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Triggering blog. Just a place where a post my emotions and things that calm me. I'm BPD, Maladaptive Day Dreamer & Suicidal. I'll be fine despite my emotional posts. I don't mind if you feel the need to talk to me though.

[tiaraoftears]

Time to start drinking in the middle of the day again to numb the pain of being a failure at work

[dankmemeuniversity]

[maniccherrygirl]

[ardent-reflections]

She liked to disappear, even when she was in the same room as other people. It was a talent, as it was a curse.

Alice Hoffman, The Red Garden.

[ardent-reflections]

I was so alone that every day was like eating my own heart.

Junot Diaz

[tiaraoftears]

Too sensitive for this world…

Too hurt, always.

[tiaraoftears]

I need to get my head out the clouds. The moment I think I’m “special” is the moment I get my heartbroken. I should’ve just waited to talk.

[tiaraoftears]

And not to be sad about someone else’s on top but…it’s sad to feel distance between you and someone you’re fond of. I don’t know if I ever mattered to you but you not choosing me as a friend hurts. I get why. Trust me. It just…sucks.

I always overestimate my place in other people’s life. Am I easy to get over? Is there nothing about me that’s worth holding on to?

[tiaraoftears]

I wish you actually cared about me…

[tiaraoftears]

I fucked up again talking too much ..

[tiaraoftears]

I’m sorry

Im just lonely

[tiaraoftears]

I’m so embarrassing…I’m sorry, I’m sorry.

[tiaraoftears]

I fucked up again talking too much ..

[tiaraoftears]

I’m sorry

Im just lonely

[tiaraoftears]

I fucked up again talking too much ..

[tiaraoftears]

I screamed in my car because I couldn’t take it. So hard that I can smell the blood in my throat.

I think I’m losing it.

[tiaraoftears]

That was yesterday.

Then today I get in trouble at work. Nothing makes me want to kill myself more than that. Disappointing people.

And then only to come home with no one to cry to.

[tiaraoftears]

I screamed in my car because I couldn’t take it. So hard that I can smell the blood in my throat.

I think I’m losing it.

[tiaraoftears]

He says kind things about me.

I can’t ask for more than that, not from him.

[tiaraoftears]

Yeah I…you tried I guess. I probably won’t be vent to you again. Maybe I’m rejection sensitive or something but …it just feels like you got tired of the conversation or something. I don’t know. I thanked you for listening…

Maybe I scared you off or said something wrong.

I don’t know.

I don’t know.

I feel like such a bother anyways maybe this was inevitable.

[obscurix]

what an unlovable thing i’ve become.

[disc90s]

I romanticized the pain, because it was all I had.