hey
Just took a lil scroll around here, not sure what I was hoping to find. Maybe the old remnants of community and connection I once found on here? This website used to be my safe space, it's where I connected with so many people, some of whom I am still great friends with to this day.
But going on here, I don't experience the sweet nostalgia I was expecting. It feels the same but different. The interface is slightly altered, everything has lost its shine, and it's so quiet, like a silent graveyard of what used to be the golden tumblr days. Maybe I've associated it too much with one of the darkest periods in my life, maybe I feel like people are moving on without me or I've moved on? There's people that I follow who I don't even remember or recognize.
But most importantly, I see all the sides of me that I used to hate. An echo of who I once was, and those traits of mine that I haven't yet accepted. It feels more bitter than sweet to be here. I won't be staying, but I won't delete any of it either. It is all a true representation of who I was at a specific period in my life. So, I'll continue, as I have been doing, to come back every couple of years to check in on everyone, scroll for an hour or two and leave for another couple of years.
Will I ever come back? Never say never, but for now I don't see it. I think it would damage my mental health and isolate me from real life, so even if I wanted to, I probably shouldn't. If you've read thus far, and we've talked before, feel free to message me on my instagram https://www.instagram.com/katianna.mua/ and catch up; just send me a message reminding me who you are cause sometimes it's out of sight, out of mind with me.
Until next time xx
