Dia memiliki hati seluas angkasa, wadah bagi kumpulan warna, dia kaya akan kegembiraan kerlap-kerlip bintang, dia penuh akan keramaian cahaya yang terang-benderang, bagaimana bisa aku yang hanya segumpal awan ini menyentuhnya. Pada akhirnya, aku hanya bisa menatapnya sementara angin meniupku ke antah berantah, mengantarku pada suatu tempat asing lain dengan hutan-hutan kering, sedangkan dia masih ada di sana, terbentang percaya diri dan memiliki semuanya.
Aku tidak pantas untuknya.
Dia memiliki hati seluas angkasa, tapi seluas apa pun tempat di sana, tidak ada satu pun sudut yang tersisa untukku. Aku bukanlah bintang-bintang, aku bukanlah bulan yang benderang, aku bukan pelangi, aku bukan matahari.
Aku hanya segumpal awan rendahan yang akan menjadi butir-butir air, membasahi hutan-hutan itu dan kembali ke bumi, tempatku yang sebenarnya. Jadi katakan padaku, bagaimana bisa aku menggapai langitmu?
The group dynamic would be like so weird when Jake would officially be there as well.
Like I imagine Jake and Dan hating each other but secretly respect each other. But no one of them would EVER admit that. And I imagine it like, if they two were suddenly laughing about the same joke and they would realize the other one is laughing, both would stop immediately and act like that didn't happen. And Dan would most definitely give Jake a glare.
And Thomas. Oh god, imagine Thomas around Jake after knowing Jake is Hannah's brother. Like we all know Thomas is, more or less, secretly afraid of Jake but acts tough. And especially the first meetings with all of them, Thomas would constantly be sweating, fumbling with words, drop things and keep glancing at Jake to see if he moved.
And Jake would stare at Thomas from time to time. Not even intentionally. He would just do it. Like X-ray vision style. And he wouldn't even blink. And MC would have to keep nudging Jake like 'You're doing it again' and Jake would immediately stop.
Jessy would probably giggle about it always and keep wriggling her eyebrows at MC. Lilly were the most proud sister on each, very clingy. Always smiling with teeth like 'THAT'S MY BROTHER YOU ALL LOOK THAT'S MY BROTHER'
Hannah would fondly roll her eyes. And Dan would once again never admit it but is always amused by how nervous Thomas is around Jake.
And every time Phil would be there as well, trying to talk to MC. Jake would suddenly appear right next to him, blank face, and would just suddenly spell Phil's password. The calmest threat the world has ever seen. And Phil would at first play it off all macho but with the time he would watch his back around Jake.
Note : this is slow burn kinda headcanon it might not be perfect, but God writing it I was too giddy. Hehe lord I enjoyed writing it took A whole lot of effort but dont regret it at all.
Anyhow I hope you all enjoy. If you liked it reblogs, comments and likes are appreciated.
Fmc! Reader x Duskwood Jake
• First kiss with jake won't happen quickly, the tension before it happens will build before it breaks like god damn, dam of water. And only your God knows how long you have waited for that moment.
• It will kill you and jake slowly. (But he wont admit that, because he is too much of a overthinker/logical person for that to happen.)
• The wait till it happens, will be too agonizing for him as well, he will dream kissing you, more than he knows. He would want it to be perfect, to have you pressed closer to him, to imagine your lips, against his, your hands on his neck, the thought itself is enough to blaze every nerve in his soul.
• At first, when you two are just behind screens, he will try to hold back, his desires his everything. He would be too respectful (almost too respectful for your liking) when you initiate kiss or any subject related to that, he will immediately go offline.
• Though he doesn't tell, physical distance between you and him, is something which frustrates him the most, because you feel too real to be behind that annoying phone/computer screen.
• When he first sees you, or the first time you meet, he would be speechless, regardless of the multiple thoughts and that unfamiliar emotion stirring inside his chest.
• He would just stare at you for what feels like years, like he is etching every part of you in his mind. He would not close the distance immediately he will pin you with his gaze to make sure you are real. You exist.
• You would be the first one to step closer to him, to break everything, and despite his control, he will lose it, he will exhale softly, and close the distance between you and him, he will immediately pull you into an embrace, which will go on for like too long yet it will feel not enough.
• He will pull back enough to look at your features, his breaths will be so heavy, and deeper as he takes you in with his gaze, he will slowly trace your eyes with his fingertips, your nose, your lips, your jawline, too achingly gentle because he would not want to break you, because if he allowed himself to lose control, he will definitely do, what he fears the most.
• So he would just smile, and kiss you on the forehead instead before pulling away. His lips against your skin, will be softer than anything you have ever felt.
• After that you two would always spend your days, hours, together, and the charge between you and him would be electrical, and he becomes more aware your presence, and your scent, that it dangerously unnerves him.
• He will overthink almost everything when you are near him. And asks you almost immediately, if he feels he crossed any boundary with you. And sometimes it is just too damn, frustrating because lord you just want that man. Still, he will be asking you.
- Am I being too forward?!
- Is this okay?
• So, the final moment that builds up and leads to your kiss with him is right after a vulnerable confession, because he would share his deepest parts with you, confessing his feelings again, and this time in person, as he speaks with such sincerity, and emotions welling up in his voice, you saying you feel the same, again.
• Because lordddd have mercy thats the last straw for him, because hearing you say it, feels real than anything in his life. his heart will beat so loudly that you could hear it in the silence of the room (not like yours is any less frantic.)
• As you breath "I love you, Jake." That's it for him, he would not overthink anything anymore, he will just close the distance between you and him in an instant, his lips will hover just inches away from yours, and you could feel his warm and soft breath like morning mist brushing against your skin. He will linger there, not rushing, just letting the moment stretch until it felt unbearable to you and him. When he finally speaks his voice will be a low whisper, like he is holding onto the last thread of his control, his voice is so pleading, a gentle whisper that it will send a shiver down your spine, "Can I kiss you, my love?. A pause, as he is gathering another bit of his lost control. "Because MC, I cant hold it in anymore."
• You won't be able to speak, so you just nod, and thats all he needs, his hands will cup your face too gentle at first as he crashes his lips against yours, fuck thats all you would think, as your hands slid around his neck, and you stand on your tip toes, and kiss him back as hard, as if you are devouring each other.
• The next moment, he will deepen the kiss, and you feel his tongue slide into your mouth, exploring every corner, as your tongue meets his slow, then more certain, and your breath deepening with each passing second. His hands will move down to your waist pulling you closer against him, while your fingers curl into his soft, messy hair, holding him there. You feel the warmth of him, and the taste lingering like something intoxicating, and his grip tightens around your waist, almost like he’s grounding himself, because he knows how real this is. And in one silent moment he realizes, letting go of you isn't an option anymore.
• After he pulls away, his forehead will rest against yours, his breath still uneven from the kiss, as if he still haven't recovered, and he murmurs, "The only thing I regret is I didnt do it sooner" There will be a brief pause, like a confession he still can't realize he is able to make in front of you, “And, love…” he will hesitate, before stepping back just slightly, but his gaze? still fixed on you, as he continues, “now that I’ve tasted you, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to stop.” Before you could respond, he will lean in again, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead, too soft and grounding you in the moment.
• After that, his touches, his kisses, will become more frequent, more certain, like he’s no longer holding himself back.
• And you? You let yourself melt in that feeling, and find yourself wanting more of it, more of him.
• Slowly, almost without you realizing it, he becomes more yours, more open, more vulnerable, than he’s ever allowed himself to be with anyone before.
• Lastly, you and him realize, you dont have to die to experience heaven, because in each other's presence you already have.
