Well, everyone, it's been a good run. But it's time to start fresh.
I now have a strictly NSFW Tumblr account, where I'm going to be posting lewd art and sharing horny thoughts about my OCs, and posting art of other kinks outside of the main ones I've showcased on this account.
So please do not follow if you're squicked by NSFW. It doesn't mean all of my content will be raunchy or erotic in nature, but it's still for kink stuff.
Much like a few friends and mutuals of mine, I've become jaded by the Tumblr TK community overall. But I'm 31 years old, and I will not let myself continue to feel ashamed of being into kink, or feel like I have to keep it on the down-low.
You can also find me on Bluesky and Pillowfort!
🔞NSFW artist - Minors DNI/DNF 🔞
◇ 31
◇ They/Them
◇ Retired DeviantArt veteran
◇ Clownfucker, Monsterfucker Lite, semi-scalie
◇ Will be po
I won't delete this account, I just won't be active on it anymore! I still want to keep it as a sort of time capsule. Just know that I will no longer be accepting asks, submissions, or DMs here. Thank you so much again to everyone who has stuck around ❤️
You're all awesome. Thank you for making these past ten or so years worthwhile, even in spite of drama and roadblocks along the way.
Never stop finding reasons to laugh. 💖
((DISCLAIMER: Because I won't be active here anymore, I won't be coming back to keep tabs on ppl who like & reblog my stuff. Keep in mind that I still do not condone minors interacting with my content. Please please please respect my boundaries, whether you come across this account or take a look at my new one. Thank you!!))
Dropping in here to remind everyone that I am no longer active on this blog, so following me here is more or less pointless.
I only log in every now and then to make sure Tumblr doesn't yeet it into the void for inactivity. IF YOU WANT TO FOLLOW ANY OF MY NEW CONTENT, PLEASE FOLLOW ME ON MY NEW BLOG.
Hey! Been a fan of yours since….God I don’t even remember… Just wanted to say bye and that I love your work! I’m gonna miss your stories, your characters, your art. When first discovered this kink, I think you were one the first blogs I found! I immediately fell in love with Inzi and Mina, with Ragaeli and Kenisime, with Nate and Tina, and all their adventures. There would be stressful days, and I would come back to this blog and read one of your stories, and for a moment, my stress and anxieties would fade, replaced by laughter and happiness. Anyway… I won’t forget you, or Kenni and Rags, and I know others won’t forget you too! Who knows? Maybe with all this belief, Kenni and Rags are now real somewhere, within the astral realm and dreamscape of those who believe. Good luck on your future endeavors, and may your stories leave an impact on future generations.
Thank you so, so much for your kind words. I'm really, truly so happy that you, and others that have followed me throughout these years, have been able to find some form of solace and joy in my silly little OCs and their silly tickly shenanigans.
That's truly a beautiful sentiment, and...You're right, who knows? This universe is so vast, so full of possibilities that we couldn't possibly fully fathom. The concept of the Tulpa is prevalent in Buddhism. The power of the human mind has brought to life so many "dreams" in a metaphorical sense, through the creation of media that has allowed us to stay in touch with our deepest hopes, fears, desires, and emotional needs. Society may seem cold, detached, and uncaring, but when the individual minds of those who dare to dream come together, humanity as a whole is capable of creating and sharing truly beautiful, exhilarating, fulfilling experiences with one another.
Thank you so much again. I wish you all the best. 💗
Been so obsessed with the backroom stories!❤️ been wondering can rag doll still tickle victims if they’re not ticklish? Or can he make them feel tickles??
Thank you!! I'm glad you've enjoyed them!!
And yes, he can. :) All of my deities - Rags, Kenni, Kama, and even Balthy - can use their magic to make people more sensitive & ticklish.
I decided to make one final redraw of my banner of Kenni and Rags for the epilogue of my Backrooms story.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
And here it is. Finally.
It already feels like a lifetime
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
I'm ngl, I was looking even more forward to writing the N
I figured it would be fitting for it to be the last illustration I upload to this Tumblr.
These two have meant so much to me over the past ten years. Although I have many, many other stories, ideas and concepts brewing for all of my other OCs, these two - especially Ragaeli - have always been huge go-to comfort characters for me.
And I'm so, so incredibly happy that they've also been able to bring joy to all of my fans & watchers over the years. Seriously, it means so much to me to see how many people have been impacted by my art and writing in some way; it flatters me that so many people have wanted to know more about them or interact with them. It still blows my mind that my blorbos are one of the very first results that show up when looking up Gargalesis or Knismesis.
Going forward, I might not end up drawing them as much anymore. I really want to give Kama, and my other Dream entities, their time to shine. But these two tickle fiends will always be two of my main Muses. They're a reminder of values, kink-related or not, that I hold very near and dear:
Embracing one's love of adrenaline, spooky fun, chaotic intensity, and madness... And learning how to find comfort, serenity, and simple joys in life.
Decided to post my Backrooms chapter illustrations separately. I know I didn't have to try and come up with more suggestive variants of my chapter covers, but it was fun to do so when it was feasible 👍
The links to all the NSFW chapters can be found here:
Chapter 1 - The Game Begins: https://ticklish-touch.tumblr.com/post/697439483778547712/trapped-in-the-backrooms-chapter-one-the-game
Chapte
I really wanted to push myself not just as a writer, but also as a digital artist for this story.
You can read some rambles about my art process for each illustration below the cut.
Ch 1: Not much difference here besides him licking his lips, but it was definitely a crucial change 👌 For this chapter cover, I wanted to do my best to replicate the eerie, sickly vibe of Level Zero. And that resulted me in really playing around with the lighting and shadows in a way that I hadn't before. I also wanted to give it a bit of wonky perspective and feel a bit like an illusion-house.
Ch 2: I didn't know I needed slutty Bellboy Rags in my life until I got around to drawing the alt version of this chapter cover 👍 Lookit this cheeky fucker. Totally isn't a Tower of Terror employee luring you into a false sense of security.
My initial idea for this illustration was to make it look as if the Manager's cuttlefish head was really morphing & bowing out from within the wallpaper. I tried a couple drafts where I attempted to line up his tentacles and facial patterns with the wallpaper patterns. And idk, it just didn't end up looking as cool as it did in my head.
Ch 3: Fun fact: This chapter was originally going to be the second half of my hotel chapter. But I'm glad it became its own thing, cause otherwise it would've robbed me of the chance to draw Rags acting like a supervillain wearing nothing but a safety vest and helmet 👍 i s2g the fucking mood whiplash I kept having between experiencing Lee Panik when zooming in on his face, then laughing my ass off at seeing his outfit
also Clip Studio Assets are a godsend, they prevent me from having to draw out an entire freakin warehouse floorplan. I did color it all myself though.
Ch 6: ...Ok yeah I didn't know what else to do to make this 'nsfw' other than oily glove, lmao
When I tell yall that it was a struggle to get through drawing this. And not because of genuine art struggles; No, because of the pure Lee Panik that gripped my soul when having to zoom in close on Rags' sadistic unhinged Ler face hhhhhhfdhdfjgkfghl-
This was one of the chapters I was most looking forward to writing. It's still one of my favs in terms of pure unbridled ruthless gang-tickling, the culmination of my pred/prey/chasing fantasies revolving around horny, laughter-hungry monsters, along with some good ol Mad Scientist roleplay.
Ch 7: Yall have no idea the absolute childlike glee I felt when discovering that there's a freaking Bouncehouse/McDonalds Playplace level of the Backrooms.
But holy hell, drawing the Toon Monsters was more of a challenge than I thought. There's a surprising amount of finesse in depicting that wacky, slightly-unnerving/uncanny toony charm.
And with this drawing posted, time to drop a confession:
I have an inflation fetish. I have a rubber, PVC and inflatable kink. I always have. It was a fetish that developed way before my tickling kink.
I'm sure it's at least somewhat noticeable in the chapter, but like... I actually held myself back from including more of it. The big rubbery beastie at the beginning was originally going to suck up air from the bouncehouse and get huge inflated muscles. Y/N was due to get squished up by even more sections of the bouncehouses or playrooms. The Toons and Mr. Shiro would have been prime real estate for including inflation shenanigans. But I still held myself back, out of fear of judgment.
But, ah well. Going into my new accounts, I'm not going to shy away from it as much anymore.
Ch 8: Since this chapter was more or less meant to be a sort of mid-series Climax, a hint of what the battle with the Keymaster would be like, I really wanted to push myself with making this chapter cover truly stand out. It was fun to come up with a full-body design for the Court Jester (based on his Wiki interpretation of course), and it was fun to experiment with the ideas I had in mind for his magic visuals.
I'm not sure if a single soul out there recognized Marvus Xoloto's outfit, but I'd be damned if I didn't draw the Clownfucker King's outfit in the horny-clown chapter.
I have actually drawn Rags in this outfit in the past:
Ch 9: I was both excited about, and dreading, the chance to play around with various different light colors & sources. I wasn't sure how I was going to make neon blues, purples and magentas work in contrast to Rags' color palette, but I'm very happy with what I came up with. Totally wasn't drooling while making his skimpy outfit even sluttier, naaah
The Dark Sovereign was also a chance for me to play around with chiaroscuro, an art technique that I've always admired (and actually really liked to do with chalk & pastel back in college). As much as I'm a slut for bright colors, I love stark contrasting black & white.
Ch 13: I was very happy to finally get the chance to fully render Kenni for this fic. As much as shading his tendrils still drives me up the wall, it felt nice drawing the good soff boi. And I was happy to give an idea of how his Dream realm looks, with all its pastel clouds and close proximity to the Astral plane.
It's funny; I used to always draw Kenni and Rags nearly naked by default. Partially because 1.) I deadass just didn't feel like coming up with clothing ideas for them, and 2.) the way I see it, they're dream entities borne of desires related to tickling and physical affection. Of course they'd enjoy having their extremely ticklish bodies exposed most of the time. They live in a world where temperatures don't affect them. Rags is a chaotic dumbass feral monster boi, Kenni is very Fae-like in that he likes to feel one with nature and with his partners. To me, it only made sense for them not to sport any real clothes.
But over time, I decided it really wasn't that feasible, or interesting/fun, to let them be nekkid all the time. (That privilege went to Kama, who actually hates wearing clothes, lmao) I enjoy coming up with different outfits that the boyes could wear, but in instances like this, I also love to show just how soff, smooth and huggable Kenni's body looks~
Decided to post my Backrooms chapter illustrations separately. The links to all the (SFW) chapters can be found here:
Chapter 1 - The Game Begins: https://ticklish-touch.tumblr.com/post/697433375261212672/trapped-in-the-backrooms-chapter-one-the-game
Chapte
I really wanted to push myself not just as a writer, but also as a digital artist for this story.
You can read some rambles about my art process for each illustration below the cut.
Ch 1: For this chapter cover, I wanted to do my best to replicate the eerie, sickly vibe of Level Zero. And that resulted me in really playing around with the lighting and shadows in a way that I hadn't before. I also wanted to give it a bit of wonky perspective and feel a bit like an illusion-house.
Ch 2: Lookit this cheeky fucker. Totally isn't a Tower of Terror employee luring you into a false sense of security. 😁
My initial idea for this illustration was to make it look as if the Manager's cuttlefish head was really morphing & bowing out from within the wallpaper. I tried a couple drafts where I attempted to line up his tentacles and facial patterns with the wallpaper patterns. And idk, it just didn't end up looking as cool as it did in my head. (Also hallelujiah for Clip pattern brushes, they helped me make the trim around the elevator.)
Ch 3: Fun fact: This chapter was originally going to be the second half of my hotel chapter. But I'm glad it became its own thing, cause otherwise it would've robbed me of the chance to draw Rags acting like a supervillain in a construction helmet and flannel 👍
also Clip Studio Assets are a godsend, they prevent me from having to draw out an entire freakin warehouse floorplan. I did color it all myself though.
Ch 4: I remember this drawing taking me longer than I would've liked.Then again I've always struggled to draw somewhat realistic-looking water. The shadow off-shooting below the smaller cube pool into the deeper water was actually a complete accident.
And in case anyone was wanting to see a close-up of Lionfish Rags:
And again, Spike and Drake are temporary names for the sake of this AU setting until I think of actual names (for if and when I ever get around to making a Mer-Nautica AU like I've been wanting to). The silhouettes show how big they were when I first saw them in my dreams:
Ch 5: I had visuals in mind for a group of Wanderers/ Survivors since before I wrote this chapter, and grew even more attached to them as I wrote them. I was originally going to just have them depicted here, but I also couldn't get the stupid image of Rags and his megaphone out of my head and decided it needed to be shared 👌
Ch 6: When I tell yall that it was a struggle to get through drawing this. And not because of genuine art struggles; No, because of the pure Lee Panik that gripped my soul when having to zoom in close on Rags' sadistic unhinged Ler face hhhhhhfdhdfjgkfghl-
This was one of the chapters I was most looking forward to writing. It's still one of my favs in terms of pure unbridled ruthless gang-tickling, the culmination of my pred/prey/chasing fantasies revolving around laughter-hungry monsters, along with some good ol Mad Scientist roleplay.
...Oh and the first official introduction of the final antagonist, there's that too 😛
Ch 7: Yall have no idea the absolute childlike glee I felt when discovering that there's a freaking Bouncehouse/McDonalds Playplace level of the Backrooms.
But holy hell, drawing the Toon Monsters was more of a challenge than I thought. There's a surprising amount of finesse in depicting that wacky, slightly-unnerving/uncanny toony charm. (Ballpit brush is best brush, change mymind)
Ch 8: Since this chapter was more or less meant to be a sort of mid-series Climax, a hint of what the battle with the Keymaster would be like, I really wanted to push myself with making this chapter cover truly stand out. It was fun to come up with a full-body design for the Court Jester (based on his Wiki interpretation of course), and it was fun to experiment with the ideas I had in mind for his magic visuals.
Once again, Clip Studio assets are a lifesaver, you can catch me actually attempting to draw a rollercoaster or carousel when I'm six feet under 👌
Ch 9: I was both excited about, and dreading, the chance to play around with various different light colors & sources. I wasn't sure how I was going to make neon blues, purples and magentas work in contrast to Rags' color palette, but I'm very happy with what I came up with.
The Dark Sovereign was also a chance for me to play around with chiaroscuro, an art technique that I've always admired (and actually really liked to do with chalk & pastel back in college). As much as I'm a slut for bright colors, I love stark contrasting black & white.
Ch 10: I went through about three iterations of sketches for this chapter cover. I felt like I just couldn't figure out how to angle the perspective of the treeline in comparison to the Giant. I'm still not even sure if I thoroughly pulled off the proper perspective of the greenhouse in the far distance. But once I added all the pretty, spooky fog effects, I became much happier with it.
Unfortunately I do not have a standalone drawing of Naga!Rags. It will definitely happen one of these days.
Ch 11: For this chapter, I wanted to draw a very cramped, stark, foreboding stretch of environment: Basically, a quintessential scene that one would see in the Backrooms if they were wandering through them alone. This is meant to be a much more down-to-earth chapter than the rest, with an air of melancholy and uncertainty. Turns out it actually lined up quite well with some of my own mental and emotional struggles that I was going through at the time.
Ch 12: For the final hurrah, I really wanted to push myself as a digital artist for this piece. (Though that doesn't mean I was about to draw all those goddamn keys from scratch, lmaoo you can thank Clip Assets for that key ring.) I wanted to try and find a way to make the Keymaster the more imposing figure in the piece, despite the fact that Rags is fully powered-up and closest to the viewer. I'm not sure if I entirely succeeded, since my end solution for making him stand out more was "MOAR GLOWY KEYS!!!"
But it was still fun, and very rewarding to get it completed.
Ch 13: I was very happy to finally get the chance to fully render Kenni for this fic. As much as shading his tendrils still drives me up the wall, it felt nice drawing the good soff boi. And I was happy to give an idea of how his Dream realm looks, with all its pastel clouds and close proximity to the Astral plane.
Trapped in the Backrooms - Epilogue: Laughter Never Dies (*N/S/F/W*)
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
I'm ngl, I was looking even more forward to writing the NSFW version of this epilogue than the SFW. In fact I actually see a couple small things I want to change in the SFW version now that I've finished this version
Kenni and Rags ain't platonic by any means. They never have been. Rags is aromantic, and although Kenni is a very romantic person in general, their relationship is extremely open. They've just had many centuries to practice finding all the different ways that they can make each other putty in their hands~
They can either be platonic or more intimate/erotic with a human partner, based on that partners' preferences. They love finding playmates that are DTF with both of them. Tickle Threesomes, fuck yea
As I said before, I truly want to thank everyone who has been on this journey with me. I know that, at the end of the day, this has always been a very self-indulgent fic. I wrote it for me, myself, and I. But I do have hopes that it can help truly move and motivate someone out there.
Don't ever be ashamed of your kinks or interests. As long as it's with consenting adults, more power to you. And don't be afraid to face the world, because there will always be reasons to keep experiencing it.
I don't know when I'll write a story of this caliber again. The next time I do, it will be for fantasy novels that I hope to get published. But for the time being, I'm proud of myself for getting this under my belt.
YESSS I COMPLETELY AGREE. He has been a dream Ler/switch of mine since I first laid eyes on him. Especially Robo-Fizz.
He 100% gives teasy devilish Ler vibes. I feel like would be such a playful, taunting little shit.
At the same time, since it's been revealed how much of a genuine sweetheart he is, he probably wouldn't be too mean (unless his partner is into it), and I can see him showering his playmate in cuddles and aftercare.
Him and Ozzy are a different story. imo he's totally a power-bottom and definitely brats Ozzy & playfully annoys him so that the big boi will wreck his shit.
But I do see him being a bit more of a lee-leaning switch with him. He loves being showered in affection because it makes him feel loved, and more comfortable in his own skin.
Trapped in the Backrooms: Epilogue - Laughter Never Dies
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
And here it is. Finally.
It already feels like a lifetime ago that I wrote this story. And now, I truly feel like I've brought a chapter of my life to an end. I actually got a little teary-eyed writing the end of this.
I want to thank everyone who has been on this journey with me. I know that, at the end of the day, this has always been a very self-indulgent fic. I wrote it for me, myself, and I. But I do have hopes that it can help truly move and motivate someone out there.
Don't ever be ashamed of your kinks or interests. Don't be afraid to face the world, because there will always be reasons to keep experiencing it.
I don't know when I'll write a story of this caliber again. The next time I do, it will be for fantasy novels that I hope to get published. But for the time being, I'm proud of myself for getting this under my belt.
And I'm sick and fucking tired of the drama surrounding it.
Do I agree with some of the criticisms? Yes. I genuinely believe Viv and team are trying to tell stories about people trying to improve themselves and escape awful toxic situations, but sometimes they miss the mark in a way that it can come off as insensitive. Do I agree that Viv is a toxic person? Yes. She invites almost as much vitriol as Mindy Kaling.
But I'm still going to see both series through, I'm going to watch my fav Youtubers react to it with their heart and soul. I love too many of the characters and the tragedy behind them to just toss them aside. I'm floored by the level of love, skill and care that has gone into the animation and songwriting. I've seen many people on Youtube and Tumblr say that these stories & characters resonate with them in some way or another. If the writing totally falls apart, then that's one thing. If someone on the team gets kicked from A26 / if the series gets pulled because of someone on the team being outed as an awful person, then that's the business of the studio. But I'm not going to let myself feel guilty for continuing to watch them.
So I guess this is just a heads up that going into my new account, I will be making art of my fav characters from both series. I'll tag it accordingly, of course, but I'm entering this year with a "fuck it I do what I want" mentality. 👍
Once I make my new accounts, I'm gonna confess to a kink that I haven't really talked about (mostly bc it has been made fun of to Hell and back since the dawn of DeviantArt), and start posting art related to it because fuck it I can.
I'm aiming for next week to have my new Bluesky and Pillowfort up (and maybe FurAffinity, idk I'm still considering it).
I think that between those unhinged laughs and those silent guffaws due to lack of air, those shrieks that never stop sounding, that sharp breathing and those insistent gasps, I heard him say "I'm sorry", but while I can't prove it, I think it was just my imagination.
Angel, hold still, there are still plenty of spaces on your body where I can add more little hands.
When I say nonbinary people can look like anything I am aggressively including nonbinary people who have beards, body hair, and who are assumed to be cis guys, firstly because that’s also me and secondly because we’re always overlooked or subjected to cringe culture. Nonbinary doesn’t just mean skinny, pale and absent of gender signifiers.
[Don’t be an ass in the notes, I can turn off comments if I have to]
