little secrets

she/her, 22, queer, INTP, geek

[toogoodtobetruee]

I cannot forget you

and i cannot forgive you

and how much i have tried

and you are home

and you are happiness

and you are the darkness

I carry inside

[toogoodtobetruee]

Hollow

Shallow

Spaces inside me

Time to

Rest my eyes

They've seen almost

Everything

Don't you die on me

Don't you cry for me now

These words

Flowing

Out of me

Non-sense

Watching myself

Living a life

Telling all the

Sugarcoat lies

Wisdom left me

Miles behind

No more chasing back

I've got my mind

Somewhere else now

[toogoodtobetruee]

Why does all this happiness feels something foreign. And why do I miss the darkness, so much that I won't mind pulling it in again. All this sunshine is suffocating me, choking me. Please leave me be with the night.

[toogoodtobetruee]

Aren't instagram stories just a way to tell people that you exist.

[toogoodtobetruee]

I used to be a hopeless romantic,

But as I'm getting older,

As I'm getting to know people,

Doubts shift inside me,

Is it real,

Is it worth everything?

[toogoodtobetruee]

Tell me how to love,

Teach me to trust.

[kafk-a]

Mary Ruefle

[toogoodtobetruee]

don't we all like it a little bit when our feelings get played with

[toogoodtobetruee]

And I thought,

I will be lonely like this for all of my life

And I'm afraid, no one,

No one is going to fall in love with me.

[toogoodtobetruee]

I thought of writing the saddest song about you

But you are not there yet

You are inside my head

And if I wrote it all down

I won't be true to myself

This thing that I do everytime

Romanticize

But is it a crime

A fault, needs to be fixed?

[toogoodtobetruee]

She feels like my other half. A part of my soul. I have this habit of finding reasons why I shouldn't be with someone. But with her, I couldn't find anything, nothing. But she's so sad, and I don't know what to do to make her feel not sad.

[toogoodtobetruee]

I'm done trying to understand people.. and feelings.

[rbhvleo]

[abernathyvalois]

i love how we talk in similes and metaphors for things we don’t understand. there is no word for the way i love you, so i compare it to the moon. i can’t comprehend the way i feel for you, so i compare it to the color of blood. we see and feel things we don’t understand, and we speak it in terms we do.

[toogoodtobetruee]

There is this thing with me. Not to brag or anything but I'm a smart and a matured person, and I think very rationally not with the heart but with head. But whenever I'm into someone, it's like they consume me, I could not think anything other than the words uttered by them, the colour of their hair, how they like to gesture their hands and how they pose in photos. And that is all I'm able to think about whenever I have a crush. And I regret having these thoughts because the person is not getting to know the real me, they are getting to know the infatuated version of me. And I'm also not able to look at them with clear eyes because of the rose-coloured ones.

[toogoodtobetruee]

I do not know how to take care of a thing

I think too much to the point of destruction

For once, I would like to take care softly

Calmly, with no regrets later

Pour all the gentleness for it

Nothing like the hurricane I'm used to.

[toogoodtobetruee]

Do they know me, I thought

'Cause I'm different with each one

How I change my skin, the curves of my face

Preparing to be the person they have asked for

I'm here, standing infront of you, look me in the eyes

Tell me all that you want from me

But do not ask me to be real.