What Alice Found There...

And the moral of that is; Be what you would seem to be. Or, if you'd like it put more simply... Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been...

[theroncharlize]

“Please.. Come on, come on, come on…”

Anne Hathaway as Lexi in Modern Love (Episode 3: Take Me As I Am, Whoever I Am)

[magicofmacie]

Depression is hard

Doctor: Are you feeling suicidal?

Me:

Me:

Me: I would never kill myself...it's just that....I don't see the point in living...

Doctor:

Me:

Doctor: Okay, I want to see you on a weekly basis until we get this under control.

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[throughthatlookingglass]

New Year's Blues

For some reason, I always seem to be massively depressed around new years. IT’s been like this for over 5 years. It’s like one moment every thing is fine, then the other, my whole world comes crashing down. 

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[throughthatlookingglass]

As usual, the New Year's Blues have returned. They are no longer as crippling and hollowing as they once were. I am still able to get up and do things, but it might take a while to get there. I am really pleased to say there has been progress. I have more control over my emotions than I ever have before

The sadness that has hit me seems random and confusing at first, but I am also better able to identify the issues.

The general feeling of everything being the same and nothing changing is a constant each year. Somehow, I miss out on the feels of hope and promise that the new year brings others. I feel distant and far from the jubilation that we have entered a new year.

The feeling of being trapped is also still there. I honestly just want to cry because it's another year of feeling hopeless and helpless in my mind. My pains are still the same. My struggles may have evolved but are essentially still the same.

I feel more and more alone. I feel like no one understands me. No one truly listens to me. I also find it hard to trust anyone anymore so my circle of friends gets smaller and smaller. Also, since my friend is migrating and flies out at midnight, the turning of the year reminds me that I essentially have no one left. I already have come to terms with being alone and I'm learning to prefer it. However, there are times I need someone to turn to for help and I feel like I have no one left.

They are all problems I deal with daily but somehow it is intensified at this time of year. I just keep countering the thoughts as they come with the facts in front of me.

It may feel like just any other day with nothing changed but things have changed last year and they will continue to change once I put my plans into action. So do it!

I'm only as trapped as I allow myself to be. I have the ability to say no. I have the ability to come and go. I have the power to make small steps towards where I want to be and celebrate them.

I'm not really alone. I'm surrounded by people who care in their own way. Appreciate them. Accept them. But also appreciate and accept yourself first before you seek gratification and validation from others. People come and go but youre stuck with you forever, so make sure you're becoming someone you'd want to be friends with.

[infjanon]

INFJ Confession #3243

Me personally as an infj hold sex so highly. I’m 19 years old and Im still a virgin.. most of my friends lost theirs at 13. I don’t judge and I 100% believe that people can do whatever they want but me personally I view sex different than most. I once heard someone say sex stands for Sacred Energy eXchange and that hit home for me. I don’t plan on saving it for marriage but I want to actually be in love with someone and connect on a deep level. But all the people I meet only want sex…

[lagonegirl]

me: i really need to talk this out with someone 

my anxiety: ur coming off needy. isolate urself and handle it. all u need is U!

[horsesaround]

[hotpinksun]

Forever sitting in the corner of the room and ppl watching~*~*~

[chronicpainpartners]

I definitely relate to these sentiments… How about you?

I seriously feel myself becoming more and more distant fron my friends because they have moved on with their lives and I haven’t. My friends graduated two years ago and I’m still trying to finish school. At this point, they are moving on to masters, getting better jobs, moving out of their parents houses, learning to fend for themselves.

Meanwhile, I’m still living at home and contemplating whether I’ll ever be able to leave because I genuinely need to live with someone for emotional, mental and the occasional physical support. I’m wondering if I’ll ever be able to work a constant 9-5 with chronic pain and the irregular flare ups. I’m faced with constant self doubt and the occasional lack of will to go on.

This would all make you relate awkwardly to people who have less and less in common with you. I’m losing things to say.

“What’s up with me? I go to school. I come home. I work on projects. I sleep. Rinse. Repeat.”

Meanwhile, they work. They go out. They’ve found a new guy. They go on trips. They have adventures. They live life. I don’t.

At least I’ve started trying to make my awkward ways a plus of my character instead of a weakness. I wear it as a badge of honour and accept that it is a part of me that people may or may not see. By doing this, I hope it will lessen my social anxiety as well as make me appreciate my quirks which I find it hard to change. Instead of being ashamed, I play it all off as quirky parts of what it is to be me.

[aroadmaptomymind]

Everything that happens in your life happens for a reason.

You walked in to make me realise I am worthy of love and I can love.

You walked out so I knew that I was stronger than I had dreamed and that everyone around me was wrong.

I failed so that I could wake up the next day and try again.

I fought for what I wanted because I decided I would no longer be unhappy.

I’m fighting because I know I can be whatever I want to be and I have to thank my obstacles I faced. Because they’ve made me who I am today.

[thelovejournals]

First admit that you are unhappy. Then admit why. Then understand you need to let go. Allow yourself a moment. Breathe in the moment deeply. Then the healing will begin.

Nikita Gill, How to Start Healing (via thelovejournals)

[upliftourday]

[throughthatlookingglass]

[bumblebee-pd]

*walks into pharmacy*

hello yes i would like to purchase 1 mental health please 

[allthecoloursatonce]

Anyone else terrified that they are toxic and manipulative and just can’t see it? Or is that just me?

[esoteric-merit]

A lot of people who’ve been abused think this. It’s very common for abusers to try to convince their victims that they, in some small part, deserve the abuse. And a common way of doing that is to frame the defensive tactics of the victim as bad, manipulative things.

[radiantquotes]

[dr0wnedperfectionist]

no offense but i hate my life and i’ve been asking to die for way too many years to still be alive rn

[lgions2]