[thyhonesteheorte]

personal vent blog i use when i don't wanna use my main

tw: suicidal ideation, ambiguous weight talk

recent breakdowns cuz i tend to lose track of time

day b4 chem board exam

random night i suddenly blocked most of my closest moots

[insideininsideout]

[thyhonesteheorte]

i havent showered since tuesday. im always hungry but have no real appetite when theres a plate of food in front of me. im staying up all night on my phone and sleeping in till late afternoon. im always ready to lie down in bed. i dont have any responsibilities rn but im not even doing anything i like. im literally locked in my room rotting.

[thyhonesteheorte]

nvm.. not eating and not showering and not getting out of bed cant cause a real fever

[stupidbpdb1tch]

I wish I could kill myself as easy as dying for a silly accident like slipping in the shower

[thyhonesteheorte]

half a meal ystd half a meal today doing nothing w my days and actively regressing

[thyhonesteheorte]

oh ok just a bit (very) disappointed

[al1voidz]

extremely.

[thyhonesteheorte]

how do u even hang urself....

[shamesonlydaughterrr]

I know I’m not fat but like I am but really I’m not but like no I definitely am oh my god

[thyhonesteheorte]

i cant say that i genuinely made a detailed plan to kms b4 chem board exam so since i knew i was gonna die i just gave up on studying the days b4. but i gained hope after.. my results wont show that tho

[thyhonesteheorte]

im actually underweight now...

[thyhonesteheorte]

1kg less and id actually be considered underweight by this calculator.. and im aware i shouldnt actually want that. but still

[zd27]

do i really look like that

[bloody-----snow]

my fuckass thighs bro </33

[thyhonesteheorte]

idek if im backtracking cuz im weak n sensitive or this is a good thing

[thyhonesteheorte]

"Miss those days when we used to have late night conversations"

what do i even say?? yea i miss u too, i've already come to conclude that i regret it. if u hadn't noticed i'd have undone it a few days later. and hypothetically i could give it a shot n reach out first n apologize n fix it now. or at least give u a parting msg for closure. but i won't.. because i'm a coward. still undone it but ball's in ur court if u wanna reach out (contrary to the defensive shit i thought b4, i wouldn't blame u for not doing shit since i did technically abandon u. it was actually just about me & abandoning my own life but how would u know that if i never said it)