moved

this blog is being left up for archival (read: nostalgic) purposes.

[tonysperkins-moved]

anyway i am on twitter under the handle (11/26/21 update: nancyb0ys) right now but i suppose it’s fair to warn you all that in the years i’ve been away from tumblr i’ve become a meanie marxist-leninist but that’s how the cookie crumbles i guess

[tonysperkins-moved]

oh no i’m back again lol

really don’t want to delete this blog bc it has so much anthony perkins stuff that ppl still enjoy but it also has a lot of instances of my dead name and selfies and shit… and i found out today that i was featured on k*wi f*rms a few months ago and that makes me kind of nervous and makes me want to delete this blog so nobody has access to that :\

idk though… if anyone still looks at this blog just let me know your thoughts

[tonysperkins-moved]

i’m wondering if maybe i should actually make a new tumblr that will just be my anthony perkins archive. no guarantee on how frequently i’ll post (i have a full time job + i’m planning on going to grad school either next semester or next year) but i know there are ppl who value the tony posts so i can meet the need if so desired

[tonysperkins-moved]

oh no i’m back again lol

really don’t want to delete this blog bc it has so much anthony perkins stuff that ppl still enjoy but it also has a lot of instances of my dead name and selfies and shit... and i found out today that i was featured on k*wi f*rms a few months ago and that makes me kind of nervous and makes me want to delete this blog so nobody has access to that :\

idk though... if anyone still looks at this blog just let me know your thoughts

[tonysperkins-moved]

End of 2019 Update

Hello everyone, long time no see. I’ve been told by a friend that a lot of people are asking about me and why I’m not on Tumblr anymore, why I abandoned this blog, etc, so I thought it’d be fair if I made an update post to answer some questions.

Firstly: I go by Isaac now, not Hayden. If you see someone floating around named Isaac, that’s me, hi.

Secondly: so I’m finishing up the first semester of my senior year of college. I’m getting a degree in linguistics. My parents divorced, they’re both remarried. I’ve been in therapy which has been super helpful. I apologize for the absolute dramatics of my teenage years; I’ve been diagnosed with DID, actually, and looking back on my old posts knowing this is hilarious, honestly.

I still love Tony with all my heart. I actually showed my boyfriend Psycho on our first date, so I’m still spreading the Tony love. But Tony’s a bit tied to a very bad time in my life (I realized that I don’t actually remember being 16 outside of my Anthony Perkins obsession recently, so thanks, DID) so I don’t talk about him as much. But I’m very glad that my blog has been found by Anthony Perkins fans! That’s one of the reasons I left it up, so you all would have some kind of material from Anthony Perkins fans past (and also because I found it’s been helpful in therapy since I can’t remember anything apparently).

Right now, if you want to find me, I’m on Twitter. If I change my @, just look for someone named Isaac who likes Al Pacino and Simon Pegg, wrote a 50 page essay on Tom Cruise, and shills nonstop for Mission: Impossible. I would still be very happy to answer questions about Tony because he’s still my son and the love of my life omg. Please talk to me about my baby.

I’ll leave some links if you want to keep tabs on me. I’m not dead yet, woohoo.

https://www.last.fm/user/smokeylives https://letterboxd.com/tomripleys https://twitter.com/nancyb0ys

[tonysperkins-moved]

w h O A hey y’all it’s hayden ... does anyone follow this blog anymore lmao

anyway i’m over at @edwardsnortons now and i’ve been watching tony movies and getting # emo so i just wanted to come back and say:

1) thanks for putting up with my overdramatic ass and

2) i love tony with all my heart and soul and i’m very appreciative of how much support i got for being an obsessive weirdo

i miss posting about tony and i’m leaving this blog up just for those tony purposes although i really hate how many mental breakdowns have been recorded on here lol

but i’m doing better and i don’t think i can ever really go back to posting about anthony perkins full time since he was a coping mechanism in a really bad part of my life but whatever.

anyway i just wanted to see if i could get back into this account and i could so if anyone actually sees this... if anyone actually comes on this blog... this is my message a year and a half after abandoning this blog

keep spreading the anthony perkins love

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

[tonysperkins-moved]

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

[tonysperkins-moved]

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

[tonysperkins-moved]

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

[tonysperkins-moved]

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

[tonysperkins-moved]

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

[tonysperkins-moved]

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[tonysperkins-moved]

time for change

this wasn’t an easy decision, but i’m finally leaving this blog behind.

i’m not going to delete it for the sake of sentimentality, but stuff happened and i decided it’s time to start over again.

here’s my new main blog, where i’ll post about film and my serious posts about tony (i.e. gif sets and things).

here’s my new personal blog, where you’ll get my #TonyBlogging posts, but also all my incessant whining about being trans and mentally ill and things.

i’ll take back this url, but give it a few days before i change it.  thanks for everything, but for the sake of my sanity, i need to go somewhere else.

[film-goer]

Stromboli, 1950

[tonysperkins-moved]

You know when I was in like third grade I remember being in my church and my teacher told my class to never give homeless people money and so I've always grown up thinking homeless people are bad aren't Christians supposed to help homeless people

[rudolphvalentinos]

“You all killed him! And my brother, and Riff. Not with bullets, or guns, with hate. Well now I can kill, too, because now I have hate!”

[tonysperkins-moved]

p sure tony and sophia could have won a best couple that never was award

[tonysperkins-moved]

i’m so sick and tired of my parents i have to do every single fucking thing in my life in secret because my parents would fucking kill me if they knew i’m not breaking the law i’m not doing anything bad i’m just existing but my mere existence is something that could get me hurt i’m so tired of having to lie about my friends and the things i like because if they’re not straight or cisgender or conservative or christian then my parents hate it

i can’t buy anything i want bc it’s sinful i can’t participate in things i want to bc it’s evil i’ve had to ask teachers not to bring up certain essays and things i’ve written during parent teacher conferences bc my parents would do bad things to me if they knew i wrote about stuff like that i have everything hidden i get presents from people and i hide them and they’re harmless things like bow ties bc i don’t want my parents hurting me for wearing boy’s things i’ve had to hide tony stuff for a very long time bc he’s gay and my parents would hate me and hate him if they knew that

i’m tired of lying i’m so tired of lying i don’t ever lie out of maliciousness i only lie to protect myself and everything i tell my parents is a lie i can’t admit i’ve watched some of the movies i’ve seen and that i listen to some of the music i listen to i can’t tell them i’m not christian and i’m not republican because they’ve already reacted horribly for me even hinting i might be leftist

i’m so fucking sick of this i hate them i just fucking hate my parents they always tell me they love me but as soon as i do something that is against this image they have they will not hesitate to touch me in places i’ve told them for years not to touch me in and they’ll just fucking threaten to destroy the things i love and i can’t stand it anymore i want to leave i want to just fucking leave i hate it here i wish they’d just hit me so i could get taken away by child protective services or something i can’t be removed from my house until they hit or physically/medically neglect me

i’m slowly just suffocating i want to leave