I’m speechless
As some of you may have noticed, I have been gone a long time. So long, in fact, that a lot of information in my about doesn’t even reflect my current self anymore. I made this studyblr when I was in freshman year because I knew I would need support if I were to succeed in highschool, but I found myself failing to live up to these expectations I set for myself. It hurt to admit that I was struggling, so I left Tumblr and all social media to avoid confronting places that reminded me of when I was proud of myself. These past two years I have been gone both physically and mentally and it wasn’t until a year after I was diagnosed with clinical depression that I actually tried to get help (regular therapy and all that jazz). I’m still trying to figure myself out if I am being honest, I struggle with productivity and sometimes the thought of going to school could make me cry and bad habits have rooted in deeply by now, but I’m trying. Tonight, I wasn’t planning on coming back onto this account but when i went to see if I still had a tumblr under this email, I found that since I left I had gained a lot more people following me. I got to read all of your sweet messages that I never opened. I am so so so so happy that some of you reached out... you can’t believe how glad I was to read them, really. I want to try again, I want to put the effort into my schoolwork and support people and be supported on this platform. I know it probably won’t go as smooth as I’m imagining right now but I haven’t felt so sure of something in a long ass time. I’ll wrap up before I cry typing this mess up but I want to personally thank everyone that unknowingly followed me or sent me stuff while I was absent, if I could I would give you all the world.
