not liking someone, which I'm not going to just let slide, because I see what you are trying to do. This isn't about not liking me. You were operating in a situation where someone vulnerable was already being harmed and chose to stay in a space that amplified that harm after being told what was happening. That is the issue. That you would do it to anyone at all!

you keep arguing technicalities to avoid the obvious: you helped sustain a space that targeted someone already in a vulnerable position after being told what was happening! that's the part you are purposefully choosing not to engage with!

[paradoxkin]

I'm not accepting this apology, or accepting any of this as accountability or a sign of growth.

You are still justifying what you did and framing me as the problem. You do not get to rewrite this now that it's inconvenient for you.

[thornsent]

Hey. I haven't used this account in a long time. I remade it about ten months ago in an attempt to start over and get away from harassment that has followed me for years. It didn't stop.

This has been ongoing for roughly eight years. In earlier years I tried to address it publicly by focusing on disproving claims made about me, but that became an endless and exhausting cycle because it is fundamentally difficult to prove a negative. Over time, the harassment escalated and I eventually stopped speaking about it publicly out of fear and fatigue.

That fear has changed. I've reached a point where the silence is doing more harm than speaking, and I no longer feel obligated to remain quiet about something that has persisted for this long. I'm no longer interested in running from it or managing it privately.

Both Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) and Nico (@discodisorder) have attempted to rebrand or move on publicly, but I have not been afforded the same conditions. I continue to receive messages I can reasonably trace back to Jess regardless of which account I use, and Nico has repeatedly located new accounts over time as well.

This post is part of choosing not to disappear in response to that pattern anymore. I will be speaking about it openly and linking the full documentation for context.

[thornsent]

TL;DR: This document is a long-term record of abuse, coercion, and harassment involving Jess, and the ways Nico and others contributed to or reinforced it. It outlines relationships with underage/vulnerable people, coercive and manipulative dynamics, and sustained harassment after those relationships ended, including participation in a Discord group (“The Slacking Stalkers”) used to monitor and target me, with later connection to doxxing on Kiwi Farms. It also documents how Nico publicly accused me of abuse while simultaneously collaborating with Jess and minimizing his own behavior, and how others repeatedly reframed or downplayed harm as “drama” or mutual conflict.

Jess D. Ennis AKA "Cinnamonbreaker"

Jess D. Ennis "Cinnamonbreaker" & Nico “discodisorder”A Record of Harm: Patterns of Abuse, Stalking, and Harassment This document outlines

[thornsent]

I can only assume that Nico privated its old accounts because it realized that this shit was extremely embarrassing.

@discodisorder Why did you help my ex stalk me? You had no issue addressing this publicly before. You would post about me on the daily. Is it because you willfully befriended and platformed a predator? That is embarrassing for you.

[thornsent]

@discodisorder blocking me does not hide what you took part in, Nico. I expect accountability if you've actually grown from this like you seem to want to present to your followers, especially over on blusky where you have nearly 1,000 followers.

[thornsent]

Hey. I haven't used this account in a long time. I remade it about ten months ago in an attempt to start over and get away from harassment that has followed me for years. It didn't stop.

This has been ongoing for roughly eight years. In earlier years I tried to address it publicly by focusing on disproving claims made about me, but that became an endless and exhausting cycle because it is fundamentally difficult to prove a negative. Over time, the harassment escalated and I eventually stopped speaking about it publicly out of fear and fatigue.

That fear has changed. I've reached a point where the silence is doing more harm than speaking, and I no longer feel obligated to remain quiet about something that has persisted for this long. I'm no longer interested in running from it or managing it privately.

Both Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) and Nico (@discodisorder) have attempted to rebrand or move on publicly, but I have not been afforded the same conditions. I continue to receive messages I can reasonably trace back to Jess regardless of which account I use, and Nico has repeatedly located new accounts over time as well.

This post is part of choosing not to disappear in response to that pattern anymore. I will be speaking about it openly and linking the full documentation for context.

[thornsent]

TL;DR: This document is a long-term record of abuse, coercion, and harassment involving Jess, and the ways Nico and others contributed to or reinforced it. It outlines relationships with underage/vulnerable people, coercive and manipulative dynamics, and sustained harassment after those relationships ended, including participation in a Discord group (“The Slacking Stalkers”) used to monitor and target me, with later connection to doxxing on Kiwi Farms. It also documents how Nico publicly accused me of abuse while simultaneously collaborating with Jess and minimizing his own behavior, and how others repeatedly reframed or downplayed harm as “drama” or mutual conflict.

Jess D. Ennis AKA "Cinnamonbreaker"

Jess D. Ennis "Cinnamonbreaker" & Nico “discodisorder”A Record of Harm: Patterns of Abuse, Stalking, and Harassment This document outlines

[thornsent]

I can only assume that Nico privated its old accounts because it realized that this shit was extremely embarrassing.

@discodisorder Why did you help my ex stalk me? You had no issue addressing this publicly before. You would post about me on the daily. Is it because you willfully befriended and platformed a predator? That is embarrassing for you.

[thornsent]

Hey. I haven't used this account in a long time. I remade it about ten months ago in an attempt to start over and get away from harassment that has followed me for years. It didn't stop.

This has been ongoing for roughly eight years. In earlier years I tried to address it publicly by focusing on disproving claims made about me, but that became an endless and exhausting cycle because it is fundamentally difficult to prove a negative. Over time, the harassment escalated and I eventually stopped speaking about it publicly out of fear and fatigue.

That fear has changed. I've reached a point where the silence is doing more harm than speaking, and I no longer feel obligated to remain quiet about something that has persisted for this long. I'm no longer interested in running from it or managing it privately.

Both Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) and Nico (@discodisorder) have attempted to rebrand or move on publicly, but I have not been afforded the same conditions. I continue to receive messages I can reasonably trace back to Jess regardless of which account I use, and Nico has repeatedly located new accounts over time as well.

This post is part of choosing not to disappear in response to that pattern anymore. I will be speaking about it openly and linking the full documentation for context.

[thornsent]

TL;DR: This document is a long-term record of abuse, coercion, and harassment involving Jess, and the ways Nico and others contributed to or reinforced it. It outlines relationships with underage/vulnerable people, coercive and manipulative dynamics, and sustained harassment after those relationships ended, including participation in a Discord group (“The Slacking Stalkers”) used to monitor and target me, with later connection to doxxing on Kiwi Farms. It also documents how Nico publicly accused me of abuse while simultaneously collaborating with Jess and minimizing his own behavior, and how others repeatedly reframed or downplayed harm as “drama” or mutual conflict.

Jess D. Ennis AKA "Cinnamonbreaker"

Jess D. Ennis "Cinnamonbreaker" & Nico “discodisorder”A Record of Harm: Patterns of Abuse, Stalking, and Harassment This document outlines

[paradoxkin]

Several years ago I was targeted by a coordinated harassment campaign that escalated into stalking, being posted on kiwifarms, doxxing attempts, and real-life danger while I was homeless after multiple sexual assaults.

The people responsible include Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) and Nico (@discodisorder, portocor on bsky).

Jess is a child predator, abuser, and stalker who has continued monitoring and harassing me since we broke up in 2018. Nico organized the original harassment campaign against me and knowingly participated in a group chat with multiple people who had abused me including my rapist.

I've written a full documentation with timelines, screenshots, and evidence here.

Jess D. Ennis AKA "Cinnamonbreaker"

Jess D. Ennis "Cinnamonbreaker" A Record of Harm: Patterns of Abuse, Stalking, and Harassment This document provides a record of repeated

You can read more below for context.

Several years ago, I was the target of a harassment campaign that began on Tumblr and eventually spread across the internet and into my real offline life.

It initially started over kin drama, but it escalated because multiple abusers and former friends of mine seized the opportunity to harm me while I was extremely vulnerable. At the time I was actively homeless, recovering from multiple sexual assaults, and socially isolated.

Being online was not just a hobby for me then, it was a lifeline. I depended on the goodwill of internet communities to find food, shelter, and basic support. Because of that, "just logging off" was never a real option for me. Even when I did step away from the internet, people involved in the harassment campaign were actively attempting to doxx me and distribute my real-life location, meaning the threat did not disappear offline.

Over time most of the people involved eventually moved on or lost interest.

Jess did not.

Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) has continued monitoring and harassing me since we broke up in February 2018. Over the years he has built a close friendship and creative collaboration with Nico (@discodisorder), the person who originally launched the harassment campaign against me.

Nico's campaign was framed as "protecting people" from me over fandom drama and kin discourse. I was publicly accused of being dangerous and predatory based on disagreements about fictional media.

At the same time, Nico participated in a Discord group chat dedicated to monitoring and harassing me. That chat, called "The Slacking Stalkers", included several people who had directly abused me, including a former roommate and my ex Gabriel, who raped me.

I told Nico several times that people in that group chat had abused me and that several were sexual predators. The response I received was that I was confusing "inconvenience" with abuse.

The harassment continued.

Years later, Nico was presented with evidence that Jess had maintained a relationship with a minor for years. When confronted privately, Jess confirmed this. Nico then cut contact with him.

However, there has been no public acknowledgement of this despite Nico having spent multiple years publicly portraying me as a predator and using those claims to justify harassment against me.

That contradiction is part of why I am speaking about this now.

If protecting victims had actually been the priority, there would have never been a group chat containing a rapist and a child predator. There would never have been discussions about posting me on Kiwifarms.

But there were. And I was posted there.

Nico has since remade its online presence, and the blogs that originally hosted the harassment campaign and callout posts against me have been password-protected or removed.

I am sharing this documentation now for transparency and accountability.

Jess (cinnamonbreaker) is a child predator, abuser, and stalker who has continued harassing me for years.

Nico (tumblr discodisorder, bsky protocor) organized and participated in a harassment campaign targeting me and has a pattern of directing similar harassment toward other vulnerable people over disagreements about fiction and fandom.

The full documentation, including timelines and evidence, can be found here:

Jess D. Ennis AKA "Cinnamonbreaker"

Jess D. Ennis "Cinnamonbreaker" A Record of Harm: Patterns of Abuse, Stalking, and Harassment This document provides a record of repeated

I am not the only person who has been harmed by these individuals.

[paradoxkin]

I want to be clear btw that this is important to me because of how far it went, how long it has lasted, and the fact that the concept of holding someone accountable for abuse was used against me by an abuser to slander and bring harm to me. I think holding the people who did this accountable is important so they will find it harder to do again to another person, because I am not their only victim.

[thornsent]

Hey. I haven't used this account in a long time. I remade it about ten months ago in an attempt to start over and get away from harassment that has followed me for years. It didn't stop.

This has been ongoing for roughly eight years. In earlier years I tried to address it publicly by focusing on disproving claims made about me, but that became an endless and exhausting cycle because it is fundamentally difficult to prove a negative. Over time, the harassment escalated and I eventually stopped speaking about it publicly out of fear and fatigue.

That fear has changed. I've reached a point where the silence is doing more harm than speaking, and I no longer feel obligated to remain quiet about something that has persisted for this long. I'm no longer interested in running from it or managing it privately.

Both Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) and Nico (@discodisorder) have attempted to rebrand or move on publicly, but I have not been afforded the same conditions. I continue to receive messages I can reasonably trace back to Jess regardless of which account I use, and Nico has repeatedly located new accounts over time as well.

This post is part of choosing not to disappear in response to that pattern anymore. I will be speaking about it openly and linking the full documentation for context.

[thornsent]

TL;DR: This document is a long-term record of abuse, coercion, and harassment involving Jess, and the ways Nico and others contributed to or reinforced it. It outlines relationships with underage/vulnerable people, coercive and manipulative dynamics, and sustained harassment after those relationships ended, including participation in a Discord group (“The Slacking Stalkers”) used to monitor and target me, with later connection to doxxing on Kiwi Farms. It also documents how Nico publicly accused me of abuse while simultaneously collaborating with Jess and minimizing his own behavior, and how others repeatedly reframed or downplayed harm as “drama” or mutual conflict.

Jess D. Ennis AKA "Cinnamonbreaker"

Jess D. Ennis "Cinnamonbreaker" & Nico “discodisorder”A Record of Harm: Patterns of Abuse, Stalking, and Harassment This document outlines

[thornsent]

Hey. I haven't used this account in a long time. I remade it about ten months ago in an attempt to start over and get away from harassment that has followed me for years. It didn't stop.

This has been ongoing for roughly eight years. In earlier years I tried to address it publicly by focusing on disproving claims made about me, but that became an endless and exhausting cycle because it is fundamentally difficult to prove a negative. Over time, the harassment escalated and I eventually stopped speaking about it publicly out of fear and fatigue.

That fear has changed. I've reached a point where the silence is doing more harm than speaking, and I no longer feel obligated to remain quiet about something that has persisted for this long. I'm no longer interested in running from it or managing it privately.

Both Jess (@cinnamonbreaker) and Nico (@discodisorder) have attempted to rebrand or move on publicly, but I have not been afforded the same conditions. I continue to receive messages I can reasonably trace back to Jess regardless of which account I use, and Nico has repeatedly located new accounts over time as well.

This post is part of choosing not to disappear in response to that pattern anymore. I will be speaking about it openly and linking the full documentation for context.

[thornsent]

[thornsent]

remaking :)

[thornsent]

[redlipstickresurrected]

Henry Daubrez (Belgo-Spanish, based Belgium) - Untitled, 2024, Paintings: Digital Art

[naldibutnice]

Eve Southern by Tiffany Studios, 1929

[oneshortdamnfuse]

I am once again explaining that in order for walkable cities and public transit to work for disabled people, there also need to be more public bathrooms available in and around those areas. Not just places to sit down or rest. Bathrooms. We need accessible, clean bathrooms. With sharps bins. With multiple wheelchair accessible stalls. With an area to set down supplies needed to maintain one’s body. Even if it’s not being used to get rid of bodily waste, bathrooms are one of the few spaces disabled people have to maintain some sort of privacy when they’re in the middle of a flare up or they need to take medication or what have you. Designing a public space? Include bathrooms.