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@timeiswaisting
Its happening again
My mind is going on overload.
I hope someone calls me with a better job soon! I think it is this current job that is making my already messy mind more messy.
I just want to get new scenery and start to be able to clear my mind
Struggling today. Sleep is important guisee.
Too much sleep is a problem too
Sleep
I want to sleep but my mind will not rest.
I just need time away
I want to keep on track and post here.
I just want time away from the people around me. I need to collect myself. I want to know if they'll wait for me and miss me.
I don't have that option. I will try and deal. I am going to try and just not care. And its hard. I want things to work, but i cannot worry about things I cannot control.
I was just paranoidd
Hoping my breaks are not as bad as my sisters were
I don't wanna get fussed at this morning and I try to take care of my lovely car.
I hope my breaks were not too late :o
I am destine to find out soon.
Guise
Always eat breakfast
ALWAYS
bc I didn't and feel sluggy. Eww.
Just keep your mind occupied so you don't freak out
As I sit here in my office alone I realize that I need to stop waiting for people who will not wait for me.
That is it really.
I'll be lucky when someone waits for me. And then I'd gladly do the same for them
1/1/14
Thirty minutes running around a parking lot in the rain.
Preparing my body for what is to come. I don't start my first five weeks or training till Monday.
Still it was rather fitting to run yesterday, even got honked at.
Me and my partner are supporting each other and since we didn't run New Year's eve we decided to run on New Year's day because why not.
I will post my "resolutions" later <3
Well guys..
Sorry I post about depressing things but I have depression. This is my only place to go since the humans in my life do not really want to hear about how I feel.
I will try to post happier things.
I do not know if it is counter productive or not but all my sad emotions will get pushed down like I used to and I can feel my walls coming back up.
My self hatred effects everything. I can barely hold relationships. I just want someone to accept the fact that I am fucked up and that I want to talk about I am going through. But everyone brushes everything off like its nothing.
Note to anyone anywhere with someone:
Don't ever say you want someone to tell you how they are feeling.
Because you may disregard something serious to them and make you seem like an asshole, and they never tell you how they feel again. Then you'll have ruined said relationship
New years and shit like that..
So a new year is coming and i want so desperately to stop hating myself.
I also want people to realize that I do not like myself or my body because of what others think. It is starting to piss me off. "Just stop caring what others think." No fucking shit, I did that a long time ago.
I am not my own preference. I no longer live my life for others.
I want to like what I see in the mirror. "Change it then" if it were that simple these conversations/post would not be made.
Why bother trying to care about me/help me if you don't bother listening to what I say. You don't understand because you don't have these problems.
I mean, this is the reason why I rant online. Why bother telling an actual human who could actually give in all appearances a fuck less.
Not posting
Sorry for the lack in posting. I have been busy and recently fell way off track. Doing wayyy better now!
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I don't know what to call this post. Like most it is a rant about something rather dull to most people.
I just wish I could hurry up and not be self conscious, but sometimes I think that wouldn't be enough.
Panicking at work
Because I have 25 days to find health insurance and I am just a poor teen without money to go to college much less get health insurance.
My hormones are just starting to balance with this medication and I can't afford to not be on my parents plan.
Today
To further along my emotional progress, because I feel I am at a halt I want to let people I've wronged know I am truly sorry. I have done this before, but I feel I need to again.
I have changed how I do things,I do not wait to apologize anymore