Toodlepip, flab!

Jocy, 22, Essex, too flabby. It's time to think about my health and my life (and how I look on the beach) and do some things about things.

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So yesterday I was really angry and upset that I'm not losing weight properly so I had dessert. 

I had salad for lunch, all free and superfree, and my usual superfree breakfast.

And then I got home from work and was angry so I had some chocolate buttons. 

Then Stuart and I went to Harvester and in my salad bowl and I two new potatoes (they were coated in a very tiny amount of mayo, but literally tiny amount) and some pasta salad (no mayo) and some pineapple and cucumber and beetroot and some croutons (because seriously if you think I am going to the Harvester salad cart and not having any croutons you can go and shove your croutons somewhere unpleasant). For main course I had grilled salmon with creme fraiche and parsley sauce (only had half of it) and a jacket potato (no butter) and I didn't eat the green beans because I didn't like them. Then Stuart and I shared a Hot fudge brownie sundae (400 calories for half of it).

And today I have my stupid superfree breakfast and a shitty salad with eggs for lunch and honestly I'm just getting pissed off now and I absolutely despise the Slimming World website, it's dreadful

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Didn't lose any weight this week. Didn't gain, but didn't lose. I'm feeling a bit fed up of this now, starting to seriously begrudge the money I'm spending for cheesy, sickening messages on the Slimming World website. So contrived. I can't even read the magazine because I just generally hate magazines a lot.

So it's been multiple weeks and I've lost a grand total of 4lb. I've been having salads every lunchtime (no dressing) and a few pieces of fruit for breakfast. I haven't had anything deep fried other than 2 Chinese meals and a fish and chips. And this is in like, 6 weeks.

I don't doubt the diet because it's working for so many of you, but exactly as I predicted right at the start, I would be the person who doesn't get any decent results.

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I'm really confused because I just don't seem to be losing weight at any significant speed and I'm sticking to Slimming World perfectly during the week, not eating my hexB and measuring my hexA obsessively and always making sure I am sensible with syns. I will fully hold my hands up to not sticking to plan properly at weekends but I am not over eating or going crazy with unhealthy foods. So I really don't know why I am losing weight so slowly. My weigh day is tomorrow and as of today I've gained a lb since last week?!

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I'm really confused because I've only lost 4lb but I just went shopping and got 2 pairs of jeans in a size smaller...

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For dinner last night mum made cod, she put a lemon and onion dressing on top and then she baked it. I had it with carrots, sweetcorn, one and a half small jacket potatoes and a light Laughing Cow triangle instead of butter. I then had some leftover chocolate from Passover, I noshed on it throughout the evening have a couple of squares here and there, so I probably had 15 syns. Half a bar was 200 calories and I don't think I had much more than that so I'm pretty sure I didn't go over my syns.

Lunch is a bit shambolic today as we have run out of tuna and I didn't have time to hardboil eggs. For breakfast I just had a fat free yoghurt and a banana. For lunch I have two rice crackers, two light Laughing Cows, another fat free yoghurt and banana, a plum and a nectarine.

I'm going to Stuart's tonight and his family are having pizza but I'm just gonna get a ready meal of some sort from M&S at Waterloo before I get there because I don't want to eat pizza and I need to pick something sensible myself.

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So I've talked about before how usually I have IBSD but since starting Slimming World I now get IBSC. I think it's because I'm eating so many portions of fruit and veg a day that I'm not drinking as much water because my general diet doesn't make me thirsty. So I'm super dehydrated and not able to use the fibre I'm consuming properly. I'm very susceptible to nausea-induced panic attacks (emetophobic) so drinking when I'm not thirsty really isn't an option for me. After almost 4 years of this I'm just trying to see the amusing side of it because otherwise I'd just cry every day about it. I'm in a constant battle against my digestive system and it seems nothing I do is correct.

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Breakfast was two apricots and a pear.

Lunch was a tin of tuna with lightest salad cream, a third of a cucumber, a tomato, loads of pickled beetroot and a light Laughing Cow triangle. 

I have a plum for later.

Mum is doing cod for dinner because she thinks I eat too much salmon and tuna.

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Yesterday for breakfast I had an apricot, a nectarine and 5 lychees. 

For lunch I had 7 cherry tomatoes, a third of a cucumber, loads of pickled beetroot, 3 Quorn sausages and 3 light Laughing cow triangles.

Then for dinner we went for Chinese. For starter I had salt and peper tofu (fried) in the pancake rolls that the others had with duck. For main I had sweet and sour fish fillets (fried) with breaded mushrooms (fried) with braised vegetables and a tiny bit of plain rice. Had a few pieces of chocolate when we got home.

So that's my syns for yesterday and today, for sure. 

I hadn't had a Chinese for months so I went a bit cray cray but I have no regrets because I hate rabbit food all day.

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I am majorly dehydrated. I don't feel thirsty, which is a problem, because I'm just not drinking enough. The reason I'm not thirsty is I think because I'm eating fruit for breakfast and vegetables for lunch, and they are high in water. But last night I had a Chinese and had one glass of water through the entire meal. Overall yesterday I had two glasses of water. So when I weighed myself this morning it was unsurprising that I'm 4lb heavier than Tuesday morning. I had a salty meal and barely any water. I'm going to try and make myself have a bottle (500ml) of water before lunch and one after lunch before I get home from work, then a couple of pints of water in the evening too. It's the drinking more at work that I need to make sure I do. It's difficult because I bloat easily and so hate to drink if I don't feel thirsty.

10/7/14

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2lb loss this week. Which means that I'm back on track after gaining on holiday. I feel so stupid that it's been like 6 weeks and I've only lost 4lb. But I was definitely at a huge disadvantage starting 2 weeks before I went on holiday. 

No one else whose blog or forum posts I've read has reported such a slow start, so I guess that I'm just doomed to be a failure when it comes to losing weight. It's better than nothing though I suppose.

Quite shocked that I lost 4lb this week after my cheese fest on Saturday and tapas last night. But last night I felt very aware that I had to weigh myself this morning so didn't eat that much and plus I felt quite ill yesterday evening.

Oh well. If I can lose 2lb this week too I'll be so close to half a stone and that would be good.

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Just weighed myself at Stuart's house. I much prefer his scales, 3lb lighter than I was at my house on Friday!

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Yesterday was NOT a Slimming World day. Stuart and I spent the day in London. For brunch we went to Paul and I had a smoked salmon and Boursin baguette. For dinner we went to Prezzo and I had Gorgonzola and walnut gnocchi followed by a mushroom, black olive, plum tomato and goats cheese pizza with a glass of sparkling rosé. Then when we got back to his we had some little chocolate cornflake cakes. The only slightly redeeming thing is that I spent 2 hours in the morning packing up my Twickenham house, which involved carrying many heavy things (including a desk!!) down TWO flights of stairs. Then in London we walked round museums all day, and we took the stairs more than we used the lifts. So I was trying to be slightly mindful even though I ate terribly. At least I had 4 of my 5 a day of cheese!!!!! Anyway, trying to get back on track today. Above is the brunch I made Stuart and I. Quorn sausages with scrambled eggs (15g cheese each) and butterbeans cooked in chopped tomato and onion.

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It's worth mentioning that everyone in the office is having McDonald's breakfast. I have cash in my purse and could have so easily said yes to pancakes with maple syrup and a hash brown. But instead I've got a banana, a plum, a nectarine and I let myself have one of my 37 calorie brownies as a treat because the smell of McDonald's is making me feel heartbroken.

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Fucking finally! 4lbs away from a 2stone loss, bitches!

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Well done Elly!!!

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I think I did VERY well today considering. Breakfast was a banana and half a honeydew melon. Lunch was a tin of tuna with 2 tbsp of lightest salad cream, two hard boiled eggs and loads of cucumber and plum tomatoes. I also had two pieces of my 37 calorie brownie. For dinner Eliot and I were at Hyde Park and decided to get picnic food. I got a salmon and cucumber sandwich of brown bread, coconut water and we shared a load of raspberries, melon and grapes. We then each had an ice cream. The ice cream was in a cone and was chocolate flavour, so I expect I exceeded 15 syns there. However usually for a picnic I'd have crisps and chocolates and various snacks, so I'm very glad that I was so good all day as it meant I could enjoy my ice cream without hating myself for it! Tomorrow is curry night with my Twickenham gang. It'll be my usual salmon tikka and plain rice! Today my friend Elly hit her 1.5 stone loss and I am so so pleased for her, well done Elly!!! I hope I can be as successful in the coming weeks.

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Last night Stuart and I had a takeaway curry. I tried to be as good as possible. I had salmon tikka with plain rice and a dry mixed vegetable dish. I had some cucumber raita and mint sauce with it, as well as a tiny piece of Stuart's peshwari naan and a tiny bit of his sag paneer.

I'm sure that it couldn't have amounted to more than 15 syns.

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Ordered new tops from ASOS for Israel. Most of them are amazing, I couldn't be more pleased. One of my pairs of shorts are absolutely fine (not going to put this down to weight loss, it's probably because I've tried them on so many times that they've stretched a bit) and all the tops look so good with them. They're quite forgiving in that theirs light and loose, but they're also sleeveless and I don't hate my arms in them. However this is because my arms are tanned and I always look slimmer when I'm tanned. But whatever, I tried it all on and I felt good in them. I'm sure I'd hate myself in photos, but for the then and now and I don't need to look at myself in them so as long as I'm happy with my reflection for a few seconds in the morning then that's alright by me.