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[throwittothevoid]

I've never felt so unsupported. By my work team, by my community, and by my family.

[throwittothevoid]

Year of fucking loss and betrayal. I genuinely don't understand the people I love so much sometimes.

[throwittothevoid]

I don't know how much more I can take and how much longer I can keep going.

[throwittothevoid]

One day my composure is finally going to snap and I'm going to lose it all.

[throwittothevoid]

I'm going to have a complete fucking mental breakdown.

[throwittothevoid]

I have not had this much suicidal idealization in years. It's starting to scare me how much I genuinely want to kill myself over how much will I have to live for.

[throwittothevoid]

I don't feel safe. I'm so afraid. I don't want to be seen. I can't do this.

[throwittothevoid]

I won't kill myself. But I want to stop breathing.

[throwittothevoid]

I don't want to keep going on. I just want to stop.

[samxcamargo]

Book: Night Drives ❤️

[never-belonged]

if you asked

[scarscardsandink]

have you ever had someone hurt you so badly

that anytime you let your mind wander to even the thought of it

it’s like you can physically feel it?

like inside your being burned and everything is being ripped down and shoved into the pit of your stomach?

-how am i supposed to get over it if i can’t even bear the slightest reminder of it?

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Healing Heart

[throwittothevoid]

Did it ever really mean anything to you? Were you just lying and pretending the whole time? Did nothing I do matter?

[throwittothevoid]

Walls are going back up. I will no longer love or care as deeply about anyone or anything.

[throwittothevoid]

And there it is. I definitely haven't fully felt part of the team, and then for you to name everyone but me as a contributor to the event really hit home.

[throwittothevoid]

The greatest pain is wanting to be comforted by those who hurt you.