christine k.'s

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[tine-loves]

DAY 1 - END

Finally! The first day is over and SURPRISE, I dropped 500g AFTER DINNER. Amazing! I finished having my dinner and when I weighed myself, it was 69.1 kg. 

I can say that I am happy and glad that I can see changes and super glad that the day is almost over. I will definitely have to do some exercise tomorrow cause I don't want to lose that muscle mass which will equal to easy fat gain later.

Anyway, I am quite tired, so I am gonna make myself some warm honey lemon (it's great for detoxification) and gonna go to bed :)

Love, 

Christine K.

[tine-loves]

DAY 1 (noon)

It's finally afternoon. So far, I'm still sticking to my diet although yes it's getting harder. I absolutely do not look forward to tonight cause I always crave for food at night :(

The hunger is tolerable and it's just that temptation that is frustrating. You can't really stop thinking about real food and your mind just keeps trying to pop out with these crazy excuses to eat. I have natural thoughts like, "Just eat a little mee sua, it's okay" and "ONE meal per day as real food okay lah". URGH.

The worst part? I smell food almost everywhere (next door is a cafe) AND I see pictures of food everywhere online! *Curse you Instagram!*

BUT. Fear not - I still have determination here to persevere and I keep telling myself the beginning is the hardest, which is true, cause your body and mentality has to accept this drastic change. I hope I really, really see some results soon. This is extremeeee.

[tine-loves]

DAY 1

Good morning! :)

Okay. So I am starting my liquid diet and I do so by only consuming soft food or juice. Papaya is soft food right?

Anyway, this morning, I weighed 69.8kg and I will weigh again each day before I go to sleep.

It's still early and my brain is only a quarter functioning right now so I can't really say much about how tough it is yet. I definitely do not expect it to be easy. I will have to mentally push myself and even as I am typing right now, I have this temptation to eat REAL FOOD. But you just gotta be strong and hang in there. Nobody's gonna discipline you if you don't do it yourself. I just gotta keep reminding myself that it is the end result that is gonna make all these worth it.

So, I finish work at 5 and hopefully it doesn't rain later cause I wanna go jogging. Hah. I suck at exercise. In fact, I NEVER exercise. I can't even swim or ride a bicycle (yeahiknowimlame) BUT, I shall Google and Youtube later. Teehee.

Will update again tonight. *Notetoself* Hang in there.

[tine-loves]

27TH DECEMBER 2013

It is 9.30 p.m. here and also the moment I decide to start on a LIQUID DIET. If you wanna look good, you gotta work for it.

I will keep updates on this diet and so far I have no idea how long will I stick to it but I will definitely persevere until I finally get into the size I am happy with. After that, I'm gonna get a tattoo. YEAH.

To you girls and guys out there who feel that you are not good-looking enough, JUST GET OFF YOUR LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING. If you are fat and ugly (in the sense whereby you don't bother to dress or at least put some effort into your appearance), STOP clinging on to that mentality of "He or she won't care about my looks if she or he really loves me" 

Yeah?

You know what?

That speaks some sense - but NOT when it is an excuse for you not to change and improve. Your appearance represents who you are. How you dress reflects your class. How you behave defines yourself as a person. 

And those three things are not possible to be carried out properly when you have a giant ass and fat belly. Automatically, you'll feel small when you see others with great body and great sense of fashion. Fuck, sometimes you may even just feel like burying your shameless face into a hole in public cause you just feel so damn ugly. I know. I've been there. For years. Thank God I am blessed with a beautiful face and healthy body. My skin is all right and I'm a normal human being without any disabilities.

But one thing I really wanna convey is that LIFE GOES ON. Whether you like it or not, you gotta get pass shit and still survive. I saw a quote once, "Life isn't about avoiding the rain, it's about dancing in the rain". This diet issue and appearance issue applies the same principle towards everything else in life. When you face obstacles, NEVER BACK DOWN. You gotta know that in this life, YOU decide not only about yourself, but people who do care and people who WILL care. Whatever shit happens, I sincerely hope that whoever you are, please hang in there and cause that moment you give up, is the moment everything good perish.

I know another saying, "Nothing lasts forever. Happy times will pass and therefore, bad times will pass too".

Love,

Christine K.

[tine-loves]

“是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的” 我一直以为这句话只是一个不想去争取的人的懒借口，但是突然才发现这句话是给一个付出全部而还是得不到的人的唯一种安慰 。

[tine-loves]

Treat me right and I'll treat you better in return.

Saw this quote on Facebook. I miss falling in love. But most of all, I miss having somebody to love.

[cindersontheskyline-deactivated]

When I fall for you, I’ll be trusting you to catch me. I will wait for your arms to span the distance between us as quickly as I can leap at the ground, and all the while, knowing beyond certainty you’ll be there. It means that I’ll want you, in your most pure essence, to run through me and...

[tine-loves]

A choice made.

I want to walk this world beautifully before it ends. Ain't gonna let those petty things pull me down. I ain't going down.

I wanna face more difficult problems. Solve them. Look back and be proud.