not very active blog but I will try to be consistent! I only post sfw fics and don't really plan on writing anything nsfw, English is not my first language so please do bear that in mind !!
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Is it weird? That the moment draco smelled pomegranates during potions class, the first person he thought of was you
GENRE: fluff
PAIRING: draco malfoy x non slytherin reader
Draco malfoy had what he considered quote un quote "superior taste"
From his very own hogwarts house (slytherin, the best house ofcourse) to the people whose company he often found himself in (a small but close knitted group who knew eachother since birth) to the quidditch team he supported (falmouth falcons, need i explain?) to the food he liked (apples, specifically green) even to the scents he approved of (peppermint, his hair gel also admittedly smelled lovely!)
So when he was paired up with you, a fellow classmate from a different house, it was an understatement to say that he was utterly and beyond mortified
You were the complete opposite of him and all his so called standards in every single sense, it was remarkable how strikingly different the two of you were even by a distance
From the colour of your tie which contrasted with his green and silver ones, to the fact that you were friends with nearly the entire school even stinky potter (draco's words not mine) you didnt even play quidditch!!
and for some reason the cuffs of your sleeve always seemed to be stained with a reddish pinkish hue
Despite all these differences, the platinum haired boy with the permanent scowled etched to his face found himself sitting next to you with your sweet demeanour and kind eyes which seemed to mark your contrast even further more
Unfortunately for him, the new potions professor horace slughorn seemed unlikely to change his mind on his seating chart which he deemed to be perfect and requesting for a different potions partner seemed to be a waste of breath
Draco grimaced at the thought of sitting with you, gritting his teeth as he placed his books next to yours.
He knew exactly what to say to remind you of your place, something rude, mean, something that was expected of someone like him to say. Something to scare you off,
but he finds himself unable to utter any of his cruel words which often found themselves tumbling out of his tongue without any problem when you throw him a smile, catching him off guard
"Hello malfoy" you beam and draco's breath hitches ever so slightly, he finds himself blaming the cold of the dungeon classroom
"let's have a nice time working with eachother shall we?"
Draco can only mumble a reply which you didn't press on any further
Oh boy, draco can only hope time goes faster
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Turns out your not so bad,
Sure you couldn't understand quidditch no matter how many times draco explained it to you, atleast you listened
You liked apples too though you preferred the red ones, draco shakes his head
Turns out you being friends with almost everyone also included his close friend pansy parkinson, draco however wasn't sure if that was a good thing
Your not so bad, though he'd never admit outloud
"I told you so"
He could hear Pansy's shrill voice ringing in his ears along with her much too delighted smirk (to draco's dismay) when she found out about slughorn's seating arrangement
Who knew you'd find a way to weasel into the slytherin girl's heart aswell? You've already charmed half of the entire school but you won't get to him, draco is sure. He won't be one to fall into your soft palm, he won't be another person you'll have wrapped around your neatly manicured fingers. He refuses to allow that to happen
But yet he finds himself sitting next to you like he always did in potions class except this time unmoving when your shoulders brush against him ever so slightly. He doesn't mind
Slughorn drawls on incessantly, pacing infront of the classroom as he points at the cauldron infront of him
Draco can only raise his eyebrows out of curiosity, you on the other hand is leaning as far as you could to get a whiff of whatever potion layed infront of you
"Curious much?" He says, a slight smirk planted on his face which only conveyed his amusement
"Shut up, I know you are too" you swiftly respond to which draco only nods
"Any guesses on what lies infront of you?" Slughorn asks, ofcourse a hand shoots up almost instantly causing draco to sneer
"Ofcourse it's granger" rolling his eyes as he folds his arms, you shoot him a look, he mutters out what seemed to be an attempt of a "sorry"
"It's ammortentia sir, the most powerful love potion" hermione quickly says before pausing "I noticed by the spiral like shape of the fog it emits"
Slughorn, obviously impressed beams brightly "rightly so! And if you notice clearly the scents also-"
"Also differs for everyone, making us smell the things we like" hermione interrupts "for example i smell freshly mowed grass, new parchment and" the girl turns slightly pink "spearmint toothpaste"
"Uh yes" slughorn nodds along "What was your name again dear?"
"Hermione Granger sir"
"Tell me, by any chance are you related to..."
Draco leans in to whisper to you "there the old man goes again, bet he's trying to collect a new accessory for his club or whatever"
You stiffle a laugh, draco finds himself feeling as if though he had achieved something great when he hears your laughter.
"Malfoy, l/n" slughorn calls out the two of you "perhaps the two of you can come up and describe the scent, if you aren't too busy whispering amongst yourselves"
Draco's cheeks tint pink as he clears his throat, strutting to the front of the class behind you as the two of you walk towards the cauldron
"Well? Go ahead malfoy" slughorn urges the boy and draco can only inwardly frown
Draco purses his lips before listing of what he smelled, his eyebrows furrowed as he tried to decipher the scents that omitted from the cauldron
Draco wordlessly moves aside but his mind is too clouded to listen to what you are saying, his mind spinning and whirling all of a sudden
Sure he liked peppermint, it was his favourite gum flavour, he only wore expensive leather and liked the smell of grass because it reminded him of the quidditch field but pomegranate all of a sudden? Sure he doesn't mind them but he doesn't like them as much for him to smell it
He glances at you, breaking out of his puzzled state but unfortunately for him he was a second too late as you had just finished describing the smell
Wordlessly the both of you go back to your seats, draco leans towards you once again, this time however you don't meet his eyes
"What did you smell again? I didn't quite catch it"
You purse your lips "nothing interesting"
Draco opens his mouth to interject but immediately halts upon catching eye of your stained sleeve cuff
Pomegranates
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Draco thought the two of you were friendss(?) He never said it ofcourse in true malfoy behavior but he thought it obvious enough
Buying you sugar quills whenever he visited honeydukes because you mentioned that you like it, inviting you to the slytherin quidditch practice to watch him, hanging out with you in the library whenever he could. He even stopped badmouthing potter and his friends around you because he knew you didnt like it
Because that's what friend's do. Right?
But when you suddenly avoid talking to him ever since that day in potions class, draco finds himself unable to follow his routine
Mainly because much of whatever he did all day had something or another to do with you.
He never realized until now just how much you were prevalent in his day to day schedule, just how much you had found a way into his monotonous routine that now that your not in it, it just feels off
And he hates it
"Y/n has been ignoring me" he announces in the slytherin common room
Blaise raises his eyebrow whereas pansy, laying on her boyfriend's lap simply hums a tune, clearly unbothered
"Ahem" Draco clears his throat "I said, y/n has been ignoring me"
"What did you do draco?" Pansy says, her tone slightly accusatory
"I didn't do anything!" The platinum boy indignantly responded, slightly offended at the fact that pansy thought he'd do something to upset you.
He never wants to upset you
"Did you talk to y/n yet?" Blaise asked, flipping the page of the book he was reading without even a single glance towards the anxious boy
"Oh well. .." draco's voice trails off, his cheeks heating up upon both of his friends presence all of a sudden. He felt exposed, seen
He knew he should just talk to you, he always considered himself a straightforward and direct person, not partaking in any irrelevance but when it came to you, draco couldn't help but feel the need to do the unnecessary,
Often finding himself second guessing his choices or decisions, acting unlike himself whenever you were even remotely close to his presence
When it came to you he was unsure of himself, unsure of the clothes he wore, whether you'd like them or not, unsure of the cologne he had sprayed in the morning, wondering whether you'd like the smell,
he'd rethink about the way he walked past you during breakfast in the great hall, did he walk to weirdly? Do you think he's weird?
Is that why your not talking to him? Do you really think he's weird?
"Mate?"
Draco blinks, across him is a slightly worried Blaise who was obviously concerned for his bestfriend and pansy whose smirk seemed to widen every second
"Are you alright draco? You realise something?" Pansy asks, her voice sickly sweet and sugary that it made draco feel sick
Blaise glances at his girlfriend and then back at his bestfriend
Draco swallows, "I've got to talk to y/n. I can't do this anymore"
"Hey- hey wait where are you going!" Blaise drops his book as he attempts to chase after the platinum boy who rushes out of the slytherin room in a hurry, only for his girlfriend to stop him with a slight shake of her head
The two heard a slight commotion outside the slytherin common room, along with a crash and a handful of obscene words only a true malfoy could utter
"Bloody draco bumped into me, reckon i would've mistook him for a bull !" A slightly frazzled mattheo riddle enters the skytherin common room with a frown
grumbling as he massaged his shoulder "Whats got his bloody knickers in a twist?"
Pansy let's out a delighted shriek, her boyfriend whearess, simply shakes his head, continuing his book while mattheo is left pouting and confused
"Y/n l/n apparently" Blaise mutters as he flips to the next page
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He probably shouldn't be out so late, Draco knows, curfew was about to begin any time soon but he could not go through another second without not talking to you
For such a large castle like hogwarts with thousands of students, your not so difficult to find
And so there you are, up in the astronomy tower where draco guessed you were.
You once told him that you thought that's where you could see the most amazing view and now that your standing infront of him, draco agrees
You awkwardly stand, draco is a few feet away from you before he paces towards you quickly, as if you would disappear if he wastes even a second
"Draco!" Surprise evident in your voice "What are you doing here
"Uh-" it seems like whatever speech he had been rehearsing in his head had gone away in an instant, draco could only curse himself instantly. Perhaps this is karma for all the times he had called ronald weasley a dunderhead
"Well- i-" draco frowned, why was his tongue getting all twisted and why did you look so pretty in the moonlight? "I wanted to find you and-"
"And?" You ask slightly confused upon the sight of your usually uptight and well groomed potions partner huffing and puffing like a hippogriff, not to mention the alarming shade of pink he was turning
"And ask you if you had completed slughorns assignment" way to go malfoy, arent you just a charmer! Draco malfoy wishes he would drop down into the black lake right now, he hopes the great squid would grab him by his tentacles and-
"The ammortentia one? Thats not due until next week?" You ask further more puzzled "besides i thought we were doing our assignments seperatly?"
Due to whatever revalation you had(whatever it is draco thinks its utter bullcrap) you had decided that you wanted to do your assignment on amortentia seperatly!
Ofcourse draco begrudgingly agreed, he couldnt say no to you! That would be a crime worthy of a thousand years azkaban! But that also meant that the two of you wouldnt be able to spend time together.
Draco could only hope that your revalation be re-evaluated asap!
"I really dont understand why you want to do the assignment seperatly! I mean-" draco emphasises on the word 'seperatly', placing his hand on his chest a little dramatically
"I mean we always do assignments together and it always comes about perfect- and" draco is huffing and pouting now, and he hopes your not feeling embarassed of the way hes acting. He cant help it! He really cant. He just doesnt understand
"Did something happen? Did i do something? Ever since that day- youve been acting funny and i cant help but think if i-"
"Draco!" You interrupt his rambling. It is at this point when draco finally looks up at you to find you looking shy?
"No you didnt do anything i just-" you mumble slightly, not really meeting his grey eyes. The boy in green blankly stares at you, hes never seen you act like this
"I just-" your hand tousles your hair slightly, awkwardly as you admit "i thought i smelled you in my amortentia, thats all"
....thats all?
Thats all??
HELLO? THATS ALL
draco.ex has stopped working.
No actually draco has stopped working. He has forgotten how to breath, how to function, how to move, he can only stand like a granite statue infront of you as your confession sinks into him slowly
What did you smell?
Did you smell green apples and think of him? Of his peppermint hair gell? Of fresh green grass from the quidditch pitch? But it didnt matter, it didnt matter if you smelled chocolate frogs which he secretly enjoyed or his secret love for pinapple jam (ew draco) it didnt matter what you smelled because you smelled him! You smelled him!
"I- draco? Are you listening?" You've been mumbling and rambling for the past few minutes now only to realise its been mostly to yourself. The boy infront of you stood unmoving, like someone had charmed him into a gargoyle of sorts
Draco slowly nodds, mechanically and then blinks even more mechanically
"Anyway- im sure its a mistake! I mean- your my friend, one of my best friend's and i" you shake your head "i wouldnt do anything to ruin our friendship because-"
Draco sighs, softly and so gently that makes you glance in his direction. His hand rubs his nape of his neck, he loosens his tie a little as if it had gotten hot
"Its not a mistake"
You tilt your head "its not?.."
"No, it could have been" draco shakes his head firmly. He takes a step in closer and your breath hitches. His cloudy grey eyes are filled with a type of emotion that makes your stomach flip and in his face layed a carefree smile, the kind he only gave you
"It couldnt have been a mistake because i smelled you and im damn sure i'm irrevocably inlove with you"
His eyes cringe slightly and he lets out a boyish shy laugh "and im a complete idiot for not realising sooner. I should have known- i should have known the minute-"
"The minute?" You breath out
"The minute you sat down next to me in potions. I should have known the minute i saw the red stains on your cufflinks"
You smile, draco has been smiling. You let out a soft laugh and then a happy hum
"Who would have thought eh? Pomegranates and green apple?"
Draco wishes that he could live in this moment forever
"They go, indefinetly, well together" the blonde boy swoops in for a kiss, bending down ever so slightly in hopes to meet your consent
And lucky him! You agree with his sentiment. Pomegranates and green apple do go well together, and draco malfoy? His kiss tastes like both
bro. bro you are romantisizing the secret history. bro you are enamored with the greek class just like richard. bro you are ignoring the bad things and creating aesthetics based on a book telling a murder of a young man. brother.
maybe in another world i'm a girl named ramona who changes her hair colour every other weekend and theres a song written about me except the only lyrics are my name being repeated multiple times over and over again (dammit i wish romance was real)
Sometimes do you ever think about how peeta forgot everything about himself, had his memories meddled with, is no longer sure about who he is, what he is
Hogwarts, school of witchcraft and wizardry, home of ex lovers y/n l/n and remus lupin who suck at the "ex" part
Or, in which,
Everyone in hogwarts is convinced that the two of you are (still) inlove with eachother
GENRE: Fluff, slight crack fic? Second chance romance + idiots in love
PAIRING: Professor! Remus lupin x Professor! Reader
FEAT: Hermione Granger (no 1 shipper), severus snape (the most lowkey shipper), Dumbledore (the most highkey shipper), Harry potter (the most confused person in the room), ron weasly (himbo king) minerva McGonagall(da legend)
A/N: probably the longest fic I ever wrote :p. pls do reblog!!!
Surprisingly unlike most new teachers in hogwarts who often drop the school after their first year of teaching, you somehow managed to stick around
(rumours say that ever since professor slughorn, the previous potions teacher left hogwarts and snape began teaching, all teaching positions were cursed and no teacher managed to stay in hogwarts for more than one semester)
(all students believe that snape brought the curse along with his greasy hair when he began teaching in hogwarts)
(good thing you were quite good in handling curses and hexes ;>)
Perhaps because you also used to be a student in hogwarts back in the days of your youth, you knew the will of the ever changing staircases and the ways through all the hidden and not so hidden corridors
All hogwarts students were baffled when they found out that you and their professor snape used to be classmates
They could all swear on merlin's beard that they were all very sure that professor snape and professor McGonagall were of the same age!!
("bloody hell! who would have thought that nasty professor snape and our lovely miss l/n used to sit in the same classes together" -ron weasly, merely 5 seconds before getting bonked in the head by professor snape)
It's was no secret that all the students of hogwarts adored you, regardless of which house they belonged too, you had a way of weasling into even the most frigid of hearts
But nevertheless, the students often wondered about your kind and sweet nature towards them, truthfully you couldn't help but be reminded of your days in hogwarts and ofcourse your dear friends, some of whose children's were now attending the school
After all, not many of your friends were still present to this day, not many of them found their so called happy ending, and yet their children still manage to find a way to smile
You wanted to protect that smile. The very same smile that used to be etched in your friends faces
It did make you feel a little old sometimes though, who knew even the snooty lucius malfoy, your senior of 4 years at hogwarts would find love and have kids
And yet here you were, still single as a Pringle, your last relationship was years ago, your last real relationship was... it was actually when you used to study in hogwarts, but that too was ages ago
You had simply given up. You had better things to do other than reminisce about your past, the past that never managed to manifested into your future
You had a lot more important things to do!
Such as conduct a quick checking in all the compartments of the hogwarts express, just to make sure that all the students are acquainted and to check up on any first years who may be facing any problems
You walk along the train, knocking on the compartments before being graced with cheerfull greetings and questions on how your holidays was
You move on to the next apartment and the next without wasting much time, much wanting to sit quietly in your own compartment as soon as possible until you heard a loud cry of terror
"Dementor! Dementor!"
You immediately rush down the train, running as fast as you could while your fingers grasped you wand tightly
Crap! You totally forgot about the new security regime being added to hogwarts
Dumbledore had written to you about it during the semester break, although you didn't quite share a positive sentiment towards the addition you also didnt really have much of a say on it
By the time you reach the compartment your relieved that damage control has already been done by who seems to be a new professor whose face was turned away, only seeing the back of his head showcasing messy light brown hair which you felt was oddly familiar
"Harry! Are you alright?" You kneel down as you try propping the boy up whose mouth was currently being shoved with chocolate
"The chocolate helps, I swear" the man says before he pauses and takes a quick deep breath
You almost take a double take, staring into the eyes of a stranger who you knew a little too well
"Y/n" remus lupin breaths out your name like its air, so naturally that you almost forget about all the missing years between the two of you
He says it so naturally that it makes you feel like he just said it yesterday, you almost don't find his face foreign as if the two of you never went your separate ways
As if the two of you never left eachother
You stiffen, you can't help it, infront of you is probably the only man you've ever loved in the entirety of your life, the very man who couldn't stay with you, the man who left you,
the very same man still looked at you the same way, as if you were as beautiful as the day he found you, as if you were as beautiful as the day he left.
"Remus" you mutter out, your eyes glued to his
there's a silent battle going on, one that only perhaps the two of you could recognise. A inner turmoil in both of your hearts
Do I love or hate the fact that you're here?
Do i embrace you or curse you're for standing infront of me?
Do you still think about me?
Did you ever think of me?
"Wh-what are you doing here?" You break away from the trance first "why are you here?"
You only halfway realise how harsh it sounds but you don't care, you didnt know whether to care, you didnt know what to feel
"Lovely seeing you too y/n, you look the same like the last time I saw you"
He says it in such a way only remus lupin could say, with so much sincerety and integrity, it makes your mouth go silent
"I heard that you were a teacher in hogwarts" he pauses "it suits you, i remember you talking about it"
Ofcourse he remembers you talking about it, you remember it too. You also remember him saying the exact same thing as he did years ago too
"It suits you"
"Thanks" you don't know how to respond, with remus lupin you never really did
"But then again, i suppose whatever you did would suit you"
The same thing again, you swear it's like he never left
"You didn't change at all" you blurt out without thinking much
Remus chuckles, an awkward warm laugh, shaking his head slightly so that his slightly curls would bounce
"I dont know whether you mean it as a compliment or not"
"You know what I mean" you say again without much of a hesitation, you catch the look in remus's eye
"I do, don't I?"
Your breath hitches, again
"Uhm professor? I mean professors?" Hermione interrupts with a slightly confused face which she tries to mask
At least she's trying to hide her confusion, the other two boys in the compartment looked as if though someone told them that Monstrose Maggie's were a better quidditch team than Holyhead Harpies
Ron especially was left with his mouth slightly opened being simply utterly baffled at what was going on,
first, their apartment was seemingly attacked by what seemed to be ghosts with ice powers,
second, ron was still trying to get over the fact that harry was passed out erstwhile shaking like a wet dog and
third, probably his favourite professor and the professor that saved his best friends life were stuck in a staring battle
You look at dazed boy sitting on the floor, remembering what had happened "Oh harry! Sit up, sit up"
Remus moves towards the bestecked boy, brushing against you as he helps harry sit on the seat of his compartment.
He groans slightly as he stands up, you throw a quick glance at him before turning your attention to the three teenagers
"Are you three alright? Harry? still feeling a little woozy?" You ask while remus breaks another piece of chocolate handing it to him "munch one, cmon"
"Erm yes" Harry takes the piece of chocolate "thanks- professor er" he looks at remus
"Professor lupin-" "the names lupin-" both you and remus say in the same time, before turning to look at eachother resulting in you quickly turning your head away
The three teenagers watch curiously (hermione) confused (harry) totally completely befuddled(ron)
"You haven't changed at all too y/n" remus says, half amused, and half of what almost seemed like relief
"Well, there's a limit to how much a person can change in a span of only a few years" that might cut a little deeper than intended, but remus's face looks like he understands where you were coming from
"Sorry i-" you begin, feeling a little guilty. wringing your hands "it's great seeing you..its been ages. I guess i just wasnt expecting to see you"
Remus smiles, his eyes crinkling while he did so, lines forming near his eyes which weren't there from the years in which you remembered him from
Godrick, it really has been a long time
"I know" he says in a all knowing tone that somehow didnt seem arrogant or conceited at all, you kind of missed it "I should have written you a letter or something"
"Yea" you blink "or something"
It was at this point when you realise that it wasnt only the two of you in the compartment, there was 3 other teenagers who were gawking and trying their best to make a connection between you and the other man who still remained quite unknown to them
"Uhm right" you turn away from remus, slight pink tinting your cheeks
Remus also seemed to realise this, shoving his wand into his pocket
"I better go check on all the other compartments, just in case" he says while moving out of the compartment
"Yes! You do that" you don't look at him, not quite
"Hey y/n?"
"Hm?" You turn to him, hands fiddling with eachother
"I'll talk to you soon?"
The same brown hair, same brown eyes, a coat that seemed a little too old to still be worn, the same sturdy ebony wand, and a older version of the same scarred face you often wondered about
You nodd
"Talk to you soon"
-
"What in the good name of gandalf was all that about?" Ron says appalled, as if though he just witness a crime worthy of a death penalty
Harry shrugged while nibbling on the rather large piece of chocolate in his hands
It had been a while after both you and Professor lupin or whoever he was left their compartment, albeit professor lupin looking a little ditzy after seeing you and your face being tinted a faint shade of pink
"I swear on my life" Ron points at scabbers, the old dirty rat that seemed way too scared for an animal who was safely locked up in his cage
"I swear on scabbers life! I have never seen professor l/n act like that"
Hermione rolled her eyes, scoffing
Are boys really this dense?
Harry and ron turn to her expectantly
"Well?" Harry asked
"Isn't it quite obvious?" Hermione folded her arms, her hair tossing behind her as she did so "it's so completly obvious! It literally happened infront of your eyes"
"What did? All I saw was two adults staring at eachother for like 30 minutes straight" Ron said raising his hands
"I mean" Harry added "30 minutes might be a bit of a stretch-"
"Honestly!" Hermione interjected loudly "don't you two get it?"
"Get what?"
Hermione finally losing her patience, bend down slightly, in hushed whispers, turning to see if anyone else was around, as she hissed into the ears of the two boys
"Oh" Harry blinked, unsure of what he was suppose to do with such information "Oh well, er" he looks at ron "I dont think davies is gonna take this news well"
"Poor guy" Ron announced with a rather sad face "Roger Davies is gonna lose his shit if he hears about this" shaking his head sympathetically "bluds got a bloody massive crush on professor l/n yknow"
"....ew"
-
Hermione granger was the brightest witch of her age. She wasn't bragging about her intelligence or wit, it was merely just a fact
She knew all the ingredients needed to brew the draught of living death, she memorized all the steps needed to brew the draught of peace
She studied all the uses of the mandrake root, she knew the uses of a bezeor and where to find one
She likes to be sure of what she knows, so sure that she can bet on it, she knows what's right and what's wrong, she can swear on what she knows and what she doesn't.
And Hermione Granger swears that her DADA professor and her astronomy teacher were inlove with eachother, she was so very positive about it
She had read alot about love, watched movies about love (please don't ask her to explain how a movie works, she already explained it thrice to Mr weasly)
she saw love in her parents whenever they talked with eachother, she saw love in the way molly weasly would reprimand her husband back when she spend the holidays in the burrow
She was the brightest witch of her age and she swears, that professor Remus lupin was (rather tragically) inlove with professor y/n l/n.
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"Professor" hermione raised her hand up in an instant, rather proudly too, she knew the answer to your question almost perfectly
You nodd, urging her to speak
"Sirius is the brightest star in the night sky, its name deriving from the greek word which means scorching or glowing"
"Yes well done miss granger" you signal her to sit down "five points to gryffindor"
"Next class we will be charting and mapping some major constellations present in the northern hemisphere while using the help of sirius" you announce to your students "your all excused to go to your next class"
Immediately all students rush out, most of them grabbing their things in a hurry and running down
"Why is the astronomy tower at the top of the building and the potions classroom all the way in the dungeons?" Seamus finnigun huffed to his friend dean who nodded earnestly
"Snape would do anything to find something to pick on, cmon we don't wanna be late!"
Hermione lingered a few seconds, hiding behind the door as all the students fled downstairs, getting ready to use her time turner when suddenly,
"'Busy?" A deep voice came
You look at the tall man standing awkwardly at the door, you can't help but stiffle a laugh
"What are you doing? Standing about just like that?"
Remus scratches the back of his head while he comes into your classroom, rather carefully too as if he was worried he would break something
"Library" remus responds to your question with a slight swagger as Hermione listened intently from behind the wall
She knows she shouldn't listen, its bad to eavesdrop on other people's conversation, what would her mother say? But after what she witnessed on the train? She couldn't possibly miss out on this
"Library?" You question with a upside down smile "it's been ages since you've been to hogwarts and you still choose to hang out in the library?"
So hermione's hunch was right after all. You both did know eachother when the two of you were younger
"Well, its not like i hung out in the library alone you know" remus quipped quickly, you almost smile
"You can't teach an old dog new tricks y/n" remus says it so casually, it makes you look up to him, for a split second there was a sense of recognition inbetween the two of you
You cough, "but still.. hanging out in the library? I guess your still a nerd"
Remus raises his eyebrows "a nerd? Excuse me but I'm not the one here teaching astronomy" a smirk plays on his lips
You gasp in fake offense while remus raises his hands up in surrender "I apologise, too harsh?"
"Way too harsh Mr lupin"
The both of you crack into soft smiles and longing looks, Hermione could have sworn that if this were one of those "muggle' movies her mom and her used to watch back at home, there would be "kiss me" by sixpence none the ritcher playing in the background
"It really has been very long remmy"
Hermione's mouth forms an o shape
'Remmy' huh? Already on nickname basis are we?
"It has been quite some time y/n"
Cmon professor! Up your game a little!
"Is that all you have to say to me? After all this time?" You don't look away, your eyes piercing through remus, making him feel seen, too seen
"I- I've got too much to say" remus confessed "too little words to use"
You purse your lips, looking down on the parchment of paper on your desk
"Do you think you'll always have too little words to say? You don't have any words to spare me for now?"
His lips part, slightly open, remus realises that his sweather is quite worn out, there's a certain itch that won't go away, the colour a little too washed away, the strands fraying away at the hem of his sleeve
He has thought about this very moment for a very long time, almost every night, every day. Practicing what he should tell you, how to tell you
And yet he doesn't say anything, he cannot.
The lump in his throat is far too big to swallow, the pain in his chest pulsating through each and every vein present in his body
He fears if he opens his mout, he might swallow you whole, selfish and angry and dangerous. All things you were not, all the things you didjt deserve.
He wasn't safe to be around, his edges too sharp to be able to curve around and you were too kind to know better
The silence is overwhelming, slightly, like water droplets falling on an already filled cup
Hermione questions herself, for the first time.
Perhaps she is wrong, perhaps the two of you aren't inlove. Maybe the two of you once were and maybe that's all it was. Ashes of the past, remains of what once was
Instead, Remus walks next to you, wordlessly, quietly, and yet his actions remains defeaning against the silence that seemed to engulf the two of you
You snort, you can't help it
"Hey, you do realise we can use magic right? I don't need your help carrying those things down"
Remus nevertheless picks up a box of telescopes and other tools "we both know you were going to carry these by hand" he stated with certainty, giving you a knowing look
You resort the urge to roll your eyes
"You know me that well?" There's a slight challenge in your voice
"No, i know you enough" remus says softly, as if that itself was a sin for him to commit "im afraid that i might like to know you even more"
Silence. The wind blows, the pale blue curtains flowing as the charms hanging on the roof play a soft chime
Your unsure of what to say, how to react, the truth was painfull. But it was the truth
Finally you whisper back
"im afraid I might end up letting you"
-
Hermione quickly shuffles with her time turner, she has already wasted so much time listening to a conversation that wasn't even hers to listen but she ends up hoping for one thing
She hopes to find someone who would look at her the way remus lupin looked at you
-
Severus snape had his reasons for disliking remus lupin, you knew them too and like the decent person he knew you were, you respected his choice.
He guesses your fine, better than most actually, he doesn't like you or anything don't get him wrong.
Even back in his student days he never really talked to you much, lest it was you greeting him goodmorning whenever the two of you had classes together
But he guesses that he doesn't dislike you, your alright, your one of the few decent people that he knew in hogwarts. He doesn't mind you that much
Which is exactly why he didn't approve of remus lupin,
Perhaps back then he wouldn't have cared as much as he did now (don't get him wrong, he doesn't care about you)
but he supposes that you could do much better (he doesn't really have a valid reason he just doesn't like remus that much... again for certain specific reason)
"Lupin" severus cannot help but sneer a little as he says the name, greeting an old not very comforting face
"severus" remus nodds in acknowledgement, walking inside the potionmasters room "I suppose you know why im here"
"I do" severus rummages about to find a bottle, handing it, the air was always tense between the two, but it felt thicker tonight
"I'm surprise you came back" severus interrupts the silence "im surprised you came back at all"
Remus stops, thinking for a while "you do realise that i could say the same thing to you? Hogwarts is the last place i imagined you working"
Severus frowns, looking up at the scarred man standing infront of him
"Does she know?"
Remus stiffen for a second before answering "Yes, I suppose she does"
"Ah" severus announces like it was nothing a big of a shock "I suppose the two of you were always... close"
"What are you trying to instigate here severus?" remus snaps before stopping himself "i apolagise- i didn't mean to"
Severus shakes his head, stopping remus "the full moon is awfully close, i suggest you take care of yourself and those around you" carefully using his words
Remus stared at the bottle of Wolfsbane in his hand before placing it on the table with a thud, snape raised an eyebrow
"I never wanted her to know" remus says bitterly "it was never her burden to share, no one's burden but mine"
Severus clicks his tongue
"I almost didn't come back, i never planned to come back to hogwarts"
"Then what made you" curiosity got the better of the sneering man
Remus looked down, he let out a pathetic excuse of a chuckle "I guess I simply wanted to see her. I wondered if she ever thought about me too"
Snape doesnt say anything at first
"How pitifull' snape muttered while he moving around his room, his cloak swooshing alongst each movement
"Yes" remus murmers "I suppose so"
"Your a miserable excuse tonight lupin" severus gave a brief look towards the man infront of him "I suggest you get some rest"
"I suppose I am rather miserable tonight" remus throws his head back "the upcoming full moon is making me act strange, look at me confiding such matters to you"
Severus merely grunts
"I apologise severus, something has gotten into me tonight"
"Theres no need to do such things lupin, simply show yourself out"
Remus thanks him for the wolfsbane once more before heading out
"Professor lupin, before you go"
Remus turned around, the eye bags around his eyes much deeper than usual, his posture slightly more bend than usual
"Regarding miss L/n...im sure she thought fondly of you too, much more than you realise" Snape coughs "that is all, goodnight" slamming the door shut.
Severus walked away from the door, wondering what was wrong with him that night, what made him say such things to remus lupin of all people but ah, alas he had forgotten, the two shared one thing in common
They were both miserable,
both miserable, pitiful and pathetic for the love that they once had
Oh yes, they both loved and were loved
-
Now,
if you ask albus dumbledore, headmaster of hogwarts for many years now and counting, whether it was correct to place bets on his students than he would respond to you with a slight chuckle
Of course it was a little incorrect, but then again, he hadn't won a bet in years and he was dying to prove Minerva McGonagall wrong
"I'm telling you albus" the older women pulled down her glasses, giving a withering look at the bearded wizard "im afraid we might be getting too old with this"
"Minerva, afraid that I might break your winning streak after all?" Came the reply, his blue eyes twinkling
Minerva McGonagall frowned "you may be one of the most famous wizard of your age albus but you are hardly capable of placing correct bets"
Minerva knew that she was right.
She had been winning all the bets with Dumbledore for the past many years, successfully guessing and pairing students up.
She placed a bet on Molly and Arthur Weasly when they were once students at hogwarts,
she even predicted James Potter and Lily Evans budding romance (although she was a little worried when lily Evans refused to give in, luckily there was a turn of event in their seventh year much to Dumbledore's dismay)
She may not be the most famous wizard of her age unlike her counterpart, but she did rather have a good hunch when it came to romance (just keep that information between her and albus though)
"Well then" Minerva gave in, rather easily too "is this about your wager on Mr potter again?"
Albus shaked his head "no, it isn't, although I am immensely confident about mister potter and miss granger"
Minerva held back a scoff "Oh yes, you'll see soon that miss granger and mister potter aren't nothing more than friends, it baffles me albus! How your the smartest wizard of all time and yet you can't see that your bet should be on ms granger and mr weasly!!"
"I will not argue with you about this matter minerva" albus quickly said
"Well, atleast you didnt place your wager on ms granger and mr malfoy" Minerva tutted "what on merlin's beard is slughorn on i wonder"
"Minerva thats not the point, im talking regarding our miss y/n l/n and-"
"Remus lupin" McGonagall finished the sentence "Well theres no point on placing a bet on them, its obvious the two are made for eachother"
"Er- Oh well I was actually gonna say-"
Minerva deadpanned "Who were you going to say other than professor lupin albus?"
"Oh well of course" albus continued, hiding the fact that he was slightly flustered "our dear severus of course!"
A loud laugh escaped Minerva's lips, leaving the much older wizard slightly dumbfounded
"Oh albus" the woman wipes a tear away, a thin smile etched on her lips as she patted the headmaster
"I hope you prepared to lose you bet once again"
-
Albus Dumbledore usually never second guessed himself, he was sure of his words, his plans and especially, his bets (even though he has been in a losing streak for the past 50 years)
But after seeing such confidence in Minerva McGonagall, he was now rethinking every single thing he had witnessed so far
He was sure, absolutely positive that there was something going on between you and severus.
You seemed to be the only person severus tolerated,
Whenever you wished him goodmorning, he would always respond you back cordially
Amd albus is pretty sure that you served the boil peas to severus and not to remus lupin today during dinner tonight,
that has to mean something right??
Roaming around the school after hours was not a new thing to the old wizard, walking around the corridors and hallways as the stars glistened over head
He hears a muffled voice, continued with what seemed to be a rather private, almost confidential meet up
Noticing you and remus standing across eachother, the space between the two of you negligible
Well !!
It's none of his business, dumbledore guesses and that he has no reason to pry on such a conversation
And yet he found himself standing quietly from a distance rather much too invested in such private affairs
After all curiosity was his biggest trait
(Please forgive the old man, he simply wants to win a bet after such a long time)
"You left your lesson plans, again" you say, shaking them slightly "quite unlike you actually"
"I was coming to get them" remus waits "what makes you say that?"
"I might have thought that you left them on purpose" albus watches you shrug,
"What if I did?"
Ah!, realisation hits albus. Perhaps Minerva was right once again
"We've got to stop meeting like this, it might give the wrong impression"
"And what impression exactly are we giving?" Remus's voice rings in your ear, almost haughty
You attempt to glare at remus although your efforts are in vain as there in no heat behind it. Remus knows it too, he has a soft grin on his face
You turn to leave, exhaling slightly just before remus says, too casually "you still do that same thing with your nose when your annoyed"
You stop midstep.
"You scrunch them a little before you look away, just like back then"
For a moment neither of you speak
"And you still hate boiled peas"
Dumbledore silently comforted himself after the loss of another bet, perhaps he should stop placing bets with Minerva
"You still look after me" remus tilts his head "perhaps giving the wrong impression?"
You groan, despite the warmth in your eyes and the smile that struggled to escape "your impossible"
Remus softly shakes his head, your eyes plastered on him "your collar is still crooked, do i have to fix it?"
Remus's hands fly to his collar,
You glance up to the man you once knew, feeling all to familiar to him once again
Albus watches as you hold remus's collar in the most gentle way possible, as if though he were a precious glass doll that you were afraid of scarring.
Remus finds it a little ironic
Your fingers delicately moving alongst the nape of his neck while he muttered something to you
Your simply standing there, he's not stopping you in any sense at all, watching him with an insufferable fond look that albus remembers from back in your days as students
Why hadn't he noticed this before?
"I would have thought that you'd learn how to do your collar properly by now" you huffed, the tall man leaned in closer to you, for your comfort and ease
"I guess I got used to you fixing it for me"
You hum "you hate people touching you"
Remus lupin looks at you, a slight smile playing on his face "i suppose that makes you the exception"
Albus holds back his gasp
You sigh while finishing adjusting his collar, breaking away from him
"You're quite literally impossible"
Remus chuckles, his eyes never breaking away from yours "you like it, you still do"
"You" you point your finger at the tall man "are quite frankly delusion, might i suggest a visit st mungoes and check your head"
Remus takes a step closer, he's grinning, it makes him look younger, you think,
"Am I? Delusional?"
Albus feels like bursting out of his hiding spot, feeling like a quidditch commenter watching the most highly anticipated quidditch match of all time
But then- you laugh, its small, a little reluctant but a real laugh. And instead of walking away you simply look at remus with the same softness that has always been there since your hogwarts days
Albus turns his head away, giving the two of you space, deciding that he had seen enough
He wonders why in the world did he not catch it before, were his hunches always this bad?
"Well?" A flat voice came from a corner, Dumbledore couldn't help but chuckle knowing all too well who it was
"Minerva!" Albus smiled "I was hoping to bump into you"
The grey tabby cat transformed into a frowning women with a "I told you so" look on her face
Albus sighs "I believe you have won the bet once again"
The women suppresses a smile "Yes, I believe so too"
"Am I really that dense Minerva?"
Giving the older wizard a scathing look "im afraid so professor"
"Oh...but rather refreshing to see young love blossom in our very halls is it not?" Albus dumbledore says with a satisfied look on his face
"I hope they would atleast pretend to not be too distracted with their work" Minerva remarked
"Oh minerva" albus tutted "Have you never been in love before?"
Minerva McGonagall threw a look at the headmaster
"Now all we must do is wait for the inevitable" albus proudly said "I should begin drafting a speech for their wedding should I not?"
Minerva sighs shaking her head, her voice wavering but she knew better to discourage Dumbledore "Oh yes professor, you do that"
Dumbledore gleams while walking back up to his office, he may have lost the bet but he was a sucker for happy ending, especially for his students
"Oh Minerva!" Did I ever mention?"
Dumbledore calls the tall women before he goes up into his office
"Mention what professor?"
The wizard gleams, a twinkle of mischief in his eyes, Minerva wasnt sure if she was going to like what she was about to hear
"I once placed a bet on you and tom riddle back when you were a student here"
Minerva McGonagall paused, not even blinking, not even breathing
Dumbledore chuckle "Oh well, let's just hope for the best for miss y/n and mr remus lupin shall we?"
(A few hours later, filch recieves the fright of his life when he finds professor McGonagall is still standing in the hallway frozen)
-
When your called into dumbledores office in the middle of the night, the last thing you expect is to see the convicted felon sirius black and a tired, freshly scarred remus lupin
After Dumbledore filled you in with the recent events that took place and after the sirius was safely escorted to much safer place,
you found your arms resting on remus whose body remained slumped on a bed in the infirmary
The hospital wing was dimply lighted, madam pomfrey busy tending to the three teenagers (harry, ron and hermione) leaving you with the scarred man
Your eyes wander around his body which was covered in bruises, cuts, scars and a deep gash along his side from his recent turning.
You tend to his wounds, your hands shaking slightly while you moved with precision and a look of gentleness in your eyes which remus did not missed
"It might sting a little" you warn, while dabbing the cotten pad soaked in antiseptic to his cheek
Remus flinched slightly but does not move nor say anything, only nods slightly.
He had always been like this- quiet, composed and never one to complain. But you could feel the tension in him, the way his shoulders stayed rigid under your touch, the way his eyes darted around you, looking at you everywhere but at your eyes
"It doesn't hurt?" You ask in an attempt to lighten the mood but your voice wavers just enough to betray your feelings
Remus notices it without missing a beat, his body softening on hearing the vulnerability in your voice
It's all for him, it's all because of him
"It's not the cut that hurts y/n. It's the fact that yours still the one tending to them even after all these years"
You still for a moment- memories of late night study sessions and hushed conversations. You tending to his scars at midnight after every turning while the rest of the marauders watched with a knowing smirk.
Memories of the past seemed to dance infront of your eyes, flickering like candles and flittering like ghosts.
The quiet estrangement between you and remus, the way the two of you parted ways so easily- but here he was. So close to you, yet you have never felt further from him
"Maybe some things don't change" your murmer under your breath, your fingers brushing against his skin for longer than necessary
Remus smiles, its a wistful and rather melancholy smile
The both of you felt the weight of all the unsaid words between the two of you, it lingered liked the fog on a misty morning, just like the lingering glance remus always gave to you
"It's not that bad you know" remus mutters "your looking at me like I'm going to drop dead"
His voice is rough , deep and slightly slurred, still recovering from from the disorientation from his shift, he keeps his eyes closed, though his sharp breathing tells you that the pain is no less than real
You look up, a small frown tugging your lips "you always say that, but here you are, covered in cuts and scars" your tone is light but theres a hidden edge of concern that was undiscernable
Remus chuckles softly, though the sound is strained "i'm alot tougher than i look, have a little faith in me won't you?"
Your fingers linger around his face, your touch soft, slightly cold against his flushed hot blooded self.
Remus tenses from your touch, but relaxes almost immediately. You can tell he's holding back more than just the pain, you just didn't know what.
"I could have helped you, i was always willing to help you, you know that don't you?" Your voice betrays all the concern and worry you had been holding back, your voice breaking,
Remus doesnt meet your eyes, not at first, his expression distant and struggling to find the words
"I didn't want to hurt anyone" he finally says, "especially you, i never want to hurt you"
"I know" you whisper gently, your hands move towards his "but that doesn't mean you have to do it alone"
For a moment he remains silent, it makes you think whether he even heard you at all. His fingers curl into the edge of the cot, jaws clenched tight.
But then he moves his hands towards yours too, slowly, hesitantly, almost scared.
But he missed it, he missed your touch all too much to no longer deny it. He missed you
"I dont want to hurt you" he repeats again like a confession. His voice fragile and vulnerable
You look at him, the weight of his gaze holding you in place before you finally utterly "you won't"
Your afraid remus would pull away, push you away, retreat back but he doesnt.
He let's you finish bandaging him, let's you hold him, letting you do what you've always done, even when the two of you were no longer together: care for him
And even when your done he doesn't pull away, you meet his eyes again, once again feeling the weight of all the unsaid words
"I'm scary" his voice is barely a whisper "and dangerous, and frightening. You don't deserve to go through all of that"
You smile faintly, leaning towards him, brushing against lock of his his hair away from his face
"Remus lupin, you eat your toast burned to crisps, you have your coffee so black im convince your taste buds are dead, you have memorized lines from random horrible plays I have never heard of before"
your hands holds his face with utmost care
"Trust me" you smile, your tone teasing if not for the warmth in your voice "you couldn't scare me even if you try"
For a brief moment theres nothing but the sound of breathing, two people who had never really let eachother go. Though remus doesnt say it, the way his hands holds your waist, and the way he looks at you, speaks louder than words ever could
"Next time, let me help you"
A smile tugs on remus's lips, twitching in a rare crooked smile "ill try to remember that"
"And don't leave, i dont think i can bear it if you disappear from me twice" you whisper
"I wont be able to stay away for long even if I tried" remus whispered back like a solemn vow "I'll always come for you, ill always find my way to you"
Your hands still linger on one another, gazes still intact, though no words are exchange it is not necessary, the soft smiles tugging both your lips are enough
For the first time in years, it feels like the two of you are on the same side once again.
-
"Hand me the galleons you owe me albus" Minerva reaches her hand out, an eyebrow raised
"Oh Minerva, must we hurry? I'm well aware you won the bet but-"
Minerva McGonagall cleared her throat loud and clear
Severus snape rolled his eyes and sighed, muttering under his breath about "childish behavior"
Albus dumbledore sulked "im going to go bankrupt if this keeps on going on"
Minerva suppressed her smile, despite feeling proud of her achievement "do you still want to go on with the bets albus? Unless your afraid of losing once more"
Severus frowned "must you encourage such behavior professor McGonagall?"
"I'll win the next bet, just you wait and see minerva" Dumbledore said, despite his initial complain, repeating what he had been saying every time for the past 50 years since he had been losing
"mr cedric diggory and ms cho chang" Minerva announced her next bet, folding her arms, her head held high
Albus watched with a broad grin "Minerva, i might have to prove you wrong there!"
Minerva watched with eyebrows raised
"It's obviously ms cho chang and mr roger davies"
"Oh dear" severus groaned
Minerva covered her mouth, turning away to laugh, confident that she had won before it even begun while albus dumbledore began listing the reason for his belief
"Mr Roger Davies and ms cho chang were practicing quidditch together and may I mention that it seemed a rather private meet up with only the two of them-"
"Isn't mr Davies the captain of the ravenclaw quidditch team and ms chang the seeker of the quidditch team?" Severus reminded the older wizard
"Yes but severus your missing the point-"
Severus Snape raised his hand, he had heard enough, pinching the bride of his nose he excused himself, he had better things to do than involve himself in such trivial childish matters, especially those that involved the life of silly hormonal teenagers
He walked out with a whoosh of his cloak, seemingly ready to slam the door, just when-
"My bet is with minerva" he curtly announced before promptly slamming the door shut
The march theory is so fr cause wdym you think I'm the best girl you've ever met and that you want to meet me again when I'm about to move 3030.2 kms away from you in 2 months
pairing: slytherin!group x fem!nott!reader, enzo berkshire x fem!nott!reader
summary: a mysterious love letter turns up in the slytherin common room and suddenly everyone thinks its for them... all while luna lovegood is simply trying to record everyones interview for the student papers
warnings: cursing, sexual references, mattheo being horny asf, ooc slytherins, me yapping, slow burnnnn
note: what if i just left this here? what then, huh???
"good gracious, woman, you're looking dashing today." mattheo said when you walked into the slytherin common room in the morning.
you narrowed your eyes at his weird behaviour. "are youā" your frown deepened. "āare you flirting with me?" you crossed your arms. "stop it, it's weird."
"is it really weird when i'm just trying to tell you how beautiful you look?"
your eyes darted across the room as if to search for something that would explain this very twilight zone experience. or maybe your friends were trying to get a rise out of you once again.
"it's ten in the morning, so if you're doing anything else than shutting up, then yeah, it's weird." you walked up the stairs to leave the common room and walk into the direction of the great hall, mattheo still hot on your heels. "also it's saturday. you normally sleep in until two or something."
"i was waiting for you."
"waiting for me?" you repeated. "are you sick?" you froze in the middle of the hallway, worriedly pressing a hand against mattheo's forehead.
mattheo pushed your hand away with his own, trying to interlink your fingers with his in a smooth gesture.
you pulled away quickly. "handholding?" you took another step back. "what has gotten into you, mattheo?"
"nothing," mattheo shook his head and fluttered his eyelashes at youā you guessed that that was supposed to look cute, but it send shivers down your spine. "i just had a visit from a little friend called armor."
"sure" you nodded unimpressed. "tell you friend to take his medicine."
"your sarcastic energy is killing all the positive feelings." he gestured between the two of you.
"good" you smiled.
"ugh." mattheo groaned. "i'll leave you to it for now, but i'll be back and hopefully you're ready to accept my undying affection by then."
"yeah, hopefully." you rolled your eyes. "i know that i told you to stop doing that, but maybe you should get beaten up to get whatever is loose in your head back in it's original place."
"just love" mattheo muttered, before he turned around and walked back in the direction of the common room.
you looked after him in confusion, before you shrugged, deciding to forget about the thing. it was probably part of some screwed up plan mattheo had cooked up once again. nothing to get angry about.
the great hall was filled with nearly the entire school, loud chattering echoing off the walls as students sat longer than normal, as they had no classes to attend.
"morning," you muttered, sitting down in your usual seat beside pansy. theo and blaise were studying a book about quidditch and draco was pointing out something in the papers for pansy to look at.
your friends returned the greeting.
you reached across the table and grabbed the jam, before you put a big scoop onto your bread.
"very interesting morning so far" theo muttered under his breath and you quirked a brow at him. "did mattheo catch you?"
"oh" you said surprised. "yeah, he did." you averted your eyes, not really keen on talking about the weirdest conversation you had had in a hot minute.
"was muttering something about your eternal beauty." blaise laughed, "some idiot he is, if you ask me."
"eternal what?" enzo asked, just arriving at the table.
"oh, just my sister's eternal beauty that is suddenly so actively talked about." theo muttered with a sharp tone. "any input?"
"uh. y-yeah" enzo nodded, quickly choking down the piece of bread he had started nibbling on. "it's uh- it's there."
"how dashing, enzo," blaise rolled his eyes. "really smooth. i see she's already taking off her shirtāoh, no, sorry, she isn't."
you shot blaise a deadpan look, "you know, blaise, if you spent as much time with your head out of the gutter as you do in it, you might actually be a decent human being."
"looks just like me, doesn't he?" your gaze wandered from blaise to draco, who was pointing at a picture in the newspaperā oh no, that was definitely one of pansy's magazines.
"the male model there?" pansy repeated with disbelief.
draco tried to mirror the expression on the model's face. "do i look like him now?" he asked, his eyes jumping between pansy and you, since he had noticed you watching.
"well, you're definitely looking like... something." you winced, a little uncomfortable.
"draco, you don't even have the same hair color as that guy," pansy said unimpressed. "let alone those abs."
"want me to prove it?" draco let go of the magazine and unbottuned the first two buttons of his shirt.
"draco? what the hell?" theo shook his head, chucking the last piece of his bread at the blonde's head. "the fuck you're doing?"
"proving that i'm just as hot." his eyes narrowed at pansy. "if not hotter than this wanna-be model."
"i'm not sure he's just a wanna-be model." enzo corrected, now studying the abondened magazine. "this text here says that he is the highest grossing model of the last year. and that world wide."
theo stared at the magazine in disbelief. āwait, so heās not just playing dress-up? he actuallyĀ doesĀ this for a living?ā
enzo shrugged. āseems like it. and apparently heās āthe face of global campaignsā or whatever.ā he paused, squinting at the page. āi mean, who knew?ā
pansyās lips twitched into a smirk. āyeah, draco, notĀ justĀ a wannabe. maybe you should take some notes.ā
draco rolled his eyes and opened his mouth to retort something, but was promptly interrupted by blaise.
"yeah, sorry mate, you look nothing like this guy." he turned his head to inspect the image further. "although, i have to say that he looks a bit like me, don't you think?"
enzo shook his head slowly.
"well whatever." draco closed the magazine with a quick movement. "i look much better than him anyway."
"well, i don't see anyone paying money to take pictures of you too." you giggled, enjoying the way you could rile draco up with a simple comment, as he frowned at you.
"really smart, y/n" draco exclaimed with a roll of his eyes, before he stood up. ācome on, pansyā
pansy furrowed her brows in confusion, but reluctantly got up, as draco made no move to leave without her.
āvery weird morning so farā you mumbled, watching after your friends.
āhey, by the way,ā enzo said, steering your gaze back to him. āi wanted to ask you if you could help me with my project for herbology. i had a problem with taking care of that plant.ā
āthat plant?ā you repeated with a smile āyou mean the roses weāre supposed to help grow faster?ā
āexactlyā
āsureā you nodded, reaching for the jam once more. āiāll help youā
āoh, darling would you mind helping me with that very easy task for divination?ā blaise fluttered his eyelashes at theo, who got the hint immediately, lifting his voice to mimic yours.
āyou mean the one with the tea cup?ā he smiled brightly, weirdly even looking a bit like you. āof course, my loveā
their smiles vanished simultaneously and blaise turned in your direction. āthis is how the two of you sound by the wayā
āhilariousā you muttered, matching theoās normally flat tone perfectly. āhey, mate, later iām gonna make sure to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and if i have time i might drown myself in the lake after thatā
āsureā enzo nodded, his voice wavering and even picking up an octave to match blaiseā melodic tone. āi might order a few new gucci scarfs and after that iāll watch that muggle movie thatās been on my list for agesā he dragged out the end of the word dramatically.
āand scene!ā you grinned, turning in blaiseās and your brotherās direction. āand this, is how you sound by the wayā
STUDENT INTERVIEW #183 ā MATTHEO RIDDLE (take one) ā by luna lovegood
camera turns on. mattheo sits in a very relaxed, almost offensively smug position, one leg thrown over the armrest of his chair.
mattheo riddle: so when i came down the stairs this morning, i found a mysterious letter on the table in the middle of the common roomā
luna lovegood (leading lady of the student papers, behind the camera): actually you should talk aboutā
mattheo riddle: (frowning slightly) i wasnāt finished, goldilocks! anyway, i found this letterā
mattheo holds up a folded piece of parchment, camera zooms in.
mattheo riddle: āand surely we all know who wrote this.
mattheo unfolds the parchment, reads
mattheo riddle: āmy love, i write this letter to tell you about my undying affection. i like everything about you: from the way you do your hair, to the way you carry your books. let me know if you feel the same. all my love, yours truly.ā no name. y/n was probably scared her brother could find this.
luna lovegood: y/n nott?
mattheo riddle: (grinning) well, obviously, sheās been in love with me for ages, hasnāt she? now my time has come to corrupt theoās innocent little sister. if youāll excuse meā
he stands up, takes off the enchanted mic and hands it to luna behind the camera. luna and colin creevey (cameraman) look after him in confusion.
"okay, i have to get my books and then i'll meet you in the greenhouse, you go ahead." you told enzo, who nodded dutifully and walked out of the common room without another word.
you fetched the needed school books from your room quickly, walking back into the common room only mere seconds later. you studied the books shortly, pushing them into your bag, when you noticed an abondened piece of parchment laying on the table in the middle of the common room.
your eyes darted around the empty room. no hint of anyone. was that there already, when you came in a few minutes ago? you had no idea.
"whoops" you muttered, pushing the parchment off the table and bending down to pick it up. you unfolded it, your eyes flying over the words quickly.
"i like everything about you?" you repeated confused. "shit, enz" you shook your head, throwing the parchment back onto the table and leaving the common room.
STUDENT INTERVIEW #188 ā Y/N NOTT (take one) ā by luna lovegood
the camera flickers on, revealing y/n sitting across from luna. she looks skeptical, arms crossed, clearly regretting agreeing to this interview.
y/n nott:Ā (tilts head) right. the letter. (pauses) well, obviously, itās not mine.
luna lovegood: this is notā (sigh) no one said it was.
y/n nott:Ā (ignores her) but if itĀ wasĀ mineāhypothetically speakingāiād have to assume it was from enzo.
luna lovegood:Ā why enzo?
y/n nott:Ā (shrugs) who else would write something like that? i mean, itāsĀ wayĀ too nice to be from draco, mattheo would probably set it on fire before writing anything remotely romantic, and blaiseāwell, blaise wouldāve signed it āfrom your future husband, blaise zabiniā and included a self-portrait.
luna lovegood:Ā thatās very specific.
y/n nott:Ā yeah, because itās true.
luna lovegood:Ā but you really think itās enzo?
y/n nott: ā¦i mean, maybe? probably? heās always so nice to me. and the letter said something about liking the way i carry my books, andĀ heĀ notices that sort of stuff.
luna lovegood:Ā thatās very observant of him.
y/n nott:Ā (deadpan) yeah.Ā suspiciouslyĀ observant. what if heās planning something?
luna lovegood:Ā (cheerfully) like asking you on a date?
y/n nott: okay, letās not get ahead of ourselves.
luna lovegood:Ā but would you want it to be from him?
y/n nott: ⦠(groans) next question.
luna lovegood:Ā there are no other questions.
y/n nott:Ā fantastic.
the camera lingers on her vaguely distressed expression before cutting to black.
"i've done a lot for my body this past semester, you know?" draco smirked, throwing an arm up. "wanna feel?"
pansy furrowed her eyebrows, but complied, reluctantely pressing down on the blonde's biceps.
"wow, that's great" she nodded, smiling unsurely. "what are you showing me this for again? i mean any particular reason?"
"just letting you know." draco shrugged, as if it was obvious. "buffed and available" he pointed to himself.
"right" pansy nodded slowly.
"hey guys, you have time for a quick interview?" luna lovegood's voice interrupted the weird conversation between the two. draco shook his head and opened his mouth, ready to decline the offer, but pansy nodded, pushing the boy forward.
"actually, draco would love to"
STUDENT INTERVIEW #192 ā DRACO MALFOY (take one) ā by luna lovegood
the camera flickers on, revealing draco sitting with his arms crossed, looking like heās being forced to attend a disciplinary hearing. luna, unbothered, gives him a pleasant smile.
luna lovegood:Ā so, dracoā
draco malfoy:Ā āitās from pansy.
luna lovegood:Ā (sighing)ā¦the letter?
draco malfoy:Ā (nods, very serious) obviously.
luna lovegood:Ā and youāre sure becauseā
draco malfoy:Ā (leans forward, steepling his fingers) because sheās in love with me.
luna lovegood:Ā interesting. and what proof do you have?
draco malfoy:Ā she always sits next to me, she always compliments meā
luna lovegood:Ā really? whatās the nicest thing sheās ever said to you?
draco malfoy:Ā (thinking hard) ⦠she once said, ādraco, stop talking.ā
luna lovegood:Ā thatās not reallyā
draco malfoy:Ā (interrupts) because she was overwhelmed. with emotion. also, it was obviously meant affectionately.
camera zooms in behind draco. pansy is leaning against the wall, slowly shaking her head.
luna lovegood:Ā so youāre convinced she wrote the letter? i mean what if it wasn't her?
draco malfoy:Ā (laughs, leans back) oh, luna. sweet, naĆÆve luna. (pats his chest) denial is a river in egypt..
luna lovegood: you know how that quote ends?
draco malfoy: no?
luna lovegood: figured.
the interview ends with draco smugly running a hand through his hair, completely convinced of his theory.
"so just put it in there now?" enzo questioned, motioning the powder towards the rose in front of the two of you.
"right." you nodded, watching him gently shake the package until the powder had settled onto the entire plant. you studied the book in front of you. "now we have to wait about ten minutes, before we can continue"
"great." enzo nodded, dropping the empty package into the bin.
"great," you nodded with a tightlipped smile. you quickly continued talking, trying to keep the awkward energy to a minimum. "so how's everything going? i feel like we haven't talked in ages, i mean just the two of us. alone." you turned away shortly to fill a bucket with water. 'just the two of us'? you repeated to yourself, not sure what had gotten into you.
enzo, who was not noticing any awkwardness, smiled at the question. "totally." he grinned. "well, herbology has been a pain, but apart from that, everything's great. thanks again for your help."
"anytime," you nodded. "but you know i'm not that good in herbology myself. why didn't you ask theo?"
"well, for starters, he isn't as pretty as you." enzo smirked confidently, at the same time as all your facial features completely derailed.
"what?" you repeated in something close to a screech.
enzo's smile died down. "sorry, i didn't wantā"
"no, you know what?" you grinned uncomfortably, trying to safe the situation. "it's fineā, oh ten minutes already?" you checked your invisible clock, before you pushed the water bucket against enzo's chest with a little more force then necessary. "water it!" you instructed between clenched teeth.
"o-okay" enzo nodded immediately, confused by your sudden mood shift.
STUDENT INTERVIEW #199 ā BLAISE ZABINI (take one) ā by luna lovegood
blaise sits in his dorm, his arms crossed, looking effortlessly cool.
blaise zabini: alright, letās not waste time. that letter? clearly about me.
luna lovegood: are you sure?
blaise zabini: luna.
he gestures vaguely to himself.
blaise zabini: have you seen me?
luna blinks. colin adjusts the focus on the camera.
blaise zabini: "i like everything about you"āobviously referring to my impeccable fashion sense. "the way you carry your books"āhave you seen me carry books? itās graceful. regal, even.
luna lovegood: ā¦do you have any idea who wrote it?
blaise zabini (smirking): i do, but it wouldnāt be fair to ruin their fun.
colin creevey (cameraman): (deadpan) so you donāt know.
blaise zabini: theyāll come forward when theyāre ready. probably in a grand romantic gesture involving candlelight and expensive wine.
luna lovegood: youāre a minor.
blaise zabini: and yet, so emotionally mature.
the camera zooms into the background of the room, the entire wall is adorned by photos of blaise in various different poses.
"what do you think?" blaise asked, holding up two almost identical looking shirts. "this one, or that?"
theo looked up from the book he was reading. "i couldn't care less, actually."
"this is important, theo." blaise pleaded. "come on, mate."
theo sighed, marking the page of his book and closing it, before looking up at his friend once more. he studied both shirts for a few seconds, before he shrugged. "they look the exact fucking same."
blaise groaned, throwing himself down on his bed and staring at the ceiling. "i'm surrounded by idiots."
"what was that?" theo perked up, trying to catch blaise's gaze.
"nothing." blaise said quickly, not about to ruin his face by getting into a brawl with theo he would lose anyway.
"you sure?" theo raised an eyebrow, clearly enjoying the moment of confusion.
blaise let out a dramatic sigh, pushing himself off the bed. "whatever, i'm wearing this one," he muttered, pointing to the shirt he'd already decided on.
STUDENT INTERVIEW #204 āTHEODORE NOTT (take one) ā by luna lovegood
theo is standing in the hallway, with his back leaning against the wall.
luna lovegood: so, theo, we're here to ask you aboutā
theo nott (skeptically eyeing the camera): this is not getting published, is it?
luna lovegood (confused): well, it's for the student paperā
theo lets go of the microphone that flies back against the camera. he steps around it, walking away. the camera zooms in on his retreating form.
"you're acting weird." enzo noted softly as he watched you walk circles in the greenhouse.
"i'm acting weird?" you asked with a pointed look. "what about that letter, huh?"
"what letter are we talking about exactly?" enzo furrowed his brows in confusion.
you opened your mouth, ready to answer, when the door to the greenhouse swung open and mattheo walked inside.
"there you are!" he grinned, pointing at you.
"oh, great," you muttered, pressing a hand against your forehead.
"i've got about a million condoms with your name on them, darling." mattheo revealed a row of condoms from his pocket, that unrolled itself until it hit the floor.
"ew, no!" you called loudly, looking absolutely traumatised.
"what the fuck?" enzo had asked at the same time, looking baffled as his head swung back and forth between mattheo and you.
"what the heck are you doing?" you asked, walking to mattheo and trying your best to fold up the row of condoms, but failing.
"i'm being responsible," mattheo shrugged simply. "i would suck as a father."
āyou would suck as anythingā you whispered between clenched teeth.
"you'd have to have sex for that first." enzo noted with a mutter.
"right," mattheo nodded, obviously satisfied that someone pointed out the obvious, and then leaned forward, pressing his lips in your direction.
you quickly swerved to the side and mattheo opened his eyes, confused after simply kissing the air.
"not happening." you shook your head.
"you don't have to be so tasteful, love." mattheo wiggled his eyebrows. "if it's about enzo, i'm sure he'll leave us alone."
"oh, gladly." enzo nodded. you didn't miss the hint of anger in his voice. "if thatās what you want," he said to you, voice dripping with sarcasm.
"no, it definitely isn't." you pushed mattheo away from you. "enzo stays and you leave."
"come on, baby," mattheo pouted. "don't be like this."
"you heard her," enzo said, sounding much more menacing than intended. "iāll help you find the door."
mattheo paused for a moment, staring at enzo like he just realized something. "wait... are you jealous?" he asked, suddenly smirking. "oh, mate, i didnāt realize we were competing."
"oh, trust me, you're not," enzo shot back, his voice smooth as butter, but there was a definite edge underneath it.
"heās right, you know," you muttered under your breath, crossing your arms. "youāre not really competition for anyone, mattheo."
"ouch," mattheo made a dramatic face, rubbing his chest as though wounded. "i thought we were friends, y/n."
"well, clearly thatās not exactly whatās on your mind," you said, pointing at the condoms still clutched in his hand. "unless you think friends sleep with each other."
"you can call us whatever you want," mattheo shrugged with a grin, clearly unbothered. "just not boyfriend and girlfriend. thatās actually what i wanted to talk to you about. iām not big on relationships, but an open one? that, iām interested in."
"i'm not sure in which way i ever indicated that thisā" you gestured vaguely between yourself and mattheo, "āwas ever happening."
"oh, don't be daft, love," mattheo shook his head. "you donāt just leave love letters lying around without meaning something."
"love letters? wait you think i wrote that letter? and to you?"
"of course. who else could it be from?" mattheo scoffed.
"enzo wrote it." you answered without properly thinking.
"w-what?" enzo mumbled confused.
both mattheo and you looked at enzo.
"well, i surely didn't write it." mattheo recounted. "and if neither of you wrote it, then that leavesā¦ā he trailed off.
"oh god." you realized. "that's why draco has been acting so weird all day. he thinks pansy wrote it. for him."
"isn't pansy currently hooking up with that ravenclaw?" enzo asked confused.
"exactly!" you nodded, quickly opening the door and walking out of the green house, mattheo and enzo close behind you.
you found draco and pansy in the slytherin common room. pansy lounged on the couch, unimpressed, while draco paced in front of her like a dramatic protagonist in a bad play.
"i canāt believe you would betray me like this!" he finally burst out, spinning to face her with all the flair of a soap opera lead.
"oh," he added in surprise, noticing the three of you stepping insideāmattheo still holding an alarming amount of condoms.
pansy turned her head to look at you. āfucking finally.ā she sighed. ācould please someone of you tell draco that i didnāt write that stupid love letter?ā
āyou didnāt just write it!ā draco corrected. āyou wrote it for me!ā
āthatās where youāre wrong, young padawan!ā a voice interrupted dramatically. everyone turned to see blaise and theo descending from the stairs, blaise throwing his arms open like a victorious gladiator. āthe letter was clearly for moi!ā
theo crossed his arms, sinking into the armchair. his facial expression hinted at how uncomfortable he felt. "more importantlyāwho the fuck do you need that many condoms for?" he asked mattheo, eyeing the absurdly long strip still hanging from his hand.
āwell, your dear sisterāā
āi did not write that letterā you said between clenched teeth.
āyeah. neither did i!ā pansy bluffed, crossing her arm and staring at draco, who was clearly not believing her.
āitās unimportant who wrote it!ā blaise corrected. āitās important that it was written for meā
āsureā draco nodded sarcastically. "if it wasĀ soĀ clearly about you, then tell meāwhat hair were they talking about? because i see none on your head."
blaise inhaled sharply, clutching his chest as though he'd been stabbed. "howĀ dareĀ you," he whispered, scandalized.
chaos erupted. everyoneāexcept theo, who remained as indifferent as everābegan shouting accusations, arguing over who wrote or faked the love letter.
the shouting match came to an abrupt halt when astoria greengrass strolled past you all, plucked the letter straight from dracoās grip, and smiled.
āhey guys!ā she smiled. āi have been searching for that, thank you!ā she grinned.
āyou wrote that?ā draco muttered stunned.
āyeah, itās for a guy i likeā astoria admitted sheepishly. ācould you guys please not tell anyone? itās kind of embarrassing.ā
you all exchanged glances, before theo, who was the only one with a clear enough mind to think, nodded. āweāll keep your secretā he assured the younger girl, who smiled gratefully, before she walked back to her dorm.
"well, that wasā" you started, but mattheo promptly cut in.
"disappointing," he sighed dramatically, flopping onto the couch. "would've been fun to rub it in theoās face."
"to rub whatĀ in my face?" theo raised an eyebrow.
"unimportant," enzo said quickly before mattheo could answer.
"well, now that that's been discussed. how about a round of chess?" pansy suggested looking at you and you nodded with a smile.
the rest of your friends settled down too, returning to either their homework or an abondened book they still wanted to finish.
STUDENT INTERVIEW #211 ā LORENZO BERKSHIRE (take one) ā by luna lovegood
the camera flickers on, revealing enzo sitting stiffly in his chair. He runs a hand through his hair, exhaling deeply.
luna lovegood:Ā so, the love letter mystery has been solved. any thoughts?
enzo berkshire:Ā (dryly)Ā yeah. turns out weāre all idiots.
luna tilts her head. colin zooms in slightly.
luna lovegood:Ā you didnāt seem very surprised when astoria took the letter.
enzo berkshire:Ā (smirks lightly) no, i wasnāt.
luna lovegood:Ā why?
enzo hesitates, looking off to the side. he exhales sharply through his nose, then looks back at the camera.
enzo berkshire: because i asked her to do it.
colin creevey:Ā waitāwhat?
enzo berkshire: (shrugs, looking mildly uncomfortable)Ā i wrote the letter.
the room goes still. luna blinks, tilting her head.
luna lovegood:Ā for y/n.
enzo rubs the back of his neck, suddenly looking anywhere but at the camera.
enzo berkshire:Ā yeah. (clears throat) it was⦠it was for her. but iāi don't know. it didnāt feel right. just leaving it for her to find. it justā i wanted to tell her myself. face to face. not in some anonymous letter sheād spend days overanalyzing. but by the time i realized that, i couldnāt just take it back, soā¦
luna lovegood:Ā (softly) you asked astoria to pretend it was hers.
enzo berkshire:Ā yeah.
colin creevey: so⦠are you going to tell y/n?
enzo breathes out a laugh, shaking his head.
enzo berkshire: i don't know, maybe. but not right now. she seemed overwhelmed when she thought it could possibly be from me. i want to wait, make sure she wants it.
luna studies him for a moment before nodding in understanding.
luna lovegood:Ā i think sheād like to hear it from you. eventually.
enzo berkshire: yeah. i think so too.
the camera cuts, leaving a black screen.
luna and colin were both sitting in the classroom where the school papers were edited, overlooking the material, just having watched enzo's interview.
luna smiled as she remembered enzo's confession and turned to look at colin. "delete the video." she said softly. "it's not our secret to tell."
colin nodded, already having thought the same thing, before he deleted the video and made sure nothing of it was still left on the camcorder.
luna watched the screen go dark, then turned to colin with a small smile.
"besides, it's more fun to let them figure it out themselves."
Hogwarts, school of witchcraft and wizardry, home of ex lovers y/n l/n and remus lupin who suck at the "ex" part
Or, in which,
Everyone in hogwarts is convinced that the two of you are (still) inlove with eachother
GENRE: Fluff, slight crack fic? Second chance romance + idiots in love
PAIRING: Professor! Remus lupin x Professor! Reader
FEAT: Hermione Granger (no 1 shipper), severus snape (the most lowkey shipper), Dumbledore (the most highkey shipper), Harry potter (the most confused person in the room), ron weasly (himbo king) minerva McGonagall(da legend)
A/N: probably the longest fic I ever wrote :p. pls do reblog!!!
Surprisingly unlike most new teachers in hogwarts who often drop the school after their first year of teaching, you somehow managed to stick around
(rumours say that ever since professor slughorn, the previous potions teacher left hogwarts and snape began teaching, all teaching positions were cursed and no teacher managed to stay in hogwarts for more than one semester)
(all students believe that snape brought the curse along with his greasy hair when he began teaching in hogwarts)
(good thing you were quite good in handling curses and hexes ;>)
Perhaps because you also used to be a student in hogwarts back in the days of your youth, you knew the will of the ever changing staircases and the ways through all the hidden and not so hidden corridors
All hogwarts students were baffled when they found out that you and their professor snape used to be classmates
They could all swear on merlin's beard that they were all very sure that professor snape and professor McGonagall were of the same age!!
("bloody hell! who would have thought that nasty professor snape and our lovely miss l/n used to sit in the same classes together" -ron weasly, merely 5 seconds before getting bonked in the head by professor snape)
It's was no secret that all the students of hogwarts adored you, regardless of which house they belonged too, you had a way of weasling into even the most frigid of hearts
But nevertheless, the students often wondered about your kind and sweet nature towards them, truthfully you couldn't help but be reminded of your days in hogwarts and ofcourse your dear friends, some of whose children's were now attending the school
After all, not many of your friends were still present to this day, not many of them found their so called happy ending, and yet their children still manage to find a way to smile
You wanted to protect that smile. The very same smile that used to be etched in your friends faces
It did make you feel a little old sometimes though, who knew even the snooty lucius malfoy, your senior of 4 years at hogwarts would find love and have kids
And yet here you were, still single as a Pringle, your last relationship was years ago, your last real relationship was... it was actually when you used to study in hogwarts, but that too was ages ago
You had simply given up. You had better things to do other than reminisce about your past, the past that never managed to manifested into your future
You had a lot more important things to do!
Such as conduct a quick checking in all the compartments of the hogwarts express, just to make sure that all the students are acquainted and to check up on any first years who may be facing any problems
You walk along the train, knocking on the compartments before being graced with cheerfull greetings and questions on how your holidays was
You move on to the next apartment and the next without wasting much time, much wanting to sit quietly in your own compartment as soon as possible until you heard a loud cry of terror
"Dementor! Dementor!"
You immediately rush down the train, running as fast as you could while your fingers grasped you wand tightly
Crap! You totally forgot about the new security regime being added to hogwarts
Dumbledore had written to you about it during the semester break, although you didn't quite share a positive sentiment towards the addition you also didnt really have much of a say on it
By the time you reach the compartment your relieved that damage control has already been done by who seems to be a new professor whose face was turned away, only seeing the back of his head showcasing messy light brown hair which you felt was oddly familiar
"Harry! Are you alright?" You kneel down as you try propping the boy up whose mouth was currently being shoved with chocolate
"The chocolate helps, I swear" the man says before he pauses and takes a quick deep breath
You almost take a double take, staring into the eyes of a stranger who you knew a little too well
"Y/n" remus lupin breaths out your name like its air, so naturally that you almost forget about all the missing years between the two of you
He says it so naturally that it makes you feel like he just said it yesterday, you almost don't find his face foreign as if the two of you never went your separate ways
As if the two of you never left eachother
You stiffen, you can't help it, infront of you is probably the only man you've ever loved in the entirety of your life, the very man who couldn't stay with you, the man who left you,
the very same man still looked at you the same way, as if you were as beautiful as the day he found you, as if you were as beautiful as the day he left.
"Remus" you mutter out, your eyes glued to his
there's a silent battle going on, one that only perhaps the two of you could recognise. A inner turmoil in both of your hearts
Do I love or hate the fact that you're here?
Do i embrace you or curse you're for standing infront of me?
Do you still think about me?
Did you ever think of me?
"Wh-what are you doing here?" You break away from the trance first "why are you here?"
You only halfway realise how harsh it sounds but you don't care, you didnt know whether to care, you didnt know what to feel
"Lovely seeing you too y/n, you look the same like the last time I saw you"
He says it in such a way only remus lupin could say, with so much sincerety and integrity, it makes your mouth go silent
"I heard that you were a teacher in hogwarts" he pauses "it suits you, i remember you talking about it"
Ofcourse he remembers you talking about it, you remember it too. You also remember him saying the exact same thing as he did years ago too
"It suits you"
"Thanks" you don't know how to respond, with remus lupin you never really did
"But then again, i suppose whatever you did would suit you"
The same thing again, you swear it's like he never left
"You didn't change at all" you blurt out without thinking much
Remus chuckles, an awkward warm laugh, shaking his head slightly so that his slightly curls would bounce
"I dont know whether you mean it as a compliment or not"
"You know what I mean" you say again without much of a hesitation, you catch the look in remus's eye
"I do, don't I?"
Your breath hitches, again
"Uhm professor? I mean professors?" Hermione interrupts with a slightly confused face which she tries to mask
At least she's trying to hide her confusion, the other two boys in the compartment looked as if though someone told them that Monstrose Maggie's were a better quidditch team than Holyhead Harpies
Ron especially was left with his mouth slightly opened being simply utterly baffled at what was going on,
first, their apartment was seemingly attacked by what seemed to be ghosts with ice powers,
second, ron was still trying to get over the fact that harry was passed out erstwhile shaking like a wet dog and
third, probably his favourite professor and the professor that saved his best friends life were stuck in a staring battle
You look at dazed boy sitting on the floor, remembering what had happened "Oh harry! Sit up, sit up"
Remus moves towards the bestecked boy, brushing against you as he helps harry sit on the seat of his compartment.
He groans slightly as he stands up, you throw a quick glance at him before turning your attention to the three teenagers
"Are you three alright? Harry? still feeling a little woozy?" You ask while remus breaks another piece of chocolate handing it to him "munch one, cmon"
"Erm yes" Harry takes the piece of chocolate "thanks- professor er" he looks at remus
"Professor lupin-" "the names lupin-" both you and remus say in the same time, before turning to look at eachother resulting in you quickly turning your head away
The three teenagers watch curiously (hermione) confused (harry) totally completely befuddled(ron)
"You haven't changed at all too y/n" remus says, half amused, and half of what almost seemed like relief
"Well, there's a limit to how much a person can change in a span of only a few years" that might cut a little deeper than intended, but remus's face looks like he understands where you were coming from
"Sorry i-" you begin, feeling a little guilty. wringing your hands "it's great seeing you..its been ages. I guess i just wasnt expecting to see you"
Remus smiles, his eyes crinkling while he did so, lines forming near his eyes which weren't there from the years in which you remembered him from
Godrick, it really has been a long time
"I know" he says in a all knowing tone that somehow didnt seem arrogant or conceited at all, you kind of missed it "I should have written you a letter or something"
"Yea" you blink "or something"
It was at this point when you realise that it wasnt only the two of you in the compartment, there was 3 other teenagers who were gawking and trying their best to make a connection between you and the other man who still remained quite unknown to them
"Uhm right" you turn away from remus, slight pink tinting your cheeks
Remus also seemed to realise this, shoving his wand into his pocket
"I better go check on all the other compartments, just in case" he says while moving out of the compartment
"Yes! You do that" you don't look at him, not quite
"Hey y/n?"
"Hm?" You turn to him, hands fiddling with eachother
"I'll talk to you soon?"
The same brown hair, same brown eyes, a coat that seemed a little too old to still be worn, the same sturdy ebony wand, and a older version of the same scarred face you often wondered about
You nodd
"Talk to you soon"
-
"What in the good name of gandalf was all that about?" Ron says appalled, as if though he just witness a crime worthy of a death penalty
Harry shrugged while nibbling on the rather large piece of chocolate in his hands
It had been a while after both you and Professor lupin or whoever he was left their compartment, albeit professor lupin looking a little ditzy after seeing you and your face being tinted a faint shade of pink
"I swear on my life" Ron points at scabbers, the old dirty rat that seemed way too scared for an animal who was safely locked up in his cage
"I swear on scabbers life! I have never seen professor l/n act like that"
Hermione rolled her eyes, scoffing
Are boys really this dense?
Harry and ron turn to her expectantly
"Well?" Harry asked
"Isn't it quite obvious?" Hermione folded her arms, her hair tossing behind her as she did so "it's so completly obvious! It literally happened infront of your eyes"
"What did? All I saw was two adults staring at eachother for like 30 minutes straight" Ron said raising his hands
"I mean" Harry added "30 minutes might be a bit of a stretch-"
"Honestly!" Hermione interjected loudly "don't you two get it?"
"Get what?"
Hermione finally losing her patience, bend down slightly, in hushed whispers, turning to see if anyone else was around, as she hissed into the ears of the two boys
"Oh" Harry blinked, unsure of what he was suppose to do with such information "Oh well, er" he looks at ron "I dont think davies is gonna take this news well"
"Poor guy" Ron announced with a rather sad face "Roger Davies is gonna lose his shit if he hears about this" shaking his head sympathetically "bluds got a bloody massive crush on professor l/n yknow"
"....ew"
-
Hermione granger was the brightest witch of her age. She wasn't bragging about her intelligence or wit, it was merely just a fact
She knew all the ingredients needed to brew the draught of living death, she memorized all the steps needed to brew the draught of peace
She studied all the uses of the mandrake root, she knew the uses of a bezeor and where to find one
She likes to be sure of what she knows, so sure that she can bet on it, she knows what's right and what's wrong, she can swear on what she knows and what she doesn't.
And Hermione Granger swears that her DADA professor and her astronomy teacher were inlove with eachother, she was so very positive about it
She had read alot about love, watched movies about love (please don't ask her to explain how a movie works, she already explained it thrice to Mr weasly)
she saw love in her parents whenever they talked with eachother, she saw love in the way molly weasly would reprimand her husband back when she spend the holidays in the burrow
She was the brightest witch of her age and she swears, that professor Remus lupin was (rather tragically) inlove with professor y/n l/n.
-
"Professor" hermione raised her hand up in an instant, rather proudly too, she knew the answer to your question almost perfectly
You nodd, urging her to speak
"Sirius is the brightest star in the night sky, its name deriving from the greek word which means scorching or glowing"
"Yes well done miss granger" you signal her to sit down "five points to gryffindor"
"Next class we will be charting and mapping some major constellations present in the northern hemisphere while using the help of sirius" you announce to your students "your all excused to go to your next class"
Immediately all students rush out, most of them grabbing their things in a hurry and running down
"Why is the astronomy tower at the top of the building and the potions classroom all the way in the dungeons?" Seamus finnigun huffed to his friend dean who nodded earnestly
"Snape would do anything to find something to pick on, cmon we don't wanna be late!"
Hermione lingered a few seconds, hiding behind the door as all the students fled downstairs, getting ready to use her time turner when suddenly,
"'Busy?" A deep voice came
You look at the tall man standing awkwardly at the door, you can't help but stiffle a laugh
"What are you doing? Standing about just like that?"
Remus scratches the back of his head while he comes into your classroom, rather carefully too as if he was worried he would break something
"Library" remus responds to your question with a slight swagger as Hermione listened intently from behind the wall
She knows she shouldn't listen, its bad to eavesdrop on other people's conversation, what would her mother say? But after what she witnessed on the train? She couldn't possibly miss out on this
"Library?" You question with a upside down smile "it's been ages since you've been to hogwarts and you still choose to hang out in the library?"
So hermione's hunch was right after all. You both did know eachother when the two of you were younger
"Well, its not like i hung out in the library alone you know" remus quipped quickly, you almost smile
"You can't teach an old dog new tricks y/n" remus says it so casually, it makes you look up to him, for a split second there was a sense of recognition inbetween the two of you
You cough, "but still.. hanging out in the library? I guess your still a nerd"
Remus raises his eyebrows "a nerd? Excuse me but I'm not the one here teaching astronomy" a smirk plays on his lips
You gasp in fake offense while remus raises his hands up in surrender "I apologise, too harsh?"
"Way too harsh Mr lupin"
The both of you crack into soft smiles and longing looks, Hermione could have sworn that if this were one of those "muggle' movies her mom and her used to watch back at home, there would be "kiss me" by sixpence none the ritcher playing in the background
"It really has been very long remmy"
Hermione's mouth forms an o shape
'Remmy' huh? Already on nickname basis are we?
"It has been quite some time y/n"
Cmon professor! Up your game a little!
"Is that all you have to say to me? After all this time?" You don't look away, your eyes piercing through remus, making him feel seen, too seen
"I- I've got too much to say" remus confessed "too little words to use"
You purse your lips, looking down on the parchment of paper on your desk
"Do you think you'll always have too little words to say? You don't have any words to spare me for now?"
His lips part, slightly open, remus realises that his sweather is quite worn out, there's a certain itch that won't go away, the colour a little too washed away, the strands fraying away at the hem of his sleeve
He has thought about this very moment for a very long time, almost every night, every day. Practicing what he should tell you, how to tell you
And yet he doesn't say anything, he cannot.
The lump in his throat is far too big to swallow, the pain in his chest pulsating through each and every vein present in his body
He fears if he opens his mout, he might swallow you whole, selfish and angry and dangerous. All things you were not, all the things you didjt deserve.
He wasn't safe to be around, his edges too sharp to be able to curve around and you were too kind to know better
The silence is overwhelming, slightly, like water droplets falling on an already filled cup
Hermione questions herself, for the first time.
Perhaps she is wrong, perhaps the two of you aren't inlove. Maybe the two of you once were and maybe that's all it was. Ashes of the past, remains of what once was
Instead, Remus walks next to you, wordlessly, quietly, and yet his actions remains defeaning against the silence that seemed to engulf the two of you
You snort, you can't help it
"Hey, you do realise we can use magic right? I don't need your help carrying those things down"
Remus nevertheless picks up a box of telescopes and other tools "we both know you were going to carry these by hand" he stated with certainty, giving you a knowing look
You resort the urge to roll your eyes
"You know me that well?" There's a slight challenge in your voice
"No, i know you enough" remus says softly, as if that itself was a sin for him to commit "im afraid that i might like to know you even more"
Silence. The wind blows, the pale blue curtains flowing as the charms hanging on the roof play a soft chime
Your unsure of what to say, how to react, the truth was painfull. But it was the truth
Finally you whisper back
"im afraid I might end up letting you"
-
Hermione quickly shuffles with her time turner, she has already wasted so much time listening to a conversation that wasn't even hers to listen but she ends up hoping for one thing
She hopes to find someone who would look at her the way remus lupin looked at you
-
Severus snape had his reasons for disliking remus lupin, you knew them too and like the decent person he knew you were, you respected his choice.
He guesses your fine, better than most actually, he doesn't like you or anything don't get him wrong.
Even back in his student days he never really talked to you much, lest it was you greeting him goodmorning whenever the two of you had classes together
But he guesses that he doesn't dislike you, your alright, your one of the few decent people that he knew in hogwarts. He doesn't mind you that much
Which is exactly why he didn't approve of remus lupin,
Perhaps back then he wouldn't have cared as much as he did now (don't get him wrong, he doesn't care about you)
but he supposes that you could do much better (he doesn't really have a valid reason he just doesn't like remus that much... again for certain specific reason)
"Lupin" severus cannot help but sneer a little as he says the name, greeting an old not very comforting face
"severus" remus nodds in acknowledgement, walking inside the potionmasters room "I suppose you know why im here"
"I do" severus rummages about to find a bottle, handing it, the air was always tense between the two, but it felt thicker tonight
"I'm surprise you came back" severus interrupts the silence "im surprised you came back at all"
Remus stops, thinking for a while "you do realise that i could say the same thing to you? Hogwarts is the last place i imagined you working"
Severus frowns, looking up at the scarred man standing infront of him
"Does she know?"
Remus stiffen for a second before answering "Yes, I suppose she does"
"Ah" severus announces like it was nothing a big of a shock "I suppose the two of you were always... close"
"What are you trying to instigate here severus?" remus snaps before stopping himself "i apolagise- i didn't mean to"
Severus shakes his head, stopping remus "the full moon is awfully close, i suggest you take care of yourself and those around you" carefully using his words
Remus stared at the bottle of Wolfsbane in his hand before placing it on the table with a thud, snape raised an eyebrow
"I never wanted her to know" remus says bitterly "it was never her burden to share, no one's burden but mine"
Severus clicks his tongue
"I almost didn't come back, i never planned to come back to hogwarts"
"Then what made you" curiosity got the better of the sneering man
Remus looked down, he let out a pathetic excuse of a chuckle "I guess I simply wanted to see her. I wondered if she ever thought about me too"
Snape doesnt say anything at first
"How pitifull' snape muttered while he moving around his room, his cloak swooshing alongst each movement
"Yes" remus murmers "I suppose so"
"Your a miserable excuse tonight lupin" severus gave a brief look towards the man infront of him "I suggest you get some rest"
"I suppose I am rather miserable tonight" remus throws his head back "the upcoming full moon is making me act strange, look at me confiding such matters to you"
Severus merely grunts
"I apologise severus, something has gotten into me tonight"
"Theres no need to do such things lupin, simply show yourself out"
Remus thanks him for the wolfsbane once more before heading out
"Professor lupin, before you go"
Remus turned around, the eye bags around his eyes much deeper than usual, his posture slightly more bend than usual
"Regarding miss L/n...im sure she thought fondly of you too, much more than you realise" Snape coughs "that is all, goodnight" slamming the door shut.
Severus walked away from the door, wondering what was wrong with him that night, what made him say such things to remus lupin of all people but ah, alas he had forgotten, the two shared one thing in common
They were both miserable,
both miserable, pitiful and pathetic for the love that they once had
Oh yes, they both loved and were loved
-
Now,
if you ask albus dumbledore, headmaster of hogwarts for many years now and counting, whether it was correct to place bets on his students than he would respond to you with a slight chuckle
Of course it was a little incorrect, but then again, he hadn't won a bet in years and he was dying to prove Minerva McGonagall wrong
"I'm telling you albus" the older women pulled down her glasses, giving a withering look at the bearded wizard "im afraid we might be getting too old with this"
"Minerva, afraid that I might break your winning streak after all?" Came the reply, his blue eyes twinkling
Minerva McGonagall frowned "you may be one of the most famous wizard of your age albus but you are hardly capable of placing correct bets"
Minerva knew that she was right.
She had been winning all the bets with Dumbledore for the past many years, successfully guessing and pairing students up.
She placed a bet on Molly and Arthur Weasly when they were once students at hogwarts,
she even predicted James Potter and Lily Evans budding romance (although she was a little worried when lily Evans refused to give in, luckily there was a turn of event in their seventh year much to Dumbledore's dismay)
She may not be the most famous wizard of her age unlike her counterpart, but she did rather have a good hunch when it came to romance (just keep that information between her and albus though)
"Well then" Minerva gave in, rather easily too "is this about your wager on Mr potter again?"
Albus shaked his head "no, it isn't, although I am immensely confident about mister potter and miss granger"
Minerva held back a scoff "Oh yes, you'll see soon that miss granger and mister potter aren't nothing more than friends, it baffles me albus! How your the smartest wizard of all time and yet you can't see that your bet should be on ms granger and mr weasly!!"
"I will not argue with you about this matter minerva" albus quickly said
"Well, atleast you didnt place your wager on ms granger and mr malfoy" Minerva tutted "what on merlin's beard is slughorn on i wonder"
"Minerva thats not the point, im talking regarding our miss y/n l/n and-"
"Remus lupin" McGonagall finished the sentence "Well theres no point on placing a bet on them, its obvious the two are made for eachother"
"Er- Oh well I was actually gonna say-"
Minerva deadpanned "Who were you going to say other than professor lupin albus?"
"Oh well of course" albus continued, hiding the fact that he was slightly flustered "our dear severus of course!"
A loud laugh escaped Minerva's lips, leaving the much older wizard slightly dumbfounded
"Oh albus" the woman wipes a tear away, a thin smile etched on her lips as she patted the headmaster
"I hope you prepared to lose you bet once again"
-
Albus Dumbledore usually never second guessed himself, he was sure of his words, his plans and especially, his bets (even though he has been in a losing streak for the past 50 years)
But after seeing such confidence in Minerva McGonagall, he was now rethinking every single thing he had witnessed so far
He was sure, absolutely positive that there was something going on between you and severus.
You seemed to be the only person severus tolerated,
Whenever you wished him goodmorning, he would always respond you back cordially
Amd albus is pretty sure that you served the boil peas to severus and not to remus lupin today during dinner tonight,
that has to mean something right??
Roaming around the school after hours was not a new thing to the old wizard, walking around the corridors and hallways as the stars glistened over head
He hears a muffled voice, continued with what seemed to be a rather private, almost confidential meet up
Noticing you and remus standing across eachother, the space between the two of you negligible
Well !!
It's none of his business, dumbledore guesses and that he has no reason to pry on such a conversation
And yet he found himself standing quietly from a distance rather much too invested in such private affairs
After all curiosity was his biggest trait
(Please forgive the old man, he simply wants to win a bet after such a long time)
"You left your lesson plans, again" you say, shaking them slightly "quite unlike you actually"
"I was coming to get them" remus waits "what makes you say that?"
"I might have thought that you left them on purpose" albus watches you shrug,
"What if I did?"
Ah!, realisation hits albus. Perhaps Minerva was right once again
"We've got to stop meeting like this, it might give the wrong impression"
"And what impression exactly are we giving?" Remus's voice rings in your ear, almost haughty
You attempt to glare at remus although your efforts are in vain as there in no heat behind it. Remus knows it too, he has a soft grin on his face
You turn to leave, exhaling slightly just before remus says, too casually "you still do that same thing with your nose when your annoyed"
You stop midstep.
"You scrunch them a little before you look away, just like back then"
For a moment neither of you speak
"And you still hate boiled peas"
Dumbledore silently comforted himself after the loss of another bet, perhaps he should stop placing bets with Minerva
"You still look after me" remus tilts his head "perhaps giving the wrong impression?"
You groan, despite the warmth in your eyes and the smile that struggled to escape "your impossible"
Remus softly shakes his head, your eyes plastered on him "your collar is still crooked, do i have to fix it?"
Remus's hands fly to his collar,
You glance up to the man you once knew, feeling all to familiar to him once again
Albus watches as you hold remus's collar in the most gentle way possible, as if though he were a precious glass doll that you were afraid of scarring.
Remus finds it a little ironic
Your fingers delicately moving alongst the nape of his neck while he muttered something to you
Your simply standing there, he's not stopping you in any sense at all, watching him with an insufferable fond look that albus remembers from back in your days as students
Why hadn't he noticed this before?
"I would have thought that you'd learn how to do your collar properly by now" you huffed, the tall man leaned in closer to you, for your comfort and ease
"I guess I got used to you fixing it for me"
You hum "you hate people touching you"
Remus lupin looks at you, a slight smile playing on his face "i suppose that makes you the exception"
Albus holds back his gasp
You sigh while finishing adjusting his collar, breaking away from him
"You're quite literally impossible"
Remus chuckles, his eyes never breaking away from yours "you like it, you still do"
"You" you point your finger at the tall man "are quite frankly delusion, might i suggest a visit st mungoes and check your head"
Remus takes a step closer, he's grinning, it makes him look younger, you think,
"Am I? Delusional?"
Albus feels like bursting out of his hiding spot, feeling like a quidditch commenter watching the most highly anticipated quidditch match of all time
But then- you laugh, its small, a little reluctant but a real laugh. And instead of walking away you simply look at remus with the same softness that has always been there since your hogwarts days
Albus turns his head away, giving the two of you space, deciding that he had seen enough
He wonders why in the world did he not catch it before, were his hunches always this bad?
"Well?" A flat voice came from a corner, Dumbledore couldn't help but chuckle knowing all too well who it was
"Minerva!" Albus smiled "I was hoping to bump into you"
The grey tabby cat transformed into a frowning women with a "I told you so" look on her face
Albus sighs "I believe you have won the bet once again"
The women suppresses a smile "Yes, I believe so too"
"Am I really that dense Minerva?"
Giving the older wizard a scathing look "im afraid so professor"
"Oh...but rather refreshing to see young love blossom in our very halls is it not?" Albus dumbledore says with a satisfied look on his face
"I hope they would atleast pretend to not be too distracted with their work" Minerva remarked
"Oh minerva" albus tutted "Have you never been in love before?"
Minerva McGonagall threw a look at the headmaster
"Now all we must do is wait for the inevitable" albus proudly said "I should begin drafting a speech for their wedding should I not?"
Minerva sighs shaking her head, her voice wavering but she knew better to discourage Dumbledore "Oh yes professor, you do that"
Dumbledore gleams while walking back up to his office, he may have lost the bet but he was a sucker for happy ending, especially for his students
"Oh Minerva!" Did I ever mention?"
Dumbledore calls the tall women before he goes up into his office
"Mention what professor?"
The wizard gleams, a twinkle of mischief in his eyes, Minerva wasnt sure if she was going to like what she was about to hear
"I once placed a bet on you and tom riddle back when you were a student here"
Minerva McGonagall paused, not even blinking, not even breathing
Dumbledore chuckle "Oh well, let's just hope for the best for miss y/n and mr remus lupin shall we?"
(A few hours later, filch recieves the fright of his life when he finds professor McGonagall is still standing in the hallway frozen)
-
When your called into dumbledores office in the middle of the night, the last thing you expect is to see the convicted felon sirius black and a tired, freshly scarred remus lupin
After Dumbledore filled you in with the recent events that took place and after the sirius was safely escorted to much safer place,
you found your arms resting on remus whose body remained slumped on a bed in the infirmary
The hospital wing was dimply lighted, madam pomfrey busy tending to the three teenagers (harry, ron and hermione) leaving you with the scarred man
Your eyes wander around his body which was covered in bruises, cuts, scars and a deep gash along his side from his recent turning.
You tend to his wounds, your hands shaking slightly while you moved with precision and a look of gentleness in your eyes which remus did not missed
"It might sting a little" you warn, while dabbing the cotten pad soaked in antiseptic to his cheek
Remus flinched slightly but does not move nor say anything, only nods slightly.
He had always been like this- quiet, composed and never one to complain. But you could feel the tension in him, the way his shoulders stayed rigid under your touch, the way his eyes darted around you, looking at you everywhere but at your eyes
"It doesn't hurt?" You ask in an attempt to lighten the mood but your voice wavers just enough to betray your feelings
Remus notices it without missing a beat, his body softening on hearing the vulnerability in your voice
It's all for him, it's all because of him
"It's not the cut that hurts y/n. It's the fact that yours still the one tending to them even after all these years"
You still for a moment- memories of late night study sessions and hushed conversations. You tending to his scars at midnight after every turning while the rest of the marauders watched with a knowing smirk.
Memories of the past seemed to dance infront of your eyes, flickering like candles and flittering like ghosts.
The quiet estrangement between you and remus, the way the two of you parted ways so easily- but here he was. So close to you, yet you have never felt further from him
"Maybe some things don't change" your murmer under your breath, your fingers brushing against his skin for longer than necessary
Remus smiles, its a wistful and rather melancholy smile
The both of you felt the weight of all the unsaid words between the two of you, it lingered liked the fog on a misty morning, just like the lingering glance remus always gave to you
"It's not that bad you know" remus mutters "your looking at me like I'm going to drop dead"
His voice is rough , deep and slightly slurred, still recovering from from the disorientation from his shift, he keeps his eyes closed, though his sharp breathing tells you that the pain is no less than real
You look up, a small frown tugging your lips "you always say that, but here you are, covered in cuts and scars" your tone is light but theres a hidden edge of concern that was undiscernable
Remus chuckles softly, though the sound is strained "i'm alot tougher than i look, have a little faith in me won't you?"
Your fingers linger around his face, your touch soft, slightly cold against his flushed hot blooded self.
Remus tenses from your touch, but relaxes almost immediately. You can tell he's holding back more than just the pain, you just didn't know what.
"I could have helped you, i was always willing to help you, you know that don't you?" Your voice betrays all the concern and worry you had been holding back, your voice breaking,
Remus doesnt meet your eyes, not at first, his expression distant and struggling to find the words
"I didn't want to hurt anyone" he finally says, "especially you, i never want to hurt you"
"I know" you whisper gently, your hands move towards his "but that doesn't mean you have to do it alone"
For a moment he remains silent, it makes you think whether he even heard you at all. His fingers curl into the edge of the cot, jaws clenched tight.
But then he moves his hands towards yours too, slowly, hesitantly, almost scared.
But he missed it, he missed your touch all too much to no longer deny it. He missed you
"I dont want to hurt you" he repeats again like a confession. His voice fragile and vulnerable
You look at him, the weight of his gaze holding you in place before you finally utterly "you won't"
Your afraid remus would pull away, push you away, retreat back but he doesnt.
He let's you finish bandaging him, let's you hold him, letting you do what you've always done, even when the two of you were no longer together: care for him
And even when your done he doesn't pull away, you meet his eyes again, once again feeling the weight of all the unsaid words
"I'm scary" his voice is barely a whisper "and dangerous, and frightening. You don't deserve to go through all of that"
You smile faintly, leaning towards him, brushing against lock of his his hair away from his face
"Remus lupin, you eat your toast burned to crisps, you have your coffee so black im convince your taste buds are dead, you have memorized lines from random horrible plays I have never heard of before"
your hands holds his face with utmost care
"Trust me" you smile, your tone teasing if not for the warmth in your voice "you couldn't scare me even if you try"
For a brief moment theres nothing but the sound of breathing, two people who had never really let eachother go. Though remus doesnt say it, the way his hands holds your waist, and the way he looks at you, speaks louder than words ever could
"Next time, let me help you"
A smile tugs on remus's lips, twitching in a rare crooked smile "ill try to remember that"
"And don't leave, i dont think i can bear it if you disappear from me twice" you whisper
"I wont be able to stay away for long even if I tried" remus whispered back like a solemn vow "I'll always come for you, ill always find my way to you"
Your hands still linger on one another, gazes still intact, though no words are exchange it is not necessary, the soft smiles tugging both your lips are enough
For the first time in years, it feels like the two of you are on the same side once again.
-
"Hand me the galleons you owe me albus" Minerva reaches her hand out, an eyebrow raised
"Oh Minerva, must we hurry? I'm well aware you won the bet but-"
Minerva McGonagall cleared her throat loud and clear
Severus snape rolled his eyes and sighed, muttering under his breath about "childish behavior"
Albus dumbledore sulked "im going to go bankrupt if this keeps on going on"
Minerva suppressed her smile, despite feeling proud of her achievement "do you still want to go on with the bets albus? Unless your afraid of losing once more"
Severus frowned "must you encourage such behavior professor McGonagall?"
"I'll win the next bet, just you wait and see minerva" Dumbledore said, despite his initial complain, repeating what he had been saying every time for the past 50 years since he had been losing
"mr cedric diggory and ms cho chang" Minerva announced her next bet, folding her arms, her head held high
Albus watched with a broad grin "Minerva, i might have to prove you wrong there!"
Minerva watched with eyebrows raised
"It's obviously ms cho chang and mr roger davies"
"Oh dear" severus groaned
Minerva covered her mouth, turning away to laugh, confident that she had won before it even begun while albus dumbledore began listing the reason for his belief
"Mr Roger Davies and ms cho chang were practicing quidditch together and may I mention that it seemed a rather private meet up with only the two of them-"
"Isn't mr Davies the captain of the ravenclaw quidditch team and ms chang the seeker of the quidditch team?" Severus reminded the older wizard
"Yes but severus your missing the point-"
Severus Snape raised his hand, he had heard enough, pinching the bride of his nose he excused himself, he had better things to do than involve himself in such trivial childish matters, especially those that involved the life of silly hormonal teenagers
He walked out with a whoosh of his cloak, seemingly ready to slam the door, just when-
"My bet is with minerva" he curtly announced before promptly slamming the door shut
Please please I canāt take it I need Thanos to secretly not have died and sneak back away to pregnant reader and for him to explain everything to her and for it all to be okay pleeeeeeeease