Naveen

My personal blog about things inside my head

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2022 - Count of Films

I watched around 120 films in 2022

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2021 Best Films

1 - Maanaadu 2 - Doctor

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Karma is a Boomerang 😈

From 2019, I asked Nagalakshmi to quit job, as its toxic and it doesn't give her work life balance. I even made resume, linkedin profile, naukri profile for her. But she neglected my advice and she continued working there. Later part of 2019, I requested her to take off and roam somewhere. Do you know what she said? manager didn't give leave. I shouted at her for being like saying yes to everything. She doesn't have time to spend the money she earned, then for whom is she earning? Later during the start of 2020, I felt bad that one of our friend is suffering and again advised her to search a new job and quit this. Again she neglected it. I am tired of this and stopped giving advice. She didn't even ping me, whenever I pinged her, her responses are late or too much gaps between each messages and I have to ask everything and she will answer yes or no and that type of conversation doesn't make you texting. I never texed her again. I always had a belief that she will come to me for job search. I thought she will come during the last 2 months of her tenure, but she came after she left the job. Same tone, didn't even call, frequent gaps, those texts won't make anyone text back. I asked her did you start searching job, she said I will relax for 2 months and will start searching. Hmhuh! now it looks like she won't get atleast for 8-12 months. She acted dumb and now she came to me now, later also she will come to me on job search resume and everything😃. Karma is a boomerang! 😈

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I stopped giving suggestions/advice/ideas to people on good things. No one follows it and not even ready to listen. They have their own ways. Some rarely listen but not completely but to an extent. I am feeling happy that atleast they listen me and do something. I give some advise on mutual funds, career ideas, how to sucessfully become a data analyst, being happy cool, health suggestions to name a few. Jai listens to me on mutual funds advice and Som listens to me on becoming a data scientist - not completely but atleast to some extent. Even at home people listen to me in few things not in everyone. But anyways i am okay with that and stopped giving advice to people especially like Sirisha and to a extent to Gayathri as they are not wiling to follow that. Other people I am not close to give advise. Some wont even listen to me. Some people when I give financial advise they are thinking I am gaining something our of it😪. All were give with good intentions. No one was there for me to give these. So I am giving them at free of cost. But yea.. its okay. Soo only I need to marry soon at least they will listen to me or if not the kids will listen to me. Anyways.. i am saving my energy😬🤣🤣

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Today I got a salary hike but I don't have anyone to express the real me. I have few to express the happiness, but the real happiness and excitement I couldn't express to anyone. Its not them to blame they have their own love and priorities. Thats why I need a partner to share all these. I need someone who has me as their first in the list. I am there in few list but not their first. Its okay because their family comes first. I am yet to form a family thats the worst. I am happy that I am in their top 5 list and they are ready to atleast listen to me. But I need someone who can have me in their top list. Only a life partner can fulfill that. Hoping so.

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No one is like me in Chennai. The people I had met here are no similar to me. There is no one similar to me in the OBF gang, Not even close. The closest match among others, whom I am contact with is Suganya. The more closest match whom everyone knows is Judith. The closest boy match I know is Rajshekar. No other people are like me and everyone else in OBF gang are different my thoughts, ideas, principle, logic and preferences doesn't match with them.

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7 Reasons I want to get married soon,

1. I reached the age of getting married both in numbers and mentally. I feel like I need a life partner now.

2. I need to share things with someone. Though there are people to listen you can't share everything with all. Need someone to listen to me with interest on whatever I say.

3. I actually need to express my love to someone. This many years I didn't feel it but now I feel like i need to express them all the saved ones, which no one has seen, buy gifts, see them happy....

4. I actually need a baby now. I am in craze with babies now. I was in so much craze with babies in 2019, then I am feeling now. I want to get married soon just to enter the baby world soon.

5. I want someone to follow what I am saying. Its not necessary that whatever I say everyone should follow or do. Its that few things I say or wish for which are only good and giving thoughts based on experience. Needed someone to follow those few things. Wife might follow few or not, dont know. But my baby will follow whatever I say. So same thing need to get married to get a baby.

6. I feel like horny frequently(when compared to to prior 2020 but very very less when compared to world average). Its not okay to self masteburate everytime. Got bored of it. It would be nice to get married and enjoy sex thereby avoiding sperm and semen from going into toilet.

7. I need to have a house of my own taste. Keep it organized. Buy things whatever I wish to. All in my control 😍😘

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No one is ready to listen to me. I have so much to say but no one is ready to hear that. All the things are getting dumped in my head and soon it will lose the current mood and details in it.

Very bad that I couldn't even express my feelings on how i got the job, 2 years gone.

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Some people like Immanuel is a ducking ashoe He thinks he is better than everyone. The things that prove he is an ashoe are...

In 2015, I went with Nihal for a small trip to Coorg. Immanuel said don't go it wont be nice for you and you will feel bored. I said its okay as I am just sitting at room, so I will go. But it turned out to be best trip so far in my life. Best in terms of people and place. Coming to Immanuel, I thought he is giving me good advise but later I realised he was just saying it because he can't go anywhere and he will be alone in the hostel.

Next during mock interview, he asked me so many unmeaningful questions. Later after college he had a lover he didnt even said to me, its okay. I am interested in that but he acts like sorry i didnt say athan ennala thangika mudiyathu. Na ethavathu solati appadiyey na than etho thappu panna mathri pesrathu appa apa pa.. shabba...

Na Nandi hills ponathey ivan pasanga kita enathaiyo solli vachrukan tepayan. Ivan ponungaloda ethavathu panna athu normal ithey na pasangaluku priority kuduthu ellam panni micham irukra timela etho panirupen athu abnormalam.. na ivanuku evlo kasta patu panathellam pakka matan.. na mithavangaluku ethavathu vishyam pana pothum.

Ashiwini oru ponnoda apdi ipdi iruthutu oorla irukravangala ellam kora solrathu.. sila per truea irupanga avangala pathi gossip pesrathu.. ivan panna nyam mithavanga panna anniyayam... Mutual friendla irukan athan innum frienda contactla vachruka vendiyatha iruku ilati epovo delete panirukanum...

Waiting for thw right time to remove him from life.

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Most of them don't agree with me with most of the things, because they think I don't know much about it and they don't beleive me.

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9th Nov, 2020 - Had great nights talking with Sirisha for the past 4 days🤗🤗

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24th Oct 2020 -Awesome poetry in Disney style with rhyming words. Loved it ❤ - A friend of Neethu wrote to her.

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Sharing!!

14th June 2019 - Recently I felt that many of my friends like to share their stories with me. I am so delighted that I am comfortable for most of the people to share their daily happenings in life. Most of them share their sad feelings and the things that bothered and hurt them . Compared to men, women share more stories with me. I feel the below might be the reason that everyone is sharing their life stories with me.

I listen to everything they say patiently.

I acknowledge them whatever they say.

I rarely give them suggestions or advise.

I maintain confidentiality.

They TRUST Me

Sharing lightens people heart and reduces the burden they have in part of their life. I am happy that I am helping a few to reduce their burden in their life and make them feel lighter. I feel I am Awesome 😇

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Game😡

3rd January 2019 - Inviting to play and then making fun of their playing is not a good way. People will play what they know to.

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Surprises to me

#1 14th June 2017 - Gayathri and Sirisha surprised me on my birthday by visiting the shop in which I was buying my birthday dress and gave choclates to the employees of the shop to give it to me when I come out of trail room. I got supersurprised!! They also gifted a Fastrack watch.

#2 26th August 2018 - Monica Surprised me by gifting a Fastrack watch along with the Rakhi on Rakshabandan. That was completely unexpected.

#3 25th December 2018 - Steffi gifted me a tie as a token of friendship on Christmas. When I asked a Christmas gift for fun she sent it suprisingly.

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Monica -A Gem

One amazing thing happened yesterday. I was thinking how to ask Monica that can I stay in her home. I was thinking a lot about how to ask and what to text. Then I finally called. Do you know what she said " Stay in my home where else will you stay". She also said "You go and meet anyone but stay in my house". This kind of words you rarely hear from anyone. People will usually get angry when we go and meet them and make a call to another person. But she knows what I feel and say things I hesitate to ask, before I ask her. Such a Gem of a person she is.

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I lack the skills which most people have, but I have the skills which most people lack.

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