Jayford | It/They | 25 | taken @belovedmuichiro | I like Demon Slayer but post whatever I want | #my art | AO3 @TOBYTOON | CEO of EnDouma | I block blogs without ages on them. | I will find a way to Yuri your Yaoi
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Call me Jayford. I’m white.
Taken by my partner @belovedmuichiro.
DNI Pr0ship, pr0fic (incest ship, stepcest, p3do, n3cro, zoo enjoyers, r@pe. Esp if that’s all you focus on and all you make your internet presence about. Do that in your own corner. I don’t like it), "ficti0n =/= r3ality", D@rkfic, and yand3r3 fans (just a preference). Also people who ID as "Anti". Learn to block and move on please. I think both sides are careless and uncritical. I believe in a secret third thing called nuance.
DNI Eating disorder and self harm accounts.
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⟡ My Blog Tags ⟡
- my art
- friend art
- tobytoon sapphic
- comic
- wifeposting 🩵 (things relating to my partner)
- endouma / douenmu / lotus dreams
⟡ Alternate Universes ⟡
- kny genderbend au
- kny modern au
- kny cat au
- rukajuro au (transfem senjuro)
- demon yuichiro au
- endouma lovechild au
⟡ My OCs ⟡
- Tomi (endouma lovechild. Commonly engaged with Shuumei.)
- Fukume (oddities shopkeeper. Married to Ishikawa.)
- Bo Enmu (Enmu's mother. Idk if she counts as an OC)
- Hideo (Enmu's father. Also dunno if he counts.)
- Iroha Abiko (Enmu's tutor when he was a child.)
Don't ask me for free shit. I don't do requests.
Don't sexualize yourself in my comments. Don't sexualize my OCs in your comments. Don't sexualize me in your comments.
If it matters to mutuals, here's this:
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Kofi
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The most inconsiderate people will post about wanting to be sexually groomed and not tag any warnings at all ever. Fuck all of you. Fuck you.
You’re selfish. You will always be selfish. You will lose all of your friendships to selfishness and the vulnerable people you fetishize will hate you longer than they will ever tolerate you being around them.
So I've hidden this reply, both because it's obnoxious and because I don't want the person who wrote it being harassed for it, but I need you to understand: I don't know you. We are not friends. This is not fun or cute, we are not sharing a charming joke together. You are just being an asshole.
literally that is what the post is about, I am saying people should be less eager to jump on any chance to be snarky and rude to total strangers on the internet
my dear friend mon has recently converted me to douma(and akaza 🥲) propaganda, the infinity castle solidified it, so seeing your art for him has had me giggling and clapping my feet like a joyous leprechaun. Beforehand though I just REALLY liked your art like, I dint know how to describe your style but it’s like a beautiful mix of calligraphy almost and pencil at the same time? And your oc designs, especially that fairy one? Amazing.
Tldr youre awesome and thank you for supplying a new Douma consumer 🙂↕️
Your sentiment is very sweet and it’s kind you would spend the time to think of words for complimenting my style. I’m not sure which fairy you’re talking about but it means a lot to me nonetheless. 💕
You’re welcome to be on my blog but please keep these things in mind if you do. (This really goes for everyone, honestly):
I mostly post EnDouma. If you don’t like that ship, then I wouldn’t follow. Other blogs might have more enjoyable art if bottom Douma squicks you or you don’t like Enmu. I draw him a lot, it’s not really avoidable. 😭 they’re married on my blog, essentially.
This is not pointed and I know you meant well by it. You’re just the most recent person to remind me and I know people don’t mean anything by it when they say it, but I don’t make content and I don’t make consumables. I hope everyone can challenge the reflex to think it for my sake. At least while you’re on my blog. I’m an artist and I make art. The corporatizing of fandom and its participants makes me really sad. It’s okay to say you’re a fan of something, it’s okay to say you’re enjoying art.
I hope that makes sense. 🙇
Thank you for your patience if you choose to stick around. I just draw what appeals to me. Douma’ an interesting bug and I like poking around in his head. Idk if you play Hinokami Chronicles 2, but Douma DLC as a playable character drops the 28th. It goes without saying I preordered it some time ago 😭 I will be annoying with screenshots, I promise.
I think we should. use our mutuals inboxes like gacha games and roll to get rare OC pulls . and skins. I'm like "oh shittt the Easter Event is coming up, I need to pull for the new skins" so I go into someone's inbox and send them. I dunno. a picture of a quarter. and they respond with a drawing of a random OC of theirs in a bunny onesie
“don’t police headcanons!!! you’re just being mean!!!!”
your “headcanons” (erasure) undo ANY positive effects that the representation existing in the first place might have.
your “headcanons” (erasure) allow for the spread of bigotry within the fandom because YOUR “HEADCANONS” make exorsexist ASSHOLES feel safe here.
your “headcanons” (erasure) delayed my own egg cracking for YEARS, because despite having the most CLEAR representation RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, the constant erasure and disinformation in this fucking HELLHOLE OF A FANDOM regarding the CANONICAL non-binary identities had me believing that i could never be anything other than a man or a woman.
If you think me standing up for myself and my fellow siblings is mean? fine! i’ll own that shit with PRIDE. I’ll be MEAN AS HELL.
Can I ask about Kizuki Eye's ending? I remember you saying you went back and forth on the ending a lot. I personally found the ending very satisfying and thought it suited the story, Enmu, and Douma really well, but I'm curious about your process regarding it and if you considered other alternatives and what spurred you to go with the ending you did? Ofc if you feel like it! :3
There were two main areas I struggled with. The first being the climax of the story. The "how are they going to pull this off and live". There was an idea of them running away together and relying on the infinity castle battle as a distraction that kept them safe, there was an idea of them defecting DURING the infinity castle battle to save their own skins, and even ideas of fleeing Japan altogether. But all of these came with different challenges. The other demons being a big one. Also, Muzan can canonically just kill them if he feels like it as seen by how he exploded Nakime's head to prevent Yushiro from using her to control the castle. So they really need to get away without rousing suspicion, which is how the plan for Enmu pretending Douma is a meaningless pawn to him to appease Muzan long enough to give an escape window, was born.
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The second area I struggled with was the actual ending ending after the climax was decided. Because here they are, two demons with no hierarchy, no community, no sense of self or even a real purpose. The idea of Douma committing suicide felt too easy but was definitely considered multiple times. It was addressed in chapter 30, where Douma contemplates what would happen if he killed himself.
Enmu was a man of grand gestures; ones that he believed gave him importance. With nothing left to lose, it wasn’t even a question that his pain would quickly become a reactive statement against the world that he was wronged by. For the sake of the innocent city dwellers, Douma was thoroughly and utterly trapped.
He doesn't want to assume any more responsibility for suffering after his delusions were shattered. But he also doesn't want to enact cruelty on Enmu by killing himself, as he sees this as making Enmu suffer on purpose. Thus, being trapped.
Enmu also doesn't want Douma to die and purposefully uses Douma's new moral code against him. Enmu has nothing left to care about given their entire old way of life is gone, making Douma his only thing left to be obsessive over. So the new question of how to end the story became "Who wins the battle?"
Does Enmu get what he wants and they live longer or does Douma get what he wants and they die? Or do they get some combination of it? There is an alternative "canon" ending that will be published as a oneshot at some point, I just didn't have the heart to do it right away.
Basically, Douma was hell bent on starving himself to death so Enmu forcibly joined their bodies to keep funneling nutrition between them. They essentially became an extension of a cave that Enmu used illusions to draw people in and flesh tentacles to kill and eat them. Neither demon is truly conscious as much as they're concepts of their former selves. Enmu's of obsession and Douma's of desire for absolution.
After one last forcefeeding, Douma has enough clarity to take over the shared meat mass of a body and kills Enmu, then kills himself, finally ending the cycle of codependency.
You can maybe see why I wasn't so mentally prepared to write the "true" ending when I could live in my temporary bliss of Long-Term Investing where they have a baby about it instead. It doesn't really fix anything, it just exacerbates the problem in different ways. Douma still wants to die and Enmu knows he's not a good enough reason by himself for Douma to live. Enmu isn't kind, he doesn't care about humans the way Douma does, but a baby is innocent. And what Douma needs is something that needs him back and can make Douma believe, even just temporarily, that's able to influence something in a good way. You might think Enmu would be opposed to a baby but it's just another tool to him. Obligation will keep Douma alive if Enmu is not good enough to do it by himself.
